Hi, don't hate us! We're sorry for the chapter being a day late, but real life has definitely gotten in the way this week. Katherine got into a car accident, so writing has been put on the back burner as all of our time has been spent making sure all is well! She's okay, and we are back at it! Just do us a favor and send up a prayer that her sore muscles will heal quickly!
We hope you like this chapter! Jane and Maura are finally going to work some things out!
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Maura awoke with a full bladder and a tightening sensation in her belly. She rolled over and felt around for a warm body, but was instead greeted with an empty bed. She tried to push herself upright, but at this stage of her pregnancy she resembled a tortoise flailing around on its back. Blowing her hair out of her face in frustration, she got serious about getting out of bed. She rolled over off the soft mattress, her lower back protesting as she stood up straight. She realized that Jane wasn't in the bedroom or the bathroom.
"Jane?" She called out.
No response.
After making her way through half of her morning routine, she stopped by the nursery to see if Jane was there putting the final touches on the walls. Finding the nursery empty, she proceeded downstairs in hopes of finding Jane making breakfast, but was met with an empty kitchen as well.
"Jane?" She called out again, hating the recognition of desperation in her voice.
There was not so much as a note left. Maura could feel the panic starting to sit in. She attempted to take some deep calming breaths, but it felt like something was weighing her chest down.
Dread was what she was feeling, she realized. She could feel tears spring to her eyes again as she struggled to take a deep breath and hold it together. She almost couldn't believe that this was happening. Jane left her again. Jane reassured her that she would never leave her again, but she didn't keep that promise, and Maura was feeling the same pain in her heart that she was feeling on that same morning two years ago. Her stomach tightened again, as she bent over wincing in pain. The tears were flowing fully at this point, and she was bent over the kitchen counter gasping for breath. She didn't know whether it was the pain in her abdomen or the fear of being abandoned again, but she did know that something was wrong. Very wrong.
She had left her cell phone upstairs, so she started towards the kitchen phone when she experienced a much sharper pain in her abdomen, one that quite literally stole her breath away and brought her to her knees. The fullness in her chest was still present and she was having a harder time controlling her breathing when she heard the front door open and shut.
"Jane!" she screamed. She didn't have time to feel relief that Jane was back, that she didn't abandon her, as another sharp pain ripped through her. She heard bags being dropped and footsteps running toward her, then felt strong arms encircle her from behind. Maura sagged into the support, her tears and cries intermingling, making anything she said incomprehensible.
"Maura," Jane whispered, "Are you okay? Tell me what I need to do." Jane was stroking her hair back, wiping her tears and hovering over her with a fierce look of protection on her face, but her eyes betrayed her.
Maura had only seen that look one other time. Jane Rizzoli was afraid.
"I- I think I'm having contractions," Maura cried.
"But it's- it isn't time!" Jane was starting to panic.
"Get my phone. It's on my nightstand," Maura ordered. Maura heard Jane fumbling up the steps, noting that she skipped a few on the way up and practically fell down the entire flight on the way down. Jane skidded to a halt in front of her.
"What now?" Jane asked breathlessly.
"We need to call my Doctor. I- I feel... I woke up and I think I was having contractions. I panicked because you weren't here and it may have made it worse."
Jane bit her lip as she was about to cry, but she held it together as she called Maura's obstetrician. She held up her finger to Maura. "Once this is taken care of, you and I are going to talk. But right now, we have to focus on you and Bean and make sure you're both healthy." Jane rubbed her hand over Maura's as she asked to speak with the doctor on call.
Twenty minutes later and Jane was driving like a bat out of hell down the side streets of Boston after having been told to immediately take Maura to the hospital for observation. Dr. Hawkins was convinced Maura was having preterm labor. Jane carried Maura to the car, her arms and legs protesting the extra weight. Maura was having fierce abdomen pain and every bump of the road had her clutching at her stomach and hissing through it. Tears continued to fall, and worry was etched across her face.
"Maura, just a few more minutes. Everything is going to be okay," Jane reassured her. All Jane got back in response was a squeeze of her hand.
As Jane wheeled Maura into the ER, the attendant took them right back when they heard there was a possibility she was in preterm labor. Jane was ushered out of the triage area as the on-call obstetrician examined Maura. Jane could hear Maura crying and asking a million questions, and just when she felt like she was going to lose her religion, the curtain was drawn back and the doctor came out, ordering the nurses to order up a battery of tests. Jane was so nervous, she couldn't bear to hear any bad news about the love of her life, or the baby she was hoping to raise with her. Her head was swimming. She was cautioned when she heard the doctor tell an intern that while Maura's cervix wasn't dilated, she had already spiked a fever, so there were numerous tests to run to rule out any infection.
Jane rushed to Maura's side, kissing her forehead and whispering reassurances to her now that they were alone. Maura had a fetal heart rate monitor on which measured Bean's heart rate activity. Jane was mesmerized by the sound of her rapid heart beat. It was the only time throughout this nightmare that she and Maura shared a smile. She held Maura's hand and wiped away her tears as Maura was still fighting to breathe through the pain which she described as excruciating. Jane stayed with Maura all day as exams were performed. Although she knew prior to all this how real it was becoming that Maura was going to be having a baby, this situation made it all a million times more real, and Jane was starting to get extremely anxious.
Jane felt Maura squeeze her hand tightly as the ultrasound wand picked up Bean's movement.
"Oh," was all Jane could manage when she saw the cramped baby on the monitor. Jane got very close to the screen as the technician took measurements and monitored her movement as another contraction hit. The technician said, "Hmmm," laid the ultrasound wand down, and promptly got up and left the room.
Maura sat up, the image of the baby lost, and burst into tears. "What's happening?" She cried as Jane enveloped her in a hug, squeezing beside her on the bed.
The technician came back into the room with the doctor who confirmed that absolutely everything was fine with both the baby and Maura. After having run multiple tests, they were able to determine that Maura had a bladder infection in which the symptoms can mimic early labor. Maura watched Jane cry in front of everyone, and the genuineness of her fear set Maura's insecurities at ease.
After being pumped with another bag of IV fluids, armed with discharge papers and a prescription for an antibiotic, Jane wheeled Maura out of the hospital and to the waiting car. No words having been spoken, Jane looked over at Maura before starting home.
"Are we okay?" Jane asked, somewhat hesitantly.
Maura could only squeeze Jane's hand in response, tears slipping down her cheeks, not going unnoticed by Jane.
Jane unlocked the front door and stepped into the Beacon Hill home followed by Maura, the two connected by their laced fingers. Jane kicked off her shoes and lead Maura to the couch, where she helped her sit and then promptly knelt down to take Maura's shoes off and cover her with the blanket. She went to put Maura's purse, prescriptions, and medical paperwork on the kitchen counter, then she came back to the couch where she sat down, putting Maura's feet in her lap so she could massage them gently.
"Jane, I'm so sorry. None of this would've happened had I not overreacted," Maura blurted out.
"Okay, so we're going to talk now," Jane chuckled, then turned serious again. "It's okay, it was my fault. I'm the one who should be sorry. I woke up before you and I was going to make you breakfast in bed, but I saw you were out of coffee and I wanted to have breakfast ready when you awoke, so I ran out of the house as fast as I could, but I had to go to three damn stores before I could find it because apparently no one sells 100% Organic Jamaican Blue Mountain whole bean coffee. I found the ground coffee at the first store but I know how you like the taste of it freshly ground from the whole bean so I didn't want to settle for less than the best for you. I know I should've left a note or something in case you got up but I figured I'd only be out for fifteen minutes tops but you woke up and panicked and oh God Maura I'm so sorry, I never wanted-"
Maura sat there and listened to Jane's flustered babbling. Her heart melted at the fact that Jane's intentions were pure; she only wanted to do something nice for Maura, to make Maura happy. But, the insecurities in the back of her mind were still nagging her.
"JANE!" Maura interrupted, conveniently shutting Jane up altogether.
"I will admit that yes, I thought the worst at first. I was worried that this was a repeat of two years ago. I was more than worried, Jane, I was terrified. I know you're a different person than you were two years ago, and I should give you more credit. I hate to admit it, but that fear is still in the back of my mind that you're going to up and run one day. I know I should get over that fear because you promised me Jane, you promised me that you're not going anywhere this time. And I want to trust that, but I'm still so unsure about it and that makes me so nervous. I want you, Jane. I want forever with you. If you had left me this morning, I would have lost more than just the woman I love, but also the best co-parent for my child that I could ever want. I want to raise Bean with you, I want her to share both of our last names. I want to love you forever and prove to you that I'm worth staying for."
By the time she was finished, Maura had tears streaming down her face. She knew she had tried her best conveying to Jane all of her insecurities and weaknesses, and she just wanted Jane to know how much she loves her. Maura needed Jane to know that she wanted her and only her in her life.
"Maura, I…" Jane sighed, wiping the lone tear that escaped. "I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry that I'm the reason you're so uncertain about us. If I hadn't done what I did to you...I wish I could go back and change it all, wish I had told you two years ago that I loved you and I wasn't going to take the job because I wanted to be with you. Now that I look back on it, I don't know why I didn't, and I'm now realizing that just that admission itself proves that I've changed. I've loved you for much longer than two years and I've wanted to be with you for even longer than that. I fought those feelings back and then everything happened so fast and I didn't expect to be caught off guard by it all. I wish that wasn't the case and I wish I had done it all differently, but that's in the past and we can't change it. Now we are here, and now I am telling you that I love you so much and I will never leave you or Bean's side unless you tell me to. And even then, I probably won't listen. I am here to stay, Maura. Forever."
Maura saw every single wall Jane ever built up break down in that moment. It was not just a promise, but a vow to Maura that Jane would be her forever. Jane would be her love and her co-parent. Jane would finally be wholly hers.
Maura was so speechless that her only response was grabbing Jane's arms and pulling her to crush their lips together. Maura kissed Jane sweetly, and Jane deepened it. Their tears fell together as their lips moved together. When they pulled away, both smiling, Jane lifted Maura's chin to bring her eyes to Jane's.
"Hey," Jane said.
"Yeah?" Maura responded, biting her lip.
"Okay first of all, don't bite your lip like that. It makes me want to do things that you are way too pregnant to do. But second of all… I love you."
Maura smiled brightly. She loved how easily Jane was able to say those three little words. Two years ago, she'd never have been confident enough to. But now, it came so easily. Maura would never tire of hearing her say it.
"I love you, too."
"And you, little one," Jane said as the pulled Maura's shirt up to expose her round belly. "I love you too, but no more stunts like that!"
Maura laughed as Jane poked Maura's belly, receiving a kick back in retaliation. "Gee, she really is your kid!" Jane laughed. She placed a hundred kisses all over Maura's belly as Maura watched her with adoration. She just couldn't get over the fact that this was her life. Jane and Bean where the only two people that Maura needed to be happy.
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