CHAPTER 6

BEATRICE POV

I'm sitting in the grave yard next to his grave. It would have been his birthday today. I have come every year since it happened. But only on his birthday. Most people come on the anniversary of his death. But I couldn't do that. It fills me with too much guilt. Those five words I said to him, they will haunt me to the day I die. If only I could take them back, if only I could replace them with the words I should have said. If only I had got the chance to say what I really felt. As I stand up I whisper the five words I wish I had the chance to say, "I love you Tobias Eaton." I walk away with tears streaming down my face, knowing I will be back again next year, ready to torture myself all over again.

It tortures me all the time. It shows me just how selfish I was that day. Just how much I don't belong here in Abnegation. I see my brother and how selfless he is and it just makes me hate myself even more. I can't wait until I can choose. To know I can leave this place, leave the memories behind; leave so I don't keep disappointing my parents. Now I just need to choose where I would fit in best. Where I can become the person that he would have been proud of, but at the same time the place where I can try and forget the person I am.

FOUR POV

Yesterday I turned fifteen. Only one more year until my Choosing Ceremony. I know what I am going to choose, Dauntless. My birthday present this year is a tattoo. I told dad I wanted to get a tattoo that covered my back where my scars are. I have scars from the beatings I got from Marcus; Simon said that they will always be there so now I get to cover them. Dad seemed really happy when I said I wanted to get the tattoo. I think he is worried that I will leave Dauntless next year and go to a different faction. Now that I am getting the tattoo I think he thinks that that means I will stay. I couldn't leave Dauntless; I couldn't leave Charlie and my dad. Dad and Charlie have always been here for me. Dad has never treated me like I wasn't his son. He loves me just like he loves Charlie. I could never leave him especially when my 'real parents' were so happy to get away from me. Even when I get in trouble dad has never raised his hand to me. Sometimes I think he would like to, especially the trouble that I get into with Zeke and Uriah but he hasn't.

So today I am on my way to see Tori in the tattoo shop, I know exactly what I want I just hope she is willing to do it for me.

I walk into the shop and see Tori and Bud. Bud is working on someone but Tori is free. "Hi Tori," I say. As I walk over to her.

"Four, how are you? Here for your birthday present?" she asks.

"Yeah."

"Do you know what you would like?"

"I do," I say.

"Okay well come and sit here and we can talk about the design you want," Tori says. Motioning me to sit in the chair next to hers.

"So what I would like are the five factions across the bottom of my back, just under where my pants are so no one can see them. Then I want the Dauntless flames to go over the length of my whole back. Up to my neck and around onto my ribs. I want you to colour around the faction symbols black and then as it turns into the flames I want the colour to turn to red like real flames, with maybe some bits of orange and yellow through it."

"Are you sure you want the five factions Four?" Tori asks.

"Yes I do," I say. I know it would be dangerous if anyone sees the symbols, which is why I am getting them at the bottom. I would have to take my pants off for someone to see and I know that isn't going to be happening so I don't really have to worry about it. Plus if I show my dad the tattoo I only have to take my shirt off and he will only see the Dauntless flames.

"Okay then. This is going to take a lot of time to do. So we are going to have to work out a schedule for you to come and get it done. It is going to take four or five sittings, especially now that you have grown so tall, there is a lot more area to cover," she says. I had a growth spurt a little while ago. I am now six feet tall and tower over my friends.

Dad is taking Sasha out for some romantic dinner tonight. I think he is going to ask her to marry him tonight. He asked me about what I would think if they got married last week. I think it's cool; I'm only going to be at home for another year so it won't really bother me. It will be good for Charlie to have a mum and Sasha would be a great mum to Charlie. She makes dad really happy and that makes me happy. He has done so much for me; I can never thank him enough for keeping me. I don't know why he did but I'm glad he did.

My friends are coming over for a game of dare. It should be awesome; Zeke and I have some really good ideas for dares to play so it should be fun. Charlie is staying at one of her friends houses, which means it will just be my friends here. I hear a knock at the door and get up to answer it.

"Hey Zeke, Uriah," I say, letting them in the door.

They sit on the lounge and I see Zeke has a bag with him.

"What's in the bag?" I ask.

"Stuff for dare," says Zeke. There is another knock at the door and I get up to let in Shauna, Marlene and Lynn.

We all sit in a circle around the coffee table in the middle of the lounge room. Let the game begin.

"Can I start?" asks Zeke. I nod, usually whoever is hosting the party gets to start but Zeke seems like he really wants too. I don't really care who starts.

"Shauna I dare you to sneak into Dauntless Nights and put marbles all over the dance floor," Zeke says.

"Too easy," says Shauna. "The nightclub won't even have anyone in there yet. It is too early in the day."

We all walk out of the apartment and down into the pit. Shauna and Zeke sneak into the nightclub while the rest of us keep watch outside. All of a sudden they both coming running out and Zeke yells, "RUN."

We turn to see Rocko the bouncer from Dauntless Nights running out of the club with a fist in the air yelling profanities at us. We run back up to my place and all sit down laughing.

"So what happened?" Lynn asks.

"Shauna had just put the marbles all over the dance floor and we thought we were in the clear. We had crawled our way over to the dance floor so no one would see us but when she had finished we stood up to walk out. That's when Rocko saw us and started to chase us," says Zeke.

"Did he see you put the marbles on the floor?" Uriah asks.

"Nah he was too busy trying to chat up the girl who was setting up the bar. He is such a sleaze, I think she was glad that we were there to distract him. She was just laughing as he ran after us," says Shauna.

"Okay my turn, Lynn," says Shauna.

"Yep, hit me sis," Lynn says.

"I dare you to shave your head."

"What? Are you serious?" says Marlene. "That is really mean Shauna. Lynn has beautiful hair."

"It's okay Marlene, I will do it," says Lynn. "Who has some clippers?"

"Don't look at me," I say. "I don't remember the last time I cut my hair."

"We know Four," says Shauna. "I think all the girls in Dauntless would be upset if you cut off those beautiful curls."

I blush bright red at this. I don't want girls thinking my hair is beautiful. I may need to use the clippers after Lynn has finished. Everyone is now laughing at how embarrassed I am.

"It's okay Four, we don't think your curls are beautiful," says Zeke as he pats me on the back.

"I've got clippers at our place," says Uriah. We all stand and make our way to Uriah and Zeke's apartment.

We walk into the apartment and head straight to Uriah's room. He gets out the clippers and hands them to Lynn. Lynn and Shauna go into the bathroom and we can hear the clippers. Five minutes later they walk out and Lynn has a shaved head. Marlene looks like she is going to cry while Zeke rubs a hand over her now bald head. Which makes Lynn give Zeke a punch to his gut. Zeke doubles over in pain and we all laugh at him.

We get back to my apartment where Lynn says, "My turn, Marlene I dare you to throw water balloons at people while they are watching a movie at Dauntless Theatre."

"Too easy Lynn," Marlene says. We all get up and make our way to Dauntless Theatre. Marlene is carrying ten water balloons in her bag. We look up at what movies are on tonight. We have two theatres one that plays recent movies that Amity has made. We never go to those movies; they are always some happy love sap crap they have made. The other theatre plays old movies from before the war. Zeke, Uriah and I love coming here. They play a lot of action films; we are usually here at least once a week. Tonight they are playing Jaws.

"Perfect movie choice for what you have to do Marlene," says Zeke.

We decide that instead of sneaking in we will stay and watch the movie. So we all buy our tickets and get some popcorn and drinks and make sure we get the back row of the theatre, and then the other people won't see who is throwing the balloons.

Just over half way through the film I tell Marlene to get ready. "I'll let you know when to start throwing," I say. Zeke and I saw the film a couple of days ago. So we wait until Chief Brody says, "You're going to need a bigger boat." That is when I tell Marlene to start throwing.

All of a sudden as the shark is coming towards the boat people start screaming and jumping out of their seats. It is so funny. Marlene just keeps throwing until she has let all ten balloons go. Popcorn and drinks are flying through the air; people are running from the theatre. Zeke has fallen off his chair. Uriah and Lynn are jumping up and down laughing. I have a stitch in my side from laughing so much.

"Come on," I say. "We need to get out of here before they realise it was us."

We get up from the seats and run back to my place. When we get there we all fall onto the floor laughing. Uriah acts out how the people were acting which just makes us laugh even harder. It has been the funnest game of dare ever.

"My turn, my turn," says Marlene. "Uriah I dare you to get a tattoo. Where everyone can see it."

"Oh," says Uriah. He is only thirteen and Hana will not be happy if he gets it.

"Don't worry bro, mum will only skin you alive or are you going to be a pansycake," Zeke says while laughing at Uriah.

"I'm no pansycake," says Uriah. Once again we are up and on our way out of the apartment and down to the tattoo parlour.

Uriah decides to get a snake behind his ear. We all sit around the tattoo parlour while they do Uriah's tattoo.

We get back to the apartment and sit back down in our little circle. "Okay, my turn," says Uriah. "I have a joint dare for Zeke and Four."

Zeke and I look at each other and just nod. It can't be that bad if we have to do something together.

I don't own anything associated with Jaws.