Author's note- Sorry it has taken so long to update, but here it is. Enjoy!
I looked around, I didn't see Mori any where. Maybe I could relax now. Here, surrounded by strangers.
I don't want to be here. But where else do I have to go? Maybe I can find a belt and hang my self in a closet or something. But if some one catches me before I die, I'd be sent right back to that wretched hospital.
I decided to walk up, I went up to the roof. I went up 10 flights of stairs and when I emerged, I found myself alone on a big flat roof. I walked over to the edge. I could jump. But, what if I landed on someone, that would do some serious damage, the only person I can stand hurting is myself. That sounds awful, but it's true.
I looked over the edge, it was a long drop. But that doesn't matter. I looked out and I could see people bustling around. Huge masses of people walking mindlessly to some job or event. A midst the crowd I could see s figure running around frantically searching for some one. Mori.
I backed away from the edge. I couldn't let him find me, I know he would drag me back to that awful hospital. He wouldn't be able to find me up here. But he is from the club that had a helicopter search for me in Karuwizawa. I rushed back into the shopping center. I sat down on the top step. Where could I go? Not home, not to school. Karuwizawa, maybe? But I can't bring Misuzuchi into this. Maybe I could just stay here, but I can't live here. That's ridiculous.
I started to walk down the steps, thinking about my non- existent options.
When I reached the level full of stores and hustle and bustle, I pulled my hood up, kept my head down and started walking. This place would be closed soon enough and I would be forced out. I continued walking until I was out the building and down the street a few blocks. I looked around. I didn't see or hear Mori any where, perhaps he went home. I looked around and I saw a park bench. I could sleep there. I walked over to it and sat down, not the most comfortable, but good enough. I settled in, pulling my sweat shirt tight around me, it was getting cold, but there's not really anything I can do. Just sit here huddled up.
I can't do this anymore. I sick and tired of this life I have. I should die. And I'm not scared of dying, I'm scared of failing and then being sent right back to that hospital. But i guess I would miss things, I would miss dad, and even Mori and the host club, but they're smothering me now so I can't deal with them. I need my space, but I feel like right now, I need them.
It's useless thinking like this. I've pushed them away they probably don't want to see me again.
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