Life was just beginning to settle down again after the tour. It has been two weeks since we all got off that tour bus but, expect from the fact that we dont perform every night anymore, it felt like we had never left! We all kept in touch with each other on a daily basis, Natsu practically lived in my apartment with me because he claimed to like my apartment better and that my bed was 'the best ever' plus we all helped Juvia moved into Gray's house - yes HOUSE!- yesterday. His place is amazing! It had two large bedrooms, two bathrooms, a large living room and dining room, a room for his instruments and even he even had his own games-room with a pool table and a pinball machine! His house was the ultimate bachelor pad..until Juvia moved in yesterday of course. The size of it kind of reminded me of my parent's house before I left but it was not as big. His house feels quite homely despite the ice-blue walls and tall ceilings.

It was nice to see them two so happy. Poor Juvia never really hit the jack pot when it came to love since people were put off by her talking in the third person all of the time. They never overlooked it. She did try once to talk in the first person and that was the weirdest thirty minutes of our lives! I'm just glad that Gray looks after her and looks past the third person talking and the clinginess she has with him. It's quite adorable to watch really.

Speaking of clinginess, I'm currently sitting at home having a rare moment without Natsu in my apartment. It is quite nice as I don't miss him trying to trash my house every two minutes and then try to make it up to me with apology sex. I decided to try and work on my novel some more while he was gone. Before I wanted to be a musician, I wanted to be a writer. I'm under another name so it won't affect my musical career. I've just got to a pinnacle moment when my mobile rings breaking my train of thought.

Frustrated with my interruption, I take a deep breath and answer the phone with my most calm 'hello'.

"Lucy! It's Mira-Jane! How has your time off been?" I smile happy to talk to her but I'm secretly laughing in my head knowing that this will be about work.

"It's been relaxing. How about you?" I ask out of politeness.

"Sadly not as relaxing as you I'm afraid. But I've called you to say that your album launch has been confirmed! It is in two weeks so you need to meet up with the girls today and work out an hour long set that is acceptable."

I jump out of my seat "That's great! Thanks for letting me know Mira-Jane! I'll call the girls now!" I hang up and call the girls over for an emergency meeting. We spent the rest of the night writing and making up a set list for the album launch while laughing and drinking. It reminds me of old times before the tour where we were writing a smaller setlist for locals gigs that we were playing.

The two weeks that we had to prepare for the album launch went by in a flash! From the amount of meetings, press releases, promotion, interviews and practicing we did, I was surprised that I managed to see the boys at all! Ever since we had been back both of the bands had their own separate things to do in terms of promoting the band and our own albums. Last week we heard the album charts on the radio and it turned out that the boy's album was number one! We had a massive party that night to celebrate at Gray and Juvia's place and it was amazing! It was a great way of letting off steam since we all were working a lot lately. It was so nice to watch that night as everyone was being lovey-dovey with their respective other halves as well since we all were together for quite a while. We all agreed that we would have one last night together before the girls and I went on our album tour and the boys went on their promotional tour. Whenever the subject of either tour comes up it is always a somber moment. Don't get me wrong, we all can't wait to get onto the tour, but it's just the fact that we will be leaving the boys behind. We all consider ourselves lucky that we got an extra month with each other before we go out separate ways for six months (three in the boys case since we are doing two tours in one)

That morning, I am woken up by Natsu who stayed over the previous night. He was very sweet and woke me up with a nice cup of tea but he got on my nerves very quickly getting really excited asking me how I was feeling and telling me about what it was like on his first album launch gig. I know that he is trying to help but….he seriously isn't. I end up lying in my bed for over half an hour trying to get myself mentally prepared for today. I try and think of the structure of the day, what was going to happen, what did I need and what songs were we going to play. I thought of things like this until my insecurities decide to get the best of me and out of nowhere I start to think of every possible situation of what will happen tonight, but they get worse and worse as I just sit there drinking a now extremely cold cup of tea. I realise that I am bringing myself in a panic and I try to reassure myself that we will be fine. I manage to calm myself down and I sit with Natsu at the table eating while he is telling me all of his stories but I am somewhere else lost in my thought. My nerves that normally hit just before I hit the stage but they have decided to come up early today and inside my head I am freaking out! I try and think of ways that I can run away and escape from this. Shall I go abroad? Shall I take Natsu? We can just run away together and no one will ever find us! We can go and find Igneel together over the world. But I know deep down that I just can't do that to the girls so I sit there and listen before I decide that I just needed my own time today. Natsu soon starts to notice my mood and stops his rambling.

"Lucy are you okay?" He asks

I just nod. I am not particularly in the mood to talk while my inner thoughts are plaguing me like this.

"No you're not what's wrong?"

I shake my head. I really don't want to talk to Natsu right now. I try to stand up to walk away but Natsu grabs me and throws me into a hug holding onto me tight.

"What is wrong Luce. I'm worried now"

Again I shake my head. I don't want to tell him. I know that after what happened here a while ago, he has seen all sides of me, but I don't want him to see the side where I am scared again. The last time that I was scared I broke up with him and I don't want him to see that side again and neither do I. I am not going to tell him. I will not tell him that I am freaking out about tonight being a failure!

"Luce. Whatever is bothering you, you know that you can tell me right?

I nod my head. Good. Silence is good. Head actions are all that I can manage right now and I don't really want to say anything anymore.

"I was like this on our first album launch" I hear Natsu chuckle as he kissed my hair.

My eyes widen while hidden in his chest. How does he know what I am feeling right now?

"I was so scared that night that I kept everyone out. I didn't want anyone knowing that I was scared. Everyone else was so calm around me that I thought that I shouldn't show it so I didn't look like a wuss. So instead of telling anyone, I hid and I couldn't handle the pressure. Gray was the one who snapped me out of it by telling me that he was terrified too. We talked about it and got it all off our chests over a beer. After that I felt so much better. I was still nervous don't get me wrong, but I took Gray's advice and every day since I have been riding off the nerves. I'll tell you something Luce, I use the nerves to my advantage and since that night I have been so different on stage. I have felt more free since. That's why I don't care when I am on stage. I forget myself for an hour and just play music. I know that you girls do it too. I've seen it. You all are so amazingly lost in the music and it's great to watch. It shows how passionate you all are about what you do."

He pulls my head up to meet mine with his finger under my chin.

"Ride off the nerves and enjoy the show. All you have to do is just change your nerves into energy and believe me you will be fine. Everything will be fine. All you have to do is just wait until you walk onto that stage and then it will all be okay. This advice also goes for your first night on your album tour too. Once you lose yourself for your set and you walk off, everything will be alright and it will all be over. Just think to yourself that it is another night on tour and you will be fine"

He wipes his thumb over my cheek wiping away tears that I didn't know were falling down my face.

"I love you" I blurt out before I can stop it. He smiles and he watches me physically relax and he kisses me like there was no tomorrow. It was like he was trying to tell me that everything was going to be alright in that one kiss despite his pep talk earlier.

And right in that very moment I believe him.

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