CHAPTER 32

TRIS POV

I'm lying on my bed in the dorm, I can hear the others breathing and the occasional person stirring on their bed. The last few days have been emotionally draining for me. I don't feel like sleeping, my mind is wide awake and I keep going over everything that has happened. Not just Tobias but initiation. I never knew it would be this tough. There is also the fun to be had here in Dauntless. I never could have imagined having friends, playing crazy games, laughing so much that I thought I would have a permanent stomach ache from the strain.

I've been trying not to think of Tobias but all my thoughts keep coming back to him no matter how much I try to think of other things that have happened. From the moment I landed on the net I felt a connection with him, even without knowing who he was. Then I think of the game of dare and that first kiss. This makes me smile; I don't think I'd ever been that nervous in all of my life. Then I remember Tobias saying how I slapped him when we kissed when we were little.

I have to stop myself from laughing at the thought of that kiss. We were supposed to be helping my mum at the sorting centre. We went down to the sorting centre and made sure my mum saw us then we snuck out the back door and hid between the old crates and boxes. Tobias said if they caught us we could say we were looking for more boxes. We hid between the boxes and talked.

We were talking about which faction we wished we were in. I told him I would have liked to be Dauntless. I loved how the kids were always running somewhere. I loved the way they jumped off the trains. Tobias wasn't sure which faction he would like but he told me that he would want to go wherever I was. Then he turned and kissed me, I remember how shocked I was, we weren't even allowed to hold hands and he had kissed me. I slapped him across the face and ran all the way home.

I got in so much trouble when mum got home because I was supposed to be at the centre and instead she had found me at home. I would hate to think how much trouble I would of been in if she knew Tobias had kissed me. Or that I had slapped him. It seems funny now when I think about it. For so long thinking of Tobias only made me sad but now everything has changed.

I have only been in Dauntless a few weeks but so much has happened. I knew I was falling for Four and then it turns out he is Tobias. Tobias. I'm glad he is alive I really am but now I don't know what to think. Yes I have feelings for him. I just don't know if I should show those feelings. He left me once before, would he leave again?

I am broken from my thoughts when I here shuffling shoes across the room. What is someone doing up at this hour. Then there is a heavy thud. Before I can think about what is happening a blood curdling wail comes from where I heard the shoes only a moment before. I jump from my bed but it is too dark to see what is happening. Then another scream pierces my ears.

The lights come on and I see Edward lying on the floor next to his bed. Surrounding his head is a halo of blood and jutting from his clawing fingers is a butter knife, like the ones used in the dining hall. The blade is stuck in his eye.

I walk over to Edward and crouch down beside his head. I put my hands on his shoulders and I say, "lie still." Edward is still thrashing around so I say louder with more force, "I said, lie still and breathe." I can't hear the screams from Myra anymore, I feel calm and I know I need to try and calm Edward too.

"Take it out!" he yells. "Get it out, get it out!"

"Edward," I say. I'm trying to get him to focus his attention on me and not the knife. "You have to let the doctor take it out. Edward are you listening to me?"

"It hurts," he sobs.

"I understand. Just breathe, we are getting help," I say. I hope someone has gone for help. I don't know how long I can keep myself calm. And I don't know how long I can keep Edward from ripping the knife out from his eye.

It is only a few minutes although it feels a lot longer and the nurse arrives. She asks me to step back while she assesses the situation. Will and Al help her to carry Edward to the infirmary and Myra follows closely behind.

I stand up and find that I am covered in blood. It is all over my pants from kneeling in Edward's blood on the floor. It is covering my hands and there are blobs of blood on my top that have dripped there from my hands. I feel revolting. Not only from the blood that I feel I am covered in but from the sight I have just witnessed. I can't believe someone would do this. I look around and see that the only people not here other than the group that went to the infirmary are Peter and Drew.

Christina walks over to me and motions for me to walk towards the showers. She has a change of clothes in her hand. I am assuming they are for me. There are no words spoken, I wouldn't know what to say and I think this is the first time I have seen Christina without words.

I get into the shower and scrub myself clean. It doesn't matter how hard I scrub I still feel like I am covered in blood. I know it's all gone but I can still smell the metallic blood smell, I almost feel like I can taste it. I get out of the shower and put on the clean clothes that Christina gave me. We walk back into the dorm and the smell is stronger in here.

I grab as many paper towels as I can and I walk over to where Edward had been laying and I start to clean the blood off the floor. Christina keeps going and getting me more paper towels as I mop the mess up. Will and Al walk back into the dorm just as I am finishing.

"How is he?" I ask.

"It doesn't look good. They said he will lose his eye," Will says.

I shake my head. Why would Peter and Drew want to do such a thing? I know Peter isn't a very nice person but I could never have predicted that he would act this way. I also know that Drew would do whatever Peter told him to do. So It was definitely Peters' idea.

"You know who did that, right?" Says Christina.

"Yeah," I say.

"We need to tell someone," Al says.

"We may know who did it. But we can't prove who did it," I say. "It was pitch black, until they turned the lights on you couldn't see anything."

"It doesn't seem right," Christina says.

"Your Candor is showing," says Will. Normally we would probably all laugh at this but we all can only manage half smiles.

FOUR POV

I'm woken by a loud banging on my front door. I know something serious is wrong. It is the middle of the night and no one would be visiting at this time of night unless it was serious. I open my door to see Zeke standing there. "This better not be one of your dares Zeke," I say.

"Dude even I'm not that crazy to wake you in the middle of the night for a game of dare," He says.

"What's wrong?" I ask. My first thoughts go to Tris.

"Your initiate Edward. There has been an accident."

"What type of accident?"

"He has been stabbed; they have taken him to the infirmary."

I have never understood how we define an accident. How is being stabbed an accident? "Thanks Zeke, I'll go and check it out," I say.

"No problem, I've got to get back to the control room. Later man."

"Bye Zeke."

I decide to check that the other initiates are alright first. I walk into the dormitory and all the lights are on. The place looks deserted. I see Molly lying on her bed; she looks like she is asleep without a care in the world. Heartless bitch is the first thought that comes to my mind. I turn and see Christina standing in the door way to the showers. "Are you alright?" I ask her.

"I'm fine," she says. She sees me looking around and answers my question before I can ask it. "Tris is in the shower. She was helping Edward and got blood all over her."

"Okay. I need to get to the infirmary. If she needs anything tell her where she can find me," I say.

She nods and I turn and rush out the door.

I am just about to open the door to the infirmary when Will and Al walk out.

"Are you guys alright?" I ask.

"Yeah, we're fine Four. We just helped the nurse bring Edward here. Myra is in the waiting room," Will says motioning his head towards the door. "It doesn't look good, I heard them saying something about he will lose his eye."

"Thanks. Go and try to get some rest," I say. I walk past them and into the infirmary.

I walk through the door and I see Myra sitting in a chair in the waiting room. Her face is stained with tears and her eyes are blood shot.

"Myra," I say. I don't really know what to say to her. I have probably had less to do with her than my other initiates.

"Four. They are making me wait our here and I don't know what's going on," she says.

"Stay here and I will see what I can find out."

I walk over to the nurses' station but there is no one at the desk. I decide to walk into the infirmary and see if I can get some answers. As I am walking down the hall way it hits me that seven of the nine initiates are accounted for. It makes me wonder where are Peter and Drew. Could they have had something to do with this?

I walk into a room and can see Edward lying on a bed with doctors and nurses working on him. Alice one of the nurses comes over to me. "Four we are about to take him into surgery. He is going to lose his eye," she says.

"Thanks Alice," I say. "Alice his girlfriend is in the waiting room, she is pretty upset. Do you think when you are finished here you could have a look at her? Just make sure she is okay." I'm sure she is anything other than okay at the moment but I'd still like her to get checked out.

"I will Four," Alice says. "There isn't anything else you can do here. He won't be awake until morning, maybe not to around lunch time, you may as well go home Four."

"Thanks Alice, I'll check back later," I say.

I walk back out and go and sit with Myra until Alice comes and gets her. I explained to her that he was having surgery. I didn't go into any details; I leave that to the doctors to let her know. She is already so upset. At least I know that Alice will look after her. Alice was the nurse that looked after me when I first came to Dauntless. She was like an angel to me. I found out years later that she worked the three weeks straight that I was in here. She was there every day so that I would have a familiar face looking after me. I'm really glad she will look after Myra because there is no one better to give her the support she needs while waiting for news on Edward.

I walk past the dormitory but I can see the lights are out. I really want to go and see Tris but there has been enough disturbance in there for one night. Better to let all the initiates try and get some sleep. I make my way up to my office. I send the other leaders a message telling them what has happened. I explain that Edward is in surgery and I will have the matter investigated tomorrow. There is no use waking anyone else up tonight, there is nothing that can be done. So I finish my message and head home to bed.