CHAPTER 33
FOUR POV
We can't prove that it was Peter or Drew who stabbed Edward. Other than putting all the initiates under truth serum we have nothing we can do. I talked to Jack at Candor and he said that they couldn't put Peter and Drew under the truth serum without putting all the initiates through the process and he couldn't justify this, especially when the victim is going to live. This frustrates me; I am just going to have to watch Peter more closely. Edward will be able to stay in Dauntless. He may not be able to have employment in protection but there are plenty of positions he will be able to hold.
I've just finished filling in the final paperwork concerning the case when I see dad standing at my door.
"Hey," I say.
"Got a minute?" he asks.
"Sure what's up?"
"We had some trouble in the factionless sector last night. Two Erudite's tried to kidnap a woman and take her back to Erudite. Our patrol team were able to stop them. They brought them back here for questioning but something happened during the night in the holding cells," dad says.
"What happened?"
"The guards left them in the cells and when they went to check on them this morning they were both dead. Simon seems to think they took some sort of poison. He is running tests now but it will be a few days before we get the results back. That's if we even get the correct results back, the tests have to go to Erudite so I am concerned that they will try and keep the results from us."
"I need you to go and speak to Evelyn. Find out what she may know. She won't talk to me. I think you have more chance of getting information out of her than I ever will," dad says.
"I don't know that I'll be able to get anything out of her, she abandoned me without a second thought. She only thinks of herself," I say.
"I know but you may be the only person she will say anything too. It's the only chance we have, if Erudite are willing to sacrifice their own for whatever they are doing than it is a lot more serious than we could have imagined."
"I'll go. I will do it now, the sooner I get it over with the better," I say. Between Evelyn and Marcus you would think that now I'm an adult they wouldn't be able to work their way back into my life. But they both seem to be doing that lately. It is harder dealing with Evelyn, part of me is grateful for her and the other hates her for what she did to me and Charlie. With Marcus it is just hate, a lot less complicated to deal with.
I reach the factionless sector, I have been here before. The Dauntless patrols have been informed that I am here, in case there is trouble. I don't think there will be any but better safe than sorry. I walk into the warehouse that I know Evelyn resides in. I am met inside the warehouse by Therese.
"What do you want?" she asks.
"I need to see Evelyn," I tell her.
"Maybe she doesn't want to see you," she says.
"I don't have time for games, either take me to her or I will find her myself," I say.
"Fine, you broke her heart when you didn't come and join us you know," she says.
"I didn't know she had a heart," I say. I can see Evelyn up ahead so I quickly walk away from Therese; I'm not in the mood for what she has to say today. Evelyn is only after what will benefit her, I know that, these people may see her as their saviour but she isn't mine, not anymore.
"Evelyn," I call.
She turns and when she sees me a smile comes across her lips. I don't smile back; I don't have smiles for her anymore, not for a very long time. "Tobias," she says. I hate her calling me by my name. The only person who has that right is Tris. I hadn't thought about it until now but ever since Tris found out who I was she has been calling me Tobias. And she is the only person I want to call me by tmy real name. I didn't even ask her too. It just happened.
"My name is Four, I would appreciate if you called me Four, Evelyn," I say.
"I am your mother and I will call you by the name I gave you Tobias," she says.
"You gave that right up a long time ago, so don't try and play the mother card now," I say. When Max asked her to let Sasha adopt both Charlie and me she didn't hesitate to give up her parental rights. I know I need to calm down, I need information out of her and I'm sure I'm not going to get it while I am being this hostile. It seems she can bring the worst out in me.
"Tobias did you really come here to fight?" she asks.
"No," I say.
"What do you want?"
"We picked up two Erudite trying to take one of the factionless last night. We need information Evelyn, what do they want with the factionless?"
"Why should I tell you? How will it help me?" she asks.
Dad is right she is always thinking of herself. "This isn't about helping you Evelyn; this is about keeping your people safe."
"I'm not sure; it seems they are only approaching people that they think are divergent. But I can't be completely sure about it. "
"Do you know what they want with them?"
"No. They come down here and offer food and clothing but only to a select few. Last night was the first time that I heard anything about it. I had been told that a few people had gone missing by Max but the factionless are secretive. They may trust me with some information but they don't openly tell you their business," she says.
"Well then maybe you should find a way for them to be more open," I say.
"You could join us Tobias," she says.
"Why would I want to do that?"
"Obviously something big is happening. You could come here and help me lead these people. Help me to overthrow the factions. Let us all live equally," she says.
"I'm happy where I am Evelyn. I already have a leadership position. I don't have any inclination to betray my family for you," I say.
"I am your family Tobias. I'm your real family," she says.
"No you're not Evelyn. You stopped being anything to me the day you left. I meant what I said to you that day. My feelings haven't changed and my name is Four," I say. This conversation isn't getting me anywhere. I turn and start to walk away.
"You will regret this Tobias. I will make sure you regret this," she yells out to me. I don't turn; I don't even acknowledge that I have heard her. I just keep walking.
I walk back into the Dauntless compound. I'm tired the last few days feel like they have been an emotional rollercoaster. We haven't even started the fear simulations yet and I already feel like my nerves are on edge from everything that has been happening. I go up to my apartment to take a shower. I always feel like I need a shower after being in the factionless sectors. Even more so after seeing Evelyn. She has this way of making me feel dirty, like it is my fault she chose to become factionless. I know it isn't true but it is just how she makes me feel.
Being in the factionless sectors always makes me wonder what I did wrong that my own mother would want to live there instead of here with us. Was I that bad of a child that she needed to get away from me? I don't think I will ever know or understand her reasoning behind why she has done what she has done. She reminds me more of Marcus now, both seem to like to hold the power. They both want to control the world. Am I any different? I became a leader just like they both have. But then I think of Max and he is a leader. He doesn't want to rule the world he just wants to help his faction. I hope I am more like Max than Evelyn or Marcus.
I decide to go down to the dining hall for dinner. It would be really good to see Tris, I don't know where we stand but after the day I have had just seeing her is sure to make me feel better. I walk in and see that the whole gang is at the table.
"You can't just take my cake Uriah, you could at least ask. Or get up and get your own," says Christina.
"But -," says Uriah.
"Ah ah," Christina says. Shaking a finger at him. Everyone is laughing.
"Where have you been?" Zeke asks.
"Factionless," I say.
"We all went zip lining this afternoon," he says. "What were you doing in factionless?"
"We have had to patrol the area more lately," says Shauna.
"Just trouble with faction members going into the factionless sectors. Nothing to worry about," I say. My friends don't need the worry of what may be happening outside our faction.
I can feel Tris staring at me. She knows that is where Evelyn is. I look at her and she mouths 'are you okay'. I nod. It's not something I want to discuss in the dining hall. I start to eat my dinner just listening to the chatter and laughter around me. It sounds like everyone is still on a buzz from zip lining and I am happy to just listen and not have to be part of the conversation. Slowly the group starts to split as they finish their dinner and go do whatever they have planned for tonight. There is only Christina, Will, Al and Tris left.
Christina wants to get a new tattoo. Christina, Will and Al get up to leave. "Tris are you coming with us?" Al asks.
He has the biggest crush on her but she doesn't realise it. "I'll catch up," she tells him.
"How are you really Tobias?" she says.
"I'm tired Tris. It's been a long day," I say.
"Do you want to talk about it?" she asks. I shake my head; I don't really feel like talking about Evelyn at the moment. "Did you see her?"
I just nod. "You're not telling me much here," she says.
"What do you want me to say Tris? What about you? Are you ready to talk yet?" I snap at her.
"I told you I need time."
"Maybe that's what I need too," I say. I really just want to drag her bag to my apartment and spend time with her, just hold her, really I'd like it if she would just hold me. It has been a really shitty day but I know I can't have any of that until we work out where we stand.
"You look like you need to talk about it," she says.
"How would you know that? Maybe it's not Evelyn I need to talk about, maybe it's you I want to talk about," I say with just a little to much venom in my voice.
"And I need some time. I told you that. Why is it so important that we talk right now? I think you are trying to avoid the talk about Evelyn so you are turning this onto me," she says.
"Maybe, but how long am I supposed to wait until you're ready?" I know I'm being pushy. I know what she has said is right but I want to know that Tris and I are okay or that we will be.
"Do you really want to know how I feel Four?" she asks. I nod, I don't like that she is all of a sudden using Four and not Tobias.
"I'm angry. I'm angry at you. I'm angry at me. I'm just angry, I need time," she says. I can hear the anger in her voice as she gets up quickly from her chair letting it scrape loudly along the floor and walks out of the dining hall. I know I've just blown it. I know I shouldn't have pushed her. But I can't help myself; I forget all reasoning when she is near me. I just want to be able to hold her; I want to say she is mine. I don't think that will be happening now. I shouldn't have pushed. I should have let it go; I'm too emotional to deal with any of it anyway. I shouldn't have pushed.