'Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.' – Albert Einstein
"I don't know what keeps me out more, that I would almost prefer my dad to be with Lillian, or the fact that he's boning some 50 year old woman on our living room couch." I sighed once Tate put on the movie which to be honest I wasn't even going to watch. My mind was far to warped to pay attention.
"I mean honestly, after the first affair we got it our mom was about to leave him and he knew it. Then he got married to Meredith and had an affair on her too… he said he just thought he would be happier with the new woman." I fell back onto my bed.
"What do you mean?" He asked me as he sat down next to me. "Well, he cheated on our mom with Meredith thinking she would make him happy, they got married she made him miserable. So he cheated on her with Lillian… now they're married." I rolled my eyes.
"Insanity." Was all I breathed out when I could hear the Warner Brother's music play off my TV, causing me to sit up out of curiosity.
I noticed Tate just sitting there nodding, "But he seems like such a nice guy."
I shrugged, "Appearances. He's a great father don't get me wrong, I'd want no other to be called dad but him, but he makes the dumbest choices when it comes to the heart."
"But it hurts you, doesn't it?" He asked me. "Yea, I mean kinda messes me up a bit, like that's my role model for relationships." I sighed, turning my attention to 'The Woman in Black' what a messed up movie choice.
"My dad loves us, so I don't think he really realizes his affairs and pointless marriages are hurting us." I explained looking over at Tate not realizing how close he was to me.
"If you love someone, you should never hurt them… ever." He commented to me.
"Some people I guess just don't know what love is." I told him as I sighed.
"So, dad's downstairs making out with that old woman." Jax's voice rang through my ears forcing me to tear my eyes away from Tates.
"Yea, I almost walked in on that earlier. If it wasn't for Tate…" I commented.
"Tate, my man. Saving this damsel in distress eh? Anyway so I met this girl while I was grabbing total snob by the way… she was basically giving me grief for not being in school." He began to explain, his high becoming more apparent. However what he was high on was questionable, weed would not make him gossip.
"Oh yea?" I questioned looking back at Tate who had a growing smirk on his lips.
"Yea, apparently she's friends with Maddy… who by the way told her that her siblings are too stupid to go to a normal school because we're drug addicts." Jax said capturing my attention away form Tate's intense gaze.
"She said what?" I felt my voice grow angry, my face heat up with rage. Sure I smoked the occasional joint here and there to relax but I was in no way an addict.
"Yea, so I now have her and Maddy convinced I sell Coke and Weed out of the basement, haha." I rolled my eyes, "Are you stupid? Maddy will tell dad."
Jax walked over to where Tate and I where sitting and sat against the wall, like he had earlier. "No she won't, because then I'll tell dad she's doing coke. I mean he knows we smoke pot, he knows I do the occasional other, things but to him. Maddy is perfect, worst she does is max a credit card shopping." He pointed out as I smirked, "You have an idea?"
I sat there staring at my brother as his eyes slowly closed and I could hear the puffs of air coming from his mouth. "Seriously?" I sighed. This was the one thing I didn't like about my brother, whenever he did drugs of any kind he was one of two things, wired with energy or asleep within two hours of doing the drug… this was the latter.
Tate sighed, "Does your sister usually, do this kind of stuff to you?"
"She's always trying to mess with us, just one of her man pointless hobbies." I commented.
"No, you… just you… Does she do it often, singling you out?" He questioned me his eyes searching mine for answers he knew I wouldn't give him.
But where did lying ever get me before with guys? It always ended with me in tears crying while Jax spent days on end trying to make me laugh, trying to stop the flood of tears. I couldn't lie to Tate not if I wanted a real friendship from him. "She hates me because I remind her of our mom, because I'm close to our dad, because I have Jax while she has no one."
Tate nodded, "I know how we can stop her and her friends from bothering any of you every again. She will start being a real sister, not just this pretend one." He told me.
I had to admit the thought of having her and her new friends not bother Jax or I whenever we are out and about did seem extremely appetizing. So much that I wasn't going to refuse the offer, "Alright, I'm game what do you have?" I asked him.
"Simple, Jax will tell your sister and her new friend to meet you guys in the basement, that he will sell to them both at a discounted price. Than, we'll scare them so bad… they won't ever bother you two again."
"That simple eh?" I questioned as I moved in my spot looking back at the screen watching what I assumed was the middle of the movie.
"Trust me, we'll do it Friday after school… when she gets home. It'll give them the weekend to fester and by Monday, she will never hurt you again. I promise." Tate commented as I smiled softly at him, I had to admit, I knew him all of maybe 6 hours an he already made me feel better than when I was around my own family.
Kind of sad if I thought about it, besides Jax I really cared less about my family, they where all self consumed in their own dooms. What did we have, Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Envy, Neglect… half the time Lillian and dad where too busy fighting about money or sex to care that we were around. Which is why I wasn't surprised he was probably boning the maid. Which was also insanely creepy considering she was way older than him.
Lillian was a gold digger, who wanted all my dad's money but knew in the pre-nup she'd get nothing. Yet it wouldn't stop her from trying, I mean really how was she supposed to bag another wealthy man if she had no money or stature to get close to one?
Maddy, god all she cared about was her friends', her looks, what she owned. What drove her so far from Jax and I? I really had no clue, she only got like this when Dad and Lillian 'met' and married. I missed her, and if whatever it was Tate had planned would get her back I had to try it. As much as she pissed me off, I did miss having a sister.
"Fine, I'm game lets do it." I grinned at him, "You're not going to hurt them are you?" I asked him.
"No, I won't hurt them, just scare them." He smiled at me, "Did you want to finish the movie or should we wake him up?" He asked.
I couldn't help but chuckle, "Could you help me bring him upstairs?" I asked, "Of course." Tate grinned.
We attempted to wake up Jax, which was more, or less him in zombie mode, however we managed to get him up into the attic and onto his bed. "He sleeps up here…" Tate said his voice growing quiet.
"Yea, He wanted us to use the other bedroom as a guest room incase Addy came here to sleep. It was sweet really, I think this is the creepiest attic ever." I chuckled.
"Why?" He asked me curiously. "We found this bondage suit, it was like attached to the rafters." His eyes widened with some weird hint of joy.
"What?" I asked him as we walked back to my room, "Just that the suit would creep you out, it's just clothing." He smirked.
Rolling my eyes I playfully pushed him away, "Shut up… it had like a head mask and everything, that's weird." I sighed.
I had to admit spending nearly everyday after classes with Tate, wondering around the house, the yard or watching movies I was growing really attached to him. Jax was getting upset with me however, always being passed aside by me because I wanted to hang out with Tate. Jax would constantly tell me how he was over being the third wheel hanging out with us.
I brought up the whole idea that Tate had for Maddy and her new best friend. His thoughts where the same as mine, it would be nice to get Maddy back. She had moved onto this path that made her act and seem almost just like Lillian. Jax had told Maddy that on Friday he would have some new stuff for them to buy.
However Jax had made plans, he wasn't going to be here. Apparently he promised Addy he would take her to the fair that had rolled into town. Addy had a crush on Jax. That much was obvious with how often she'd come over asking where he was. Which he was usually out with some of the stoners he'd met in town.
Lillian was 'at work' for the night and my dad was meeting with some new clients for a business merger he was helping broker. Which meant Tate and I had the entire day to plan this thing before both girls would get here after school. That was however tomorrow, today I was sitting on my floor leaning against my bed watching Sinister for the second time this week.
I sat there wondering why we would always watch horror movies, Tate's obsession with fear and what I was afraid of, what scared me. I think the only things that really scared me where things that would cause me pain or trauma.
I felt his hand slowly climb on top of my own hand softly caressing the skin on the top of my hand. When I looked over at him from the corner of my eye I noticed he was still looking directly at the screen. I looked down at my hand feeling the warmth rise up my cheeks again.
I watched as his hand moved for so he was holding mine, his thumb still rubbing my skin gently. "This doesn't bother you does it?" I heard him whisper to me softly his attention never moving away from the screen as he continued to talk to me. "I just haven't met very many girls like you. Its very refreshing, most of the girls that I draw are sad souls, broken souls." He explained to me.
"Who says I'm not broken?" I asked him.
"You aren't, I've seen broken. The family that lived here before you, had a son a bit younger than us… He was broken."
I nodded; "I suppose you're right." I told him cocking my head to the side smirking. "To answer your question, no it doesn't bother me… it's nice." I smiled leaning my head against his shoulder as we continued watching the movie together.