I turned around to see Charlotte sitting next to the drop ship; I rushed to her pulling the little girl in my arms. "Charlotte." I sighed. I felt her wrap her arms around me tightly, "I heard the song you where humming." She said into my shoulder.
"It's a really old song, from before the Ark." I told her.
"Can you teach it to me?" She asked; "I think if I hum it to myself… it will help me sleep." She said softly.
I nodded to her as I sat down next to her and began to hum the tune to her, I couldn't remember the words, I had forgotten them months after my parents where floated. Knowing the words at that time just brought me down made ma sad. Made me miss my mother even more than I already did.
Hours had passed Charlotte and I sitting there humming tunes with each other her giggling, she looked so much happier than she had when I first found her. "I was looking everywhere for you." I heard Bellamy say from in front of me.
He looked so defeated, so broken. I stood up after hugging Charlotte. "Get some sleep, busy day tomorrow." I said smiling at her.
"Bell…" I said as he instantly pulled me into his arms. Before releasing me, taking me back to the tent.
I sat down on our now elevated bed, when did he get this down? Probably did it while I was helping Jasper, or sitting with Charlotte. I looked at him as he sat down next to me taking my hand in his. "I couldn't have gone through that without you there; Rayne." He told me.
"I couldn't do just about anything with out you Bells." I smiled to him. "Everything just feels so right with you around me, near me…with me." I told him as he smiled.
"Now who's the cheesy one?" He asked smirking.
"Still you." I smiled as I stuck out my tongue at him.
He pulled me closer into his arms as we lay back in the bed, my head on his chest I could feel him stroking my hair on my head occasionally placing light kisses on my head. Until I fell asleep in his arms, one of the only ways I seemed to be able to fall asleep anymore.
The days had past by slowly, each one growing more and more intolerable than the next. I was lucky to have Bellamy, he was constantly looking out for me. I think he'd finally softened up on Clarke. Even though he still liked to complain about her on a daily bases. The morning after we saved Jasper's life we had found Wells dead. Someone had murdered him.
Clarke had taken it worse than I had expected her too, she spent most of her free time standing or kneeling at his grave just crying or talking to him. I guess she was trying to make up for lost time. I felt like I had some blame in that, if I had told her sooner about her mom being the reason for what happened to her and her father than maybe she had Wells wouldn't have been fighting the entire time we had been down here.
Walking out of the tent with Bellamy I noticed Clarke was standing near Wells's grave. She hadn't been doing so well, I mean she had spent all her time with Jasper, Monty, Octavia and Finn but I could tell even they weren't numbing the feelings in her chest. "Should I go say something?" I asked Bellamy who shook his head.
"If she hasn't tried to open up about it the last eight times you've tried let her come to you." He told me as he softly kissed my lips.
"The wall is almost done." He pointed out as we had walked further into the camp. "I still can't believe a grounder got that close to the camp that they killed one of us." I said sadly.
He pulled me into him; "It's the last time they will get close enough to us to hurt someone." He told me.
I turned to see Clarke rushing into the camp from the gravesites and into the Drop Ship. Looking up at Bellamy he shrugged; "Princess looks angry." He told me with a smirk.
"Yea… she does." I told him softly as I sat next to the fire to warm up some of the water. "When are you going to let me take this off?" I asked him holding up my wristband.
"Never." He told me softly. "Why not? I thought you wanted them to think we were all dying."
He shrugged; "Even I wouldn't want to think you're dead Rayne." I sighed, "Then I'll go ask Murphy to take it off me." I said standing up walking away from a stunned Bellamy.
"Rayne." I heard him call to me.
I walked right up to Murphy; his face had new scars on it. I really wish he'd stop fighting with everyone. I knew he was angry with me; Clarke, Bellamy but he needed a new outlet for his anger besides brawling. "Murph." I said to him catching him off guard.
"Rayne." He said as his entire face softened and relaxed.
"I want you to take this off." I said to him holding up my arm. "Now."
He took my arm and led me over to the spot they had been taking everyone's wristbands off. "Bellamy all right with this idea?" He asked me. "I don't care if he is. This thing is making me a burden to the group. Take it off."
"Yea but he specifically told us to leave yours on." I gave him a look that literally told him he'd better listen to me. "All right, all right." Murphy said to me with a grin.
He told me to stay still as he took the crowbar and wedged it between my arm and the wristband before popping it upwards. I had to cover my mouth from screaming out in pain. He looked at me his eyes softening. "Are you all right?" He asked me. I shook my head, "No, I mean yes but that really hurt shit." I said as he chuckled. "Yea it does."
"Rayne…" Bellamy said as he neared me. "You let her take it off." He said.
"The lady begged me too, and when a beautiful woman asks me to do something. I'm going to comply." Murphy said.
Why was he testing Bellamy like that, he knew nothing good ever came out of pissing him off. I stood up; "You were the one that wanted everyone to take off they're wristbands Bellamy. All I'm doing is showing you what side I'm on." I said as I pushed past him and headed towards the center of the camp to gather a pack to go out and look for medical supplies.
"Where do you think you're going?" Bellamy said chasing after me.
"Supply hunting." I said my voice cold and emotionless.
"I'm coming with you." He told me.
"No, you have a camp to run." I said giving him a look he shook his head. Cupping my face Bellamy looked deep into my eyes, "You're the one good things down here for me. I just don't want you doing something you'll regret just because of me." He told me.
"I'm doing it for me." I said; "You just happen to be around and make me feel like the things I do for me are the right things." He chuckled.
"Please don't go outside the walls Ray… send other to go instead. I need you here." He told me as he lifted my wrist to his lips kissing where the newly formed wholes where on my wrist, "Fine." I sighed giving into him like I always did.
"Mirez, Harper, Kline… Rayne needs some things from the forest and rivers she'll give you a list, go get them." He ordered as the boy and two girls nodded at him following me to a spot where I wrote everything down and handed it to them. "If you spot any trouble, come back immediately." I told them with a smile, "You're lives are more important to me than these items." They all nodded before leaving the camp quickly.
I walked into the drop ship to gather a few of my things and noticed Clarke rubbing her wrist, she took her's off too. Now I really wondered if we where related. I pushed the few res strains of hair from my face and smiled at her. "What?" She said as I noticed both Finn and I where watching her.
"Monty needed a working wristband." She explained; "Where's yours?" She asked me as Finn whipped around looking at me.
"Pit beside the fire." I said shrugging.
"Weren't you two not even a month ago saying, how we needed to keep them on?" He laughed.
"Thins changed." I said looking outside at Bellamy who was directing people around delegating jobs amongst the camp.
"It wasn't just that he needed a working wristband you needed to punish your mother." Finn spoke up.
"She did." I quipped up quickly covering my mouth
"Look," She scoffed. "They're running out of air and we need their help. My mother thinking I'm dead is only temporary." She said as Monty piped up.
"Not if I can't patch it through the drop ship mainframe." I looked at them. "Well figure you'll figure it out, from what I've seen you're the smartest one we got down here. You're our best chance." I told him as he smiled to me.
"I can do it." He said noticing the three of us where starring at him.
"We'll be talking to the Ark by nightfall." He said again causing the other two to smile. A part of me didn't want us being able to talk to the Ark, but another part of me. A much larger part hoped he was right.
I left the drop ship with my materials followed by Clarke. "I don't understand why you chose Bellamy, Rayne. He's a bad guy, sure he's nice at times but over all look at what he's done. He killed the Chancellor, got Atom killed, made everyone including you willingly take off they're wristbands. Knows someone killed Wells and lets the whole camp think it was a grounder." I looked at her.
"That's because it was a grounder." I said to her harshly. "Them thinking that way is much better than thinking it was someone else. If you haven't forgotten, a lot of people here could have wanted Wells dead. Not to mention up until the night of his death, people could have pointed that finger right at you too. So watch where you point your fingers Clarke. It would get someone killed." I warned her. She rolled her eyes about to speak.
"You can't play judge and jury down here Clarke. Who knows what could happen down here Clarke. If you say anything about it not being what they think it is… Well it could get beyond Bellamy's or even your control. Do you want to be the reason for a full on riot?" I said again as she shook her head.
She walked away from me as I walked over to Charlotte who seemed to be sleeping a lot better; the bags under her eyes had started to vanish. I was happy to know she was better, even if I had my suspicion as to why it was she was doing better. She smiled at me, "Rayne!" She chirped up as I noticed both Bellamy and Murphy's heads shot in my direction at the mention of my name.
"Need some help little bird?" I asked her with a smile as she nodded. We began to fix up and build a blockade that would go outside the wall.
"You seem to be sleeping better." I said to her softly.
She nodded; "Yea, the song you taught me… it's been helping a lot." She said "I sing it to myself every night." I smiled at her.
"I'm glad it helps. It helped me for years. I just wish I knew how the song sounded from the people who sung it originally." I told her, as she laughed, "Probably nowhere near as good as you and I sing it." I laughed, "I'd beg to differ." She rolled her eyes at my response.
A young guy dropped part of a trunk beside Charlotte and I causing her to jump slightly as I heard Murphy call out to him. Looking up at Murphy I studied his face, he wasn't the same guy I had first started talking to. He was so much angrier, full of hate and rage. He was before but now it almost seemed like it was amplified.
"Hey!" He called out to the guy, causing him to look over his shoulder at the on coming Murphy. A lot of people around the camp had grown to hate Murphy and I could understand why they did. However, no matter how cruel he got. I would never bring myself to hate him
"You think the grounders are just gonna sit around and wait for us to finish the wall?" He started to say as a few guys us stopped to stare at the scene. I looked over at Bellamy who was just watching the scene take place. His face showed little expression, he was supposed to be their leader. Yet he acted like he could really care less. Atom's death and Octavia ignoring him was getting to him.
"Maybe we should let the little girl or our wonderful Doctor here do the lifting for you, huh?" He said as a bunch of people started to chuckle around him.
I looked over at Bellamy, my eyes pleading for him to call back Murphy. The last thing either man needed was a mutiny on their hands and which Murphy acting like he does… it was going to happen sooner or later. "Murphy…" I said softly. "Was wonderful not enough babe?" He asked me catching me off guard. I just stared at him my face in utter shock as Bellamy slowly began to make his way over.
"I just needed some water, ok? Then I'll be fine." The guy said well it sounded more like begging.
"Murphy, just let them get some water its hot out, they could use it." I said as Murphy just looked at him, but the way his eyes where looking at me just threw me off a bit. I hated how it sounded in my head, because I was in no way that cocky about myself. However, I knew he wanted me to be with him. Was he snapping because of my constant loyalty to Bellamy?
Bellamy finally walked up to where we all where; "Murphy, get this guy some water." Bellamy told him as he held out his hand for me to come closer to him and away from Murphy. Murphy just looked at him his face full of hurt. Here I was again; choosing Bellamy over him.
"Hey, you got this?" He asked Charlotte who just smiled at him softly, kept his one arm around me as Murphy moved a way from us a little. Charlotte thinking Bellamy was serious made her way to pick up the end of the tree stump. However Bellamy being the big child he is got to it first after letting me go and lifted it up.
"I'm just kidding." He told her with a broad smile as he lifted the entire log up, He started to carry it away but not before pulling me closer to him giving me a tender kiss. "See you in the tent later?" He asked me, sounded more like begging. I nodded as he walked away with the boys. I made my way back to Charlotte, "He's a twit." I told her as she grinned.
"A twit that you love." She said extending the 'O' in love.
"Sure, sure." I told her as I continued to help her bind the blockade. I heard someone walk back up behind us, assuming it was Murphy with the water for the guy who had nearly collapsed. However hearing him unzip his pants caused me to whip around and look at him. "John!" I said to him as he began to urinate on the boy.
"Uhh! What the hell is wrong with you, Murphy?" The boy yelled as he began to stand up, his face full of disgust. As he pushed Murphy back, only to have two guys push him away from Murphy. "Murphy…" I said to him.
"Like what your see Doc?" He asked me with a smirk, my face had begun to turn a lovely shade of red. Since being down here the only penis I'd seen was Bellamy's and that was something I was completely fine with. This I was not comfortable with, Murphy began to walk closer to me as he zipped his pants back up.
"Things you could have had right?" He whispered to me.
"Look at you!" The guy yelled in disgust to Murphy. "What you think Bellamy would say? If he saw you trying to pull moves on his girl?" Murphy scoffed. "You wanted a water break." Murphy said to the guy,
"And she isn't Bellamy's girl, he doesn't do just one girl. He has 'girls'" Murphy said looking me square in the eyes, I could feel the sting in my eyes. I could feel the tears threatening to spill out. Just at the thought of Bellamy two-timing me. Was he? Murphy does spend a whole lot more time with him during the day than I had been.
I stood there my breath hitched in the back of my throat, Murphy turned to look at me. He could tell her hurt me, something he didn't look like he had meant to do. I shook my head at him, why was he being like this? "Get back to work!" He yelled at everyone as he made his way closer to me.
"Rayne…" He said softly, "I didn't mean for it to come out like that." He said.
"No? You meant to tell me I'm being played in a nicer manner? Like 'Oh Rayne, you know that guy you're with every night. Yea he's with other girls too but don't feel bad… at least you're more useful than they are… you're the doctor.' That's why he keeps me around isn't it? It's because I'm the only medic here… figures." I said as I stormed off hearing Murphy call my name.