That night after Monty had told us about all the wristbands Bellamy and I returned to our tent. I looked over at him watching him carefully as I watched him pull off his shirt. He turned slowly looking at me with a soft smirk. "Enjoying yourself?" He asked me.
"You're still wearing way to many articles of clothing for me to be enjoying myself Mr. Blake." I told him coving my mouth to stifle a laugh.
"Oh really?" He asked me as he moved closer to me, peeling my tunic and tank top off me slowly. "Really." I said as I reached up to kiss his lips tenderly.
"I don't know why we never did this sooner…" He said as I watched his eyes drift off.
"What do you mean?" I asked him.
"Nothing," he told me as he caressed my cheek, I shook my head at him. He was always one for secrets, but some how they had begun to bother me less and less.
I soon found myself taking off the rest of my clothing slowly in front of him, wiggling my ass in his face only to watch him as he stopped me from moving taking my hips in his hands. He began to stand up using my body to help him climb up till her was towering over me from behind. Pulling me right against his bare chest.
"I don't think I'll ever get used to this Ray." He told me kissing my neck softly.
"I don't want to get used to it, your kisses make me weak. I think it might be the only time I enjoy being weak." I admitted to him as I turned in his arms.
"I don't know how you plan on having sex with your pants on Bel." I told him as I bit my lip softly.
He let out a soft groan before he too continued to remove the rest of his clothing. Collapsing to the ground slowly he cupped my face again taking a chance to look over me. "You are so beautiful." He told me slowly.
"I love you Bellamy…" I said softly catching him off guard.
"You do?" He asked.
"Do you not want me to?" I asked moving away from him a little pulling the blankets up to cover myself. He instantly moved them away from me moving himself so he was holding himself up over top of me.
"I do, I'm just surprised." He told me.
"Bellamy; you haven't let me leave your side in over a month. Do you really think I at this point would still be trying to push away your horrible advances towards me?" I giggled.
"They were not horrible, you loved the attention I was giving you." He said matter-o-factly.
"Oh yea, Bellamy Blake, I just couldn't get enough of you. I want you—I need you." I laughed again, "Hey!" He said as he began to kiss my neck all over again.
"I just I needed you…" he told me, as I leaned up pulling him down closer to my lips, "I think I will always need you Bellamy." I finished telling him as I connected out lips.
Waking up to a loud snapping noise I looked up at Bellamy from where I was resting on his chest, "Bells?" I said to him noticing he had woken up too.
"You heard it too?" He asked looking at me, I just nodded to him as we both stood up him pulling on a pair of pants as I wrapped a lighter blanket around me looking over at him as he cupped my cheek once again kissing me softly on the forehead.
"Check it out!" Someone called out as many people had started to leave their tents.
"Bellamy! Get out here!" Some girl I recognized as Roma. One of the few girls I had grown fond of down here.
Once the two of us had left the tent we made our way over to a clearing. I looked over at Octavia who grinned wildly at me. "You guys really aren't quite you know." She said with a smirk.
"Shut up." I said as I playfully nudged her.
Bellamy soon pulled his arms around me holding me close to him as possibly could. I looked up at him from his arms as he kissed my forehead again. "There!" Octavia pointed up at the sky once she'd noticed Bellamy was with the two of us.
I noticed Murphy was near by watching Bellamy and I closely. I lowered my head to avert his gaze. Seeing him made me feel so guilty on the inside. I shouldn't feel guilty when I love Bellamy, as my friend Murphy should accept that and support that I'm happy. However instead he always looked like he was plotting a thousand ways to kill Bellamy.
I sighed before Bellamy lifted my chin up to look at what everyone was raving about around us. It looked like a shooting star at first, till it sprouted a parachute and began to slow down still heading towards the ground. I grinned looking at Bellamy, "This is a good thing right?" I asked him as he sighed, "I don't know Babe." He said.
"They're coming to help us." Jones said from behind us. "Now we can kick some grounder ass." He continued as a few people shouted in agreement.
I could feel Bellamy's body tense up against mine, which only made me worry a little bit. I looked at him, "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, don't worry." He whispered to me.
"Please tell me they brought down some shampoo." Some girl that had been hopping tent to tent with the boys over the past few weeks said. Of course she'd need shampoo she'd need to wash the skank right off of her.
I heard Bellamy swallow harshly, only causing me to worry. Why was he so upset about them sending people down, what was he afraid of? He turned around walking towards the tent we hold our 'meetings' in, quickly rushing back to our tent pulling my clothing back on, I rushed towards where Bellamy was, entering the tent I looked over at him. "What aren't you telling me Bel?" I asked him.
He was about to answer when some of the people he'd appointed as leaders amongst the people had showed up along with Octavia who took her place right beside me pulling me into a side hug. "Hey pretty lady." I said to her as she laughed.
"If it's cleared the ridge, it's probably near the lake." Jones began to explain to Bellamy as Octavia and I began to look at the map.
"We're really getting help." She whispered to me, I squeezed her shoulder. "I'm kind of excited." I admitted to her.
"We should get moving." Octavia spoke up, "Everyone's ready." I looked over at her and nodded along with her.
"No one's going anywhere." Bellamy said from next to me. "Not while it's dark. It isn't safe." He said looking at me.
"He's right." I said quickly. He smiled softly at me before speaking again, "We'll head out at first light. Pass the word." He told the others.
Octavia waited behind as everyone left the tent, "Everyone for 100 miles saw this thing come down." She told him quietly "What if the grounders get to it first?" She asked him, he looked at me for a moment before turning back around to face her. "Bell, we should go now." She said again.
"I said we wait until sunrise." He told her taking my hand and leading me out and back to our own tent.
"Bellamy, what are you doing?" I asked him watching as he began to rummage through the tent.
"Do you trust me?" He asked me catching me off guard. What kind of stupid question was that, of course I trusted him. I trusted him with my life.
"Are you seriously asking me that right now?" I said arching my brow.
"Come with me…" He said softly.
"To the drop ship?" I asked him as he nodded softly.
"I have to… get there first Ray." He told me.
"Why do you have to get there first?" I asked him.
"Please just, trust me." He said his eyes begging me.
"Then we need to hurry, Octavia wont stay away long. She knows your up to something I can see it in her eyes." I told him as he nodded taking my hand and leading me out of the tent and towards the back exit of the camp.
Bellamy was dragging me through the forest for what felt like hours. Weaving in and out of the bushes, hiding behind trees and rocks. I stopped him, "Ok enough running, please. We have at least another two hours before the sun starts to rise." I told him, "So please, slow down."
He stopped and rushed to my side, holding me up looking into my eyes tenderly. "Sorry, Ray I just, I need—" I cut him off,
"Get to the drop ship first, yea I know. Why though Bells?" I asked him softly.
"Trust me." Was all he said as we had continued to make our way through the forest once the sun had risen it was easier to maneuver through the woods.
"Bellamy, are you sure this is the right way?" I called to him.
"Yea, the river is this way so the pod has to be in this direction." He said as he made his way back to me kissing me lightly on the head again.
"Bellamy, Rayne!" We both whipped out heads around to see Octavia run towards us from the direction we had just come from. She was following us, smart girl. She constantly proved to me why I liked her so much; she was so much like me. Headstrong and always trying to figure out what's going on in the mind of the men in our lives.
"What are you guys doing?" She asked us.
"Go back to camp. It isn't safe." He said to her.
"Rayne's here." She pointed out, "She's fine with us Bells." I said to him softly as she smiled at me. She knew no matter how much I loved her brother, I would always be there to support her and take her side.
"Bellamy, you lied to everyone. You lied to me, why are you dragging Rayne into this too?" She asked him.
"You just want whatever's in that pod—" She continued to say getting up in Bellamy's face. However Bellamy harshly shoved her backwards and yelled at her, "Just go home!"
"Bellamy!" I yelled at him rushing to Octavia's side to make sure she was all right, "Why would you do that?" I said to him as he looked at me his eyes breaking at the sight of how upset I was with him.
"No, he always wants to play the big brother, the lover, huh? Don't you?" She said advancing at him again. "Well, guess what? Joke's on us." She finished off saying as I looked at Bellamy shaking my head at him. "You're just a selfish dick." She said again.
"I did all this for you, and to protect you both." He said I looked at him unsure why he brought me into this. He came down here for Octavia, he didn't even know who I was before we got to Earth. Didn't he?
"If the Ark finds out we're alive, they'll come down." He said to her as I walked up behind her resting a hand on my shoulder feeling her relax. "And when they do…" Bellamy said as he ran his fingers through his hair standing straight up before bending back down to her level. "I'm dead." He said simply.
Octavia turned around and looked at me her eyes full of confusion and shock. My expression mirrored that, he always mentioned to me that if they came down he would be killed. That the Ark was going to kill him, was I finally going to find out why he was so worried about them? Why he was so afraid?
"What did you do?" Octavia said backing away from him slightly moving closer to me, she had taken the words right from my mind. What did he do?
"I shot him." Bellamy said, closing his eyes. He stood there awkwardly, his entire body unsure and scared of our reactions to what his next words would be. "I shot Jaha." He told us.
"What?" Octavia said her voice not anything above a whisper.
"Bellamy…" I said my voice barely audible; he killed the chancellor that's why he didn't want them to come down. At least that made sense. Why would he shoot him though, yea sure all of us down here had our own reasons for wanting the Chancellor dead, much like many had wanted revenge on Wells because of Jaha.
He looked at me before lowering his head, that wasn't it. There was defiantly more that he wasn't telling me. Why was he being so secretive? If I haven't left his side by now what made him think I would leave it if he told me? Was what he was hiding worse than I had thought it was?
"I found out they where sending you both to Earth. I couldn't let you two go alone. Someone came to me with a deal— Do this. Kill Him, and they'd get me on the drop ship." He said again. "And I did it."
He kept saying, both of us; or the two of us. Why would he keep including me in this when I had never met him before a month ago? Had he known me before we got down here? I narrowed my eyes at him, "Both of us?" I said softly causing Octavia to look at me.
"Yea, both?" She said he stood up straight and took in a deep breath.
"Wait, you killed the Chancellor?" Octavia said as I shook my head looking at him, I could tell from her voice, which was shaky that she was holding back tears. Much like myself, I didn't want to believe that he was a killer. I couldn't believe that, he hadn't killed anyone since we've come down.
"He floated our mother, her parents." He continued to say. "He locked you both up without cause."
I looked at him, I couldn't remember if I had told him about my parents or not. If I had told him everything about why I was down here. Was I really that caught up in being with him that I couldn't even remember something as simple as explaining my entire life to someone?
That's when it hit me, I never told Bellamy about my family. Murphy sure as hell wouldn't tell him something that personal. Not when it had to do with me so how did he know about that? I looked at him my entire body still unsure of what to do or say or how to handle what was going on.
"He deserved it." Bellamy said again snapping me out of my thoughts.
"I didn't ask you to do that." She told him, "Bellamy, why would you kill him… I would have taken care of her down here regardless…" I told him. It was true, I had come down here fully prepared to play the mother role to the younger girls.
"You're right." He said to Octavia. "Both of you are, you both could have been fine down here till the grounders found the camp." He said. "But I made the choice. This is on me." He said.
"Whatever they sent down, I'll take care of it." He said softly.
"Bells." I said slowly walking towards him.
"I didn't ask for any of this." Octavia said again slowly as she turned around and began to walk off in one direction. Bellamy looked at me lowering his head.
"You hate me." He stated.
I sighed taking in a deep breath. "No, I love you." I told him, "Look, I'll make sure she gets back to camp all right? You go get whatever it is you need to get and meet me back at the tent tonight ok? You have a lot of explaining to do." I told him as I pulled him closer to me aggressively, kissing him softly of the lips before rushing after Octavia.
"Hey!" I called to her as I caught up to her finally.
She turned to face me, "Sorry…" she sighed.
"For what Oh? You have every right to be upset with him, you do. I'm even pissed off with him, however in the same breath he is the one keeping us both safe."
She shrugged, "Yea I know but it just, it bugs me that he thinks he has this power over me, like I'm to young or too stupid to understand anything. He tells me nothing!" She shouts the last part.
I stopped her for a moment, "Trust me when I say, he doesn't tell me anything either. One time he mentioned seeing me in the mess hall, than just now saying he knew I was imprisoned, knew about my parents, and that I was being sent down. All things that I never told him Oh… trust me… I'm just as far out of the loop as you are." She sighed looking at me nodding,
"Yea, I know but it's just… he should be able to trust us. If not me you, you're his girlfriend." I laughed, "and you're his sister." I pointed out causing her to smile.
"Look, let's just go for a walk blow off some steam, then head back to camp for some food… maybe a nap. Maybe even get big bad Clarkes perspective on this." I said, "You know without telling her about the Chancellor thing, or where Bellamy had run off to." She laughed.
"Yea next thing you know she'll get us lynched." She giggled rolling her eyes.
"Sounds like a Clarke thing to do, she's probably back at camp hiding from Murphy's wrath. God knows he wants her dead and gone after that stunt she pulled."
Octavia nodded, "Is it weird that I like her, but also kind of want to bash her face in with a shovel or something?"
I laughed, "Good lord no, I've known her; her entire life and trust me… as much as I love her, there have been many times I would have been ok with knocking her unconscious."
Octavia laughed lightly before I hushed her, something was behind us, "Octavia, run…" I whispered to her harshly as the two of us made a run for it. I noticed Octavia trip in front of me rolling down the side of the hill. "Octavia!" I cried out only to slip on a wet patch of grass and mud rolling down next to her, hitting my face off a rock in front of me.
I looked up trying to muster every ounce of strength I had left in me. I began to crawl towards her; my arm was in a terrible amount of pain, as was my ankle. I could feel myself getting drowsy; I knew right away I had a concussion. I made my way so that I was right next to Octavia our heads apart by inches before blackness.
AUTHORS NOTE : NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE IN BELLAMY'S POINT OF VIEW. HEADS UP.