Bellamy's Point of View
I watched as Rayne ran after my sister; at least I knew they would be heading back to the camp that they would be safe. That was all I wanted, was them to be safe. I knew when I got back Rayne was going to drill me about letting it known that I was here for the both of them. Honestly; I was afraid she was going to look at me like I was some sort of stalker.
Shaking my head I turned back towards where the drop ship was, as much as I loved them I needed to do this. If I died there was no way I could protect them. Sure it was selfish towards all the people on the Ark, the kids back at the camp.
But I needed to do this; I needed to keep my girls safe.
I ran the rest of the way knowing Octavia was right; grounders could have tried getting to this pod first. Now that it was dawn I would only imagine that the rest of the camp was now on their way towards the drop ship, or hunting the camp for me.
I finally saw it sitting there in the distance, it was nearly completely destroyed, smoke coming from all angles of the thing. Walking up to it I wasted no time opening the door and looking inside it. They sent a person, no food, and no medical supplies; no help of any kind just a person. This pod was useless.
"Pod one, pod one, this is Ark station medical." As soon as the words hit my ears I knew exactly what this was, they sent this person down to make contact with the one hundred. Since the wristbands all stopped working they needed a back up plan. Whoever this was, was that plan.
I looked over at where the sound was coming from, a small radio off to the side. Quickly pulling out my knife keeping my eye on the person barely awake in the seat next to where I was currently standing I cut all the cords to the radio, ripping it out of the dash it was connected to.
The Ark would never know this persons land was successful, nor would they know they were free to come down here. They would literally know nothing. It was the only way to keep Rayne and Octavia safe. Without me down here they would both be at the mercy of the new Chancellor who was probably Kane.
I knew about Kane, I had been completely informed that he was Rayne's dad. Trying to keep the affair he had with her mom a secret. Every guardsman had known, my squad leader had told us it was part of the reason he was so eager to have her mother and father floated.
Knowing what kind of scandal that was, would strip him of all his titles. Pathetic man he was probably the real reason she was sent down here, one last piece of his checked past he could get rid of. His loss was just my gain. I quickly began to run away from the crashed pod furthering myself into the woods making my way back towards the riverbed.
I needed to get rid of this Radio; whenever that person woke up they would be looking for it. Once I had reached the riverbed I quickly looked around for the deepest spot I could find. I knew if I told Rayne about what I was about to do it would upset her.
She was too good; she was the kind of girl who liked helping people, saving lives. Probably why she was a doctor in the first place, she needed to look after everyone. I just wish she realized that down here, I would look out for her, I would take care of her, I would be the one to care for her, love her anything she needed. I would do it in a heartbeat.
I looked at the radio one last time debating what I was about to do; Rayne was right she Octavia and I should just leave hike as far as possible they would never find us. Just be the three of us, it wasn't like we had any family no one coming down was coming for us unless to kill us. I took in a deep heavy sigh, or they could come down and take them both from me and kill them. Not an option I wanted to even think about.
I tossed the radio as far away from me as I possibly could into the deepest part of the river. I stood there for a moment thinking about the option I had just given the Ark. They either came down on their own or continued waiting for a call from whoever was in that pod, that would never come. I then turned around and rushed back into the woods. I needed to get back to the camp, hopefully Octavia and Rayne where there already. Ready to discuss what had happened in the woods.
I had made my way back into the center of the forest, well more like half way between the camp and where I had split ways with Rayne and Octavia. When I could hear movement coming from behind me, it only made me walk quicker through the trees. That was until I heard my name being called, and not by a voice I was incredibly fond of.
"Hey!" I heard her again, I wasn't sure what it was about Clarke but every time she opened her mouth I wanted to permanently shut it.
Ray had to have the tolerance of an Angel to have been friends with this girl for so long. Yes of course Clarke was a beautiful girl, but she was so naïve and stupid that I just wanted her to vanish or at least get punched in the face.
If it wasn't for her, Charlotte might still be alive. Sure we lost Wells because of Charlotte but a thirteen-year-old girl killed herself because this idiot had to open her mouth and accuse Murphy to the point that it had gotten to… it was unsalvageable.
I didn't hate Murphy; in fact I understood why he was so angry. Charlotte was never going to speak up about what she did, until it had got to where it did. However if Clarke had just listened to Ray and I, well than maybe Murphy wouldn't want to kill her in her sleep. Maybe Charlotte would still be around, people wouldn't be so on edge. That was all on her.
I slowed down as I could hear Clarke running up next to me putting her hand on my back, I really didn't like her touching me. It made me want to be sick, I don't know why maybe it didn't feel right having someone who wasn't Rayne close to me.
"Where is it?" She asked me harshly, guess she and lover boy had gone to the drop ship too. They must have noticed Rayne and I were gone.
"Hey, Princess. You taking a walk in the woods?" I asked her casually, smirking at her as I glanced towards her from the corner of my eye.
She finally got me to stop walking, so I turned slowly facing her. She looked pretty pissed off about something, probably that time of the month. God was I not looking forward to that with Rayne. We had sex basically every day, twice maybe even three times a day if I was lucky. God a whole week with Ray being just like Clarke? Maybe instead of Periods they should call them Clarkes, it'd be more accurate anyway.
"They're getting ready to kill three hundred people up there. To save oxygen, and I can guarantee you it wont be council members." She whined to me.
I wasn't sure why she thought telling me this would matter to me. I don't care about the people up there; everyone I love is down here. Do I love Rayne? I mean sure I told her I did but did I actually. Of course I did, she and her insanely red hair intoxicated me. I think even back when I first met her on the Ark I knew.
I met her at some stupid masked dance when we were fifteen; she was so much different than she is now. Quiet, gentle, sad, she never strikes me as sad anymore though. Every time I look at her she seems genuinely happy. I look at Clarke who's staring at me, how long was I thinking about Rayne for?
"It'll be working people. Your people." She continued ranting poking me in the chest. I guess she was staring at me because she was ranting not because she was waiting for a response. What made her think I cared about the people up there? Once any of them got down here I was as good as dead.
"Bellamy." Finn said rushing to me pushing me a bit away from Clarke. I guess my immense dislike for her was showing on my face, my bad.
"Where's the radio?" He asked me; what was it with these kids and that stupid radio anyway.
"I have no idea what you're talking about." I said to him through my teeth pushing him back as I got up in his face. I was lying, I knew what he meant I just didn't care.
"Bellamy Blake? They're looking everywhere for you." Some tanned skin girl said from beside me. Now what, who the hell was this? I don't recognize her, she's not from the camp.
"Shut up." I demanded her.
Clarke looked from the girl, to me back to the girl before opening that massive hole in her face once again; "Looking for him why?" She asked.
I killed the chancellor that's why, Jaha is dead and I did it. I don't know why I wouldn't tell them, probably because of Clarkes stunning record of not nearly getting people killed. Even though I would get credits on the fact the entire camp would back me on what I did. He deserved it ten times over, not just for my mom, and what he did to Octavia.
But also for what he put Rayne through, him and that entire council. They knew who her biological dad was and yet they sat by and watched her grow up completely alone. What kind of sick society does that to a child, after killing its parents first, oh that's right… The Ark does.
"He shot Chancellor Jaha." The girl said, god she was just as annoying as Clarke was. It was like neither of them knew how to keep their mouths shut.
The second she said it, Finn, Clarke and the dumb new broad where all staring at me like I had committed some immoral sin of murdering an infant. Jaha was just a man, easily enough to be replaced by some new high breed scum. That's all he was, was a replaceable bag of air.
"That's why you took the wristbands." Clarke began to say, staring right at me judging me. She had no place to really, after the bullshit she's pulled down here. "Needed everyone to think we're dead."
She was catching on, why was it such a bad thing to not want them to come down? Nothing would change laws that they would be putting in place and probably more serve down here since, down here there was more than just animals to worry about.
"And all that 'Whatever the hell we want'? You just care about saving your own skin." Finn continued. I was curious when they where going to let me speak for myself. Its all these two did besides suck face was babble and whine.
"My own skin, there's more than just my own skin that I care about, you would know about that would you?" I said moving away from them.
"I doubt that, I bet the second they'd come down you would bolt leaving Rayne and Octavia to fend for themselves you're a cowards." Clarke said.
"Rayne?" The other girl asked. "Rayne Locke?" She said again.
"How do you know about Rayne…" I demanded.
"She was one of my only friends, her Finn and I grew up in the same sector, she got moved out once her parents where floated but it never stopped us from being together… how is she down here she's twenty-one." She continued.
"You knew her the whole time, on a personal biases?" Clarke said turning to Finn.
"Can we not argue about how I know Rayne… it's not the time." Finn said as I crossed my arms and smirked at them.
They all continued to bicker about how they knew my Rayne so I simply turned around and began to walk back towards the camp, this had been a great chat with now the three most annoying people in the camp but I'd rather be holding Rayne and explaining myself to her, than to these clowns.
"Hey! Shooter! Where's my radio?" The other girl yelled.
"Get out of my way." I snapped at her as she stepped in front of me stopping me from walking.
"Where is it?" She said again, well wasn't she just a sassy girl. Snotty and full of herself just like Clarke, they will make extraordinary friends.
"I should've killed you when I had the chance." I spat at her, I could have. When I took the radio, I could have easily ended her horrid existence. Then she wouldn't be my problem right now.
"Really? Well, I'm right here." She said challenging me.
She had just plucked my last straw, from Octavia hating my guts, to potentially losing Rayne, to these two constantly bickering in my ear and causing problems. This moron was about to get my last held nerve. I grabbed her by the scuff of her shirt and pinned her against a tree quickly moving my hands to her neck pulling out my blade holding it to her neck as the other two rushed to her aid.
How noble.
The girl herself pulled out her own blade holding it out closely to my face, well played pod girl very well played. "Where's my radio?" She asked again giving me a look that just made my skin crawl.
I looked at her for what seemed like forever, did she really think I was going to give it up that easily just because she thinks she bested me? She must be friends with Clarke, she always did think she had me figured out but she doesn't she had no clue.
"Ok, stop it." Clarke said, attempting to be the voice of reason once again.
I wanted so badly to just snap her neck but I couldn't, I wouldn't let that get back to Rayne and Octavia, have them hate me even more than they possibly already did. I pushed her back more against the tree before letting her go and swiftly moving away from her, keeping them all at a distance from me.
"Jaha deserved to die. You all know that." I started to tell them, "Yea, he's not my favorite person, either." The girl cut me off. "But he isn't dead." She finished saying.
I felt stunned for a moment she just said he wasn't dead? But I could have sworn that I shot him, I saw the blood. I kept my eyes on the girl, what would this mean… what did this mean? I wasn't a killer that much was apparent but what would that mean for me if the Ark did manage to send everyone down here.
"What?" I said barely understanding the word as I said it.
"You're a lousy shot." She said her voice slightly cracking.
There was no way she was telling the truth, I knew I had shot and killed him, he had to be dead. She was playing tricks on me, or lying. Possibly both, I started walking back towards them slowly. I could feel the tension in my eyes from them being opened so wide, I don't think I've been this shocked.
"Bellamy, don't you see what this means? You're not a murderer." Clarke said as she closed the space between the four of us putting her hand on my shoulder. I don't think I fully comprehended what the girl said to me. I was staring at Clarke by this point as she continued to speak to me. "You always did what you had to do to protect your sister." Clarke told me.
"And Rayne." The girl said from behind me, "I knew I recognized you, you stalked her." She said chuckling.
"I didn't stalk Rayne." I said harshly.
"Seemed like it, don't worry she never noticed it. She was far to depressed to notice anything." She continued, I ignored her and focused back on what Clarke was saying to me.
"That's who you are." She continued. "And Bellamy, you can do it again, by protecting three hundred of your people. Where's the radio?" She asked again as I looked towards the ground.
Even if I didn't kill Jaha, I still attempted to kill him. They would still hunt me down and kill me when they got to Earth. How was I supposed to protect my girls if I was still being hunted or worse? Bet you don't have those answers do you Clarke? What should I hand over Octavia to Jasper, and Rayne to Murphy?
She had to be mental.
"It's too late." I told her, I wasn't lying either. The radio was in the water and probably beyond any repair. "How did you even know I was gone Clarke?"
"We went to your tent, Murphy was in there looking for Rayne." Finn said solemnly.
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We had gone back to the camp to gather a few people to search for the radio in the river; I was over in a brush with the new girl. Raven was her name and she was apparently Finn's girlfriend. Now I see why Rayne acted like she didn't know him. She didn't want to be apart of the drama that was now a love triangle where Raven was a clueless bird.
"Hey. I found it." Jones yelled causing Finn and Clarke to spin around and head towards him, I stood up from my crouched position as Raven glared at me.
"You and Rayne…" She said, "Is that a problem for you?" I asked her. She didn't answer me, figures as much. Raven just ran off towards Jones to grab the radio, I just took in a deep breath before rolling my eyes and heading off towards them.
I barely made it into the water and Raven and the rest returned to where I was standing, she was inspecting the radio for damage. Which was the entire radio, I hocked it into that river pretty damn hard.
"Can you fix it?" Clarke asked her.
"Maybe. But it'll take half a day just to dry out the components to see what's broken." Great, here comes another wonderful rant from Clarke about how terrible I am.
"Like I said, it's too late." I told them as I crossed my arms over my chest watching them closely.
"Do you have any idea what you did?" Clarke asked charging at me, and here it is right on time another angry Clarke conversation. I can see this going incredibly well, I just wanted to head back to the camp.
"Do you even care?" She asked me, tricky question. Sure I cared about the people on the Ark.
"You asked me to help. I helped." I told her my face void of expression. Of course I felt terrible for all the children that where left on the Ark, the people who where lesser off, the poor…
"Three hundred people are going to die today because of you." Clarke yelled getting in my face, "Hold up." Raven said causing Clarke to turn around.
"We don't have to talk to the Ark. We just have to let them know we're down here right?" She asked, well my hands where now officially cleaned, they could have fun with that attempt of communication.
"Yeah, but how do we do that with no radio?" Finn asked. Raven just smiled at him as she began to play with the radio once again.
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I walked back to the camp watching as everyone scrambled around to get these rockets ready to launch into the sky. I guess even though they all acted like they where all ok with not bringing them down here. They still wanted to help the Ark, didn't see that one coming.
I walked closer to the center of the camp where they had finished building the launch pads, and began to put the rockets against them. They had all been moving around so quickly. I guess a part of me was hoping that the Ark would see it. I just hoped if they did see it that when they got back down here, they would grant me immunity for keeping the group of kids alive and together.
Keeping them safe.
They finally launched the rockets off into the air as they let off a bright purple light tailing behind them. The entire camp was standing around watching them fly up into the air. Hope was filling all of their eyes, excitement. Was this what they needed? Did they need the Ark's inhabitants to come down here?
Rayne would love this; she would probably be curled into me right now. Her arms wrapped around my torso, her hands gripping my shirt. Her head lightly leaning on my chest, I could only imagine the amount of hope that would be filling her eyes.
She'd probably be telling me how happy she was that I was willing to help tell the Ark that it was safe down here. I could only hope she'd tell me that she loved me. She and Octavia still weren't back, or they where and they where just avoiding me.
I could see Murphy standing not to far away from me, he was staring me down. Glaring at me, hate filling his eyes. I suppose they girls where in the camp avoiding me. Rayne or Octavia must have told him what I said in the forest about killing Jaha. The second I find them, I'll tell them how he's still alive.
I noticed Clarke was standing next to me watching me as I stared up at the rockets soaring through the sky. I could feel her staring at me; I don't know why she must know that I hate her. I just hoped wherever Rayne and Octavia where that they could see the efforts everyone had put in to make the Ark see it.
"Think they can see it from up there?" I asked Clarke.
"I don't know. I hope so." She said softly, apart of me felt sorry for her. Her mom got her father kill, her sent to confinement. The one person she liked down here betrayed her. I took her only living friend, and her best friend was buried just out side the walls of our camp.
And yet there were still no bones in my body that made me want to comfort her, was I that incapable of compassion to anyone besides the girls? Was I really a monster?
"Can you wish on this kind of shooting star?" She asked me.
I glanced at her giving her the weirdest look possible; I had no idea what the hell it was she was talking about. Wishes? Shooting stars? What have she and Finn been talking about when they would run off together? If she were talking about wishes I would defiantly wish for Rayne to be here in my arms.
"Forget it." She sighed.
"I would probably wish for Rayne to forgive me, she seemed really upset when I told her that I killed Jaha, and that I've known her for years without her realizing it… Wish for her to still love me, be here in my arms." I told her my voice hushed.
She turned to face me; "You really do love her don't you?" She asked.
"Yea, I do." I said softly. "What about you? What would you wish for?" I asked her. I guess trying to be her friend wasn't so bad; she wasn't hard to talk to when she wasn't being a total shit disturber.
She didn't say anything; I turned slightly and noticed that she was starring at Finn. "Maybe if you wish on everyone of these stars, it'll come true. Just to be sure." I told her, Rayne would be happy that I was trying to be nice to Clarke.
Clarke smiled softly, "Thanks." She finally said.