It had been a few days since Octavia had told me the news about our grounder friend. That he could speak English, that he understood us. Every chance she and I could get we would go up there and talk to him. Learn about him, Bellamy and I eventually sat down and talked things over.
As much as I wanted to just get over it I couldn't. He may have tried explaining to me over and over again that there was nothing going on between him and Clarke. However I found it hard to believe when I would wake up to find him gone. Only to find out he had left me in the middle of the night to go talk to her.
Anytime I asked either what they would be talking about I would get stonewalled. That was until I finally just stopped talking to either, stopped sleeping in Bellamy's tent with him. I spent all my time with Raven, Octavia, Jasper and Monty. Raven wasn't by choice but because I was constantly forced to talk to the people on the Ark.
I looked over at Octavia who was helping a few of the others with the clean up and packaging of food rations for the coming winter. "I'll be back, bringing food up to the grounder." I told her as she smiled at me nodding before I made my way up the ladder to the top.
I opened the hatch and found Bellamy sitting there on a box staring at the ground. As much as I would have loved to run over to him, hold him close to me and kiss him. I couldn't, I wouldn't let myself be lied to, cheated, and walked all over.
I could feel his eyes follow me as I made my way over to the grounder with some fruit and a small cup of fresh water. "Rayne…" I heard Bellamy say as the hatch opened again.
"Did you talk to the Ark?" Bellamy asked as Miller walked closer to where Bellamy and I where situated.
I just kept my eyes on the grounder in front of me. Feeding him, he knew he could trust Octavia and I. We would constantly sneak up here to feed him, clean him; I would be fixing up his wounds. I was almost positive Bellamy knew I was doing that but considering neither of us had spoken to each other in a week or so, he said nothing about me helping the grounder.
"I told Digg's mom the news, John's dad." Miller explained as he watched me care for the grounder intently.
"I'm supposed to talk to Roma's parents later." He continued. "They asked about you Rayne…" He said turning to me.
"Thanks." I said shortly.
"Thanks for doing that. I owe you." Bellamy said softly, yet his voice held little to no expression.
"Telling all these parents that their kids were murdered by grounders, I just wish I could say we were getting some justice." Miller told him.
I scoffed causing the grounder to give me a look as if telling me to calm down. "Say something Rayne?" Miller asked me.
"Leave her alone." Bellamy told him as I heard Miller sigh.
"We're not killing him." Bellamy finally said after a few moments of silence.
"You where a lot scarier when you had that face paint on." Miller said as he pushed me away from the Grounder only for Bellamy to quickly stand up and make sure I didn't move to far or fell to the ground.
I felt myself wretch myself out of his arms looking at him as I shook my head. I saw his face drop, turning to an expression filled with sadness. "All you had to do was be honest with me." I said under my breath to him, before moving away from him.
Once Miller had slapped some of the berries I had brought for the grounder on his face, the grounder head but him to the floor. Cause me to smirk at the grounder, "And you thought I should calm down." I mumbled to the man causing him to smirk at me before his expression went back to his typical cold one.
"Ray please… just hear me out." Bellamy asked me as Miller was leaving down the hatch.
"You had almost two weeks to explain what you where doing, explain the secrets and the sneaking around. Funny thing is I believed you when you told me there was nothing going on with you and Clarke. That you refused to lose me over her… then starting nearly the next day you begin to ditch me for her and sneak around with her." I sighed running my hands through my hair.
"So no, Bellamy… I'm done hearing you out. Just… leave me alone for a while let me think on my own without you trying to make up my mind for me." I told him as I went down the hatch towards the first level.
I stood there taking a deep breath running my hands through my hair a second time before Raven walked towards me. "Hey…" She mumbled.
"I'm over it Raven, no need to still be walking on egg shells." I told her as she nodded.
"You and Bellamy still aren't talking?" She asked me.
"Why should I be talking to him, he's got Clarke to talk to." I snapped.
"I know all about Clarke walking in on uninvited territories." She murmured.
"I don't know what pisses me off more." I sighed, "The fact that she knew the whole time how much I love him, or the fact that she knew and didn't give a shit."
"Same things really, Clarke knows how much you love Bellamy, and she doesn't seem to care either. She has her own damn agenda down here. Rules don't apply to her, or Bellamy for that matter." Raven admitted as we both left the drop ship and headed towards the tent where the video COM was set up.
"I'll pretend I didn't hear that, wouldn't want another mob lynching on our hands, Clarke is very good and getting people nearly killed for utterly no reason at all." I snarled as Raven smirked. "Cheer up… he'll come around." I rolled my eyes, "You're next." She said looking at me.
"Get Dax when you're done his mom's after you." I nodded as I watched Clarke wonder off, probably trying to find Bellamy. Like usual.
I entered the tent and sat down in the chair as I put the head set on my head. I didn't know who to expect, or what to expect till I watched Kane sit down on the seat before me. He looked broken, drunk, ruined, and guilty even.
"You…you." He stuttered out.
"Dad." I said softly. It was the first time I had ever called him that and actually felt a meaning behind the word.
"You're looking… well." He told me.
Clearly he wasn't sure what fathers where supposed to say to their daughters at a time like this. Not that I blamed him, up until a few months ago I wasn't even aware he was my dad. I smiled at him, "As well as I can be, you'll love it when you get down here." I told him.
"I just hope… we can work on things together Rayne, be a real family… what I did to your father, and then never being there for you… I need to reprimand that."
I smiled, "You will; dad?" I asked him softly.
"Yea?"
"Can you do me a favor?" I asked him. "Anything."
"Convince the Chancellor to Pardon… Bellamy Blake… he saved my life countless times, he save everyone's lives countless times… there has to be something." I told him.
"Rayne." He said his voice filling with sorrow. "If I could I would, I fear the chancellor no longer listens to my suggestions. I would suggest talking to your friend Clarke."
I let out a deep breath. "No, that's fine I'll think of something, I have to go… Dax's turn." I said as I stood up and left the tent to go find Dax. Who to be honest, I had no idea who that was.
"Dax?" I called out, no one turned around. "Dax?" I called out again, I felt a hand on my shoulder to see Murphy standing next to me pointing towards a guy off in the distance.
"Have you and Bellamy talked yet?" He asked me.
"No, John we haven't." I said coldly.
"Well can you, him being a mopey mess is worse than him being an angry beast." He teased as I rolled my eyes. "Go." I said shaking my head and making a light jog towards the boy Murphy had pointed out to me.
"Dax?" I said again as a rather tall guy turned around to face me, I had to admit he was really attractive. How I had never even seen him around camp before was beyond me.
He had short, really short brown hair, with eyes that where either a soft pale blue or green. He had a very soothing face, in the sense it was really nice to stare at. "Hey, Rayne? Right?" He asked me.
God even his voice was dreamy, I shook the thoughts from my head. Didn't matter how pissed off with Bellamy I was. I still loved him and this felt wrong. "Yea, hey so you're mom's in there waiting to talk to you." I told him.
"Thanks… uh Rayne." He called to me as I was beginning to walk away from him.
"If you ask me; walking away from Bellamy… was a smart choice…" He told me as he winked at me before walking away towards the vidcom tent.
"Who was that?" Octavia asked as she walked towards me.
"That is apparently Dax." I told her with a chuckle as she and I began to walk back towards the drop ship.
"You know, you don't have to forgive Bellamy for all his bullshit and lies." She said to me after we got to the make shift couches on the first level of the drop ship.
"I know." I told her as I sat down.
"I sure as hell wont be forgiving him anytime soon. Let him stew in the mess he and Clarke created. I'm tired of being second to last to him because of her constant needy demands for attention." She began to rant.
"Agreed, but hey… could be worse." I told her as she leaned back to look at me. "You could be me, and actually the least important thing to him." I said as she rolled her eyes.
"As much as I would love to punch him in the face repeatedly… Bell's is jut being an idiot. He loves you and sooner or later he'll realize what he has to do to fix what he's done between you two."
"Yea, if by that time the damage is even reversible." I sighed.
Bellamy made his way to the bottom of the ladder and looked at both Octavia and I before fiddling with his hands and taking a deep breath. "Oh well look who it is." Octavia snapped at him.
"I deserve that, I deserve a lot of your anger." He told her, "both of you."
"I deserve answers Bellamy, and until you feel like explaining everything to me… you deserve absolutely nothing from me… not even my anger." I told him.
"Rayne, please… it wasn't what you where thinking. Clarke and I took on the roles of leaders to this group. Sometimes we have to discuss things." He attempted to explain.
"Yea, at the crack of dawn, might night, the times you should be sleeping with your woman. All amazing times to be chatting it up to your skanky man stealing co-leader." Octavia teased looking at me causing me to smirk.
"I deserved that." He said taking a deep breath.
"Why are you still sitting here Octavia?" He asked her.
"I'm not moving until you let me up there to see him." She said her voice drained of emotion.
"Get comfortable." He told her harshly.
"And you wonder why she refuses to forgive you." I snapped.
"I let him live. Isn't that enough?" Bellamy half yelled to her, ignoring my snappy comment.
"He saved my life and Rayne's. Possibly even yours." She said sitting up from the seat she was in.
"I know you see it that way, but—" He began to say; I noticed he had tears swelling up in his eyes. God how I wanted to just stand up and wipe them away.
"That's the way it is." Octavia cut him off.
"He's still dangerous." Bellamy told her.
"Only because of what you did. He would never hurt Rayne or Me." She told him causing him to look at me, as I sit there leaned back in the chair my arms crossed over my chest.
"Whatever twisted connection you think you have with that animal, forget it." He said as he shoved his hands into his pocket. "You don't get to see him end of conversation."
"Why do you even care if I ruined your life?" Octavia asked, "I mean you seem to have a great track record for things like that ask Ray." She sassed.
"Leave me out of it." I mocked.
"You should want me to go up there, both Rayne and I." She started. "Maybe you'll get luck and he'll kill us both. Then you want have to deal with either of us around here, can go on not having to protect someone you don't care about and you can be with Clarke without hesitations." She said to him her voice filled with attitude.
"Octavia, you know I didn't mean that and I don't want Clarke. You both know that." He told us causing Octavia to roll her eyes.
He began to look at me, I suppose hoping for a reaction out of me. However I would stay strong, I cannot give in till he tells me everything I want to know.
"Bellamy," Clarke said as she walked into the drop ship causing Octavia to scoff.
"The answer is still no." He said catching me off guard. "I'm not talking to Jaha." He said causing me to shake my head and roll my eyes. Not what I was expecting him to say, or hoping for him to say… but still interesting.
"Hey, relax." She told him.
"That's not why I'm here." She said attempting to hush her voice from Octavia and I.
"What then?" He asked her harshly, clearly annoyed with her. Which was also a surprise to me.
"The Ark found some old records that show a supply depot not to far from here." She explained.
"What kind of supplies?" He asked her as his eyes had landed on me as I had stood up from my place in the seat.
"The kind that might give us a chance to live through the winter." She told him. "I'm gonna go check it out. I could use some back up."
"You would come crawling to Bellamy, Finn's got a girlfriend who would probably murder you in your sleep if you went after him again, so why not go for the guy with the girlfriend who's hearts shattered no thanks to you." Octavia scoffed.
"Octavia not now." Bellamy warned.
"Why are you asking me to come as back up?" He asked her.
"Well, because right now, I don't feel like being around anyone I actually like." She explained.
"The people you don't like don't want you around either." Octavia told her. Causing Bellamy to take yet another deep breath.
I could feel Bellamy staring at me as I had sat back down again. "I'll get my stuff, meet you in ten." He told her as I shook my head. That was pretty much my last straw, wont explain anything to me about what's going on between them but will take off for who knows how long alone with her. Of course he would.
Octavia and I just turned to stare at him after Clarke left the drop ship. He lowered his head clearly wanting to say something to the two of us but as always just staying silent. "And you wonder why you're losing Rayne." Octavia said as she turned back away from him.
"Come with us." He asked me.
"Oh yea, Bellamy that sounds like something in my dreams… being the third wheel to the amazing adventures of Bellamy and Clarke. I'll pass." I snapped at him again.
"I meant so we could talk about all this, the three of us… so you can see it's not what you think it is." He told me.
"Bellamy, you made up your mind. So go live with your choices." I told him as I pushed past him and made my way towards Raven and Finn's tent to check up on his wounds.
This day could only get longer, and that wasn't something I was looking forward too.
-Next Chapter will be in BOTH Bellamy and Rayne's Point's of view.-