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Nessa
"So how did Bellamy take it when you told him?" Clarke soft voice came from next to me as I turned my head on the soft grass below my head.
"Well, I haven't exactly told him." I chuckled.
"Ray you can't just not tell him something like that!" She exclaimed as she rolled over onto her side propping her head up on her hand.
"Well he said it was against the rules to leave the camp… I wasn't about to tell him, while he thought we where gathering the last bits of fruit that we're actually roaming around the wreckage." I rolled my eyes looking back up at the tree tops.
"It's you. I don't think any rules he makes will ever apply to you. Or me for that matter, its like he knows I wouldn't listen to him anyway." Clarke laughed.
"Is it weird that every time I fall asleep… I think about and remember all the times I'd bumped into Kane, or had to deal with him?" I asked her, "It's just like I remember them and every time I see like he's being a father to me… protecting me, watching over me… but when it happened I thought he was being an ass…"
Clarke put her free hand on my shoulder, "He is your dad, and hey I always have dreams about my mom now… sometimes there nightmares even… Octavia a few times had to shake me awake." She told me.
"I just wish I got more time with him…. You know like real time, like father-daughter time. Now he's dead, either ash or bone laying out in that field." I said feeling the heat of the tears burning my eyes.
"Hey, we both lost our parents." She said calmly.
"I'm not saying I'm worse off than you Clarke… I'm just jealous that you actually got to know your mom on a mother-daughter basis not… Council member, delinquent basis."
She nodded; "I see what you mean, and hey… we have each other now, and you have Bellamy… that's something? Maybe when the grounder threats completely dealt with you and him can start a family of your own." She smiled.
I couldn't help myself from laughing, and laughing hard at that. So hard that my stomach had started to hurt, I turned to face Clarke tears streaming down my face only to watch her roll her eyes. "What?" She said with a smirk on her lips.
"You can actually see Bellamy wanting a family…with me?"
Clarke started to laugh; "I did say eventually when the threat is over when he realizes there's more out there than guns and bad guys."
I smirked; "I'd love to have a family with him." I told her as she smiled.
"How's the whole Finn thing going?" I asked her.
She took in a deep breath before rolling back onto her back and staring back up at the sky; "We…I… it's a secret…" she told me.
"A secret?" I asked her rolling onto my side propping my head up onto my hand much like she had before. "What the hell does that mean?"
"He wants us to come out slowly so it doesn't hurt Raven." She told me.
It had only been a day since Raven and Finn ended things, a day since the viral attack, a day since the bridge, and a day since I began to receive the weird signs. I had shown them to Bellamy, he thinks their messages from the grounders. Just like when Octavia had been getting the flowers from Lincon.
I told him everything that Anya had said to me on the bridge, about how she was coming for me, my suspicions about what they where planning the entire time. He agreed with me on everything, telling me he always knew the grounders would try to kill us all. That he knew the bridge meeting was just a ploy. I was lucky to have him, I was lucky to have Clarke back.
"Maybe we should head back." I sighed.
"Yea, your boyfriends probably starting to look under rocks for us." She laughed as she stood up extending her hand out to me for help.
"Yea and your boyfriends ex might have already attempted blowing your boyfriend up a few times." I teased her.
"She does look like she wants to from time to time." I smirked.
Once we snuck back into the camp I took off towards Bellamy's and my tent to grab the gun he left there for me so I could take up a post. It was the least I could do since Clarke and I were now the joint doctors in the camp. Once inside the tent I began to search for the gun he left for me.
"I told you not to go into the woods." Bellamy's voice startled me causing me to jump, I turned around to look at him, he was angry.
"I'm sorry… Bellamy-" he cut me off by pulling me forward into a kiss. "I don't like you going off like that, Ray… I can't lose you… not after we all almost lost each other the other day."
I nodded before slowly lifting my eyes to meet his, "What is so important out there that you both would risk being killed by a grounder?" He asked me.
"We just talk… we can talk about anything we want and no one can hear us or judge us… we used to do it all the time on the Ark… find a place no one goes too and just chat." I told him.
"Start doing that in the tent… I wont lose you or Clarke… I can't." He told me.
I nodded, "Fine, I'm still patrolling I'll go with Murphy." I told him.
"I don't think so." He said quickly.
"Baby, if we don't want him to suspect we think he's up to something we have to act like we don't know he is." I told him softly.
"He's working in the food hut with Octavia." He told me, "We put Dax on patrols… grounder kills Dax it's not big loss…" he sighed.
"I'll just stay here, rather not be alone with the guy who tried killing my boyfriend." I smirked as Bellamy wrapped his arms around me pulling me closer to him.
"Good choice." He smiled at me locking our lips together, kissing me hungrily. His body pressed against mine tightly as he lingered his hands down my back. I lightly nibbled on his bottom lip causing him to groan. I jumped up as he scooped is hands under my butt holding my weight as he walked us towards the bed not parting our lips for a moment before laying me down on the bed below him.
The next morning I met Clarke for an early bite before the two of us left the camp to watch the horizon lines incase of any grounder attacks. "Someone had a good night last night." She suddenly said nudging my arm causing me to give her a sideways glare.
"Shut up." I mumbled.
"I heard you both, you're not exactly quite or you weren't last night at least."
I rolled my eyes; "That's so awkward Clarke… why…" I mocked myself.
"Sorry." She chuckled before we both began to stare out of the woods for any signs that grounders may be out that way.
"I don't know what scares me more." She said out of the silence we'd created between us.
"The fact that the grounders could be in the trees watching us right now, or that they are doing nothing at all just waiting." She said as she stared out into the mass of trees.
"I think knowing they're out there plotting against us scares me the most. Like we know they're coming, but when they plan on attacking us and how they plan on doing it… is just a mystery." I told her as she turned to face me.
"They are coming." She said, "That much is certain."
"First watch is over." I heard Bellamy say from behind us.
"Go relieve Monroe on the south wall." He said, "Keep your eyes open."
I heard a few twigs signaling us that Bellamy was on his way up the small hill towards us. I felt his arm snack around my waist as he resting his head on the top of mine. Someone was comfortable.
"Anything?" He asked us as I chose to keep quiet and bask in the moment I was having with Bellamy.
"No, but it's been two days." She said.
"Maybe the bomb at the bridge scared them off for good." I piped in. I could feel the vibration in Bellamy's throat from him silently chuckling at my comment.
"Do either of you believe that?" He asked us.
I shook my head to tell him no that I didn't. "No." I heard Clarke say firmly. "They're coming."
Bellamy sighed before removing himself from me as he took my hand. "Jasper thinks he can cook up some more gunpowder, if he gets some sulfur," He said taking me with him as he walked away. I turned my head to see if Clarke was still following and she was. "And Raven says she can turn that into landmines."
I turned again to look at Clarke who was rolling her eyes at the mention of Raven which caused me to break into a fit of giggles. "So you two should start watching where you step." He told us smirking back as us.
"Ha! So funny." Clarke dragged out, "Rayne your dating a comedian here." She said as I laughed.
"Birthday Clown maybe?" I said as she chuckled.
"What I really need is a thousand more of her tin can bombs we can roll into their village and blow those grounders to hell." Bellamy told us.
"I somehow think taking out one of their villages would make a difference they probably have hundreds of villages." I pointed out as Clarke nodded. Clarke turned to look at Bellamy and I giving him a disgusted look.
"That's what they want to do to us."
"I can't believe we survived a hundred years just so we could slaughter each other…" Clarke sighed, "There has to be another way."
"Any word from the Ark?" Bellamy asked as Clarke instantly took my hand and squeezed it. Since the radio silence from the Ark after the Exodus ship crashed we haven't heard from the Ark.
Clarke shook her head, "Still Silence."
"Finally ran out of Air." Bellamy said as I instantly nudge him.
"Maybe Kane and My mom where lucky." She said looking over at me. "Being on the Exodus ship, as least it was quick."
"No one is coming down to save us." She slowly said again letting go of my hand and walking away from us.
"What did I say?" He asked me.
"You suggested slaughtering an entire village… the villages probably only have their young and elderly in them… considering their army hide out in the forest." I told him as he shook his head,
"As long as you're not mad at me." He chuckled dropping his arm over my shoulder.
"After your performance last night, god no Bellamy." I teased him as he rolled his head back and laughed. "So you think your funny that's it?" He asked me as I smiled and began to giggle.
"I happen to know I am very funny Bells." He shook his head as we walked back into the camp and headed towards our own tent. I took off my jacket and sweater tossing them to the ground before looking up at him as he sat on a seat and began to clean the gun.
"Shouldn't we be doing something productive other than sitting around?" I asked him as he looked over to me with a smile.
"I'm good to go again if you are? I mean really I was just giving your body a break." He chuckled.
"You're a pig." I smiled as I walked over to him giving him a kiss on the lips softly. Our foreheads leaning against each other's just as we heard someone shout. "Fire!"
"Now what?" Bellamy groaned as he and I walked out of the tent to see a massive fire engulfing the smoke shack where all the meat was being held. Where Octavia and Murphy had been working for the past two days.
"Bellamy… Octavia…" I said as he and I ran towards the hut to see Murphy dragging her out of the fiery hut and towards safety. Bellamy grabbed Octavia from Murphy and sat her down on a near by log. "Are you ok?" He asked her as I wrapped my arm around her rubbing her shoulders as she looked up at Bellamy.
"Yea," she said as she began to cough. "Yea, I'm fine… Murphy got me out." She choked out. Murphy than rushed out from behind us and marched right over to Del, "This is all your fault." He shouted. "We told you it was too much wood!"
"Get the hell away from me." Del shouted.
I began looking around trying to figure out where Dax was. He was supposed to be watching the wall with Monroe and Miller watching him, yet they where both here by the burning hut with him nowhere to be seen.
My attention was snagged when I felt Bellamy move away Octavia and I to break up a fight that was going on not to far away from us. "Hey! Hey!" Bellamy shouted as he went to break up the fight only for Dax who seemingly came out of absolutely nowhere beating him to the punch. Bellamy took Murphy and moved him away from Del, as Dax moved Del a little further away.
"Stop! Save it for the grounders!" He shouted at the boys who where fighting to get back at one another.
"Well, now what the hell are we gonna do?" Octavia shouted standing up pulling me up with her. Clarke came over taking the empty spot next to me. She was looking over at the burning hut with utter anger dripping off her face.
"That was all the food!" Octavia yelled after a few moments.
Hours had passed as we all waited for the fire to stop, Clarke and I had walked off for a few moments trying to come up with a plan to get more food. We barely had enough food in the drop ship to last us all a week. She turned to me and took my by the wrist saying how we should go see if the hut was finished dying out.
Once we had gotten into the view of the hut, once I saw Bellamy the school girl in me ran towards him as he stood up picking me off the ground slightly holding me close to him. Clarke walked over with a slight grin on her face.
"Any idea what happened here?" She asked Bellamy.
"Murphy says that Del kept feeding the fire," Bellamy said as he used his thumb to rub my ribs under my jacket after he'd put his hand under my coat. "Mostly because Octavia told him it was a bad idea." He finished explaining to her as she nodded.
"And we believe Murphy?" She asked looking around. "I'm still suspicious of him, ever since Dax got back here… Murphy has been acting incredibly shifty." She told him.
"I agree, I noticed it to." I piped in.
"I believe him about this… but he has been acting shady." Bellamy finally said after a few awkward moments of silence.
"Rayne and I looked we only have a few wild onions and nuts in the drop ship." Clarke told him.
"Not enough to last us more than a week however." I told him;
"What's left of the meat in the hut?" Clarke asked as Bellamy kicked a pile of bones.
"Nothing. It's all burned." He told us as Clarke let her head fall backwards leaving her face to stare up at the sky.
"Then we have to hunt." I said turning to face Bellamy.
"Anyone we can spare goes out." Clarke nodded now back into the conversation. Clarke turned and began to walk away towards the drop ship when Bellamy leaned forwards grabbing her by the wrist stopping her.
"The whole grounder army is out there." He told her as she ripped her arm from his grasp.
"Look. We can't defend ourselves if we're starving." She told him. Soon after that Clarke, Bellamy and I made our way to the drop ship where all the weapons where gathering everyone we could along the way.
"Each group takes someone with a gun, the guns are for killing grounders, not food." Bellamy shouted out to the group as I walked over picking up a spear for myself. "We don't have the ammo. Use the spears for hunting. Get what you can. Be back by nightfall."
"What're you doing?" He asked me, "Hunting Bellamy, I'm tried of the people here seeing me as some useless blob of skin… let me do my part." I told him.
"No one stays out after dark." He continued. "Then your coming with my group." He told me.
"Bellamy…" I sighed, "I was going to go with Clarke… besides you should stay here at the camp with the best shooters and watch for grounders… if they see us all leaving they will be more likely to attack…" I explained to him as he pulled me closer to him.
"Means she'll be safe out in the woods with me, than here." Clarke smiled walking over to me with some kid, and Finn.
"I love you Bellamy, I'll see you at nightfall hopefully with a rabbit." I smirked as he pulled me closer to him kissing me tenderly on the lips. "By nightfall." He ordered me as the four of us left the drop ship and headed out into the woods.