Only a few more chapters left until I take a break from this story... once Season two resumes... part two of this story will resume with it. Not sure if I'm continuing it as apart of "Moment of Weakness" or if it'll get its own title. Tell me whatcha think I should do, because this story will be continued once season two starts up.
Raven began screaming out uncontrollably as I let Clarke watched her cauterize the wound. Normally something I would do save for the fact she got in here first and was far more determined to get the hell out of the camp than I was. I just wanted to spend as much time with Bellamy as the grounders would allow me.
"That'll stop the external bleeding." She finally said, "Have you found the exit wound?" I asked her as she looked to me and shook her head.
"I don't understand." Finn began to say as I wiggled out of Bellamy's tight grasp. "How did we allow Murphy to even get past us… I thought he was on our side?"
Bellamy shook his head; "He played us the whole time… his end game was to kill everyone responsible for when the camp attacked him."
"What's with you're voice?" I asked cautiously. "Story for another time." He said to me.
"Bellamy… you do realize their may never be… another time." Octavia snapped at him, "She's your girlfriend… tell her."
"Murphy tried hanging me… if it wasn't for Jasper and Octavia here… with the help of Raven. I would probably be dead." I stared at him wide eyed, "And you never thought it would be a good idea to tell me about this?"
He went to speak; but I held my hand up. "We need to focus on Raven." I told him as he lowered his head. I took his hand in mine, "Don't for a second think I am mad at you for not telling me… its obvious there are more pressing matters." I said with a smile causing him to nod his head.
"We got lucky." Raven said her voice cracking, the pain her body was full of being more than obvious through her struggle to open her eyes, and the tone her voice was taking. "If Murphy hit the fuel tank instead of me, we'd all be dead." She told us as Clarke whipped her head up to look at me.
"Wait, there's rocket fuel down there?" She asked her as she turned her attention back to Raven. "Enough to build more bombs?" I asked her as she nodded to us.
"You know, not trying to be funny or anything but sometimes I feel like you two just share a brain and a mouth." Raven said chuckling causing me to smile and Clarke to stare down at her as if to tell her this wasn't a time to be joking. "And other times I feel like your Dr Jykle and Mr Hyde."
"Raven the fuel?" Clarke reminded her.
"Yea, there's enough to build a hundred bombs, if we had any gunpowder left." She explained.
"Let me guess that explosion is why we don't have any left?" I asked her.
"Let's get back to the Reapers, maybe they can help us." Bellamy said from behind me as he once again wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me closely to him.
"The enemy of my enemy is my friend right?" He continued as I watched Clarke and Finn trade looks of dread before looking at me.
"That's not an option." I told him, "She's right, not this enemy." Clarke told him.
"We saw them. Trust me, she is right… it's not an option." Clarke continued.
"There's no time for this." Finn started to say, "Can she walk or not?"
Clarke looked at me, as I shook my head, "No." I told them as Raven shot her head over to me. "We have to carry her."
"The hell you will I'm good to go." Raven said struggling to get up from the bed. "Hey, listen to her." Clarke told her, "I still haven't found the bullet which means it's still inside you." Clarke explained. "If by some miracle, there's no internal bleeding, it might hold until we get somewhere safe. Right?" She said turning to me as did both Finn and Raven.
"Raven, we wouldn't suggest it if it wasn't true. She's right, there's a chance that it hasn't hit anything vital and when we reach safe ground we can remove it and clean the wound properly… however there is the off chance it nicked something it shouldn't have and moving you would only increase the amount of damage inside you." I explained to her as she took a deep breath sighing.
"Exactly, you are not walking there. Is that clear?" Clarke told her, as her own voice grew serious and demanding.
I may be the medical expert but Clarke was one of the two leaders in this camp. All I could do was express my opinion medically in this situation it was really up to both Clarke and Bellamy what would happen. I liked not having a say when it came to the group that was way too much to have looming over my head. I wasn't even sure how Bellamy and Clarke managed. Well Clarke yes I understood its how she was raised; she was a natural leader really.
"I'll get the stretcher." Finn said as he took off from the group.
"Can't run away fast enough, huh?" Bellamy asked Finn, "Real brave." I turned to watch Finn walk right back up to the group only for me to stand between the two boys.
"Dying in a fight you can't win isn't brave, Bellamy, it's stupid. Do you really want to either lose Rayne to the grounders or end up watching her die by their hands because we stayed behind here?" Finn shot at Bellamy.
"Finn…" I warned him.
"Spoken like every coward, who's ever run from a fight, and don't you dare bring Rayne's life into question." He said trying to move closer to Finn.
"All right, that's enough." Clarke shouted at the two boys. "It's time to go."
"If they follow?" Bellamy asked. "It's a hundred and twenty mile walk to the ocean."
"Look, we're wasting time." Finn jumped at them. "I agree, there's nothing to discuss further the group as spoken… we leave." I said as Bellamy looked down at me.
"If he wants to stay, he can stay." Finn said again. "No, he can't. If he stays Rayne will stay." Clarke said as Finn walked out of the drop ship.
"She's right." I said to Bellamy and Clarke. "I won't leave, if Bellamy stays." Clarke spun around to face Bellamy and I.
"Bellamy, we can't do this without you. Either of you." She said to the two of us.
"What do you want me to say, Clarke?" He snapped.
"I want you to say that you're with us, that you won't be stupid about this. You know if you stay it's not just you're life in danger." She told him.
"If he and I stay Clarke... they will think we left with you. There's no way the grounders will think anyone stayed behind. They are counting on our entire camp sticking together." I told her.
"I thought you where pro leaving." She asked me.
"I'm pro where ever Bellamy is Clarke. If I am supposed to die tonight… I want my last few hours to be spent with him. I've spent way to much time away, or fighting, or not realizing who he was… I can't do that anymore." I told her as she smiled softly.
"Dying together isn't the answer." She told us both. "Bellamy, those kids out there, they listen to you."
"They're lining up to go. They listen to you more. Clarke she's right… she and I may get one more day out of being together if we just stay behind."
"I gave them an easy choice, but five minuets ago, they were willing to fight and die for you." She explained. "You inspire them, I'm afraid we're gonna need that again before this day is through." She finished saying before walking away from the two of us.
"Bellamy, she is right about that… they do look up to you, you do inspire them, and they would do just about anything you asked. Staying behind is just us being selfish, if we leave it's not because we're running away from a war, and possibly death. However we'd be leaving to show those kids we're not afraid to make the choices that need to be made. She is right; so is Finn, we have to leave."
He looked down at me now that I was in front of him, facing towards him. He bent down so that his face was even with mine, studying my every feature on my face, staring deep into my eyes. Before cupping my cheek with his hand, "We'll go with them, but not because of anything she said, not because staying is selfish. We're leaving with them because keeping you alive as long as I can is more important to me than my own pride." He said as he kissed my lips tenderly.
Once Clarke and Finn returned with another young guy they quickly moved Raven onto the stretcher before we all walked out of the drop ship. Bellamy and I standing together as he looked around the whole camp as if to be saying his final goodbye to everything we had accomplished here. Everything he had accomplished here.
I remember the last time he and I stood in this very spot, I remember it like it was yesterday, even if it was almost more than two to three months ago when it happened.
'I kept standing there letting the water land on my face; the sound of the youth surrounding me still cheering and screaming with excitement. This was the first time any of us experienced real rain. Not simulated, and fake however real rain from the clouds. It was far more amazing that anything I could have ever imagined.
I felt a pair of eyes on me as I stood there allowing the rain to completely drench my clothing. "You look beautiful." The deep voice said before me as I opened my eyes and lowered my head to look at Bellamy, with his hair wet and stuck to his face. "You look like a wet cat." I pointed out to him causing the smirk to grow on his lips.'
It was the first time he had told me I was beautiful, the first time he and I had really gotten close and me knowing it was him and I. Not him wearing a mask being the janitor of the Ark, me the naïve Doctor in training not even recognizing him. The shy girl at the dance to afraid to dance with anyone but the boy who charmed his way into her arms for one dance before the party was shut down.
It was the first time Bellamy and I, where Bellamy and Rayne. Two adults standing together having a moment, we had that moment right here in this camp. Many moments, we fell in love in this camp. Made love in this camp, fought in this camp. Leaving it was just as hard for me as it was for him, even though I had no doubt in my mind this was the hardest choice he was ever going to make as a leader of this group.
I turned slightly as the shouting of the camp began to become quieter as the camp begun to file out of the gates and head out into the forest. I turned back to Bellamy to see that he was standing till a few feet away from me. His eyes glued to me as he smiled at me. "This is the very spot, that I first told you how I felt about you." He said.
"No, this is the spot where you told me that you thought I was beautiful." I smirked.
"Smart ass." He said shaking his head, "I can't do it Ray…" he told me. "Whatever choice you make Bell, I am going to make it with you. This is us no more Bellamy no more Rayne. Unless it's together… wherever you go I'm going too."
He smiled at me as he walked towards me pulling me close to him in a hug; "What would I do without you?" He asked me.
"Probably be with Clarke." I said as he pulled away from me staring at me with a slight disgusted look in his eyes, "Oh don't look at me, I can see the undeniable attraction there." I told him.
"Rayne," I heard Clarke say as she walked towards us. "Never, even think that again. I respect him, that's about the only thing I do feel towards him." She smirked, "Besides; I wouldn't want to come between BellRay." She began to laugh to herself.
"Between what?" Bellamy asked.
"It's what some of the kids had started calling you two a while back before things got intense around her." She said as the two of us smiled.
"You did good here, Bellamy." She finally said after a few moments of silence.
"Eighteen dead." He told her flatly gripping tightly onto my hand.
"Eighty-Three alive." She told her proudly, "You did good." She told him.
"You both did." I piped up causing Clarke to blush slightly. "This camp would have never made it, if it wasn't for you two butting heads so much forcing you both to compromise." I told them.
Bellamy let go of my hand as he picked up a large can of water heading towards the fire before tossing the entire contents of the can onto the flames causing them to sizzle and raise thick clouds of smoke up into the sky. Some part of me felt we should have left the fire going, this smoke would only alert the grounders that we were in fact leaving the camp.
Bellamy than turned around walking back towards Clarke and I as he wrapped his arm around my waist before slipping his arm from my waist taking my hand in his as we walked beside Clarke towards the gates of the camp. Following the rest of the group into the forest heading off towards the ocean. Towards the clan of grounders that Lincoln had told us would keep us safe.
Lincoln, I felt partially responsible for whatever it was the Reapers had put him through. He was a good man, regardless if Bellamy wanted to acknowledge that or not. Regardless if anyone in the camp wanted to. He had protected this camp many times without us even knowing. The horn for the fog, countless times he saved Octavia and myself. He was a hero to this camp, just like Bellamy and Clarke where.
The walk through the forest was silent save for the few kids who would discuss the water and possible beaches we where headed too. Clarke and I had continued walking side by side with Bellamy occasionally speeding up to take my hand for a few minuets. Before either speeding a head of us or behind us, holding his gun up incase of an attack.
"Rayne?" I heard Bellamy say as he walked closer to me as Clarke looked over at me smiling before walking up ahead.
"Bellamy?" I asked.
"Is it weird that… this just doesn't feel right to me? This seems to easy, Finn and Clarke said that this Tristan guy was going to send scouts ahead of his army… wouldn't his scouts I don't know have tried to stop us from getting this far?" He asked me.
"Or maybe we left before the scouts got to the camp, don't be so negative Bellamy. You're a whole lot sexier when you're being positive and happy." I told him as he shook his head.
"I'm… wait what?" He said looking at me, "Your being a negative Nancy Bellamy, look how far we got… if they wanted to attack us they would have done so by now… don't you think?" I asked him as the whole train of people stopped walking starting to group together whispering.
I looked up to see Finn and Andrew where now beside us with Raven on the stretcher. Clarke quickly came back towards us standing next to me looking at me than to Bellamy. "And I spoke too soon." I mumbled as Bellamy put his hand on my back rubbing it gently.
"Why are we stopping?" Raven asked.
"I don't know." Finn told her as he looked to Clarke.
We began looking around once we began to hear gasps and people making shocked remarks. I looked at Clarke as she tried to look ahead to see what it was that everyone was making a commotion over. I was about to open my mouth to ask her a question when Jasper's voice shot through the air startling both Clarke and I.
"GROUNDERS!"
Everyone instantly turned around running as fast as they could back to the camp we'd just abandoned. Raven being basically carried by both Finn and Andrew. Bellamy, Clarke and I ahead of everyone else trying out best to file them into the camp safely and as quickly as possible.
"Move, move, move!" Bellamy began to usher the kids back into the camp.
"This feels wrong Bellamy… I feel like we're pushing the sheep back into the pen just to be slaughtered." I told him.
"We'll be fine babe." He told me trying to keep his eyes focused on the group, as they brought the body of the kid back into the group. He had some sort of weapon lodged into his head, sharp blades I was surprised it didn't completely crack his head in two.
"Bells…" I said once Clarke entered the camp staring right at me, most obviously thinking the same thing I was. The grounders knew we would leave, and they knew that would scare us into coming back. We were exactly where they wanted us to be, doing exactly what they wanted us to be doing. Cowering in fear.
"I don't see anyone!" I heard Jasper shout over the screams of the kids running into the camp.
"They're right behind us!" Octavia screamed out.
"Get behind the wall!" I yelled to the kids still filing in.
"Shut the gate! Shut the gate!" Finn began to yell.
Bellamy soon jumped up onto the wall looking out into the forest aiming his gun as I walked closer to the wall towards him looking up at him from where I was standing. "See anything?" I asked him.
"Nothing, nothing at all." He called back to me not realizing both Clarke and I had gotten onto the wall standing on either side of him.
"Where are they? Why aren't they attacking?" Bellamy asked her.
"Because we're doing exactly what they wanted us to do." She told him staring out into the forest before moving so she was on my other side.
"You all right?" She asked me as I nodded to her, "You?" I asked.
"Shaken up, a little." She responded to me.
"What are you talking about?" Bellamy asked her regarding what she'd said before.
"Lincoln said the scouts would be the first to arrive." She said as she turned around followed by both Bellamy and I only to see Finn was standing there looking up at Clarke.
"If it's just the scouts, we can fight our way out." Octavia said walking towards us. "That's what Lincoln would do."
"We're done doing what that grounder would do." Bellamy soon said as he jumped down from the wall. "We tried it and now Drew is dead." He said pointing towards the ninetieth body that was lying on the ground a few feet from us. He was right after all, we should have just stayed and continued to beef up our defenses. We signed out own death warrants by leaving; we lost all those hours we could have been preparing.