Anna

"I love you Anna."

I'm still breathing hard and my brain is trying to catch up to my body. I think I'm still shaking slightly from my orgasm, and wow was it incredible, so I slowly understand what Sid is saying.

Holy fuck! He just said that he loves me.

"No" comes from my lips with no brain involvement.

Sid's smile slides from his lips then he frowns and looks sad.

Oh God, I did that to him. He looked so happy and now destroyed. Sid tells me that he loves me and then I say 'no'. What have I done?

"Oh God" I think I say and pull away from Sid.

He makes a grab for me too late because I'm quickly off the bed and in the bathroom with the door closed. I must have stunned Sid for his reflexes to be so slow.

My brain, usually quick, can't process everything that's happening and what I'm feeling. I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself. My hair is a disaster, my make-up too, and my body is flush and has red marks from Sid's lips, tongue, hands, who knows?

First, I pull out the elastic from my hair and smooth it back into a pony tail again. Next, cold water and some soap on my face takes care of the make-up issue. When I'm done, I slide down to the cool tile and lean back against the cabinets. For a moment, I pull my knees up to my chest, rest my forehead on them and cry.

When I'm finished, I wipe my tears and nose and try to make sense of how I'm feeling. The problem is that I'm still processing and that's when Sid knocks on the door.

"Anna?" he says. "Are you ok baby?"

I'm naked, sitting on his bathroom floor because I ran from an 'I love you', after having the best sex of my life. Oh, and possible hurting the only person in the world I would never, ever want to hurt. I'm completely not 'ok.'

I don't know how to answer Sid and, since I've remained silent, Sid knocks again.

"Anna, I'm worried and I'm coming in".

Oh no, he's coming in and I still don't know what the hell is going on. As promised, he slowly opens the door and walks into the bathroom. He's still naked too and I'm momentarily distracted by how good he looks, that is, until I see his eyes. Sid is definitely hurt and worried.

"What's going on?" he asks me. "Are you ok?"

I take a deep breath. I guess I'm going to be processing out loud since I have no idea what the hell is going on but Sid needs an answer. He deserves an answer.

"No, I'm not ok" I tell him. He looks more worried and I feel guiltier. I'm doing absolutely nothing right. "Sid, God, I don't know what to say. I'm so sorry" is all I can think of because I am.

"Don't be sorry" he tells me and sits leaning up against the tub facing me. "Tell me what's going on. Talk to me baby."

I do an inventory and identify a little of what I'm feeling.

"Sid, I'm scared, terrified actually. And I feel so bad that I reacted like that. It was horrible; actually, worse than horrible. I'm so sorry."

"Seriously Anna, stop being sorry and talk to me. Why are you scared?"

"You overwhelm me Sidney. I never could have dreamed to be with a man like you. To have you trust me and to trust you so much to have done" I wave at the bedroom "that with you before with the tie and everything. I've never experienced anything like that ever. I didn't even, you know, every time I had sex before you. You. Who could have ever thought that you'd want me this way? Before you yell at me, I'm telling you how I feel and this is how I'm feeling. You can't tell me not to feel this way. I'm trying but there's no switch, ok?"

I say it more vehemently than I intend and Sid simply nods.

"Anyway, Sid, you have to understand something." I take a deep breath. "Sid, no one has ever said that to me."

Sid frowns and asks "you mean no guy has ever told you that he loves you?"

"No, I mean yes, you're right that no guy has; but, I mean that no one ever has."

"You mean no one?" he asks incredulously. "Not even your parents."

"Not really, no. My mother has said it in public like 'I love my daughters'. My father is the same. Sometimes he's said it but he doesn't even really know me, how can you love someone that you don't even know. My mother doesn't even like me so there's no way that she really loves me." I gather my courage and look at Sid. He looks surprised, stunned really. "Only you Sidney."

I watch Sid process what I've just said and I realize what's wrong with me. It's a combination of what happened last spring, not believing that Sid really wants me and hearing, for the first time in my life, a meaningful 'I love you'. No wonder I'm a disaster.

Sid's expression softens and I feel my eyes getting wet.

"Can we get up off of this cold floor?" Sid asks. "I think my sack may be permanently frozen if we stay here much longer."

The sudden change of conversation, and the mention of his balls, has me giggling.

"Yeah" I tell him.

"Good" he stands and then holds out his hand to me.

I take it and let him pull me up so that I'm in front of him. Sid cups my face and rubs his thumb gently over my cheek. That's the last thing I can take. I burst into tears, wrap my arms around Sid's waist and bury my face in his chest.

I feel Sid's arms come around me and his hand gently strokes my hair as I cry. It seems that I didn't expel all of my tears earlier. I had to wait until it was a most embarrassing moment and I could cry on Sid.

When I'm done, Sid pulls me back and wipes my tears away.

"Would you like a tissue?" he asks me.

I nod and Sid grabs me one from the counter for me. After I clean myself up, Sid pulls me back into his arms.

"You silly girl" he says and kisses the top of my head. "You need to talk to me. I can't understand unless you talk to me baby."

He pulls away and cups both of my cheeks with his hands.

"I love you Anna" he says and kisses me.

I think I actually hear a 'click' when everything locks into place. I'm standing naked is Sidney Crosby's bathroom, wrapped in his arms and hearing him say four little words that will forever be tattooed on my heart.

I push his arms away so that I can cup his cheeks.

"And I love you Sidney" I tell him.

I watch Sid's eyes darken and his lips part.

"Say it again" he demands.

"I. Love. You." I tell him and punctuate each word with a kiss.

"Again" he demands and pulls me close so that our lips are only a breath from each other.

"I love you Sidney" I tell him.

He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. When he opens them, they bore into mine before Sid pulls me the last bit so that his lips take mine. He kisses me like we've never kissed before and may never again. It's as if he's branding me or making sure that I'm real. When he pulls away, Sid rests his forehead on mine and we both try to catch our breath.

"I need you" he says, takes my hand and pulls me back to the bedroom.

Sid climbs onto the bed and takes me with him so that we are under the covers and facing each other. I can feel his breath on my face and my hands warm in his.

"I really am sorry Sid" I tell him. "I should have told you that I loved you too. Instead, I freaked out and hurt you and I'm very sorry."

"I know baby. Let's put it all aside, ok? We love each other. That's what is important right now and that's all that is important to me. This relationship is a first for both of us and there's going to be bumps along the way but you have to be honest with me about everything. Even if you think I won't like it, you have to be honest with me so that we deal with whatever it is together. We have trust if nothing else, ok?"

I'm overwhelmed by his words and these ones scare me as much his 'I love you' does. Quickly, I push it all out of my mind.

"And we have love too" I tell him and kiss him.

"Yes" he says and kisses me back. "Yes we have love."

He pulls me closers and gives me the most tender, sweet, deep kiss full of love that I have ever experienced. It pulls at my heart and somewhere deeper, somewhere more carnal, which grows as I feel his erection against my thigh.

Sid pulls away slightly and says "I do love you Anna. So very, very much."

This wonderful man has given me everything good in my life right now. For the first time I feel loved, truly loved; but, it's more than love. He makes me feel like I am whole and like I have great value for who I am and not who my parents are. I want to give him something, do something for him, to show him how I love him.

Slowly, I slide my hands from his and up his chest. I feel his muscles quiver under my touch and it makes me bolder. When I push slightly against his chest, Sid looks puzzled but allows me to push him to his back. I follow him until I'm straddling his body. For a moment I'm lost in the feelings racing through me when he pushes up against my centre. How easy it would be to guide him inside and fulfill both of our needs; but, I have other plans. Now if I'm only courageous enough to carry them out.

I lean down and kiss Sid slowly and deeply. His groan urges me on so I slide my tongue past his lips to parry with his. He tastes so, well, male and it speaks to a primitive part of me that I've never explored until now. I've never even known that it existed inside of me until Sid.

His lips are tasty but I have another goal in mind so I move my lips from his and kiss down his chin, neck and then chest. Again, I pause here and explore. I kiss around his nipple and leave little licks before I capture it in my mouth. I run my tongue around and around then suck and then repeat. Sid groans beneath me and I feel his stomach contract under my breasts. His response causes my nipples to harden too and feel it deep, settling between my legs.

I repeat my actions on his other nipple and feel and hear Sid's response again. It makes me bolder, knowing that I'm pleasing him, so I move my body down his body and kiss over his stomach then trace the muscles there. Oh my, he shivers and groans. Ok, here goes.

I slide further so that I'm kneeling between his legs and take the base of his penis in my hand the way he showed me that time in the shower. Again I'm surprised by how hard and smooth it is at the same time.

"Anna" Sid sighs my name, his eyes closed and his head is thrown back.

I slide my hand up and back down but it feels different and not as easy to do as in the shower. Oh, right, the water made it slippery. I lick my hand so that it's wet and then repeat my actions. My hand moves much easier now and Sid groans. I love watching him. He's feeling this pleasure because of me and it's such a turn on.

My hand is getting dry again so I screw up my courage and lean down. With my tongue, I lick the tip of his penis while holding the base. It's a little salty but not as unpleasant as I thought it would be.

"Anna!" I hear Sid's hoarse voice say my name suddenly.

"Oh" I say and sit up. "Am I not doing it right?"

Sid chuckles and I know that I'm turning red. Why did I think that I could do this?

"You know that you don't have to do this, right?"

What does he mean?

"But I want to" I tell him feeling a little hurt.

Doesn't he want me to do it?

"Anna, I only mean that you're kind of new to this so I don't want you to think that I have expectations that you do anything you don't want to do."

"Ok" is all I can say since I still don't understand.

"Do you want to?" he asks me.

I know that I'm turning bright red, everywhere, and feel embarrassed again. I can't look him in the eyes when I answer.

"Yes" I almost whisper.

"Oh thank God" he says and chuckles.

My eyes fly to his. I'm still confused.

"I want it too Anna. I love everything we do with each other but don't want you to feel uncomfortable, you know?"

I finally get it.

"You liked it?" I ask. I can hear the unease in my voice.

"Fuck yes" he says and I smile at his enthusiasm. "In fact" he begins and then gestures down to his penis.

Encouraged, I reach for him again, hold the base in my hand and stare at it wondering what to do next. He seemed to like it when I licked him so I lean down and lick the tip again. My tongue is wet and it transfers to the tip making it easy to run my tongue around and around like he's my own private lollipop.

Ok, time to take him into my mouth so I lean further.

"Anna" Sid says and I look up at him. "Cover your teeth" he tells.

Oh, yeah, I guess teeth wouldn't feel good against that part of his body, so I sheath my teeth with my lips and take in the tip. Slowly I push down, taking him in deep, until he hits the back of my throat. I cough a little, pull back slightly, then run my tongue around the tip. There's a lot to focus on: teeth, throat, tongue, hand at the base. Then I hear Sid's groan and he falls back so that he's lying on the bed again.

"Oh fuck Anna."

I'm making him feel this way; me. Wow. I slide him into my mouth deeper and then back out. I continue slowly in and out, in and out, while Sid continues to groan. It is the sexiest sound that I've ever heard in my entire life. I'm getting wetter every time he groans. I speed up, Sid groans and I taste something salty again. it's odd because he hasn't cum yet although he's getting even harder. I feel his muscles tightening.

"Anna, please, stop. I don't want to cum in your mouth."

I sit up as does Sid. His eyes are wild and I can tell that he's barely holding himself back from whatever he wants to do. Suddenly, especially after what we did in bed earlier, I want him to do those things to me.

I throw myself into Sid's arms and take his lips in a hard kiss. Every muscle in his body is tight, hard and quivering. He's holding back and I don't want him to any more.

I pull my lips from his and say into his ear "let go. Take me."

Where the hell did that come from?

I don't have time to figure it out because Sid does exactly what I told him to do, he let's go and takes over. I can actually see the moment it happens and then I can't focus on anything anymore. Sid has me pinned to the bed with his hard body and his lips attack mine again. I can hardly catch up. His hand slides down my body quickly, he pushes my legs apart and two fingers roughly push inside of me. I come off the bed with a scream. He finds that spot quickly and I'm screaming again and again. I'm only vaguely aware that Sid leaves me for a moment; such is the overwhelming pleasure that washes over me. Electricity is running over my skin and I shake hard.

I don't have time to recover before Sid is on top of me again and thrusting inside of me. I grab onto his shoulders and try to match Sid's speed but it's hard to do. Again, again, again, he thrusts, over and over and over.

The only sounds in the room are Sid's grunts, my moans and our bodies slapping against each other clearly with a lot of moisture between us. I feel like I may rip in two at the pressure of his thrusts and the pleasure that quickly explodes again. I hear Sid cry out my name and then I'm aware of nothing as my orgasm over takes me.

Sidney

When I wake up, I'm alone in the bed. Anna is gone and the bedroom door is closed. The bathroom door is open so she's not in there. Did she leave? Sitting up in bed I notice that my clothes and Anna's are folded and sitting on the dresser. She must still be here. A sigh of relief escapes me.

I flop back on the bed and reflect on everything that's happened this morning. It was probably predictable that Anna would freak out when I told her that I love her; although, it wasn't for the reason I suspected. My heart breaks a little for her. No one has ever told her, genuinely, that they love her? How is that possible? How is it that her mother, father, sister, have never expressed love for this wonderfully lovable girl? It breaks my heart.

Hot too. This girl is insanely hot. I still can't believe that she gave me a blow job. Her mixture of innocence and sexiness drives me insane and my dick twitches in memory. The trust she places in me is humbling.

My stomach grumbles and I look at the clock. Shit, it's 1pm already. No wonder I'm hungry. Of course it could have something to do with the 'activities' of the morning.

I'm quickly up, dressed and downstairs looking for Anna. I know that she's in the kitchen because I hear her voice. Is someone else here? Oh, she's pauses after she's says something so she must be on the phone. I don't mean to eavesdrop but the next thing she says has me stopping before I walk into the kitchen.

"Mom I'm so sorry but I need to be in Pittsburgh."

Silence.

"This isn't a regular job mom. We don't get Thanksgiving off, at least not enough that I can fly home."

Silence.

"I'm sorry that it causes trouble for you. I would be there if I could."

Silence.

More silence.

More silence.

"Yes ma'am."

More silence.

"Yes, we have three days off at Christmas and I can come home then."

Silence.

"I really am sorry mom. I wasn't trying to be selfish by taking this job. I thought it would be ok since dad wouldn't announce he's running until the season was over."

Silence.

While this is illuminating, I feel guilty that I'm hearing this without Anna knowing that I'm here so I walk into the kitchen ensuring that I make some noise so she hears me.

"I have to go mom" she puts up one finger and gives me an apologetic look. I kiss her cheek as I walk by her to get some water from the fridge. "Ok, bye mom."

She disconnects and puts her phone on the counter.

"Water?" I ask and hold out a bottle for her.

"Thanks" she says.

We each lean against the counter facing each other.

"Problems with your family?" I ask.

She shrugs and picks at the label on her water bottle.

"Yeah. My mother wants to have a photo shoot of the family celebrating Thanksgiving and my not being there is a disaster of epic proportion."

"I don't get it."

"Sid, a big part of my dad's appeal to the public is that he has traditional family values. It's hard to have family values without your family."

"I would think he'd be proud that his daughter is chasing her dreams and doing it successfully. Isn't that something to celebrate? He has a gorgeous, brilliant and loving daughter?"

Anna purses her lips, places her bottle on the counter and walks over to hug me. Her arms go around my waist and her head lies on my chest. I hug her back and hold her tight to my chest.

"Not that I'm complaining, but what is this for?" I ask.

"Just knowing the right thing to say at the right time."

I kiss the top of her head and then she tilts her face up to mine so I kiss her lips. The kiss quickly heats and deepens. Anna's hands slip under my shirt and up my back. I push her back until she's against the counter again and lift her up. Her legs naturally open so that I can push against her. It takes no more time for me to be completely lost in the kiss and Anna.

My stomach rumbles loud enough that we pull apart and Anna laughs.

"I guess I'm kinda hungry" I tell her.

"I was looking for something to make for lunch when my mother called."

I can't resist her lips, so close to mine, so I take a few soft kisses. When I pull away, I notice what Anna is wearing.

"My shirt and sweatpants look good on you."

They really do look good on her. Seeing her wearing my 'property of the penguins' tee shirt makes it feel like she's mine.

"I didn't know if the pants would fit over my hips but they seem to work."

"With my ass?" I tell her. "I need a lot of room in pants."

She giggles. I love that sound. It's beautiful.

"Ok" she says and pushes me back so she can jump off of the counter. "I'm hungry too. Let's see what you have in the fridge."

She finds the food I brought home for dinner last night and we decide that left overs will be great for lunch. Knowing that I'm hopeless in the kitchen, Anna sends me to set the table and then directs me how to help her get the heated food on the table. As I walk around her, I sneak a kiss on the side of her neck and squeeze her gorgeous ass. It's so comfortable having her here. That's a little disconcerting. I've never truly felt this comfortable having someone share my personal space.

We eat and chat about nothing really important. Anna's phone rings while we're finishing up our lunch.

"I'm sorry Sid. I have to take this" she tells me and answers her phone. "Hi Mathew, how are you?"

Who's Mathew? Why is he calling Anna?

"You really didn't have to go to all of that trouble. I appreciate it but we only need some of the information about what to do next."

What did he do for her? Why is he going to a lot of trouble for her?

"Really? That doesn't sound right. Are they simply making things up now?"

She sounds annoyed. It must be a good thing that she's annoyed although she doesn't sound annoyed with 'Mathew' whoever he is.

"So what do you think we can do? Geno is willing to do whatever he can which I assume, with this government, means cash, right?"

Geno? This is about Geno? Now I'm really curious.

"Hang on a minute" Anna says into the phone and turns to me. "Do you have something to right with and on?"

I get a paper and pen for her and she mouths a 'thank you' before going back to her call.

"Ok, spell that." She writes down a name, Russian by the looks of it, and then a phone number. "Thank you so much Mathew. You really went above and beyond on this one and I appreciate it."

She disconnects the call and then hits a few buttons.

"Sorry Sid, I'll be just a few more minutes."

I smile and continue to eat my lunch.

"Geno, I just heard about your brother's visa."

Oh, she's helping Geno with his brother. Mathew must be someone that she knows in the government. Maybe he's at her father's office.

"We know what's going on but it's not good. Is it possible that the government is targeting your brother because there's something they want you to do or something that you did?"

She's quiet for a few moments. I haven't heard Geno speak of it often, but when he has talked about the government's power to keep people in or out of Russia, the stories have sounded scary.

"For hockey? You're kidding me Geno. All of this is so that you'll play hockey?"

She shakes her head and looks incredulous. This can't be good for Geno or his brother.

"Ok, so the person helping me couldn't ask what it would take to make the issue go away because it's illegal; but, he was told that the problem could be taken care of with some cash. If the government behaves like you're saying then you could probably 'buy' the visa for your brother."

She looks at me apologetically. Anna places her fork on her plate and pushes it away. While she's still talking with Geno, I clear the dishes and clean up the kitchen.

As I'm finishing, I hear Anna say "ok, I'll leave it with you. I'm sorry but I can't help you any more given what you are going to do."

She says goodbye and disconnects the call.

"I'm sorry that you had to clean up alone" she tells me as she stands up.

"It's ok" I tell her and fold her into my arms. "I think I caught what's going on."

"Yeah, Geno's parents have their visas for the US but the Russian government is holding back his brother's and wouldn't tell them anything. I asked my father's deputy chief of staff if he would look into it for us."

"And he was able to help?" I ask.

"Yeah. Basically, at the Olympics, the KHL tried to get Geno to leave the NHL and play in Russia. They weren't happy when he said no so they have been harassing his brother. He's experienced their version of a tax audit, he's been levied fines for stupid things and now they are holding back his visa."

"So they're telling him to bribe them?"

"Essentially, yes. They can bribe the local officials to approve the visa and he'll be on his way to the US before the government figures out what is happening. Hopefully everything will blow over while he's here."

I pull back and look down at her. Anna frowns, probably because she wishes that she can do more, and shakes her head.

"That's no way to run a country."

She's so cute. She's actually offended because they don't have a good democratic government.

"He'll figure it out" I tell her.

"Of course he will. They're too used to bribing officials there not to know exactly how to do it; but, he shouldn't have to do it. It's crazy."

Not only is she helping Geno with the media, which is her job, but she's also helping him with his foundation and now his brother's visa. Is there anything this girl can't do?

"What?" she asks and looks up at me.

"I think you're amazing" I tell her.

Her frown is erased, her eyes soften and she smiles.

"Anyone would do it if they could. I'm lucky that I know someone who can help."

"It's more than that Anna. Sure, you were able to call someone on your dad's staff who has enough power to find out what's going on, but not everyone would offer to help like that. Most would simply tell Geno that they can't help him because it's Russia and he would accept it. Not you."

"Oh, well, I want to help him if I can."

"I know and that's really sweet" I tell her then kiss her.

As usual, the quick kiss I intended, quickly heats and deepens. Soon Anna is clinging to me and I lift her so that she's wrapped around me.

I walk us through the kitchen and then to the stairs. I stop and let Anna slide down my body. I love the feel of her soft curves against my body so I hold her close until she's standing on the step and the same height as me.

"You know, that's the first complement I've given you and you haven't argued with me" I tell her.

"Really?"

"Yes" I kiss her nose "really" and then I kiss her lips. "You know, it's only 2pm. What would you like to do this afternoon?"

She blushes and gives me a shy smile. Yeah, I know what she wants to do this afternoon. Good thing because it's the same thing that I want to do too.

I dip down and lift Anna over my shoulder. As I carry her up the stairs, she smacks my ass as she giggles. I've never felt so happy.