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NINE MONTHS AGO.
Regina sat at the table alone sipping wine from a metal glass and staring blankly into space. It had been three months since they got back to the enchanted forest. It hadn't been like coming home to a party for her, just like she expected, but it hadn't been easy either. With a mile long of villagers after her head, she had no choice but to stay hidden at her palace which fortunately had remained untouched and well for all those years.
Luckily, after much convincing from the Charmings, Regina had been left alone by the angry villagers. They no longer came after her after snow had told them how much she'd changed and the number of times she'd saved them. From then they had been able to tolerate each other even though Regina couldn't stand her most of the time. Now she'd just spend her time here reading and attending the stupid intolerable family banquets Snow and her husband occasionally threw, since realizing that they were expecting another baby. This was not her family, she thought everytime she had to flash that fake smile at the people present. She'd let her family go, to protect them. That however didn't make anything easier. Not with the constant "what if" question lurking at her conscience everytime she thought of her son's blonde mother.
"hey" a voice startled her, taking her away from her thought.
"Tink!" Regina smiled at the fairy who was now landing to stand infront of her.
The two had been spending alot of time together and Regina couldn't be happier about that. She hadn't had alot of friends in her lifetime but their shared history helped them to understand and know each other pretty well.
"What brings you here?" Regina asked.
"Just wanted to see you" Tink smiled, taking a seat next to her. "So how have you been?"
"Same old. Alone and bored in this empty palace. Its like history is repeating itself Tink. This is how you met me all those years ago, its kind of ironic" Regina said, smiling sadly at the blonde.
"Not at all Regina, Nothing is the same because the woman I met back there, is long gone. That woman who was so afraid to love, to seem weak, is not there anymore. You have loved, not one but two people enough to sacrifice your own happiness for them" Tinker bell replied, taking Regina's hand in her's as a sign of support.
"And then I lost them. Just like Daniel, I'll never see them again. I lost my son and the woman I love without her even knowing how I felt" Regina said, tears welled up in her eyes and she forcefully blinked them away and looked up.
"You don't know that" Tink said.
"Know what?" Regina asked.
"That you'll never see them again. And as for your feelings for Emma, I think she returned them but just like you, she was scared" Tinker bell responded.
"Why would you think that?" Regina asked.
"The woman held a sword to my neck just because you had been missing for a couple of hours... And I've seen the way she looks at you" Tink smiled at her friend, who returned it but sadly. "I have to go, but I'll be seeing you soon" she gave her a tight hug before picking up her wand and flapping her wings.
"Regina...?" she called finally.
"Yeah..." Regina looked up at the now smaller creature.
"The evil queen was able to love somebody after all. Anything is possible, if you believe it" she said before flying away.
Regina needed to believe the fairy's last words. She needed to believe that she would be seeing her family again. She stood against a window and thought. She just had to.
TODAY.
"I thought you were supposed to be working today, Miss Swan" Regina asked as she came to stand beside the blonde who was staring at her son tending to a horse at the far end of the stables.
"Yeah, I was, but Henry wanted to come so badly and I couldn't let him come alone" Emma responded frankly.
Regina felt a pang of anger and sadness hit her at the blonde's words, but then she recalled how different the circumstances were and so she calmed herself down.
"He's such a wonderful boy" Regina said, trying to ease the tension.
"My pride and joy" Emma smiled.
Regina smiled back as her attention went back to the boy. He looked incredibly happy and she couldn't help but smile again.
"Do you have kids, Miss Mills?" Emma asked suddenly, making Regina shiver where she stood.
After a few silent seconds, Regina looked up at Emma and said, "I did, a long time ago, but... I lost him"
"I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have asked. I'm really very sorry" Emma said, feeling like a jerk for prying into the woman's life.
"Its okay, dear. I don't mind" Regina responded, taking out her phone to ask for her car to be brought upfront.
"So...you're done here?" Emma asked.
"Yeah, " Regina smiled
"Henry," the two women said at the same time.
They turned to look at each other and then something felt so familiar about this moment to Emma and her brain flashed red.
"We're leaving already?" Henry asked as he approached them.
"Yeah" Regina replied sadly, "but we will come back some other time while I'm still in town, if your mom allows, how is that?"
"Okay..." the boy replied.
The ride back to the apartment was quiet and uncomfortable for the two women except for the few light moments where Henry kept talking about how amazing the stables and all the horses were. Thankfully that broke some of the tension and soon they were standing outside the apartment as Henry embraced the brunette tightly with multiple "thank you's" running from his mouth. Regina returned the embrace whole heartedly and wished she wouldn't have to let go, but she did and then she gave the boy her widest smile.
After a while, Emma spoke words she hadn't said to anyone in as long as she could remember, "would you like to come in, Miss Mills?"
Regina tensed at the question and she wanted more than anything to go in and spend the rest of the day with her family but she couldn't, not yet anyway. Her feelings for the blonde were intensifying with every second she was spending with her and as much as she wanted to take her right where she stood, she couldn't. She wanted to do things right. She wanted to give them a chance to know each other well.
"No, thank you Miss Swan, I still have a long day of engagements ahead of me but thank you. I appreciate your and Henry's company this morning" she smiled, "take care Henry. Goodbye Miss Swan" she said as she slid in on the back seat of her car and soon, they drove off.
Emma laid in bed that night, her thoughts consumed by none other Regina Mills. The woman was a mystery and underneath all that supreme look, that smirk and smart assness, was a woman with stories to tell and from what she'd seen of her reaction to her question earlier, maybe some pain too. She couldn't help but wonder what Regina Mills was all about and as she drifted off to sleep, she found herself hoping to figure out what those stories were.