When she came back to her senses, she was laying on the floor with her hearths running like crazy. As fast as she managed to find her balance she run to bathroom to throw up. When her stomach was finally empty she sat heavily on the floor. He was telling the truth. She was parasite. She killed Sophie's mother for god's sake. This little girl was orphan now. And was looking for her. Her own life was messed up and all and currently she obviously was doing mess of others life too. She remembers her now, that little girl with wide curious eyes and bright smile, and she didn't know how she could have forgotten her in a first place. Relationship she had with Doctor was too crazy to even consider having a baby. With all the running and Stormcage and all the universe and its troubles. She was always on a pill and she wasn't even sure if they were compatible. Sophie was her child in a way. They spend half of year together. The funny thing is that it was only period of her life when she wasn't running. She didn't go to Dorium for help. She was happy there. With Sophie as her only companion. No adventures. No monsters. Average life that could have belonged to Melody Williams if it weren't for Silence. But only now she understood how sick her plans were. Raising a child of woman you killed. That would be just… wrong. She felt like throwing up again just thinking about it. Here she was. Parasite. Murderer. Partly just a file in a database or was she real now? Her life never made a lot of sense but this one was to crazy even for her. And she had to face her husband soon.
Being with the Doctor you can't show him damage. Love wasn't supposed to be that way but with him nothing is normal. Your whole life have just been turned upside down. Your believes were told to be lies. You were feeling like your death was the only answer to it all. Just jumping into supernova. Easy, very easy. But still there was this man to think about. So you put on another mask. You smile even if your tears didn't dry yet. And it's what she have to do now. She was broken but she has to pretend. For him. This was harder than that time in New York. Bones will heal with time, but souls... Souls are different stories. When you do something horrible. When you kill innocent. It leaves trace. Trace that will stay with you forever. Like a scar. Oh gods she needed to talk to Rory. Immediately. Decision made she went back to the control room and chosen coordinates to her parents' house. She parked in garden, with breaks off just to have a little more time before her mother would spot them, and decided that maybe letting him know he was about to face very angry (and very Scottish) Amelia Pond was good idea after all. He will be ready to run at the spot at least.
She tried to follow Doctor's mind trace and to her surprise she could feel Sophie's too. And it was somehow familiar. Like she already felt that before. In another life. It leaded her to the room she never saw before and when she has taken a look around she became rotten to the spot. Sophie climbed a high leader leading to platform and then was trying to reach thick line attached to the ceiling. When she grasped it she jumped of the platform and practically flew through the room so fast that Rivers hearts almost stopped.
-And jump! – Doctor screamed and girl did as she was told. Landing in awaiting arms of a man.
-Whoa! That was great! Let's do it again!
He was insane! And it looked like he was allowing the child to climb and jump again. Over her dead body!
-Stop! Doctor what do you think you are doing?! Something could have happened to her! Where you thinking at all?! Couldn't you just once behave like an adult?! – she screamed at her husband.
He looked at her like deer caught in the headlights. Of course he thought she won't see them and he will get away with it. He was so shocked that she managed to sneak up on them that after a minute of dull silence it was Sophie who finally answered her questions. Sort of.
- It's OK. I'm fine. I asked him if I could and all. Besides I'm big. I'm almost 5 now!
- Not for another three months. And that's not the point. He was supposed to take care of you. He was responsible for you. I trusted him with your safety.
-I know it's my fault and all but can't you scold me in private so we don't have to have a fight in front of a child?
- Oh I'm not going to scold you.
- Really? – Doctor looked up with hope in his eyes.
-Really. We've just parked. And you are about to have a talk with my mother.
-What?! River you can't do things like that!
-Oh but I can. Both of you. Out.
Hello. I hope you all enjoyed it. I won't update this story before 29th because I want to work on my X-mass one shoots. So from this place I want to wish you all calm, peaceful and happy Christmas spend with loved ones or if you prefer with warm cup of hot cocoa and good book. ;) Have a merry time and be well.