AN: I'm back. I'm very sorry everyone that I haven't uploaded I had writers block. The chapter I was originally going to write would have most just have been taken from the book which I think would have been a sorry excuse for a chapter. If you look back the last couple chapters were a little off so I needed a break. I started writing this week but I got a terrible cold and was bed ridden for three days. I am feeling much better now and will be writing regularly. Now about the age thing, math is not my strong suit so just kind of ignore it please. Once again I am not JK Rowling.

Sirius was mad at me. When I had told him that I told Harry I thought there was more than one Horcrux he had been frozen with shock. I tried to get him to talk to me but he had left saying he needed to control his temper.

I sat on the floor in the Room of Requirement looking blankly at the roaring fire. Our first fight. My mind was going over the fight again and again. I pulled the blue quilt tighter around me. Dobby came in a little bit later bringing some food and pumpkin juice. I ate it and went back to staring into the fireplace.

The door opened and I looked up blankly. I knew it wouldn't be Sirius I could still feel his anger. Professor Snape attempted a smile but it came off as more of a grimace. I frowned and turned back to the fire biting my lip to keep myself from crying. He sat down next me and I continued to stare into the fire.

"Do you want to talk?" Severus asked softly. I looked at him my eyes brimming with tears.

"He hates me." I whispered brokenly and bit the inside of my wrist to keep myself from crying. Severus scooted closer to me and wrapped his arm around my shoulders. The floodgates broke and I cried brokenly against his side. He silently held me rubbing his hand up and down my shoulder. It took me awhile to cry myself out but eventually I did. I was silently leaning against Severus when a thought suddenly occurred to me.

"Why is Sirius suddenly so protective of everyone? Last year he wanted us to break every rule we could and now he's not even speaking to me. I just don't understand." I said shaking my head.

"Hermione I don't think you would understand because you weren't there. I was the one who informed the Order about you leaving for the Ministry of Magic." I frowned shocked. Why had I never thought about how the Order had saved us?

"How did you even know?" I whispered thinking back to that dreadful day. The thought of Voldemort torturing Sirius was just as painful now as it was then.

"I had seen you in the halls when you all passed. You looked dreadful to be honest. I used Legilimency on Neville but Umbridge stopped me before I could check or even stop you."

"You wouldn't have been able to stop us." I muttered nibbling on my lip. He continued ignoring me.

"When I finally got away from Umbridge she followed after you lot. I knew I wouldn't be able to stop any of you so I took some Flew powder and went to Grimmauld Place. It was quite a shock to see Sirius drinking a Butterbeer at the table with Remus and Tonks. When I told him what was happening." Severus stopped and rubbed his eyes. "I have never seen a man so desperate in my life. That day changed him. He looked at life in a new way. I think that day he realized the Dumbledore is only a man but that he wants the best for us."

"Yes but men can make mistakes." I said sitting up to look at him. Severus' eyes were dark and distant.

"I know and some of the shine came off of the Order because of that battle. Besides Albus blamed himself for you all running off to the ministry to save Sirius."

"How did he manage that?" I asked thinking back to that day.

"He believes that if Harry had known all along about the Dark Lord being connected to his mind you would have double checked your sources." I cut him off.

"But we did. We tried to contact Grimmauld Place with the mirrors and Kreacher told us Sirius had gone to the Ministry." Severus rubbed his eyes.

"I know that's what he said but it wasn't true... you already know all of this. That Kreacher had run off to Bellatrix and Narcissa and told them everything about the Order."

"How was he even able to?"

"They're family Bellatrix and Narcissa were both Blacks before they were married. Sirius had yelled at Kreacher to get out and he literally left to his only other family. I already know how sweet and kind they were to him. They told me it wasn't hard to trick the elf into telling them everything. Apparently he was starved for some love and attention and they gave it to him."

"Anyways we're missing the point here what does that have to do with Sirius suddenly becoming so overprotective?" I asked biting my lip.

"The point is that Sirius almost lost the two people he cares about most, you and Harry. He told me that he could never bear to lose wither of you and if following everything Albus says keeps you alive than so be it." He shrugged looking into the fire.

"Once again men can make mistakes." I said looking up at him.

"Sirius is banking on Albus getting us all through to the other side." His black eyes were narrowed in the light.

"You don't agree do you?" I asked sitting up.

"Not in the least. I know I'm going to die. I long for my death. Others will die too when the war finally happens. Some good some bad that's just how it goes." His voice was velvety soft.

"Sirius would be upset if he lost you and to be perfectly honest so would I. Your like that dark scowling uncle that no one goes near but once you get past the scowl and anger is a perfectly nice person." Severus let out a deep baritone laugh and I couldn't help but join in.

Severus left shortly after that conversation. I paced the room my mind going over everything he had told me. Sirius wanted Harry, Remus and I to live at any cost. I didn't crawl beneath the covers until the moon was high in sky.

Sirius POV

I paced back and forth inside the shrieking shack. Hermione and I were in the middle of our first fight. I had asked Severus to check on Hermione for me because I was still too upset to talk to her. How could she possibly tell Harry anything from that meeting with Albus? He specifically told us not to say anything and Hermione ran off willy nilly with that information. I looked at my pocket watch absently and was surprised by the time. Two hours had passed. What in the world could they possibly be talking about.

"Sirius?" Severus called from the lower level.

"Up here." I called back. Footsteps sounded on the steps and I sat on the bed absently. Severus walked through the door his cloak billowing like a cape. I smiled and looked up at him slowly.

"What?" He asked looking down at himself.

"Nothing." I said shrugging. He sneered and I barked a laugh. After a moment Severus joined and sat across from me on a chair that had stuffing sprouting from the middle.

"How is she?" I asked once we finally stopped laughing. We might be in a fight but Hermione's depression had been feeding into our bond. The pain she had been in made me nauseous. Our bond seemed to be growing in strength instead of becoming a quiet hum in the background. Maybe our bond was different.

"Better. She was pretty bad when I first got there but I explained your side of things." He said shrugging.

"And she listened?" I asked incredulously. My wife could be quite hard headed sometimes. Don't get me wrong I love her dearly but Merlin she could be a little spitfire when she wanted to. And it was difficult to change her mind if she didn't agree with you.

"She didn't at first." Severus said shrugging. He absently drummed his pale fingers against the armrest.

"What made her change her mind?" I asked leaning back against the bed that still had blood on it from my meeting with Harry, Hermione and Ron. Poor Ron I really hadn't meant to brake his leg I just wanted to get to the bloody rat.

"I told her about your reaction to them running off to the Ministry to try and save you." I froze and my heart stuttered in my chest. That was one of the most terrifying moments of my life. Severus rushing into the room saying Harry, Hermione, Ron and some of their friends had run off to the ministry to try to save me because Voldemort had planted a vision in Harry's mind. Remus had to stop me from strangling Kreacher when I found out they had tried to contact me with the mirror. If any of them had died I would have never forgiven myself. What a bloody horrible time to feed Buckbeak.

"How did she react to it?" I asked staring at the canopy above me.

"You probably felt it." Once he said it I knew he was right. Grudging understanding had flowed through the bond but she suppressed it so fast I thought I might have imagined it.

"Yeah I guess I did." I muttered staring at the canopy above me. Severus and I talked for awhile. He tried to explain things from her perspective but they seemed to fall flat. All I wanted was for her to live and same with Harry and even Ron. Was that so much to ask? But at the rate things were going it didn't seem like that would happen. She would be lucky if she survived this year what with all the muggleborn hunting and fights in the halls. It was easy for me to see how far she was being pushed in all of it. She had tearfully told me how she had used the Cruciatis curse on the Slytherin girl who had hexed me. It had shocked me but not in the way she thought. Who knew my sweet little wife had it in her? But I hadn't said that all I did was hold her as she cried in my arms begging for forgiveness.

"Things are getting worse Sirius." Severus said rubbing his eyes.

"I know its getting dangerous." I said sitting up.

"You have to look out for her." He didn't have to say who. We both knew. "They want to brake her spirit." I exhaled loudly and looked out the window at the crescent moon. It was starting to get late.

"I'll keep her as safe as I can." I said standing up. He nodded his lips a tight line. I closed my eyes and muttered a spell. Heat coursed down my spine and I opened my eyes. Severus was seated in the chair and smiled at me absently his mind a million miles away. I barked a goodbye and trotted through the house. My small body easily slipped through the passage to the whomping willow. I easily slipped out then darted across the lawn as fast as I could. Like I wanted to be hit by a rogue branch those things hurt.

I changed back and walked through the front door. The halls were deserted and dark. I quickly made my way to the seventh floor corridor and paced back and forth in front of the wall. The large door appeared and I opened it slowly making sure it wouldn't squeak. Hermione was curled up in bed her hair fanned out over the pillow and her eyes squeezed tight. I quickly changed out of my clothes and brushed my teeth in the bathroom provided for us by the Room.

I walked out of the bathroom but stopped abruptly. Hermione was twisting around in the bed muttering in her sleep. She was having another nightmare. They had started after I had almost been killed in front of her. She whimpered my name and tears came to her eyes. I quickly walked over to the bed and crawled in next to her.

"Hermione." I shook her arm. She sat up so fast I jumped. Her chest heaved and she gasped tears rolling down her cheeks.

"Sirius?" She asked turning to me her eyes dazed more tears leaking down her cheeks.

"I'm here." I whispered scooting closer to her my arms automatically wrapping around her shoulder. She leaned against me and cried into my bare chest her skinny arms wrapped around my waist in a death grip.

"I'm sorry." She whispered brokenly. I closed my eyes and exhaled loudly through my nose and swallowed thickly. Her voice cracked when she spoke again, "I'm so sorry."

"I am too Sweetheart." I said kissing her wild curls. She shuddered in my arms and held me closer to her.

"Don't leave me." She whispered brokenly molding her body against mine. I looked down at her confused. Her nightmares weren't usually this bad. She sniffled and wiped her eyes with her arm.

"I could never leave you Baby." I whispered looking down at her. It was true I might not always like her decisions but I wasn't going anywhere anytime soon.

"Promise?" Her voice was thick with tears and I nuzzled my nose against her neck inhaling her sweet honey vanilla scent.

"Always."

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