AN: Not JK Rowling.

I sat in the hospital wing next to Neville. We were both holding Hannah's hand as she slept. Her skin was pale and her muscles would randomly twitch every once in awhile. She had saved me. Hannah had run forward and pushed me out of the way of the curse and let herself get hit instead. Unfortunately she had knocked me into the wall and I passed out. No one knew how long she had been cruciod. Theodore Nott was on his way back to Azkaban but that didn't mean much these days.

Hannah had been unconscious for the past month. No one knew why she seemed to be locked in her mind. Tonks and Remus had gotten married anyway but since I hadn't been willing to leave the hospital wing they had done it in here.

Sirius had stayed with us when he came from his Horcrux research and finding a place for my parents to live. They were living with the Weasley's for the time being. Right now he was curled up in one of the hospital beds asleep.

Neville was starting to look worse each day. His eyes were dull and he was unshaven.

"What if she doesn't wake up?" He asked his voice hoarse from disuse. Before I could respond someone else spoke up.

"She will Neville." Harry said coming into the room with Ginny. Luna and Ron trailed in a moment later holding hands.

"If she doesn't I don't know what I'll do." Neville said shaking his head. Tears welled up in his blue eyes and he didn't make any move to wipe them away.

"We're having a D.A. meeting tonight. I think it would be good for you two to come -"

"No." Neville said his eyes on Hannah's still form. Suddenly her muscles jerked and lurched forward and grabbed tightly to her hand.

"I'm not going either." My voice lacked its usual conviction. I was too depressed these days.

"Sweetheart please." Sirius muttered placing his hand on my shoulder. When did he get up? I didn't really want to be alone with Sirius right now. He would try to talk me out of the way I feel but I deserved every guilt ridden moment I had. If it wasn't for me Hannah would not be in here. It was as plain and simple as that.

Two more days passed and Sirius was pacing back and forth behind me. I had started to lose that little hum from him so I couldn't always feel his thoughts and emotions. Sirius was muttering under his breath his eyes glazed.

"I can't take it anymore!" he suddenly yelled grabbing my arm. I screeched in surprise and he pulled me from the room.

"Sirius -" he cut me off.

"No we're getting you out of this slump." Sirius said pulling me out into the sunlight. I automatically covered my eyes. It was too bright outside.

"Oh no you don't." He said uncovering my eyes. I looked around slowly. The grounds looked the same as the last time I had been out here with Harry and Ron.

Sirius started to pull me towards the Black lake and I looked up at him. His eyes were dark with determination. Oh no what would he do? Sirius' eyes suddenly danced with excitement and he pulled me into his arms.

"Sirius!" I yelped throwing my arms around his neck.

"Take a deep breath Baby." Sirius said his eyes alight with mischief.

"What why would I -" And then he sprung forward and jumped into to the lake. The water was cold. Very cold. I pushed off the bottom of the lake and propelled myself towards the surface. Against my better judgment I opened my eyes and came face to face with the giant squid. I screamed and swam to the surface faster. My chest started to tighten from lack of air and I felt a little light headed. Suddenly the giant squid's tentacle pushed me to the surface. I gasped pushing to the surface of the water.

"Hermione!" Sirius pulled me against his chest and wrapped his arms around me. I wrapped my legs around his hips.

"Sorry Baby I didn't think it would be so deep." He said as I coughed out water. Sirius pulled me closer and I tightened my legs. He grunted softly and I looked up at him slowly. A smile spread across my face and rubbed against him softly. He moaned again and his eyes darkened. I smiled coyly at him and he pulled me out of the water faster than I would have thought possible. Sirius put a notice me not charm on us and used a silencing spell around us. We made love for the first time in over a month under the large tree by the lake. Once we were done Sirius held me closely in his arms murmuring words of love. I could finally feel him again and it was a huge relief.

"Sweetheart you know we have to talk about it." Sirius said stroking his fingers against my naked shoulder. I shivered and pressed myself closer to him.

"I know." I muttered dropping my head against his chest tracing his tattoos. He made no reaction but when he spoke his voice was huskier.

"You can't blame yourself for what happened to Hannah." I tried to respond but he placed his hand against my mouth. "Remember when you pushed Hannah out of Theodore's way last time? Well Hannah had acted the same way trying to win back your friendship."

"She never lost it." I said emphatically.

"That, Love, is the whole point. She loves you that's why she pushed you out of the way. You can't blame yourself for what happened. I know Neville doesn't, he told me he doesn't." I let out a breath I hadn't realized I had been holding.

"I love you Sweetheart and so do your other friends. That's kind of the point if Hannah didn't care about you she wouldn't have pushed you out of the way." Sirius said pulling me tight against his side.

"Anyone would push another person out of the way of the Cruciatis Curse." I said turning to Sirius.

"Some people wouldn't Hermione. Not everyone is as good hearted as you. I mean most Slytherins wouldn't help unless it benefited them in some way. And others, like a certain sociopath we know, just want to see the world burn." I nodded and bit my lip.

"Besides Hannah's a Hufflepuff, she takes her friendships very seriously. She's probably the most loyal friend you'll ever have." I bit my lip. Sirius and I got dressed after that and made our way to the front doors. Ron came running out his eyes wide and face pale. My heart stuttered and I almost tripped.

"Where have you been?" Ron asked stopping next to us trying to catch his breath.

"We were uh -" Ron's eyes widened at the blush on my face.

"Never mind," he said quickly shifting uncomfortably. Ron had caught us snogging more times than I cared to admit. A bright smile spread across his face. "Hannah's awake!"

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