Chapter 46:

Spencer's POV:

As I step out of the house, wearing my black lace dress I brought not long back with my black heels, I brace myself for the day ahead.

Toby: Hey, it doesn't matter if you got along with her or not. We are there to pay our respects, that's all.

Spencer: Thank you for getting something sorted for the kids.

Toby: It's ok.

We arrive at the church where the funeral is taking place. We are now in our seats, and the service has started.

Reverend: We will now hear a few words from Jason's half sister, Spencer.

I take to the stand.

Spencer: Gosh, I don't know what to say about Mona Vanderwaal. She was um, she was a friend, an enemy, she was Mona. As most of you may know, she went to prison for hitting me with a car are and driving away. It's horrible that she wouldn't stop, but she probably panicked. Anyway, Mona and I weren't very close in the years leading up to her death. We bumped into each other in public, and let's just say, Hanna was involved.

The guests let out a little laugh.

Spencer: Mona never got to live life to the full experience. She never got to get married, she never got to have children. To be honest, she never really got to live. These people that ended Mona's life too soon, will be named and shamed. They deserve a life behind bars and nothing less than that. I know that family members of Mona will stop at nothing until her killers are found. We will seek justice for Mona.

Reverend: That was lovely Spencer.

Spencer: One more thing, I forgive you Mona.

Reverend: There's no one else is there?

Jason: I just wanted to give her this.

Jason steps up to the casket and places something in between Mona's hands.

Reverend: What that?

Toby's POV:

Jason: It's the engagement ring I gave to her when I proposed. I know I might meet someone else, but I can't express my undying love for her. I am going to miss her everyday and regret that I didn't marry her sooner. The only reason the engagement broke off was because of the accident, but… Oh it's too complicated. What I'm trying to say is that, I love her, very, very much.

The service ends and we go down to a bar that got hired. We get home at about 7:00. My mother in law agreed to having the children tonight.

Toby: You alright?

Spencer: Yeah. I spoke to Hanna and we are closing the store up for a few days, maybe a few weeks, we can't open up until we replace the carpet.

Toby: I know. I'll get some money sorted by the end of the week at the latest.

Spencer: I'm gonna have a shower.

Toby: Ok.

Spencer goes upstairs and I stay down to tidy up. When I go upstairs, I find Spencer getting into her pyjamas.

Toby: Why you putting one of my shirts on?

Spencer: Cause I want to. If you recall, this is the shirt I woke up wearing the morning after our first time together.

Toby: Now that does ring a bell. Are you trying to imply something?

Spencer: No.

I try to say, hiding my grin. I'm only using that expression because I know exactly what Toby means.

Spencer: Look. We have just come back from a funeral, of someone that we went to school with. I'm not in the mood for sex.

Toby: That's fine. We dint have to.

We fall asleep whilst watching a repeat of a movie we watched a few weeks ago.

(If you don't know what Movie G and Movie B stand for, they stand for Movie G: Movie Girl and you should get the idea for Movie B)

Spencer's POV:

Movie G: Alex, please don't leave me! I love you!

Movie B: Natalie, I will be back. You can survive without me. Think back to the other times we have had to part, you got through those didn't you?

Movie G: Yeah, but we were only parted for a matter of weeks, not months that could turn into years!

Movie B: Look, if I had a say in my job, I would stay and look after you and our beautiful children. When they wake in the morning, tell them I love them and I'll be back soon.

Movie G: Please don't go, I need you.

Movie B: I'll be back, I promise.

The credits roll and then I turn the movie when I wake up to go to the bathroom. When I get back into bed, Toby has changed positions. I carefully slide into bed, trying not to wake him of his slumber and lace my fingers with his.N when we wake up, I just sit and bed, in total silence.

Toby: Hey. I thought you'd be in the shower or something.

Spencer: Does it sound weird that the death of Mona is really affecting me?

Toby: No, not at all. It's perfectly normal to grieve over a death, even if you weren't close.

Spencer: Thanks. I'm gonna go and get the kids later on and take them to the mall.

Toby: Ok. There's some money down stairs in the drawer.

Spencer: No it's fine.

Toby: Well, what are you buying?

Spencer: I don't know. I'm just going to have a look.

Toby: Ok.

I get ready and go to my moms to lick the kids up. When we get to the mall, they insist in going in the soft play area. I allow them and sit in the café just next to it. When their time slot has ended, I take them round some shops.

Lily: Momma!

Spencer: Want is it sweetheart?

Toby's POV:

I'm sitting at home, watching to in the living room, when I get at knock at the door.

Toby: Hey, I thought you weren't gonna come!

I invite, Caleb and Ezra inside. We are watching the soccer game and we have pizza.

Ezra: Who do you thinks gonna win?

Caleb: Honestly, both teams have been pretty bad this season, so…

After the games, Aria comes to pick up Caleb and Ezra. By the time Spencer gets home, I'm washing the dishes.

Toby: Hey, you can tell me about your day later, right now, it's movie time. What shall we watch?

Lily: Frozen!

Mason: Ew no!

Isabella: I don't mind.

Toby: What would you like to watch Tommy?

Tommy: Olaf!

Toby: We can have your movie next time Mason.

We are at the part of the movie where Elsa sings let it go. This is when Lily practically sings her heart out.

Elsa: Don' t let them in, don't let them see. Be the good girl you always have to be. Conceal, don't feel. Don't let them know. Well now they know. Let it go, let it go. Can hold it back anymore. Let it go, let it go. Turn my back and slam the door. Here I stand, and here I'll stay. Let the storm rage on. The cold never bothered me anyway.

The film finally finishes. Lily and Tommy are asleep, so we put them in their beds until they wake up from their nap.

Toby: Right. It's Sunday tomorrow and we are going to do something as a family. What shall we do?

Isabella: How about we go to the zoo?

Mason: Thats boring!

Spencer's POV:

Spencer: Well, you got to choose the movie, so Mason should choose the activity.

Mason: Can we go rock climbing?

Toby: Preferably something that we can all do, including Tommy and Lily.

Mason: Fine, the zoo. But the one with the theme park next door.

Spencer: That's in Florida.

Mason: Fine, the zoo then.

We wake the twins up. We have dinner and after, we make the kids have an early night. Me and Toby sit in the bath together.

Toby: What you thinking about?

Spencer: Nothing.

Toby: Hey, why you hugging your arm to your stomach? Are you in pain?

Spencer: No.

Toby: Are you hiding something.

Spencer: No.

Toby: Then show me.

Spencer: No.

Toby: Spencer, you're making me worried. Show me now!

I don't move my arm, so Toby moves it for me, revealing the scar from my c-section.

Toby: Spencer.

Spencer: It makes me look ugly and fat. I can't get rid of the baby, no matter how hard I try.

Toby: You don't have to be embarrassed. I would car if you were the skinniest or fattest person in the world. I would still love you for who you are.

Spencer: You're just saying that.

Toby: I'll look you in the eye and say it.