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As long as the week is, I find myself proud to have made it without having a mental breakdown from all that happens around me. I just learned that I should quietly observe instead of contributing. Yes, it's hard, but doing it keeps me back from everything that I want to say.
If I say something stupid, something else that's stupid may come out too, and you all know what that is...
Yes, step on me, crush my bones, I literally couldn't care, I'd actually more satisfied then angry. And error, like me, should live in a world, like this, with all these beautiful programs. Yes, they have their bugs, but at least they work.
Right now, I'm home by myself. My brother, Len, as you may know, is at soccer practice, my parents are working-go figure- and lastly my friends are at practice or just didn't think of inviting me to anything. My parents put a lock on everything that contains a knife, so I am forced to do nothing, but being he person I am, I'm reading manga in my room while listening to music.
I hear my phone buzz, which is rare unless it's Miku or Len.
I put my manga down and pause the music then pick up my phone and look who it is. It's...
Piko?
I answer the call and hold it up to my ear. "Hello?" I say.
"Hey, Rin, it's Piko," he says.
I hold my knees and look down at my manga. It's about a girl with Red hair in a kingdom where there is lots of people with plain hair. One day, a prince wants her to be his... Ehem... Beneficial friend, but not friends, since she had red hair. So she cut it of, left it, and fled. She found another Prince who looked very nice who took her in along with his two friends who had been with him-
"Yeah, what's up?" I ask.
-they were equally as nice. But suddenly, there was a knock and a basket of red apples for the girl. She was going to to try one, but the prince grabbed it instead. He fell to the ground and guards came in through the door. The picked the girl up and took her back to her kingdom; to the other prince locks the girl in the room and they chat for a while. Until-
"I was wondering..." He begins. I begin to predict what he is going to say next.
-the other prince came in with his two friends and rescue the girl. They took her back to their kingdom and gave her a room to stay in the town. She seemed for a job and got one at the castle as a pharmacist, but not because of the prince, because of her hard work and years as one in her old village. She soon found herself spending more time with the prince. But one day, one day something changed...
"...if maybe you wanted to go on a..."
An experiment was held at the castle to see how fast a bird could deliver a message. She went to the destination away from the prince with someone who seemed...devious... He locked her in a room to sabotage the the plan, but that didn't stop her! She got the plan to work the right way, but injured herself in the process. When she was in the room, taking a rest-
Piko gulped from the other end of the phone just loud enough for me to hear it, but just enough for me not to say anything.
-the prince came in to see how she was doing. He was worried. "Don't worry, I was going to tell you!" She said. He smiled. She laughed. And then something happened, something that made both the girl and the prince surprised, but both felt right just to do it, it made them both feel like that was what needed to be done with each other and not anyone else. No... No one else could... Nothing... Because he-
"...date...?"
-kissed her.
I looked around my room to see an answers, like if there was something important, that it would be there. An excuse, a reason.
As I said before, they were both startled...
"Rin?"
But before they knew it...
"Um..."
They were in love and...
"I-I can just hang up if you need some time..."
...nothing could break that...
Piko cleared his throat.
...not even friendship from their friends...
"Okay..." I answered.
But, of course...
There was a silence, it was probably Piko shaking his own hand and patting his own back.
...no one could know because...
"S-so, uh..."
...they were different classes...
"How about a movie at seven tomorrow?"
...but of course...
"Sure..."
...they were going to be together forever, right?
"Great! Meet me at Max Theatre at six so we can get something to eat before, okay?"
That's what was going to happen, right? She gets the one she loves and lives happily ever after, right?
"Okay."
Right?!
"Well, I gotta go, bye!"
...Right?
"Bye."
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Right...
I hear a noise down stairs. I'm too dumbfounded of myself to check it out so I hug my pillow close to my chest.
I want to die...
I want...
...to...
...DIE!
I feel the warm tears flow down my face as I hear the foot steps lull me down to a smaller person, a smaller being...
The steps get louder, my tears get wetter...
Soon, the doors open...
He's there...
Len...
My brother...
Nothing more...
Nothing less...
Right...
He'll never love you back...
That's what I tell myself...
That's what I know...
That's what you know, that's what Miku knows, that's what everyone knows...
I'm happy...
No...
I'm cheery...
No...
I'm...
No...
This is the real me and I'm not afraid to keep it in anymore...
I have to tell him...
No, you can't...
Yes I CAN!
No, you'll only get hurt!
JUST DO IT!
Just...
Just...
"Stop..."
"What? Are you ok? What happened? Rin?" I hear him say.
"Stop..." I say once more.
"Rin, you're scaring me..." Len says.
"Stop..."
Just...
Go...
"Rin?"
"Just...
Go..."
I'm shutting down...
I can't now...
I close my eyes and still feel the sharp daggers roll down my face. I feel the cold words ask me questions and tell me stuff. But no... This is me... I'm being...
Me...
It's just...
...a dream...
Right...?
It isn't...
Len is here...
Piko asked me out...
I said yes...
No...
I didn't say yes...
Rin...
Rin is...
"Rin..."
"No..."
"W-what...?"
"Come any closer and I might..."
"Might what...?"
"I might tell you what I want..."
My voice is calm...but it's not...
I sound calm...
But really...
It's...
My shutting down voice...
"What do you want?" He asked.
"I can't tell you..."
"C'mon, Rin, I'm your brother!"
Exactly...
It's because...
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"That's what I just said, now tell me!"
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...to be happy..."