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CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

Tune for the Lost

~RIN~

I looked down and closed my eyes.

How far did I climb up? Was it enough that he finally stopped chasing me? I could hear the owls hooting not too far from where I was. That's right…it's already night time. I wonder if they're looking for me? They must be worried that I'm taking such a long time to get home.

"They'll come, I'm sure of it." I muttered to myself repeatedly but my trembling body refused to believe it. It's scary being alone, so high up where no one can see you.

The wolves howling made me grip the trunk of the tree tighter. There are times you lose faith, especially in dangerous times like these, that's why I couldn't keep calm when the sound came closer.

"Seems to me like they already forgot about you." I shook my head, trying to erase the thought that kept on repeating itself in my head. They're looking for me…

Aren't they?

"Don't think negatively, They're probably here calling out to me. I just can't hear them that's all." I tried saying enthusiastically but my quivering voice only made it worse.

"How will they find you? You're so high-up they might've already missed you." My other-self told me…that's it! They couldn't find me because I was so high up the tree. Maybe if I went a bit down then maybe-,

*Crack*

The branch cracked and I held tight while watching the only branch that could lead me down fall to the ground. Now I was really stuck up the tree and with no chance of them finding me. If I shouted, it would attract the man and no doubt he'd find me first before the others. I have to find a way for them to know where I was…

-Flashback-

"Leeeeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnnnnn!" I shouted so loudly but he didn't reply. I guess playing hide and seek in the forest wasn't such a good idea after all.

"I give up Len where are you!" I shouted again. The sun was setting now and I could hear the owls coming out of their holes. Where on earth is he?

*Whistle*

A soft whistling, almost like a sparrow's chirp made me look up. There I saw Len, his face grinning down at me. He whistled the tune again, jumped off the tree, and landed in front of me.

"What do you think? Uncle Ted taught it to me."

"It sounds nice." I smiled letting his victory slide for a bit.

After all, the tune was nice to listen to.

"What makes it neat is the fact that no one can notice it." He whistled and I nodded. He was right, I only looked up because it seemed odd that a sparrow would be chirping so happily when the sun was beginning to set.

*Whistle*

I copied the tune and Len clapped his hands in awe making me turn red.

"Wow, you copied it so well."

"Not as good as yours though." I admitted but Len didn't seem to mind that remark.

"How about we make it a secret sign. You know, like those in dad's books, it'd be helpful that when one of us gets lost then we'd know where they are!" Len suggested and I nodded.

"That'd be a good idea."

-End-

Len if ever you're with them…please hear this tune. I just hope that you find me before the man does.

~LEN~

"I think it's a good idea if we split up, that way we can cover more ground and find her." Rei suggested to me when we got down from the carriage and walked to the forest where the man said Rin had ran off to.

"Let's just hope we don't get lost Rei, it's night time so the visibility's very low." I reminded him when we reached the part where the man confessed he lost Rin.

"Nii-sama do you think she'll be fine?" Rei asked me before we split up. I assured him that there was nothing to worry about and that Rin was capable of taking care of herself. Rei replied with a soft chuckle and left me to worry about what he had said before he left.

"You know her so well brother…it almost makes me jealous."

Knew her too well? We were childhood friends that's why I know so much about her. I wanted to explain that to Rei but I knew it'd only hurt him more if I did. He was doing his best after all, to win Rin over. Didn't I want him to push further so that he could take her away? But why is it that when he said those words, instead of feeling sorry I almost felt triumphant that I had achieved something he could not.

"Is Meiko really right? Do I really doubt everything…after all these years why now?" I punched the tree hard while muttering it to myself. I've made my resolve but it's funny how it was so easily crushed by something as trivial as this.

Am I this weak?

"No…not now, we have to focus what's on hand here and that's finding Rin." I said to myself and nodded. Those thoughts would have to wait. Rin was lost here somewhere and I have to find her and bring her back safely. It doesn't matter now if what really brought me here were my troubled thoughts, what matters most right now is that she's alive and needs help.

"Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin! Where are you?" I shouted at the top of my lungs making some owls flutter out of their trees. There was no response and the night was quiet, save for the wolves howling in the night.

*Whistle*

I stopped shouting and listened for the faint sound of a bird's whistle, not an owl's hoot but a different kind of bird. The moment the familiar tune played, the memories from back then came back to me like a slap.

It was Rin whistling our secret tune.

"Rin!" I shouted the moment I was close to the sound. A huge tree towered before me and I looked up to find Rin, her face pale and her small figure hugging the tree, afraid to let go. The moment she heard my voice, she stopped whistling and looked down at me.

"Thank God Len!" She shouted hoarsely and began to cry.

"Can you come down?" I asked her and she shook her head.

"One of the branches I used as support broke so it's a bit hard." She replied but nevertheless tried her best to get down. I watched worriedly when she tried to make her way down, a few times she nearly fell and my heart leapt worriedly.

"Just a few more Rin." I coaxed her. The moment she stepped on one of the branches, the branch cracked and sent her falling.

"RIN!" I shouted so loud and ran to her just before she fell on top of me.

*Thud*

"Oof!" I fell to the ground, my body in pain as if a huge boulder fell on top of me.

"Are you alright Rin?" I mustered to look up and saw her looking at me, her blue eyes full of tears as she hit me hard and began crying.

"What took you so long!? I was so scared…" Her sobs echoed in the night. I smiled, relief washing over me when I saw her safe.

"I'm here now so stop crying okay." I patted her head, trying my best to calm her down.

"I-I-diot!" She hiccupped in defiance and I chuckled. At least she hadn't lost her hard-headed side.

"Come, everyone's looking for you. They'll be thrilled when they see you safe." I tried to get up but felt a sharp pain in my back making me tumble back down.

"Len!?"

"Haha…I guess you really were heavy." I tried to joke and winced when the pain shot up my spine. Rin fluttered to my side and helped me rest next to a tree.

"Did Rei come along? Maybe I can call him for help." Rin suggested and was about to get up when unintentionally, my hand grabbed hers. Seemed pretty cliché if you asked me, how the guy stops the girl from leaving but when you experience it yourself it suddenly becomes a different story. Rin too, seemed at a loss for words at what I did, and so stood there looking at me in both complete surprise and worry. The moment reality finally connected with me, I quickly let go of her hand and covered my face.

"Sorry…" I managed to say without stammering and watched her nod her head warily before running off. Maybe I hit something hard and it happened…I can't…after all this time…I wonder why?

Why am I suddenly feeling this way towards her?

I wonder if it was guilt or maybe a late reaction to her feelings. Either way, it only goes to show how much love I can only give…or maybe I'm incapable of true love at all. No, my feelings for Miku…and Rin…

How can I show myself to Miku now?

"Heh, never realized curses like these existed." I laugh to myself, drowning in the false happiness I created. When does one say that they have gone mad? Mad to the point that the choices you make lead to nothing but despair.

"Tell me…what have I done wrong to deserve this?" I mutter to myself. Is it taking effect? When I said to Meiko that I was willing to give up my happiness for Rin- was this the answer that was given to me?

"Len! I couldn't find Rei…do you know where he went?" Rin came back, her face covered in dirt and leaves covered her hair. She knelt next to me and apologized for being useless.

"Aren't you supposed to be mad at me right now?" I asked her and saw her eyes widen and then grow soft. Yes, it was odd I would ask such a question but I wanted to know how she felt. Such a forgiving girl Rin can be sometimes. No matter how much I trample on her, she would always forgive me. That's why I needed an answer…

"We've been friends for so long…I waited for you for ten years and for those years never did you once look my way as something more than a friend. You stabbed me so many times to the point that I could've died and yet here I am in front of you. You say I should be mad and yet I'm not. Do you know why? Well I don't either…" Her words were like daggers of guilt to me but I let her continue. I wanted to know why, after all I did, why did she still love me.

"Love is funny Len. So weak and easily consumed by jealousy to the point one could lose their minds and yet, it's the one thing keeping us alive, making us strive better for a future we want. Even if you hated me…I could never hate you Len… In the end, love can be good but at the same time cruel. To think, of all people…I'd fall for you." Her words hung like poisonous gas, robbing my lungs of air, making me suffocate. Did I realize too late?

That in that instant, I would be committing a sin that would destroy us both.

~REI~

How far would you go for someone?

There they were, facing each other as if the world consisted of no one else but them. Where did that leave me? Was I nothing more but her support when she fell? Will I fall back into nothing more but a shadow? To me she was reason but am I the same to her as well or was it all just a fantasy I wove out of desperation?

"Existence is difficult when you have nothing left to live for." I look up at the dark sky and mutter those words to myself. It's not enough to just keep surviving, to live is very different than to survive. I've always tried to survive, to fight my way out of my brother's shadow. My life had almost become like that of a machine until Rin came and showed me how to live.

To see her like this… did I truly become incapable of anything else but a support to her?

Reason, to live, to love, to be accepted. What do they mean to me now? There's nothing left…NOTHING! I clench my fist so tight I felt something wet trickle down my hands. She's right, love is such a weak thing…so easily consumed by jealousy to the point it could drive any one mad.

"If given the chance you could look at no one else but me Rin…I would say 'I love you' everyday…to make sure you always know that more than anyone else, you were the first and the last one I would love." I whisper to her and walk away from their view.

I'm no longer needed Rin. In your eyes, my role is done. You've found what you were looking for and so I have to pack up my things and go. To you this was nothing more but kindness and yet to me it was more than that. To me, the memories will always stay, like a brand that even when it healed…the wound is still there.

"I love you Rin... when we met, now and even beyond, I will always love you." I mutter one last time as I walked farther and farther away from them…from her.

I AM SO SORRY! I'm so mean, I know. For two months you all waited and here I only one chapter with only 6 pages! It's just that I need inspiration...I'm sorry for being like Len and Rin for giving false hopes here and there. I know a simple apology won't cut it. That's why I need all your help guys! It's thanks to all your moral support I could still go on! Thank you so much for all the likes and reviews. As a normal human being, I would try to do my absolute best to try and update for all the readers out there.

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