Yeah, yeah I know I was supposed to write angst but... I couldn't take this thing out of my head...
The blonde had decided to start with her back. Back that was itching like crazy and Lexa's frustration for not being able to scratch it, was only barely appeased by the cloth's friction. Once again the silence in the room and Clarke's gentle touch made Lexa relax and think. She had decided a few minutes ago that she would live. Right. But to do what ? She was powerless. A weight on Clarke's shoulder. A weight. That was it. She'd try to heal as quickly as possible and repay the blonde then free her from her heavy presence. How, that she didn't know. But she had a few more weeks of incapacity to think about it. She had time. No rush. When was the last time she had had time again ? Since she had become Heda, she had been riding from town to town solving problems, raising armies, burning pyres, convincing leaders to join her cause, leaving tiny pieces of herself each time. And for what in the end ? Death. The people she once tried to protect were dead. Or almost. Or worse.
"You're thinking too loudly" Lexa came back to the cave and the girl now in front of her "I'm done with your back" Lexa's gaze then got caught by a glimpse of red. She stared down at the red stained cloth on the floor that Clarke had been using to wash her back. She frowned and looked back into blue eyes, questioning silently.
The blonde sighed "Yes your back is not in better shape. You have a deep wound, extending from your right shoulder blade to your left lower back. It was… deep. I saw your spine…" The blonde made a face at that "I thought you wouldn't be able to move your legs again, or worse" Clarke let out a shaky breath averting her eyes and once again, Lexa wondered why the blonde was so kind and caring with someone that had betrayed her.
"I'll lay you down again ok ?" Lexa nodded. Clarke's every movements were careful and precise. Her hands were soft but insurant. That's probably why the brunette's body didn't hurt so much when Clarke rubbed it with the cloth. The blonde started to wash around the biggest wounds and cuts on her arms and belly. Done with the delicate areas, she washed the rest of her arms. When she reached her chest, Lexa saw the blonde swallow thickly and fought back a smirk. At least she wasn't the only one feeling uncomfortable at this whole, completely surrealistic situation.
Clarke cleared her throat "So um… The water of the source is said to have healing properties so we'll probably have to… repeat the operation once or twice a day for the next week. I mean, hot water is good for blood circulation and will help with your bruises so…"
Lexa wanted to scream how much she wouldn't care, that her only concern was the time and energy it cost to the blonde, that she'd prefer do it herself because she didn't want to bother. Instead she just caught the shy blue eyes with her own and gave a small nod.
The blonde released a breath again "Good"
Clarke then moved to Lexa's feet and when the soapy cloth rubbed her sole, the brunette jumped and freed her foot from the blonde's hand. Clarke raised an eyebrow and smirked while Lexa averted her eyes "Cinnamon milk lover and ticklish under her foot ? Are you a kid or what ?" The light laugh that escaped the blonde's mouth made Lexa's heart skip a beat. She could swear she had never heard a sound as charming, enticing as Clarke's laugh. She surprised herself wondering what she'd have to do to hear it again one day.
But Clarke's laugh died and for a moment her hands stopped moving. Lexa raised her head from the ground and looked at her. It lasted less than a few seconds but the face of the girl held sorrow. "Don't worry it's nothing. It's just… I wondered for the umpteenth time when you stopped being a child. What being a kid means on earth"
Lexa was taken aback. Why did Clarke looked so pained by something that didn't concern her in the slightest ? And did she just said 'for the umpteenth time'? "Clarke" She managed to say in an almost mute, really raspy voice.
The blonde finally got out of her sad trance and glared at Lexa "I said NO TALKING" Then she resumed her movements on the brunette's legs and added in a softer tone "I'm sorry, I can't help worrying about Selina. But that's not my place to talk about that" Lexa gave her a curious look but she just smiled. She wouldn't say anything more.
Clarke was soon finished with Lexa's legs and she went to sit next to the brunette's head. She stiffly ran a hand on the back of her head and said "So. There's still a place I need to wash and you're not going to like it…" Clarke averted her eyes. She was obviously waiting for any kind of signal from Lexa. But then her she remembered "Oh shit sorry ! I forgot you couldn't talk…"
Lexa raised an eyebrow mockingly. But then her serious expression was back and she mouthed something the blonde didn't understand so she leaned down, her ear close to Lexa's lips. Then the brunette whispered a weak "We do what we have to". When the blonde pulled back Lexa had a small smile on her face. It wouldn't be pleasant, but it had to be done.
Clarke took a deep breath "Ok, do you think you can bend your knees ? I'll try to put you on your knees. If you can't I'll just try differently, ok ?"
Lexa nodded and bended her knees surprisingly easily. The hot environment and water might actually be a real cure in itself. Then Clarke embraced her waist to put her in a sitting position. Lexa lowered her knees and Clarke moved in front of her.
"Ok, now try to stand on your knees, eventually sit on your heels if you want. I'll steady you" Once again, the blonde embraced Lexa, trying to relieve the weight on her ribcage.
The task was not easy. Lexa could feel how weak and sore her thighs were. With Clarke's help she managed to sit on her heels but at the end of the process she was panting.
"We'll take a short break ok ? Put your weight on me"
Lexa smiled. Clarke was a goddess. She just sighed in the blonde hair covering her face, leaned on Clarke and tried to gather some strength. After a moment of an uncomfortable silence, Lexa pulled back slightly. The blonde then extended an arm to grab the basin and a clean piece of cloth. "Can you spread your legs a little ?" Lexa did as said "Ok. It'll be quick". The brunette, fearing more than waiting what would come, nodded against Clarke's shoulder.
She wouldn't recognize it publicly but Lexa had always imagined that Clarke's hands between her thighs would be something to look for. But the situation had nothing enjoyable. She tried, she really tried to focus on the fact that it was Clarke, the fact that the blonde could understand, that it meant nothing to her, she wouldn't think it's weakness. But Lexa had her pride. She just couldn't ignore the feeling. The shame and embarrassment that seized her was nothing comparable to anything she had experienced before. It was humiliating. Her whole body tensed making her bones crack and the ache in her body come back. Her eyes watered and her resolution, her motivation to live wavered as she was realising that THIS was only the first step of a really long and frustrating and shameful process.
"I'm so sorry Lexa…"
The brunette felt the other girl sob and sniffle. Lexa's tears stopped in their tracks. How can a girl be so generous, so giving, so caring for someone like her ? Then Lincoln's voice echoed in the girl's ears : trust her. "Clarke". The blonde stopped moving and Lexa whispered a weak "Thank you". Clarke just nodded and resumed.
A long minute later, Clarke was finished and stood. She turned her back to Lexa, wiped her cheeks quickly and then turned back to the brunette, hands on her hips "Ok, now start the super cool part". Lexa still dazed hadn't seen that coming. Clarke placed her hands under her armpits and dragged her to the edge of the pool. Lexa silently hummed in pleasure when her legs found the water.
"Yeah I know the feeling" said Clarke with a smirk. The brunette moved her legs in the water, enjoying it. A second later, she saw the blonde run on one side of the pool and jump in. The brunette got slightly worried as the blonde wasn't coming out. Clarke did eventually and she swam to the wooden platform saying "Whoa I needed that !" She stood on the platform and Lexa's eyes widened at the sight. When and where the blonde's undergarments had disappeared was a mystery. "Stop staring at me like you've never seen a woman body before and help me immerse you !"
Lexa was still in shock when the blonde grabbed her waist just above her hips and pulled her down. In an instant in Lexa's mind, Clarke's naked body was replaced by the delicious feeling of the hot water gently wrapping her tired limbs.
"Well, THAT's a delighted face !" Once again Lexa's heart fluttered at the laugh the now swimming blonde released. "If you ask me, swimming in this pool is the best thing in the world !" she sat on the platform next to Lexa and added "You'll be so frustrated to watch me swim in such enjoyment every time we come here that you'll want to heal as soon as you can just to see how it feels"
How ? How was Clarke doing that ? Telling Lexa everything she wanted to hear ?
A comfortable silence fell. After a few minutes, Lexa dared a glance at the blonde. She had her eyes closed and her head was back, leaned on the pool's edge. And Lexa remembered. She remembered the girl that had entered her tent, looking for an alliance. No for help. Lexa had seen people beg her to spare them, or provide help and support. But this girl just came in and talked to her as her equal. Insurant despite the fear she was feeling. Her life and her people's were on the line and she still dared talking to the commander as her equal. So desperately brave. The girl that Lexa had in front of her right now had nothing in common with the leader of the sky. But once again, herself too had nothing in common with the Heda she had been.
"You know it's not polite to stare at people like that right ?" said the blonde cracking an eye open with a smirk. Lexa made a face and averted her eyes, the invisible ceiling looking suddenly so much interesting. How good it felt though to know she could avert her eyes.
A strong, annoyed voice broke the relaxed atmosphere "Claaaaaarke ! Get your ass out of here, I'm hungry !"
The blonde released a terribly long sigh. She got out of the water, dried herself and dressed. "Don't move, I'll go find some clean bandages. Do NOT move ok ?" she said with a menacing glare.
Lexa nodded and was surprised when the girl easily pushed the still full basin on the ground so Clarke explained "We put some tiny wheels under it so that we can just push it and pour the dirty water outside" It was ingenious.
The brunette saw the girl once again bent in a ridiculous position disappear in the corridor, pushing her basin and she smiled.
dear readers, I need your help. Because Lexa will need a certain amount of time to recover, I need to fill that time with small stories that happens in Lexa's daily (now normal) life. I will need approximatively 24 of these. I already found 10 but I need more so I thought that it could be great if you sent me some prompts or something like that. They can be fluffy, angsty, bloody (I would like to avoid ridiculous situations but comedy is welcomed too if it realistic) whatever you want that can be included in this fic. The period will cover the whole winter and spring and will probably end at the beginning of summer (in short I have 6 months to fill). you can give me your ideas on my tumblr or here.
I want you to know that those stories can be really short (like 500 words) to really long (around 2000 words) so even if it's a really small thing, don't hesitate ^^