I'm sorry for the late update but things happened and I kinda forgot to update... Anyway, this chapter, like the last ones is Selina centered and there is a reason to that that you'll understand later I hope. This story will contain 19 chap plus one epilogue. This chap is really short because the next one being the last, It will probably be very dense and long and I didn't want to cut it just to make this chapter a little bit longer. so yeah, late update, short shap, no clexa, you have the right to throw me rocks.

Also, have I mentioned that I hate kids ? Not kidding I really don't like them. At all.

Day 267

*Feisripa ! Stop !* Lexa ordered but the brown mare had apparently decided that the poor rabbit she was running after would be her lunch. Yes. Horses are herbivores. But not this one. Well technically she didn't eat meat but… She had the bad habit of running after small animals and scare the poor things to death (which really happened one time with a squirrel. Clarke is pretty sure the small red animal had had a heart attack just looking in the beast's eyes). But Selina laughed at the scene so this time Lexa let it go.

The brunette was sitting in a tree with the little girl firmly attached to her back. The day was hot and sunny and Lexa had decided it was a good idea to pause her training and go for a walk. Of course she had taken Selina with her. Because of her now intense training sessions, Lexa had had little time to give to the girl these days which was, let's face it, unacceptable. She had promised Octavia she'd watch her daughter, she wouldn't spend so much time too far away from her again. Because of her promise of course. (Years later Luna told Selina how Lexa had fallen on her knees to hug her after each day of training, kissed her hundreds of times repeating 'I missed you', her promise to Octavia entirely forgotten…)

"Pii Pii !" Selina said, pointing to a sleeping owl, half hidden in a cavity of a tree in front of them and Lexa's eyebrows shot up in surprise. How did the little girl managed to see the bird when it was so well hidden ? The brunette smiled proudly. The girl would be a great archer and a perfect scout.

"No. This one is a bird too but it's 'Hoo Hoo'"

"OoOOoo" Selina tried. It reminded Lexa of that time when she found Feerah and the girl in a farm. The woman was trying to teach her how to say dog or cow or horse but no words escaped the girl's mouth that day. No words indeed. But Selina had created her very own sound repertory. At some point the dog had barked and she had imitated it. Now dogs were 'wa wa', cows 'mo' and cats 'mia'. Oh and horses were 'Ipa' as in Feisripa. This was another weird thing. This terrible horse was the small girl's best friend. How it happened, Lexa didn't want to remember. One day, Lexa had taken the little girl to a field, installed her on a large blanket with some toys and had started to tell her stories when one of Luna's warriors arrived. The brunette had stood and turned her back to the girl for a minute. Finished with the warrior she had returned her attention to the blanket where Selina had been supposed to be. Lexa's heart had stopped in her chest when she had noticed the girl had disappeared. She had found her a few meters away, in the horse's enclosure, hugging Feisripa's leg. Lexa had never fainted in her entire life but that day she almost did.

"Ipa Ipa !"

Lexa got out of her thoughts and turned to her horse, happily rolling in the mud at the foot of the tree she was sitting in. The brunette sighed. She was pretty sure the animal was doing this only to have the pleasure to be taken care of when she'd go back, scaring some of her caretakers in the process. A branch cracked a few meters away in another tree. Lexa smiled *Do you see this ?* Lexa pointed to the ball of grey fur looking at them *it's a robber*. For a moment Lexa thought that the animal had understood her because it made itself bigger and snarled but then she noticed another raccoon just above her head. "I think it is time to get out of here Selina." She whispered calmly, not wanting to draw the attention of the two angry animals.

Finally on the ground, Lexa released a breath she didn't know she was holding. She wouldn't have had any problem escaping two raccoons in fury but Selina was with her and she had to avoid any source of unneeded danger. And well, Commander was a nice animal but Lexa wasn't sure those two would be the same adorable fish eating grey ball of fur.

Day 280

Lexa was sitting on her bed, her back against the headboard, Selina bouncing on her lap, telling stories only herself could understand.

"What is it ? You have something to tell me ?"

"Essa !"

The brunette smiled. The little girl was still saying it wrong but she didn't care. It was cute. Then Selina fell silent, looking at her expectantly.

"What ?" Lexa asked in a soft voice, taking a small hand in one of her own. The little girl looked down at Lexa's left hand. The woman opened her hand to let her see. Slowly, Selina traced the lines, wrinkles and scars of the calloused palm with all the attention she could afford. Then her eyes fell on a strange thing she hadn't noticed before. She wrapped her hand around the black inked ring around Lexa's finger, looking at it curiously. "This is a tattoo. Clarke gave it to me." It had been a while since she had said that name. Two months already. Two months had passed and still no news from Octavia or the queen. Lexa had tried not to think too much about it but had failed. Waiting patiently for a battle had never been her favourite activity. She wasn't really worried, just frustrated. No news meant that everything was going well. But no news also meant that Lexa couldn't attack yet and it was killing her inside. Physically she felt like she had never been so well. Her muscles had come back with her mobility and fighting skills and the most important of everything : her motivation.

"Do you remember who Clarke is ?" She asked to Selina with a smile. The girl cocked her head to a side and Lexa remembered Lincoln had used to do that as a child. Now that she was thinking about it, Selina had grown up a lot since her father had died. One thing hadn't changed though, she had the face of her mother and the smile of her father. Her dark curls were apparently those of Octavia's brother while the hazelnut of her eyes was from Lincoln's mother. The combination was a complete success as Selina was one of the most beautiful babies Lexa had ever seen. Well baby might not be the right term anymore… Oh how eager Lexa was to show Clarke and Octavia how big Selina had become these past two months ! Yes Lexa was eager for the first time in years. The last time she had felt like that was… Before the mountain, that afternoon when Bellamy's signal appeared in the sky like a way too long awaited relief. The feeling hadn't lasted though. As soon as that man the mountain had sent to "talk" had opened his mouth, Lexa's confident fever had changed into pained cold sweat. But this time nothing could go wrong. She had spent two months trying to convince herself that everything would be alright so it would be. She was ready. She had only one enemy to fight. Not an army, no powerful weapons, just one person. Of course Nia's people might attack her afterwards but Lexa was sure she could kill the queen first and that was the most important.

Selina was still waiting for a story. Unlike Clarke, Lexa had never really been good at telling stories, it was too abstract, so usually she was just retelling her own stories, things she had experienced as a child. This time she would relate one of her favourite "You remember I'm sure. Blonde hair, gold, like the sun. And her eyes are blue like the summer sky we saw this afternoon." Lexa sat the girl on the bed in front of her and crossed her legs "And her voice is a little husky and pleasant to the ears when she reads or sings. Her hands are smooth not like mine and her skin is white." As she was talking she was pointing and motioning to different parts of her body, trying to illustrate what she was saying "She is not very tall but has a strong personality. She is good at fighting but is even better at healing. She is nice and patient and caring." Lexa paused. Selina was looking at her with a seriousness and curiosity that didn't fit her age. She was pretty sure the girl didn't understand a thing about what she was saying still, she seemed fascinated so Lexa continued "And she knows how to draw too. She did a lot of sketches of you, you know ? We will ask her if she can show you later. Oh and she is sassy too. Almost arrogant sometimes. She's the best friend of Octavia, your mother and just like her she-" Lexa smiled "She fell from the sky."

For the umpteenth time Lexa relived her first encounter with the girl, saw her enter her tent, bluffing clumsily and openly defying the commander of the twelve clans. Lexa chuckled. "I remember that day, just before the mountain. I had been mean with Clarke and almost had your mother killed" Lexa made a face at the memory. She might have to apologize for that later… "But it was also your mother's fault you know ? She was too intelligent and I had to… Take precautions." The little girl frowned and Lexa rolled her eyes "I admit it might have been exaggerated. But I didn't know them ! I couldn't trust your mother just yet" Yes she had just justified herself in front of a not yet 2 year old girl. When she realised it she sighed. She wasn't good at telling stories. She was always way too expressive, was living it way too much, just like her father when he had been telling stories to she and Lincoln when they were kids. She cleared her throat "Anyway. Clarke brought the warrior I had sent to kill Octavia back to my tent and made him fall on his knees in front of me." Lexa could still remember clearly how frustrated, proud and amazed she had felt. And the way Clarke talked to her… "Nobody had ever talked to me like that since I had become Heda" she laughed lightly at the memory. Everything felt so surreal and distant now. Almost three years had passed… "I… because of what she told me I reconsidered my decision regarding Octavia and in the end I let her live." Lexa licked her lips nervously then and her heart started to race as the images of that day were becoming clearer and clearer. Why was she nervous when she was talking to a toddler that could barely walk ? "And then she… She made me realise a few things- no. Made me remember things I used to think but had forgotten along the years and… It changed me." How was it so easy to say ? Why was the truth slipping from her mouth so easily ? Maybe because Selina couldn't understand but gave her the feeling of being heard, listened to, without any kind of judgement.

Unexplained tears started to run down Lexa's cheeks. Yes unexplained. Why ? Why was she crying when everything was fine ? A weird feeling settled into Lexa's stomach then and the door of the room opened almost violently.

"Say your goodbyes Lexa. The queen is in movement."