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+ - Chapter 30 - +
"What's wrong?" Allen asked, eyes soaking in his lover's tense appearance and angry face. "Yu?"
"Are you done with the games yet?" Shit. He hadn't meant to come off as rude.
The Brit sighed. "Yu..."
"What?" Kanda muttered snappishly.
Up on his tiptoes, Allen wrapped his arms around the man's neck, and pressed his lips to his fiancé's jaw. Soon, he felt two strong hands come to rest at his hips. "Kiss me."
Needing no further encouragement, Kanda shoved his tongue into the boy's mouth, exploring his little lover's hot cavern needily.
The younger on the two eventually pulled back before it went too far, panting softly. "Being... so stressed all the... hahh... time is... bad for your…health."
"Che."
"I see." Though he felt disappointed, he wouldn't push the man. "Well, I do hope you can tell me some day. I worry, you know," Allen admitted.
"I know." Kanda sighed. "I just got some...rather distressing news is all."
"Huh..."
"What?"
"No, it's just I didn't think you would give me that much information right now." Allen admitted. "Will you tell me what that news is?"
"I think it's better not to talk here." Kanda said. "I also think...there are also things we'll have to talk about while these two are sleeping."
"What...brought this on?"
The elder was silent, as he held the younger male closer, suddenly fearing he was close to losing him. "Call it a gut feeling."
"Oh." Allen nuzzled into his fiancé, hiding the fear he felt. He didn't know why it was there, but his instincts were rarely wrong. It was like something bad was going to happen, only he couldn't tell what. "I love you," he mumbled, closing his eyes.
"Of course you do, baka."
. . - * - . .
Allen smiled as Timcanpy made himself comfy between Lala and Timothy on the futon that night. After a whole day at the fair, the kids were all tuckered out. Turning the lights off behind him, he silently bade all three goodnight, before joining Kanda in their room.
He found his older lover sitting on the edge of the bed, seeming lost in his thoughts. Whatever he wanted to say was clearly enough to make him troubled. The feeling of dread form earlier had yet to disappear, Allen had dually noted. He didn't like it, and he only hoped nothing bad would beget of the endeavor to come.
The Brit quietly sat beside his lover and took Kanda's hand, intertwining their fingers.
"Yu?" Kanda flinched at the younger's voice, but otherwise said nothing. "Yu, aren't you going to tell me what's wrong?"
"Allen..." Being called by his given name, Allen squeezed Kanda's hand. He knew his fiancé meant business, if he wasn't being called 'moyashi'. "I'm...not exactly sure how I should even start this conversation." He finally admitted.
The boy scooted closer to his fiancé, and rested his head against the man's firm shoulder. "If it's really that difficult, then just start talking. It doesn't matter where you begin from, so long as you tell it to me straight out."
"Hn." The Japanese male took a deep breath, before exhaling. "Alright...I'll start here then. Do you remember those NOAH twins?"
"NOAH twins...you mean Jasdero and Devit?" What...did they have to do with anything?
"It's the most recent of shit that I came across." Kanda explained, "Their bodies were never found in Millennium's mansion."
First Allen's mind went blank, then his body went very, very cold.
"I don't know if that means they're alive or not, but we should be even more cautious now than we were before." The Oriental male had felt his partner tense up beside him, though thought it best if he continued talking. "You're still probably being targeted by whoever the fuck is after you, so from now on, don't go anywhere alone."
"I...sh-shouldn't be s-so surprised..." Allen softly confessed, "They...they were known very well for deception...the gas...the gas must've b-been in the air t-to...trick us..."
"All the more reason to be wary." Kanda sighed.
"What else?" Allen found himself fearing the answers...but he had to know. "What else d-do you need to talk about...w-with me...?"
"The matter of your past." Kanda then turned to face his smaller lover, before continuing, "Lala's a smart girl...she was able to put together some things. More so with how you reacted when the imposter was mentioned."
The boy nodded slowly, taking a moment to process the new information. "I see... It was bound to happen... I just... wanted a bit more time before they found out..." He looked at his fiancé worriedly. "What if they hate me?"
"They won't," Kanda assured the smaller male. "You're practically impossible to hate."
"I was a murderer, Yu. What kind of insane fool would want someone like that in their life after they find out?"
The older man poked his lover's puckered brow. "I hope you aren't insinuating something about my mentality."
Allen blinked, before dryly chuckling. "I might be."
"Watch what you say, moyashi." He then proceeded to flick the boy's brow, making the younger wince. "As much as I would love to get payback for that, I need you coherent for this."
"Yu..."
"When exactly would you feel comfortable telling them?"
The white-haired youth shrugged. In truth, he didn't want anyone to know what he'd done. It was shameful, and he still hated himself for it, though that was what he deserved for killing basically enough people to fill a graveyard with corpses.
"Honestly...I'd rather take it to the grave with me." Allen sighed. "What I did...can never be forgiven. Even if I did avenge their souls, I was still their killer. I still remember little Suzie's face as she cried over her parents' corpse that day..."
He was suddenly pulled into a one-arm hug. Kanda held the younger close, allowing him to hear his steady heartbeat. "You don't have to hold it in. If you want to cry, then cry." He told the British male. "Bottling emotions in is more my style than it is yours."
"I'm not gonna cry." His heart hurt. "I don't deserve to."
Kanda snuck a hand under the boy's shirt and stroked down his lover's spine. "Yes you do. You're allowed to grieve, baka Moyashi."
The Brit bit the inside of his cheek when his sight began to blur, and he ignored the thick feeling in his throat. "M'not crying," Allen muttered as tears began dripping down his cheeks.
"Because I'm sure someone is cutting onions nearby." Kanda said rolling his eyes.
"Mm..."
Moments pass, before Kanda breaks the silence between them, "What's really bothering you? It's not just your past. There's something else eating at you."
"N-Nothing's eating me..." The younger male sniffled. "I-I mean...it's...f-fine..."
"Definitely not fine." The stroking hand stopped, and was pulled away from the warm body, in favor of cupping the younger male's cheek. "If it's something that'll piss me off, I promise I won't lash out at you."
"Didn't promise you wouldn't be mad." Allen pointed out.
"So there is something you're hiding."
"Nuh uh. There's nuthin'."
"Moyashi..." Kanda warned, his stare becoming a contemplative glare. "I do hope you didn't just lie to me." He pinched the boy's cheek, and received an indignant grunt from his little lover. "Do I need to teach you a lesson in what happens when you do that?"
"Did nuthin' wrong."
"So you say. However, if that were true, why are you still crying?" He released his hold on the kid's cheek, eyes flickering to the small pink mark he'd left there.
"M'not."
"What was it you once said?" Kanda mused, thinking back to that unwelcome moment where his moyashi somehow managed to top him...to an extent. "I believe it was, 'When words lie, the body tends to speak the truth'...or was I mistaken?"
Allen visibly stiffened, he wasn't aware Kanda actually remember that phrase. "U-uh...d-did I? I-I don't r-recall..."
"Hn…yes, I can see how that phrase works into this situation."
"Don't use my own words against me," the boy grumbled, glaring at his feet.
"I'll use them if they fit." Kanda tilted his young fiancé's head up, forcing the kid to look him in the eye. "And since your words are false, but your body betrays the truth, I think this is the best time to do so."
Allen tried to wiggle out of the man's grip, only to find himself trapped. He couldn't look away. Those eyes were watching him, reading him, probing him for answers, while he internally panicked. "Stop." His own eyes filled with even more tears, which soon overflowed and spilled down his face. "Stop it." He didn't want Kanda to see him like this. Not when he was weak. "Don't look at me."
Kanda wanted to kiss away those tears. He wanted to hold the boy. He wanted to rid the world of whatever was making his lover act like this.
He didn't want to remain helplessly ignorant any longer.
"St-stop... looking at me..." Allen whispered through his sniffles, hands resting limply at his sides.
"Why?"
The British boy whined, and tasted snot. "My face... I bet it's puffy... And I can feel... my nose running... My eyes are probably red... I bet I look horrible."
"You look beautiful." That pale face was framed by soft white locks, and those soft lips were quivering... Yeah... "Very beautiful." Silver eyes peering up at him cautiously and pink-stained cheeks made him swallow to hide the fact that he'd noticed his heart had skipped a beat. Beautiful indeed.
"I'm a boy, Yu," Allen complained, though he didn't really mind. "Ya can' jus' go callin' me tha'."
Kanda rubbed at the younger's face with his sleeve. So what if it got dirty? He could always just wash the thing later. "You sure you're a boy?"
"If you don't know my sex by now, then there's something even more wrong with you than I thought."
The older male grunted. "By the way, this conversation isn't over."
"I know," Allen responded tiredly, visibly deflating. "There's no way you'd ever let it go."
"Then tell me what's been bothering you. It was going on a while, hasn't it?"
"It…might've been..."
"Does it have anything to do with the killings in the area?" Kanda probed. "Did you know any of them?"
"Kawamura...was Sakicho's friend...she told me when Lena, Lavi, and I went to visit my uncle Neah...and Father Marc was...a good man..." Allen softly admitted, "I used to go to him in the beginning when I felt as though my forced sins were eating me alive..."
Kanda was silent. Kawamura and Father Marc...if Allen knew them... "Moyashi."
"Y-Yes?"
"Were they AKUMA?"
"Um...they...were..." Silver eyes were confused, as he looked to dark blue.
"How many of the recent deaths have been ex-AKUMA?" Kanda asked, tone strangely flat.
Head hung, Allen admitted, "Nearly all of them."
"You do realize that this information would have been a lot more helpful if mentioned earlier?"
"Hold on a moment!" Allen glowered, crossing his arms across his chest, "Yu, I didn't even known the AKUMA killings were even connected to that Imposter! How could I have known?"
It was obvious he wanted to make an argument, however he realized Allen did have a point. Like he didn't know the AKUMA were this Crowned Clown's victims, Allen didn't know the killer was the CC imposter. "Che. And Eliade?"
"What about her?"
"That day she was attacked, you were there at the scene with her."
"You're not accusing me of-"
"Of course I'm not. But if she was being targeted, then doesn't that mean she too was an AKUMA herself?"
"Er...y-yes...she...also knew who I...was..." Something clicked in Allen's mind. "Wasn't it...'kuso'...?"
"Moyashi?"
"That man had said 'kuso' when he fled that day..." He paled, as he looked back at his taller lover, "Yu...you don't suppose he had something to do with that sniper from back then, do you?" It was obvious a panic attack was arising from the younger. "When I was attacked at the convenience store..."
"If you're being targeted by the imposter, then maybe..."
"Do you think he knows who I am?" Just how many people knew his dirty little secret? How many people knew what he'd done? "Wh-what if... what if they tell someone..." Shaking, Allen's eyes went wide. "This... can't be happening..."
"It's not certain," Kanda said, trying to reassure the boy. "We can't be sure that it's your imposter."
"What other reason is there for someone to be hunting me?"
Kanda thought back to Wisely, who'd said he'd picked up on that the Moyashi's attacker wanting to bring him misery. But why? Were they not attacking the kid because of who he used to be? And if so, was it because they were just going after the fiancé of the man who 'killed' the original Crowned Clown? Was that the motive?
Oh how he despised not knowing.
"AH!" That startled Kanda. He looked to the younger with confusion. "Eliade has to tell Krory now..."
"Tell Krory what?" Come to think of it, he had a book he had yet to look into from him. Damn...he'd have to look into it later.
"She's expecting..."
"Expecting?" It soon clicked, and Kanda then nodded, "I see, a child...why would she—"
"It's because we made a deal...if you found out about what I was up to, she'd tell Krory about the baby...but if he found out about the baby...I'd have to tell you about the AKUMA killer...who I guess is also that Crowned Clown impersonator..."
"You know, we can't keep avoiding the subject."
"...c-can...we maybe tell them after we can finally adopt them?"
"Listen, the sooner they really know, then the better off. I already told you, they won't hate you. You've seen how they worried over you earlier. Not that I can blame them. It's rather hard to not worry."
"We could... put it off... for a while," the boy suggested hopefully, only to have those hopes shot down when the man he called his lover shook his head.
"Che. If you don't tell them, they'll figure it out eventually."
"I know... I just..."
"Moyashi, I'll personally get you six sundaes when we have to get them for you and your friends later...whenever the hell you plan on that." Now if that wasn't a tempting answer...
"For real?"
"Yes."
"Honestly...I was thinking this was going to go in a sour direction..."
"And why would you think that? Anything else you...'forgot' to mention?" To that Allen stiffened. "Allen."
"Nope. Nothing. I'm sure I said it all."
"Allen Walker."
"That's all I remember." Allen's fists clenched. He was getting worse at hiding stuff. If this were an interrogation, he'd be screwed. I'll probably end up screwed anyway, he thought bitterly.
"Then, do you need me to help you remember?"
"Y-yu...w-we have kids basically just outside the room right now..." This...wasn't going to end well.
"As a master of getting you to squeal, maybe I can force it out of you." Kanda grinned, as he leaned towards the younger male, before long trapping him under him. "Last chance for 'good cop', Aren."
Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit...if Kanda thought his own cockney accent did stuff to his body, he should try thinking of how Kanda's affected him! But at the same time, he knew this wasn't the time for such activities...what was he supposed to do?! "I-I'll tell them!"
"Will you?"
Three frantic nods.
"Alright then. However, I still want to know what you did...so I'll give you to the count of...one. If you don't tell me, I'll be forced to take...drastic measures, and I'm more than certain —" Kanda's grin grew into a sadistic version of the Cheshire cat's "— that you don't want your balls to be torn from your body as the humbler does what it does best."
"N-Not that..."
"Ten."
"Y-Yu...p-please not that one..."
"Nine."
"Anything but that!"
"Eight."
"Please just li—"
"Seven," Kanda calmly continued.
Knowing full well that the jerk wouldn't listen, Allen clamped his mouth shut. He'd just have to stay strong and bear with it.
"Six."
Stay strong. Stay strong. Stay strong.
"Five."
That was all he had to do.
The older male arched a brow. "Four." Was the kid actually doing this? Wasn't the humbler the thing he hated the most? "Three."
Allen shook beneath his lover, having accidentally imagined what would happen when the man reached the end of his count.
"Two."
"Yu..."
"Hm? Do you have something to say?" Kanda grinned triumphantly, at the defeated look of his moyashi. "Then say it, lest you want-"
"Wisely...knew too...a-and I d-dragged him into h-helping m-me..." That little...that mind-reading ingrate knew. And didn't tell him what his fiancé was up to. "B-but...I think...you're hiding s-something too..."
To that, Kanda blinked in surprise. "What are you—?"
"That person you were talking to...I-it's been bothering me...but th-that was Tyki...wasn't it?"
The elder's heart froze. Did he...really see Tyki Mikk? But he should've supposedly been out of Allen's sight...unless... "Moyashi, how could you have seen—?"
"Th-The stands h-have security cameras...there was a monitor at the next to the one I was at..." Allen fidgeted, wanting to look anywhere but his Japanese lover at the moment. "O-one of the images...had a sort of clear shot of you talking to someone...but admittedly I-I couldn't see his face until after he moved off the wall..."
"Fuck," Kanda groaned, placing a hand over his eyes. "Shit..."
"I'm not th-the only one keeping secrets, Yu..." It wasn't fair if he had to reveal everything while the man remained silent.
"He...he was supposed to be behind bars...why was he there? Why were you talking to him?"
"Moyashi—"
"Yu, what aren't you telling me?" Silver eyes were on the verge of crying again. "What's really going on?"
"What are you hiding, Allen?"
There went his first name again. "Don't keep turning this around on me and hiding from the question."
"I could say the same to you," Allen fired back tartly. "Yu..." Allen pushed against the older male, when he didn't move, the younger sighed, fighting back the tears, "I love you more than anything in the world..."
"Moyashi?"
"I've told you everything I was hiding. There's nothing else...the only one keeping secrets now is you."
"It's work-related," Kanda bluntly stated.
Beneath the man, Allen bristled. "'Work-related'? Are you really using that on me?"
"And what if I am?"
"Yu, it's not fair you make me show my cards, without showing your own hand."
"Che." Figures the kid would use a poker analogy. "How do I know you've shown me everything?"
The Brit winced. That had hurt. Like, really, really hurt. "I said I did, didn't I?"
"And how would I know? Last I checked, you're the master at cheating in the game."
"You never played against me." Allen pointed out, "How would you truly know?"
"Do I need to in order to know?" Kanda answered with another question. "Che. I get you pinned to the bed, and yet it doesn't seem like I'm able to do anything to you at the moment."
"H-huh!? H-hey, we can't do that when Timothy and Lala are literally next door!"
"You're point?" Kanda mused. "You were worried over nothing when you thought I'd lash out at you."
"Which...is a little out of character come to think of it..."
"You calling me abusive?"
"If you were, I'd of left a long while ag—" A phone started ringing, and both men blinked in confusion. Realizing Allen hadn't replaced his missing phone, he looked at Kanda with curious silver eyes, "Aren't you going to answer it, Yu?"
"Who the hell would even call me at this hour?"
"Won't know unless you check." Allen informed the elder. With a cluck of his tongue, Kanda removed himself from the younger, before going to pick up his phone.
"What?" He demanded, the moment he answered. Allen watched, as he sat up, curious. "...who are you?"
"Yu?"
"Now you listen here, you sick fuck. I don't know who the hell you are, but if you — what? YOU WLL KEEP YOU FILTHY MITS OFF OF THEM!"
To say Allen wasn't scared...would be lying. "Yu? What's going on?"
"If you so-much as think of even looking at them, I will fuck you up. Understand, creeper?" When was the last time he saw Kanda so pissed off? Allen mused to himself. Whoever was on the phone was definitely not a friend. He didn't wake the kids and Timcanpy, did he?
"Yu?" Allen asked, quieter this time. This worried him a lot because — and he wasn't trying to say anything about himself here, but — it was rare for the Japanese male to get angry like this when it had nothing to do with the boy.
"Don't worry about it."
"Sorry, but I am going to worry when you react to a call that way." When his fiancé said nothing, Allen stood, and walked over to the elder, wrapping his arms around his middle, his smaller form against the elder's back. "You're super tense now, Yu..."
"Considering the call I just got, that's not surprising." Kanda growled.
"All this stress is bad for your health." The younger said. "I can feel the knots too..."
"Tch."
"What was the call about?" They would return to the previous conversation later; this seemed much more important right now.
"Just some sick fuck. Nothing I can't deal with."
"What did he say?"
"It's nothing you need to worry about."
Allen irately glared at his lover's back. "Tell me." He pressed his face into the man's shoulder blades, and let his hands roam higher as they explored their way over firm defined muscle. "Rely on me." He didn't move his hand away when a larger pair rested atop his own. "Don't leave me in the dark."
"...Moyashi."
"Please..." Allen didn't want to start crying, but it still didn't stop the tears from falling, and soaking into his fiancé's shirt. "Don't shut me out...you were so gung-ho on making me yours from the beginning...why are you keeping me at arm's length now?" He hiccupped, "Don't push me away...stop pushing me a-away..." At this point the younger couldn't stop his crying. "I-I don't...I d-don't like th-this..."
Kanda remained silent, slowly taking in the boy's words. It wasn't that he was trying to keep the kid out, it's just... he didn't want the brat to be involved any more. His lover wanted a normal life, so that's what he was trying to give the Brit.
"Allen." He felt the younger's form twitch against him, "You're my world. Why would I want to push you away?"
There was silence, long and uncomfortable, before finally Allen spoke again, "You know...it hurts..."
"I know."
"Then why? Why do you keep hurting me like this?"
"Because I love you," Kanda responded, hands gently squeezing his young lover's.
"That's not a very good excuse."
The Japanese man gave a dry grin. "Yeah. But in relationships, people are always baring their feeling and either being too selfish of too selfless, so someone's bound to get hurt every once in a while."
"Then... which are you being right now?"
"Huh?"
Allen swallowed, eyes shut. "Selfish or selfless? Which are you?"
"Both."
"I...don't understand." Allen admitted, "How are you both selfish and selfless?"
Kanda sighed through his nose, and pulled his fiancé's arms around his waist so that the boy would hug him even tighter. "I selfishly want to keep you hidden away from everything that would do you harm, no matter what, but I'm doing this for your sake as well. Your happiness is close to my Number One priority."
"What's your main priority then?" The younger asked, genuinely curious.
"Your safety."
"You're such an idiot, BaKanda."
Loosening the younger's grip on him, Kanda managed to turn around, though still otherwise remain in the younger's hold. "I'm an idiot, am I?" Intense cobalt were staring deeply into molten silver. "Who's the one who wanted a normal life, and still got dragged into finding that alleged AKUMA killer?"
"Not that I wanted to." Allen pouted, before resting his cheek against the strong chest now available to him. He clutched Kanda's shirt, and inhaled the older man's scent. "...Eliade's trying at a normal life...speaking of, can I borrow your phone?"
"Why?"
"I still don't have one to replace my missing one, and I need to at least leave her a message of her needing to tell Krory about the baby." If Allen was being honest with himself, he'd actually forgotten about needing to do that with the almost fight that broke out between him and Kanda. Not that he'd let whatever secret slide forever.
He'd find out eventually. Maybe through Wisely, maybe on his own, but he would find out.
"Che. Fine."
Grinning from ear to ear, Allen removed himself from his lover's embrace, and took the man's phone, before typing in Eliade's number.
[Sent: 22:33] Eliade, when you see this text, I'll just let you know that I'm using my fiancé's phone, because mine got lost at the hospital the other day. He found out about that...so that means you have to tell Krory your news.
-Allen
Satisfied, he closed the phone, and handed it back to the elder. "Done."
"Seriously. We're getting you a new fucking phone."
"That'll be tomorrow's fun?" Allen asked, looking hopeful.
"Fine. After we drop off the kids. And after we see what those birds found out."
"I'd forgotten they work under you...that means they...?"
"Yes. They're helping me search for that sick imposter...though I question if we can even call that son of a bitch that anymore."
"What do you mean?"
"In the beginning..." Kanda reluctantly sighed, deciding to take a seat on the mattress again, "He did everything in the way you did. But in recent cases...he started creating his own MO. I don't think many people noticed it as of yet. But that only means he's that much more dangerous."
"Is that why you're back is so knotted right now?"
"Again with the stress?"
"I'd like you to be in top condition for whatever's about to happen in the future. Let me massage out your back before we sleep tonight, kay?"
To that, Kanda found himself smirking. "Will this turn into a repeat of the last time you gave me a massage?"
Allen's face went red. "I-I said that we were about to sleep! I never even mentioned sex!"
The Japanese male took his lover's smaller hands and pulled the boy down onto his lap. "But sex sounds much more interesting. It's also a pretty good way to relieve stress."
"YU!"
"Shh, we don't want to wake those two up, now do we?"
"Horny bastard. Fine, if you throw your back out, don't come whining about it to me." the younger pouted. "I'm going to change into my PJ's, and sleep like it's going out of style." It was a sound plan in Allen's mind...however, it never made it to fruition, when he was suddenly pulled back down, this time unable to get out of the trap.
"Or." Kanda purred against the younger's neck, "You can simply strip yourself of all your clothes, while I watch your every movement, just waiting for that perfect moment to pounce upon my prey."
"No." Allen said it firmly, resolute. He wouldn't back down.
"Let me watch you strip, Mo-ya-shi~"
"No," the Brit repeated, now glaring.
Kanda pushed the younger down into the sheets and undid his hair rope so that his hair hung around his face like a dark curtain. "Then I'll just have to help you." With that, the older male's hand slowly slipped southward down Allen's stomach.
"No!" The boy wriggled, trying to dislodge the man above him, only to have his wrists caught above his head. "Yu!"
Those eyes, still defiant, made Kanda want to take the kid even more. "Shhh." He gently pressed his lips against the boy's, but refrained from turning it into an actual kiss. "Do I have to get the gag to keep you quiet?"
"No sex!" Allen responded in a hushed whisper. He really didn't want their guests waking up, especially to this.
"You're so repetitive." The hand that had been travelling down his lover's body stopped when it reached the sensitive area between two legs, and it then began repeatedly rubbing in the one spot. Kanda felt very satisfied when the boy let out a soft gasp. "Are you sure that this isn't what do you want?" He watched his fiancé bite his lip to stifle a moan. "Because this is telling a different story," Kanda said, unabashedly groping the kid's crotch.
Allen moaned, and although Kanda enjoyed the sound, it was perhaps a bit too loud.
"Hn. I was right. You do need to be gagged."
Silver eyes snapped opened, and he started renewing his struggle, trying to get away. Not that Kanda would have it...without ulterior motives that is. He allowed the younger to roll, and get out from under him, but that was where Allen's freedom ended. Kanda managed to grab the hem of his pants, stopping the British born male in his tracks, if he moved, both underwear and jeans would be at his knees. Silver eyes looked behind him, only to be met with hungry stormy blue. "L-Let go..."
"Hm...I'll let them go...when they're off your form and I drop them to the floor below." Kanda then tugged the material, both pants and underwear sliding off the lithe form. Allen squeaked, and in trying to get away, had fallen flat on his face. The bed dipped around him, and he knew he no longer had a way to escape. Going forward would be the head board, and he'd be more cornered than he already was. Arms prevented escape from either side, and going down meant Kanda's leg brushing against his blooming arousal.
He was trapped. "Y-Yu...?"
"Stay still. And don't try getting away." The warning was clear in his voice, Allen lifted his head, to try and protest, however, something was over his mouth the moment he did. Kanda's hair rope.
"Mpfh?!"
"I wonder why I never used it for this before...thick enough for the job." He tied the rope tight enough to prevent his small lover from making a word. Now the only thing he needed to do was remove the shirt, and take the pants off the rest of the way...and bind his hands so he couldn't undo his hard work. It was a good thing his cute little moyashi was quite sensitive.
Kanda backed up a bit and eyed the kid's exposed ass, before bringing his hand down to slap the inviting pale flesh.
The boy's keened, and then wiggled, mentally chastising himself for reacting.
When Allen went for the hair rope, the older male caught his lover's wrists once more, smirk turning devilish. "I think a certain someone is being a naughty child," he mused. "And I'm sure you're aware of what I do to naughty children?" His free hand resuming its groping, only this time, what it squeezed and stroked was the boy's ass.
The younger whimpered, tears already to threatening to fall. Dammit, dammit, dammit... "Fmww!"
"Already becoming putty in my hands, are you?" Kanda licked his lips, "Let's make you a huge mess of nerves."
He only grinned when the head of white beneath him shook.
"I'm going to have a lot fun." The elder said, before placing a kiss on the younger's shoulder blade. Using toys would be pointless, after all, waking up the kids wouldn't do either of them any good, and Kanda wanted nothing more than to plough into the tight heat. He'd take it as a challenge of sorts.
One of his fingers slid down his fiancé's crack, slowly trailing down until it found the boy's entrance.
Allen bit down on the hair rope in his mouth to stop himself from screaming when the digit plunged in.
"Have I ever told you how much I love your ass?" Kanda asked, feeling the boy's tight inner walls clench around his finger.
Allen decided he wouldn't even try answering. He was certain it was rhetorical anyway. "Mwwh!" Did he just shove two more in there already?
Kanda quickly pumped his fingers in and out of his lover's anus. He knew he was being fast and rough, and the kid most likely would have severe difficult sitting in the morning, but fuck he wanted his dick in that ass.
He wanted to forget about their argument earlier.
"Gomenasai, Koi." His fingers then changed their angle of penetration, aiming deeper to make this just as pleasurable for his fiancé as it would be for him. "If I could trust you not to run, I'd let your wrists go and ask you to remove your shirt."
How could he run in his current state? Allen found himself wondering. He was literally a mess of a nerves at that point...wasn't that what Kanda was aiming for? He mewled through his make-shift gag, as Kanda's fingers pressed against that spot again and again. Before long, the fingers were removed, and both hands left their previous posts, in favor of spreading his ass, and raising it just enough. He could hear the zipper as it descended, and the sound only seemed to arouse the younger more.
Even if he says he doesn't want it, the fact is, he perhaps usually does. Not that he'd admit that out loud. Ever. Silver eyes widened, as his breath hitched, hands clawing at the sheets below. Kanda's size was really something else, biting the rope was all he could do from screaming out in delirious pleaser at that moment.
Allen whimpered when his lover immediately began to move, not having any time to get used to the feeling. He whined around the gag, trying to let the man know that he needed to slow the fuck down, but all he got was two strong hands that grabbed him with an almost bruising grip by the hips.
Those hands, combined with the cock currently ploughing away at his ass and the pants and boxers bunched at his knees were what prevented him from getting away. If he were being truthful, he was more thankful for those things than he should be. Probably.
"Fmwwaaa~!"
"Fuck, Aren..." Kanda grumbled, teeth clenched. "Never fucking enough of you..." The younger squeaked, when one leg was forced from his pants, and with the shock, was turned around, so he was now facing the man above him, both legs now draped over his strong shoulders.
"Mwuuu..."
"I want to see your face as you cum." Kanda breathed, before grabbing the younger's prick, and pumping it. Allen's muffled screams were a delight to the Japanese male, and he reveled in it. It really was too bad he couldn't indulge in the whole feast tonight.
There would be other nights. He was pretty sure of that.
Though, for now, he would still get his fill.
His fill of that hot body, of that slim waist, of those shapely thighs and cute little ass. He'd taste every last inch of the Brit and then some.
"WMU~ MWaah~" Seemed his little moyashi was getting closer. Who was he to deny the younger's release? Well...he was Kanda Yu of course. His grip tightened, on the organ, and silver eyes snapped opened. "Mwaha?"
"I'm not going to make it that easy after all, Koi."
Oh hell. Allen's hope quickly drained away. If his fiancé said it wasn't going to be easy, the jerk truly meant it.
"Let's have you come second for a change, hmm?"
Why, oh why? Hasn't he made him cum second pleanty of times before?! "Mwaah!"
"You like that idea, little moyashi?" Kanda grinned, hungrily eying the younger.
"Naaa!" Allen glared at his lover, making it clear what he thought of that. And then he nearly chocked on his own spit when Kanda used his only free hand to touch his balls.
"You don't?" The older male asked, smirking ran his thumb over his fiancé's family jewels. "But why not?"
As much as he wanted desperately to voice his complaints, or whatever it was he wanted to do, he couldn't with the hands just playing with him below the equator...and the rope around his mouth wasn't much help either...he knew he could've easily gotten away now that his hands were free of the other's grasp, but god fucking dammit, Kanda was just too good at what he does.
And maybe, just maybe, he didn't really want to run. Yu Kanda kept him on his toes; the things he did were always unexpected, but predictable. There'd sometimes be no warning, but Allen knew that, inevitably, it would happen again. It made things exciting.
The Japanese male grinned when his little lover's eyes squeezed shut, and gave those balls a quick grope to see what would happen. The reaction was instantaneous.
Allen's body arched, and the boy screamed around his gag.
That was perhaps the sexiest he'd seen his lithe fiancé...or at least one of the times...it wasn't easy to rate, after all. "Mffwwwuuu~"
"Really enjoying every moment of it, aren't you?" Kanda had leaned over, in favor of huskily whispering in the younger's ear. "A mess of nerves, just as I promised, right?"
Nod.
"And you love every fucking moment of it, now don't you?"
Frantic nodding.
"I give you so much, yet it's still never enough, isn't that right, koi?" He squeezed his hands, causing a sharp intake of breath from the smaller male. "You love it. You crave it. Because only I can ever make you feel so good."
"Mfwuu! Fwaa...!"
"Hnn... Get ready." Kanda then smirked and began thrusting once more, causing the younger of the two to groan and shiver.
He couldn't breathe, he couldn't think, hell, he couldn't even speak, and that had nothing to do with his gag preventing the action. God, he really wanted to cum. He had to cum...needed to...
But he couldn't... Not with those hands...
Kanda licked a trail down the boy's cheek, finishing off close to the rope that muffled his lover's words and screams. He wanted to kiss the kid, he really did, but he couldn't risk removing the gag. One wrong sound and the children in the other room would be up.
On the other hand...knowing someone could walk in on them always did get his little sprout that much more aroused. But the 'someone' in question were two kids named Timothy and Lala. Neither needed to see this, after all. Espeically not Lala who was only eight years old.
"Mm!" Looked like the younger was super close at that point.
"Patience, my little sprout." Kanda smirked, "I haven't cum once yet."
He rolled his hips, eliciting a chocked moan from his partner. Satisfied, Kanda then removed his hand from the boy's balls and brought it up under the brat's shirt to tweak the nipple it found there, before pinching and pulling the abused nub.
Allen panted as he writhed, biting down hard on the hair rope in his mouth.
"Such a sight...I almost wish I could have you see what I'm seeing right now...how arousing you are."
"Mwuhh!"
The elder rolled his eyes, before pulling the younger's shirt up higher, over the head of white hair, only for the material to rest on the arms still above his head. "Hn...such a sight indeed."
The youngest watched his lover the best he could, blinking rapidly to clear his eyes of the tears that had formed.
"I could always have you watch that little video we made together." Kanda ran a finger across the boy's pump lower lip. "I'd love to watch it with you."
Video...just what video was he...Allen paled as he recalled the events of that. Head shaking frantically, he tried to remove the gag, only to have his hands pinned above him by one of the older's. "Actually, that does sound like a fun activity we can do when the kids are back in the orphanage for the time being..."
"Mwuhh..."
"Watching yourself make so many faces. Watching as you see me pounding into your ass, seeing your face as you cum…does the thought of it not arouse you, little moyashi?"
Honestly...Allen would be lying if he said no…but he didn't want to give the elder that satisfaction.
He also refused to watch that thing. Why? Because if they did see it together, Kanda's hands — among other things — would be all over him, he would be able to do little more than keep his eyes on the screen playing that wretched video.
There was no way he'd stand for that.
Then again...he himself wouldn't be paying attention to it either...Allen dually noted. "NNAAH!" Can Kanda just let him cum already?! His cock was really hurting right now...
Grunting, Kanda reluctantly pulled out, letting the legs over his shoulders rest beside him, settling between them. It was difficult to leave, and he really had wanted to stay where he was, but at the same time, he didn't feel like making this easy on the brat. He wanted to have a little fun.
Right now, however he needed both of his hands free, so something to stop the kid from ejaculating was necessary. Quickly looking around, he spotted the red ribbon waiting oh-so-kindly for him on the brat's bedside table. Perfect. He'd thought about using the thing for this once before, and now he'd really be able to do it.
Shifting, he reached it quite easily, and held it in front of the boy tauntingly. "I love how close this thing is whenever I need it." Then he tied it nice and tight around the straining organ, making sure his lover wouldn't be able to cum. "I don't know if it will be usable after this," he muttered, watching pre-cum drip down and stain the ribbon, before shrugging. "I'll buy you a new one, if you like." It would probably meet the same fate... "Though, maybe you'll need a few."
Hah. He'd end up buying ribbons for his fiancé like the kid was a chick or something. Well, admittedly, the kid did look good with one tied around his collar... It gave him some colour.
"Oi." He poked the boy's cheek, pleased to find pleading silver eyes trained on him. "Remember the first time I used that thing against you? I tied you to the bed's headboard and gave you your first rimjob. It sure has lasted a while." Smirking, Kanda's hands settled on the boy's hips. "Where should I touch you first?" The man ran his eyes over the smaller body, and they devoured what they saw. God, he really had gotten his hands on the sexiest thing he'd ever seen. "We could always go for another rimbjob." Yeah... That sounded pretty good...
No, Allen thought weakly, already quivering with the strain it took to be kept from his release. Please... Let me cum...
Kanda nipped the area of skin below his lover's navel, then left kissed all across that pale flesh, every now and then leaving his red marks where they'd never be seen by anyone but themselves. As he moved, his cheek brushed the Brit's dick, and his ears caught the sound of his fiancé's breath hitch. Softly, very softly, he ran a hand ran over it. "So beautiful you are..."
Allen cried, bucking his hips. He couldn't help it. This was torture. He should not have loved this so much, but he did. He loved it when Kanda became talkative as he explored and denied the younger of his needs. It sent excited shivers down his spine.
Oh how he hated that.
How he hated it...that he loved it. In the back of his mind, he was scared the kids would wake up...and if not by them, then perhaps by Timcanpy who's hearing was more sensitive than theirs...was Tim a heavy a sleeper? He hoped so...
"MM!"
"Pay attention, idiot." Kanda said without venom. "I want all your attention, all your thoughts, on me right now."
Allen whimpered and wiggled his hips. He wanted to cum so bad that he could barely move. Though, he knew from experience that his lover wouldn't allow it just yet. He should have given in already. There was no use in fighting this.
The boy was startled from his thoughts when he was suddenly flipped onto his knees, and when his butt cheeks were spread, he automatically knew what was coming.
Kanda licked the brat's entrance, feeling the ring of muscle twitch beneath his tongue.
"FMMF~ Fwaaaah!" Allen clenched the sheets in a tight death grip. Toes curling, eyes becoming teary, the younger male was at a loss for words with what to do with himself...he could remove that ribbons if he so wanted to...his hands weren't bound this go around...but what Kanda was doing to him was just...and he was seriously just...what was he thinking about again? "MWAAH!" That tongue just went in his ass, didn't it?! "Mm..." That feeling was sublime...he shivered when he felt a stream of air puff against his wet entryway.
"Heh...maybe I should consider recording something like this next time..." Kanda mused. Allen would've glared if he could, but he was far too into what his fiancé was doing to him.
Before he had time to think, that tongue was once more inside of him. He relaxed a bit when he felt it leave him, only to nearly scream when it returned. That man... to be teased and fucked by his tongue... Allen whined, feeling tears fall down his face.
His cock was killing him, the rope was admittedly starting to bother him a little...the butterflies he could feel were flying rampant within him, and he had no idea what to do with himself and...oh gods! Did Kanda just bite him there?!
Kanda let his teeth graze over the hole, though had to pull back when his lips stretched into a grin upon hearing his little lover's cry.
"My sexy little moyashi seems to really enjoy this, doesn't he?" The elder inquired, but Allen couldn't find the words...or motions in this case, to relay anything to him. "So hot and bothered...and yet you can do nothing. You know the consequences of playing with yourself when I'm the only one allowed to be playing with you right now."
Allen hid his face in the sheets below, biting back a moan when his entrance was once more assaulted by that man's probing tongue.
Yes, he knew...gods he knew...but his hands being free this time, he probably could...? No...he couldn't risk the toys coming out...not this time...he shivered, and screwed his eyes shut at something the elder did, but he couldn't pinpoint what the hell it was.
There was just too much going on back there...
Kanda drew back with a smirk, before shrugging off his shirt and throwing it to the ground beside their shared bed. His jeans and underwear came next.
He'd been so desperate to fuck the kid that he hadn't even gotten properly undressed, just unzipped his jeans and pulled his dick out. The fabric had been beginning to annoy him... Well, whatever. They were gone now.
Kanda kissed up the boy's spine, slowly, gently, leaving marks as he went, and he continued this until he reached a mass of white hair. He swept the stands out of his way, before his lips descended and pecked his lover's neck, his chest pressed flush to the Brit's bare back.
Allen mewled at the care his fiancé displayed, however, he knew that something more was coming, and it terrified him. The person his called his lover rarely acted like this without it leading to something incredibly... humiliating. That, or the jerk had ulterior motives.
And how correct in his assumptions he realized he was when hands crept down his stomach, one soon wrapped around his cock, and the other stroking his thigh.
His breath hitched, and fists clenched even tighter. He was sure that if the rope wasn't tied to gag him, he'd of bitten either his lip, or the inside of his cheek. Even more so when the hand on his member started to pump him, making the pain between his legs that much more painful.
"Doesn't it feel good, Koi?" Kanda asked, before licking the back of the kid's neck and biting down on the pale flesh he found there.
Allen's form shivered, practically mewling from the ministrations. What was Kanda planning? What was he going to do?
"I assume you want me to let you cum, right?" Kanda pinched the tip of his lover's aching cock, listening as the kid screeched behind his gag. "But, you see, I don't know if I can allow that just yet. I'm having a lot of fun making a mess of you." His other hand remained where it was, rubbing that pale thigh in a way that, if he'd done it in any other situation, would have relaxed his little fiancé.
As it was, all it did was remind Allen that he was at the man's mercy.
Why did he have to be so fucking sadistic? Allen found himself wondering. He was hyper aware of the elder man's form over him. He could practically feel every part of the hot skin pressed against his own, espeically the pulsing organ he just knew was ready to fill him to the point he'd think he'd break...
And dear god, right now he wanted to break.
He wanted that jerk's dick inside, violating him in all the right ways, and then, he wanted to cum.
"Tell me something, little moyashi." Kanda breathed, and Allen shivered feeling his breath against his ear. "How badly do you want me?"
"Fwuu...nngh...fpueewe?"
"I didn't catch that." He was grinning, he just knew his lover was grinning right then!
Really, there wasn't any use in trying to communicate verbally. Even if the man somehow understood his muffled words, the bastard would pretend otherwise.
"Mwufh..."
"Tell me with your body how badly you want me to do unspeakable things to you. How much you crave my touch. My dick up your ass, my seed filling you, until it spills dripping down your delicious pale thighs." The dark tone in the elder's voice was a lot for the younger to take in, and he mewled. "As it stands, you know how much control I have over you right now...I could tease you, pleasure you, and make you feel the most intense forms of release by the end of it all, and you'd come back for more."
Allen's breath hitched, as he nodded the best he could. the hand on his thigh started moving, before finding its target between the legs though beyond the twitching anal entryway that was begging to be filled. Silver eyes widened as his body tensed. Both his dick and his balls were literally in the too-talented hands of his Japanese fiancé.
He groaned when that hand began kneading his balls.
"Or I could always keep you from your release until you pass out. Then when you wake up, I could have my way with you all over again." The older male was grinning again. "Have I ever told you how much I love your body?" He suddenly asked, and squeezed the boy's balls.
Although Allen flinched, that didn't stop him from moaning appreciatively at what his lover's treatment did to his body.
"Heh... So erotic..."
"Fmuuu~ mwoos~"
"Hn…maybe it wouldn't be too much a bad idea..." Kanda determined as he thought back to his earlier idea. "I'll make you needy to the point you'll pass out."
Allen's eyes widened, and frantically shook his head. Anything but that...anything but that!
"Then what should I do?" The hand around his lover's cock soon gave rougher pumps, while the other continued groping the kid's balls. "Hmm? Don't you have an answer for me?"
Oh gods, oh gods, oh gods...what's greater right now? Allen wish he knew. He wished Kanda would fuck him into the mattress...he wanted it...needed to feel the other male doing so much more to him...hell, he'd even allow the elder to use that mid-evil torture device of all things if it meant he could get to his hindered release...all the while recording this moment to view on a later date, for the lack of sanity's sake!
Deciding to take a chance, Allen wriggled his hips, hoping to convey his needs. Hoping that Kanda would give him at least a sliver of mercy just this once...
He really should have expected the bastard to completely ignore his plea and bite his ear. Allen's eyes screwed shut when he felt a tongue lick over the outer shell of his ear and trace down the lobe.
He squirmed, before realizing all his prior squirming around had loosened the hair tie keeping him gagged. He doubted Kanda realized it, having been too busy playing with the body he kept playing with. Under the guise of once again trying to get the elder to fuck him, he mentally cheered when the rope loosened enough for him to speak again. "Y-Yu..."
Surprised by the sudden clarity of the younger, Kanda clucked his tongue seeing his hair tie had loosened from confining the Brit's words earlier. "Moyashi."
"Y-Yu...sh-shouldn't ha-have to d-delay your o-own release...l-like that..." He panted. "I...I know you want t-to...sh-shove it a-all in...w-with one g-go..." He lewdly pressed his ass against the elder's groin, mewling softly at the pulsing organ rubbing against him.
Kanda's breath hitched. Fuck...he was tempting him...and it was working.
The eldest of the two moved his hands from his fiancée's privates and settled them at the boy's hips. He then ground himself against his lover's ass, cock leaking precum.
Yeah, he wanted to keep messing with the kid, but fucking the brat sounded even better.
Kanda grabbed the British male by his wrist and pulled, forcing Allen onto his back. Before the boy had time to take in what was going on, Kanda had already spread those pale legs, lined himself up with his lover's entrance and taken the plunge.
"AH!"
Kanda quickly clapped his hand over the brat's mouth, keeping himself still, scowling as he listened out for any sounds outside their room.
The Brit whined, unsure as to why the man was making him be quiet, confusion present in those beautiful hazy eyes.
"Hush, sprout." Kanda waited a few moments that felt more like hours, and when he heard nothing, he breathed a sigh of relief. No one had woken. That was good.
He redirected his attention back to Allen, who was looking up at him with lust.
Throat feeling thick, Kanda reached up and retied the rope that had kept his beansprout silent 'til it had loosened. "Can't have you doing that again," he mumbled, finding it difficult to hold himself back from slamming his cock in and out of that delectable ass. He didn't have to wait that much longer anymore. When he finished with the boy's gag, he snapped his hips forward and grunted.
Allen's muffled screams were music to his ears...perhaps not as much as they would be had he been able to hear the boy's voice in full...but given the circumstances, he'd take what he could get. He could see the sheen of sweat make the smaller body glisten, the angry red that was gracing the younger's erection...the color complementing the ribbon preventing release quite nicely...and those mystic silver eyes hazed over in lust, with tears of pleasure threatening to fall.
"Naaah~" The Brit could feel every inch of his lover's cock stretching him. It was so big, and his ass felt so full... and it was touching his prostate...
Or rather, pounding it as each thrust became harder, faster...and yet still precise with every movement. He needed to cum so badly...it was hard to breathe, hard to think...Kanda always did that to him, he supposed...but this was...a lot.
Maybe tempting the elder wasn't a good idea...but he needed the man to screw him senseless into the mattress...so what if he'd be walking funny later? At the moment, he could perhaps care less at that point.
The closer his older fiancé became to his release, the sooner Allen would be able to cum. He desperately hoped that time came soon.
If this went on any longer, he feared he'd literally explode down there...silver eyes widened as he screamed, as Kanda had started roughly pumping his cock. A gesture he would more than be happy to enjoy had it not been for his ribbon preventing release. "Muwuuh~! Mwaahf! Fuwaes!" He begged.
"Just...tch...a little longer...I want to see you cum harder than you've cum before..." He managed through bated breath.
Allen didn't want that... If this had to happen every damn time his partner wanted to see him cum… he wouldn't be able to handle it. It felt as if all the blood in his body was rushing down to his cock, and it was so painful. "Mwuu!"
"I could always..." He panted, "Have you waiting until you wake up again." Kanda grunted, "I'm going to...make you feel better...than you've felt so far."
The younger shuddered in response to the lowly husky tone he used.
The Japanese smirked, before thrusting harder than before, Allen's eyes snapping shut as stars danced across his vision. Kanda was close...he could just tell...and he was ready to burst...another thrust, and another hit to his prostate...shit, he— "MUAAAAH!" He felt his own cum decorating his and Kanda's fronts, all the while Kanda's seed was pouring into him...when was the ribbon even removed...?
Actually... that didn't really matter... What did was that he'd finally been allowed to ejaculate.
Panting hard, Allen relaxed back into the bed below, not reacting when his lover's pulled out and cum dripped out of his ass.
"You were amazing, koi." Kanda breathed, as he removed the hair tie with ease from Allen's mouth.
"Mm...so were you...but...next time...when I do offer a massage to you...just let me do that first...I really do worry when you stress that much..."
"If it'll help you sleep at night, fine...just remember I may actually ravish you after that."
Allen chuckled tiredly, deciding on snuggling into the strong chest presented to him. "Who am I to stop you?"
Rolling his eyes, Kanda brought the younger closer, before placing a kiss on his crown. "Oyasami. Moyashi."
"G'night..." Allen yawned, before allowing the warmth to lull him into sleep.
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