Rayna's finger hovered above the call button next to Deacon's contact. She'd been like this for the past half hour, trying to find the courage to do what she needed to do. She needed a moment. A moment to truly understand the door she was opening by pressing that button. Nothing was ever going to be the same after this and she needed to process that before she went and blew her life and her daughter's to pieces.
She closed her eyes and took one last deep breath before her finger hit the button. The line only rang for a second before he picked up.
"Hey, Deacon, it's me….I mean obviously you know that already," Rayna stumbled nervously.
"Yeah, I know. What's going on? You don't sound like yourself, Ray."
Rayna's heart clenched at the sound of his voice saying "Ray". He had always read her like an open book. That's why she'd always been so surprised when he never questioned her about Maddie. Truth be told, she was slightly disappointed. A dark part of her wished he could see the truth in her eyes and call her out on it. But, for once the alcoholic blackouts worked to her advantage. Or maybe disadvantage because at this point she truly didn't know.
"I just…can I swing by your place? I need to talk."
"Of course. I'm always here for you, if you ever need me."
She did need him, she wanted to say. Always.
"Thanks, I'll be there in a few."