Goodbye

Rating: T, language

Pairing: J/C P/T mentioned but not main focus

Summary: The four Janeway Children say Goodbye where it all began.

Disclaimer: I don't own Voyager or its Characters but I do own the Janeway Children and some of their friends.

Author's note: I hope you enjoy this chapter it is a little sadder than the previous two. I would like you to know these are all random so the next might not follow this line of events.

I don't have a beta so all mistakes are my own.

Without further ado 'Goodbye'. Enjoy

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Melonie Janeway's POV

I don't want to be doing this, it's too soon. Anson hasn't even graduated yet. Nobody is themselves, Uncle Tom isn't making any wisecracks, Harry isn't the happy go lucky guy he was on Voyager, and Tuvok seems even more unemotional. Starfleet have out done themselves allowing us to take Voyager into space and allowing us to be here, where it all began, to say Goodbye.

Anson is avoiding me. I know why, I look too much like her. My blue eyes as clear as sapphires how does he think I feel getting up every morning to see her, my mom, staring at me softly. I hate it. He can't exactly claim innocence, he looks like Daddy, his big brown eyes. I have to see when I talk to him or look at him.

Erla and Kolopak have just started the academy. Kolopak has taken an interest in Medicine and Erla, tactical. We always joked she was an honouree Vulcan. Her closeness to T'Pel and Tuvok is not surprising she enjoys their company. They don't get overwhelmed by emotions or give her illogical pieces of advice. She can't hide her emotions from me though, her big sister.

Anson, my eldest younger brother, he is devestated, he made every excuse under the sun so he wouldn't have to come. He was always a mommy's boy, despite his looks identical to Daddy's, he stands alone staring out the window watching the reflections of everybody here. I don't know what is going to happen to him. I hope he'll graduate well like I did. Get a good job. I've talked to Captain Kim but he hasn't got any vacancies regrettably.

Naomi hugs me as soon as she spots me. I am grateful of the comfort from her. Despite our differences we have always been close. I can't choose her friends and she can't mine. Icheb apologises for my loss and sensibly shakes my hand. The doors hiss' again and Seven walks in as if she is queen fucking bee.

I see the anger in my brother's eyes as he strides towards her, hands in tight fists.

"Kolopak. Don't. Not here, please" I shout, almost pleading, to him and he obeys turning to his good friend Chip who strokes his back and whispers something. I don't want Seven here, she wasn't a friend of mom's or dad's. She stays by Joe and tries to avoid looking at us Janeway Children knowing we are all giving her dirty looks. Why does she always interfere in places she doesn't belong?

Kolopak's POV

Why is that Borg bitch here? I didn't invite he,r my siblings wouldn't dare either. She is no friend of mom's or dads. Chip tells me I'm too angry, that mom wouldn't want me to rip the woman to shreds at her memorial. I go back to the group I was with before she walked in.

I grip Erla's hand tightly she squeezes back as if it will bring mom back. I hate to look at myself everyday seeing her eyes look at me desperately. I have researched it I could get my eyes changed to green or pink maybe even red. Chip laughs at me when I suggest it tells me I am the most attractive human he has laid eyes upon since moving to earth from Betazed 8 years ago. He is sweet and supportive in the years I've known him, we have known each other for so long he has strengthen my mind I can talk to him with my mind and it's fantastic.

Chip says I get angered easily, I guess from dad, Mom says she would always supported us dad too. Starfleet allowed homosexual officers to work with them many many years ago but growing up through my teen years I was nervous about that and the possibility of being targeted and that leading to pain for my parents. I am protective of them and why not? I may be the youngest but I have a lot of bite and fire.

I'm not listening to the conversation around me, I'm staring at my older brother. He was probably the closest to her. He has taken this the worst, we are all hoping he'll talk to someone before he runs into a downwards spiral darkness. I know after our return Deanna Troi helped with emotional off loads for some of the crew members, she'd be happy to help Ans.

He's only just noticed Seven. Melon will try and stop him but he'll push past her ask her to leave, just like it was at mom and dad's China wedding anniversary if Melon hadn't been there who knows what would have happened to her. She is attached to the doctor who takes her own because he doesn't understand the strain it put on mom and dad, he is her only friend of the Voyager crew.

Chip tells me to stop staring at her, to not look suspicious of her, he can say that she didn't become obsessed with his dad she didn't try and crush his mom both literally and figuratively. Then I see his and listen to the words he tells me telepathically and I know he's right 'Your Mother wouldn't want a scene created here. Calm down' mom would a scene so I grip Erla's hand, wrap my arm round Chip and smile at those in front of me. A brave smile.

Erla's POV

It would be unwise to acknowledge Seven's presence as she despretly cling's to Joe's arm. Typical Doc he has been accepting of her and her nature being a hologram. I flash her look then go back to my conversation with T'Pel we talk about my first weeks in the Academy, in a way she is like mom. Strong and brave but has time to be beautiful Tuvok is very lucky.

I can feel Kolopak's grip, on my hand, getting tighter I grip back. It's a game that's been going on since the start of this event, whoever can grip the tightest is more desperate for mom to come back and this game will bring her back…but it won't.

Since today started I have been trying to distract myself over and over. I started by com calling my roommate at the Academy, to make sure she hasn't destroyed my routine.

"Erla. I thought you were off world today with your…" the bolian girl, Mariana began but stopped at her new friends hand.

"Don't mention it. I wanted to get your notes from yesterday lectures. Don't look at me like that. I've done this before and it works for me. Now your notes." Erla commanded knowing how she coped with grief.

After that conversation I sorted those notes by which time it was time. Now I'm here and have been having intense conversations with Tuvok and T'Pel. I ignore those who want to talk about mom and dad, it might help Melon and Kolopak but not me.

Anson is my best friend. People assume that because I'm Kolopak's twin I get on with him the most, not that I don't get on with him but I prefer Anson's company, it's blunt and to the point no messing around. I watch him watch the reflections, I see him flinch when he notices Seven and then watch as my eldest sister force him back to the window all the while taking in T'Pel's words.

Miral comes in with Naomi. She heads straight for me and I am glad for the comfort, Vulcan's are great but I don't mind the odd hug, she smiles at Kolopak, she has a crush on him which is sad because well he doesn't like her type, female. It's obvious to us, Janeway kids that is. He'd told our parents and it he didn't faze them at all.

I hear and noise and notice Anson's left. Excusing myself I follow the noise and hope Ans isn't doing something stupid.

Anson's POV

She lied to us all. She promised to be there if we needed anything. I don't understand why she would lie. She won't be to see my graduate Starfleet Academy or the twins. She won't watch any of us get married and become a grandma herself.

I've left because if I don't I'll explode at Seven. I don't get how the doctor can be so nice to her. He saw mom that day and how Seven's stunt on the holodeck destroyed her. Voyager has noticed her absence she doesn't sound the same the subtle hum she used to produce all day and night all those years ago, Dad told me mom used to fall asleep beside the warp just so that we would calm down. All the children of Voyager loved the warp core noise and vibrations.

I will talk to someone maybe Deanna Troi, she was helpful to all the crew when we got back despite her other obligations. I know Erla is following me, I sense her turning she pulls me into a hug. I cry because sometimes you must and it can't be stopped. Erla is my best friend.

The wake has quieted down when get back only those close to Mom are here. Uncle Harry begins to speak.

"Captain, Admiral Janeway wouldn't want us moping around feeling sorry for ourselves she'd want us to be celebrating what good times we had with her. Like the away mission many, many many years ago just before Melonie was born. We found a planet with bushes filled with fresh fruit." I listen intently as Harry can't continue from the tears running down his cheeks. Mom was a mother to him out there. She did that for a lot of her crew, particularly the ensign's who were lost.

I want to speak, I walk out and say the first thing that came to my mind.

"Mom, loved Voyager and her crew. I think in a way she grew up on the ship too. Not like Naomi and Melon did, but emotionally. She became a wife, a mother and experienced things from her nightmares and dreams. She learnt something new from everyone. Whether it was about 20thcentury music or Opera or the lengths her crew would go to save her. She would be grateful and thankful that she is being let go where it all began. Picking up a glass I raise and toast to her before we stand in lines and watch as her pod is released. I am desperate that she will find dad and they'll be reunited again.

Author's Note: I know don't kill me it is a little sad and down but the next one is really sweet and I hope you can forgive me about doing a death one but I promise I'll never do a divorce one.

Coming soon: Sailing on Lake George.

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