Chapter 18: Releasing Emotions
Casey strums his guitar as he thinks of an intense moment in his life that he wishes that he can forget, but can never shake off and just shows his real side that Marcus hasn't even seen and it makes him think about one pivotal moment that he had lose someone truly important to him and the minute he started singing, he can just feel the emotions surging through to him.
Can you feel me
when I think about you?
With every breath I take
Every minute
no matter what I do
My world is an empty place
Like I've been wandering around in the desert
for a thousand days
Don't know if it's a mirage
But I always see your face...baby
I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a day without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain...
As Casey lets out every emotion he's kept, he's unaware that Marcus is right behind him, listening to every word and it's like he's hearing a story that Marcus never heard about, but wants to hear more.
The stars are burning
I hear your voice in my mind
Can't you hear me calling?
My heart is yearning
like the ocean is running dry
Catch me, I'm falling
It's like the ground is crumbling
underneath my feet
Won't you save me?
There's gonna be a monsoon
And you'll get back to me
Ohh, baby
I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain...
A brief pause for a minute and soon enough, Marcus started playing his portable drum machine to go along with the beat, which surprised Casey the most after seeing Marcus sitting on the ground listening to Casey sing. That kinda made Casey really amazed to know that Marcus is stepping into his story and just adding a portable drum machine made the perfect touch. Marcus encouraged Casey to keep going and Casey strummed the guitar again and continued singing.
So let this drought come to an end
And make this desert flower again
I'm so glad you found me
Stick around me for the rest of time
It's a world of wonder with you in my life
So hurry, please don't waste no more time
And I need you here
I can't explain it
But a day without you is like a year without rain...
I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is a like a year without rain...
After the song was done, Casey made the final strum as Marcus stops the drum machine after the guitar strum and before long, Casey breathed a huge sigh of release as he turns to Marcus for a second and is still surprised that he listened to the whole thing. Marcus blinked his eyes for a while and said, "Dude...that must've been coming from somewhere inside of you."
"I didn't think anyone would listen." Casey responded.
"I did. Did you write that song yourself?" asked Marcus.
"Nah, I wish I did because I'd make a lot of money if I did it in punk form though." Casey replied, with a chuckle.
"True that." Marcus said, chuckling back.
Casey blinked his eyes with a look of uncertainty about why he sung that song and knowing that Marcus is curious, he thought that it's best to get it out of the open and said, "The reason why I wrote that song...was because someone close to me committed suicide just last Thanksgiving."
Marcus' heart sunk when he heard that news and he said, "I'm so sorry."
"Yeah, he's been my rock for a couple of years and we both have always been there for each other since I was like eight. We've grown closer and closer and eventually...we became a couple. I came out before he came out though because we both have had crushes on each other when we hit eighth grade. Whenever I'd feel sad, he's always there to comfort me and we've been through everything together. I'm just...I'm still kinda messed up about not being there for him when he died." Casey replied, trying hard to hold back tears.
Marcus puts his arm around Casey and said, "I feel your pain, man. When one of us is hurting, we feel it too."
Casey looks up at Marcus for a second and those words literally sunk into him and it's a sure sign of comfort and solace in the hopes that Casey will be peaceful and looking bakc on the few moments they just shared at camp, it was like Casey found someone he can call his true comforter. He smiled and said, "I wish my boyfriend was still alive and meet you right now."
"You're bi, too?" asked Marcus.
"Yeah. I'm bi." Casey replied.
Marcus smiled back and said, "You and I...we're gonna be great friends. Maybe even more than that."
"You know...everytime I see you, you remind me of my boyfriend. His comforting words matches yours makes me feel at ease now." Casey replied.
Marcus chuckled softly and said, "That's how we are as a pack. Let's head back to the cabin."
"Right behind ya." Casey said, smiling.
That was 'A Year Without Rain' from Selena Gomez, but told from a guy's perspective. Stay tuned for more and happy 2016 to all!