Chapter 23: Advice from Kendall

The next morning, Brutus couldn't help but send a couple of messages to Koa, complimenting him and admiring everything he does under the moniker 'secret admirer' without revealing who it really is as a means to keep it a surprise, but those moments whenever he and Koa are together for something, it just makes it even harder and harder to keep it a secret because those feelings keep coming out without Koa knowing what's going on.

He thought it would just be better if he got some advice on how to deal with this feeling he has so that he can reveal his true feelings for Koa face-to-face instead of behind a cell phone screen. While most of the pack memberswere on break in their cabins, he walks over to Kendall and Ryan's cabin and he found only Kendall sitting on the steps with his sunglasses on and he clears his throat and said, "Kendall, right?"

"Yep, that's me. What's up?" asked Kendall.

"Well...I have something to ask you and it's kinda personal." Brutus said, sorta uneasy to talk to Kendall.

Kendall slowly rose his sunglasses and set them on top of his spiky hair and said, "I'm all ears."

He sat down next to Kendall and he became completely aware of Kendall's growing romance with Ryan at camp and he said, "I noticed that you and Ryan have been together for a while now and that's really awesome and all. I just need your advice on how do you let someone know that you like them as more than a friend?"

"Who's the guy?" asked Kendall.

"Um...he's one of our pack members, Koa. He's so kind, strong, compassionate, very chill and we have that Who-aii'an vibe. I've had a crush on him for about a few months now and it's getting hard for me to tell him face to face, so I began sending him text messages to admire everything about him and it's under a name called 'Secret Admirer' so that Koa won't know it's me. But...whenever I'm near him, those feelings are hard to contain no matter how hard I try. So...I wanted to know what can I do?" Brutus explains.

"You send the guy text messages without him knowing?" asked Kendall.

"Yeah. If I tell Koa in person, he might not feel the same way about me." Brutus answered.

For some reason, Kendall could relate to what Brutus is saying and he blinks his eyes and said, "I've been there and done that before. I've had crushes on guys before and what I learned is that sometimes we're very hard to express our feelings to the other person because us guys aren't that emotional. But sometimes...we are. We just don't want anyone else to know about it except for ourselves. It's same with me when I first saw Ryan. I didn't know that he felt the same way about me, but after talking to him, he reminds me of myself in a lot of ways. What you can do is two things; either wait for the right moment or...talk to the person face to face and express how you feel in your heart."

Everything Kendall just said made Brutus think a lot and it really clicked in his head that he needs to sum up the courage to tell Koa how he really feels about him instead of hiding it in text form and he said, "You're right. I should tell Koa how I feel."

"And even if he doesn't feel the same way, at least you've made an effort to know and then you can stop worrying about it." Kendall stated.

Brutus nodded his head in response and he said, "You're right. You give good advice."

"No probs. Take it from personal experience." Kendall added.

"Now I see why Ryan's happy with you. You make an excellent part of our pack." Brutus stated.

Kendall chuckled in response to that and said, "I'm flattered."

"Thanks again."

"Anytime."

Brutus walks away, feeling a little motivated to tell Koa how he feels about him and it just gave him the jolt he needs to express his true feelings. Meanwhile, Kendall lowers his sunglasses back down on his eyes and takes in the day for a while and puts his earbuds on, listening to some metal music.

"They don't make good music like this anymore." Kendall stated.