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Kendall's Pov.
I was sitting outside around like 3 am because I couldn't sleep and somehow Jo found me. I told her I was thinking of going away for a while. She got upset and we argued for a while.
She just doesn't understand and I wish I could tell her but I just can't. I felt bad because its not fair for me to come home and then leave again, but she doesn't get that im doing for her and everyone else.
Jo said that if I leave the people that love me might not be here when I come back. When she left she ran her hand along my arm and I wanted so badly to pull her back, tell her everything, but that can't happen.
She makes me feel so confused, in her small black dress that hugs her perfectly, her high heels and messy yet perfect hair. My head is spinning, what is wrong with me.
I decided to go back to bed and ill talk with my mom in the morning.
THE NEXT MORNING!
I woke up around 8:30 and my mom was making breakfast for us because it was Sunday morning.
"Hi mom!" I said walking into the kitchen.
"Hey Kendall!" she said giving me a hug which she's done everyday.
"Mom I need your help and I just want you to be honest with me, and not hold me back or push me forward." I said looking her in the eye. She took a deep breath then nodded.
"Listen its been great seeing everyone and taking time away from the academy, but im a little overwhelmed with everything. Mom something happened that messed me up. I haven't been able to sleep, what im thinking that it would be for me to get way for a while to get myself together." I said , she looked upset and was quiet for a while.
"Can I just ask why you feel like you have to leave your family and friends who can help you?" she said looking at me.
"Mom a lot happened to me while I was away. It damaged me mostly physically but I've gotten better. Mentally its been permanent. Im confused on feeling for people because I don't trust people. And I don't want anyone to see whats wrong with me. I can't relax or be comfortable because my guard is up, im always paranoid. I feel like I'm gonna go insane soon, and I need to get my head under control and figure it all out. I can't do that around everyone here because I don't want to hurt you guys, and you don't need to know what happened. And I want you guys to look at me the same, not with pity and if I stay I'll break open here and pour it all out." I said sighing.
"Kendall you can tell me anything, im your mother, nothing will change!" she said standing up.
"Mom you don't understand, you would never look at me the same and you would pity me I don't want pity." I said starting to get frustrated.
"Ok Kendall! I can't tell you what to do and I have to trust that this is the right thing for your heath. I support you, and when your ready to talk I'm here for you." she said with a sad face.
"Thank you! Its just something I have to do, i'm gonna stay in a buddies house and I won't be gone forever, just a month or something like that." I said giving a small smile.
"That sounds good. Kendall, while you away figure out you feeling for Jo. I know there's something there, and I know she loves and misses you so much. Please don't hurt her, she's been through so much and she really needs you but your leaving. Its gonna crush her." my mom said tearing up.
That stung. I don't want to hurt her I love her but its for her.
"Your right she deserves better." I said walking away.
Katie's Pov.
Kendall just told me he's leaving for a while to get better, I don't understand what he ment by that but decided not to ask. I was upset at first but he said it was good for him and he will stay in contact and won't be gone to long. He's leaves tomorrow morning.
He told the guys and they didn't understand but support him and din't give him trouble..
Kendall's Pov.
It was another night of very little sleep, and awful nightmares. I was getting my stuff in the car and when I was all packed up and said goodbye to my family. I drove into Jo's drive way and hoped out. As I walked across the yard I saw her car in the garage. I knocked on the door and a couple minutes later she opened the door.
"Hey!" she said stepping aside to let me in.
"Hey." I said walking in.
"You leaving?" she said looking up at me.
"Yeah. I'll be back sooner than you know and I'll be better." I said hoping she might forgive me.
"Yeah, and sorry for what I said the other night, that wasn't nice. It just sucks a lot." she said wrapping her loose sweater tighter and looking at the floor.
"And I'm sorry for doing this, but its the only way I see I can get myself together for you. I don't want to hurt you guys and if I stay that might happen. I'll keep in touch." I said looking at the time.
"I'll still miss you, and don't forget about us." she said holding in tears. I decided it was time to go. She shut the door and I started walking away.
As I walked I away I thought last time I left without a hug, that can't happen this time.
Jo's Pov.
I started to walk away from the door keeping in tears then I heard the front door open, it was Kendall coming towards me.
"I'm not leaving without a hug this time!" He said with a deep voice, wrapping his big arms around my shoulders and I wrapped mine tight around his waist.
"Good!" I said hoping he would never let go.
"Please stay in touch." I said when he let go.
"I will! Bye Jo!" He said kissing my forehead and leaving for good this time. I wished he kissed my lips, I just wanna feel that spark go off.
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