Hey guys your lovely neighborhood author here. I love all of yalls feedback. I plan on finishing new moon in the next chapter and maybe a bit of eclipse will be there. Yes it is confusing on who she is going to end up with but for sure it is not jake. Its supposed to be confusing lol. This chapter might feel a bit rushed idk but i hope you guys still like it. :) enjoy.
I didn't know what Jake kissing me had meant. We walked the house and pretended like nothing happened. I sat on the couch and fell asleep. When I woke up Jake was gone, and Rae, Sam, Paul, and Embry were home. It felt weird looking at Paul and Rae, like I had betrayed them. I knew I would have to tell Sam before he and the rest of the Pack found out when Jake phased, but first I had something more pressing to tell them. "Hey uh guys? I need to tell you something?"
"You mean the, you can hear our thoughts now when we are in wolf form thing?" Sam said glancing at me from the kitchen table. I nodded my head. He sighed, "Well the best doctor in town is gone, but maybe the elders will know something. It happened when you hit your head yesterday right?" I blinked and thought for a moment. So many things had happened in one day I almost couldn't comprehend it.
"Yea I fell pretty hard and when I woke up I could hear Rae's thoughts. It is pretty faint if I am a certain distance from her, but if I am right next to her, or even touching her I can hear more clearly. And then I hear the rest of whoever is phased like background noise." It was difficult to explain, but Sam nodded like he knew what I was talking about.
"Talking to the elders sounds like a good idea. Get some breakfast and Paul will walk you to Billy's." Sam said sounding final.
I bit my lip preparing myself for the backlash of what I was going to say next. "There is another things. Jake kissed me last night. I kissed him back. I don't know what this means...I am quite confused about it, but I figured everyone here should know." I kept my face down and my hands in my lap. When no one said anything I looked up. Sam's face looked surprised, Jared's looked happy, Rae looked betrayed, I couldn't place the look on Embry's face, and Paul looked enraged. I stood quickly and ran out to the front porch. On top of losing Harry, Bella being gone, now the pack might hate me. I ran off a bit just to the tree line. No one followed me. I sighed and glanced around. I wasn't going to go to Billy's, I was going to go home to help dad deal with Bella being gone. I nodded my head to myself and set out in the general direction of home. I heard voice call my name. I stopped and turned and saw Paul coming to me. "Yes?"
"You really kissed him?" Was all Paul spat out at me.
"Yes. I kissed him Paul. I don't think I ever stopped loving him."
"Then why the hell did you go on a date with me." I winced not knowing how to answer. "Why!?" Paul shouted grabbing my arms and shaking me lightly.
"Let me go. Now." I struggled to get free, but Paul was a wolf.
"Not until you answer me." Paul growled.
I narrowed my eyes at him. "I feel something for you, but I can't place it. I figured if I went on a date with you maybe I could figure out what it was, but our date got cut short and we never replanned. I never stopped loving Jake though. Maybe now me and him can have a second chance."
"No you're mine!" Paul's grip hardened on me. I screamed feeling the heat from his skin nearly burn mine. God he was going to phase right on top of me and kill me. Paul must have seen my fear and let me go right as he phased. He scratched up my face, neck, and right arm. I landed a few feet away. I sat up and saw paul make his way to me, head and ears down. 'I'm sorry.' I heard his thoughts. I held up a hand to stop him from coming closer as I noticed the pack was already outside, and Rae coming to me with a first aide kit.
"Don't come near me." I said to wolf Paul as he still tried making his way to me. I sighed and tried to stand. I wobbled and nearly fell, but someone caught me.
"I think the only reason I haven't phased and ripped out his neck is because my fear for your well being outweighs my anger right now." I heard Jake from behind me. Paul growled when Jake picked me up bridal style and closed the distance between me and Rae, but Jake shot him a look even I feared. Rae was crying obviously very worried for me. She began to pat my face down with gauze while we walked into the house. I don't know much about what happened after that as I passed out.
I woke up later that night on the couch in my house. My dad was sitting across from me in his recliner and I could hear someone in the kitchen. "Oh thank god Hathy you're awake." I smiled at him. My face felt heavy and I was tired. "Doc says you lost a lot of blood but you're lucky to be alive. You got ravaged by a bear looks like. Why were you out in the woods alone?" I blinked. Ravaged by a bear? Must have been the cover Jake thought of. My dad sighed when I didn't answer and called into the kitchen, "Rae, Jake she's awake." They both came rushing into the living room. "Sweetie I still got to do things for the Clearwaters and gotta find your sister. You ok being here with them? I'll be home soon, but if you want me to stay I will."
"No dad. It's ok. Go." Talking hurt, but my dad needed reassurance. He nodded and kissed me goodbye. Before leaving the house he said, "I am glad you and Jake are back together. He's good for you." Dad left and I looked at Rae and Jake.
"How's Paul?" Rae sighed and moved my legs so she could sit at the foot of the couch and I could rest my feet on her.
"He's fine. Still out there being a moody wolf. I don't blame him though. None of us knew you two were...a thing." She said as Jake sat in my dad's chair.
"We didn't know until last night that we were a thing again sis." Jake said. Rae pouted.
"I am not happy, but if you two are happy then ok. I am more worried about how accident prone you are around us. This is the second time one of us has hurt you." Rae said.
"Yea I know. Do you think I'll scar like Emily?" I said looking around for a mirror.
"No. The doctor said the cuts weren't that bad. What about Bella?" Rae said. I could feel more than see Jake tense at her name.
"I'm worried. I may not like her much but she is still my sister. I feel like I should have gone with her. What if something bad happens this time? What if she doesn't come back? I don't know how to help dad through losing her and Harry. I feel...is it wrong to say I feel like she's being selfish? I know she loved him, but he left her. He left her broken and scared. She woke up screaming so many nights… you know Rae. You know me and dad had to sleep down here. After a week or two dad would stop running in to check on her. She's been gone a full day now." Jake and Rae didn't have anything to say they just sat there quietly. "Anyways...I'm hungry. Did you two already eat my dad out of house and home?" Jake smiled and ran into the kitchen bringing me a plate full of chicken alfredo.
"We found your recipe and tried to do it justice. It was good brother sister bonding. Plus Sam said we can stay with you until you're feeling better." Jake said. I smiled and slowly moved into a sitting position. I refused help from either of them. I wanted to do it on my own. Once I was sitting I ate the full plate and gulped down the glass of juice I was brought. "Here these are pain pills the doctor gave you." I wrinkled my face and refused them.
"I'll pass. I can manage the pain. It really isn't that bad. Really all I am focusing on is ignoring Paul's wolf thoughts…" Once I was done eating I lied back down on the couch. "You guys don't have to stay. I am just going to sleep."
"Alpha's orders we stay. Even if they weren't I am not leaving my bestie. I know where the air mattress is. I will get it ready and I will sleep on that and Jake can have the recliner." Rae's smiled and headed up stairs. As soon as she was gone Jake was next to me. I could feel his warmth seep into me. I smiled and leaned into him. His arm wrapped around and I looked up into his eyes. He leaned down and kissed me.
"I didn't realize how much I missed you." He ran a hand through my hair. I shivered. I never felt this way around Paul. I kissed him again and heard Rae coming down the stairs. We pulled away and Jake sat back on the recliner.
"I brought pillows and blankets. Hopefully enough for all of us." She said handing me two pillows and a blanket, tossing Jake a pillow and blanket and tossing to the side a pillow and blanket for her. "I am so fucking thankful you have an electric pump for this damn thing." I laughed. Once the mattress was pumped up Rae organized herself and we all soon fell asleep.
I woke up the next morning to the smell of burnt toast. "Dad you know you have to change the setting on the toaster depending on how many pieces you're doing." I sat up feeling much better than the day before. I slowly made my way into the kitchen feeling sore. Upon entering the kitchen I say my dad sitting at the small kitchen table and Paul, Jake, and Rae cooking enough food for all the pack. I laughed a bit at them all trying to share the small space and sat down at my seat. "You guys are so enormous. Don't break our kitchen."
Paul looked over at me and had a frown on his face. He brought over a plate of pancakes. "...morning." Jake brought over a plate of french toast, and Rae brought over toast.
"You guys know we can't all eat at the table." I glanced over at my dad who had a sour look on his face. I reached over and tapped his hand.
"I swear they just came in and started cooking. Never seen the likes of it before. And I figured the smell would wake you eventually." I laughed more and made a plate of all the things. It seemed they were helping him keep his mind of things. I looked at the empty seat and glanced up at Rae friend mind willing her to take the spot. She seeme to get the hint and plopped herself down and started talking to my dad. The boys made their plates and stood in the kitchen eating like we did this all the time. It didn't feel awkward at all. After breakfast dad headed out and Rae helped change my bandages, while the boys cleaned. I felt like a mummy.
"I'm surprised they are being so civil." I mentioned to her as she re-wrapped my arm. She just nodded her head. Is it going to keep being like this it's so nice." Rae smiled and patted my head. When the boys were done they came in and watched TV with us. I was in and out. Rae said it was my body healing itself with sleep. That day passed calmly and the next did too until Bella finally came home, with Edward and the rest of the Cullens in tow.