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Warning; This is a Yuki bashing, mama!Zero, night class whump!
Parings; Kaname/Zero, Kain/Aidou, Takuma/Senri, Ruka/Yori/Rima, Ichiru/Maria
I saw some of the comments about what you wanted me to write next so this one is for just good ol me
I'm sorry about the late update but I had a lot of homework and final exams at school so I didn't have a lots of time to write. I hope you enjoy this chapter I made extra long for the late update.
Chapter summery: Zero is confused over his vampire side and why he helped the vampires and think them as lost confused children. Aido is having trouble and did something unforgettable and got caught by Zero. Can Zero help him or is he a lost cause. Warning this chapter have suicidal thoughts and self harm if this can be a trigger I suggest you don't read the past which is warned with suicidal thoughts.
Kaien was cooking thinking about his sweet son Zero and wondering what made him so irritated lately. Probably have to do with the vampires, after all he's is almost always irritated with them. Kaien could only hope that Zero could accept his own vampire side but sadly that's not happening anytime soon. That's when the front door was slammed right open with a great strength. "I don't get it what's with the vampires!" said Zero as he when to put his hand on the table looking right at Kaien. "What did the vampires do know darling son?" answered Kaien while smiling as Zero could only feel disgusted by the smile and at being called 'darling son'
"Fist don't call me darling son alright. Second the three vampires I have recently encounters with have all being either distressed or being in deep depression so I just had to help them. I don't even know why but the vampire side of me is telling me to help them. It doesn't help that they reminds me of confused lost children." Zero only got angry after saying that out loud after all it's easier to deny when you haven't actually admitted it out loud. It doesn't really help that he do not understand his vampire side.
Kaien could only watch as Zero was making a wreck out of himself. But what surprised him was the mention of his vampire part wanted to help them and saw the other vampires as children. The mention pf the vampires being depressed and distressed was upsetting.
at do you mean they have bee distressed or in deep depression?!" Kaien said with a worried tone. Zero turned so fast you almost wonder how the head was still on his shoulders.
"What I mean is that about a week or more I found Senri crying in distress. When I took him back here he barley question anything did everything I asked, and later that night he had nightmare no not nightmare but night terrors. He could only fall asleep by my side. Maria was also crying when I found her holding her violin. She did not dare to ask teaching lessons from Kuran but she did not think anyone would teach the traitor!. She got lessons from both me and Ichiru now both of them are in a relationship. But both of them did not expect to get any help from anyone. I don't know who gave them that idea, but I will kill that vampire."
Kaien was chocked comes without saying yet happy that Zero is getting to know them but the circumstances could have been better. "Have you asked Senri and Maria who gave them the idea?" Zero looked older and a lot more troubled than ever. "No, I did not in risk of making it worse. If they cant come to a person who will give them the comfort without feeling obligated to say why. I will not ask. But maybe I should ask them either way it cannot be healthy to keep it inside for so long."
Zero could't believe it Cross actually kicked him out after that last sentence. Talk about being careful with what you said or it shall happen.
Flashback!
"That's a great idea Zero-Chan! Now go out and find your vampires and get them to talk about what happen, bye bye!" and Zero was pushed out the door before being able to comprehend what just happen.
Flashback end!
Looking all over the school for anyone (mostly Senri or Maria) in the night class to ask about what the hell is going on. But after hours not finding anyone probably because they already returned to the moon dorm. Zero stopped to think if would be a good idea to visit the moon dorm a demand what's going on or try more discrete method. After a while Zero gave up on trying to find any vampire that would willingly to explain what's going on only to stop in front the music room. Deciding if he can't find anyone that he might as well enjoy some time alone to play the piano. Once entering the music room he saw multiple of instruments and in the middle of the room was a giant beautiful black piano.
Walking up Zero touched the piano keys like if he pressed to hard against the keys they could break. Sitting down at the chair Zero started to play a beautiful melody and started to sing a song he composed himself. Thinking that no one would ever hear him sing and play at the same time because if they did he would get endless teasing by the vampires and that was not 'on the to do or not to do list'.
Zero was so deep in his own world of playing and singing that he did not notice a person entering the room and listening when he sang. When Zero heard a sound like something heavy fell down he turned around to see the least expected person Aido. Normally you could always find him by Kuran side and if he thought about it Aido hasn't been by Kurans side lately. But what scared Zero was the shape Aido was in, there was blood everywhere and it is hard to figure out were the blood comes from. Zero did not even think for a second before lifting Aido carefully up in bridal style so he would not make the injury he has more severe that it probably is. There was only one place that he knew was safe enough to take care of Aido without interference, no vampires and no Kaien.
Trying to run and making sure not to aggravate the injuries Aido has is not easy. Once reaching the place Zero was looking for he could only hope that person is inside and not in the library studying. Because Zero could not knock the door he instead started hitting on the door with his left foot. After a few seconds the door opens faster that Zero expected and at the other side was Sayori. Sayori looked as she was about to ask a question but when she saw Aido the question when unasked.
"Get inside, I will bring some towels, hot water and bandages to clean up his wounds. Meanwhile lay him on the bed and try to make him as comfortable as possible and undress him as well. That way we can see were the are wounds and clean up all the blood." said Sayori as she went to her bathroom. She is one of the few who has a private bathroom. Which she right now could not be any happier for it. Finding what she needed and returned to Zero and Aido only to find Zero looking very worried and more protective than ever. Storing questions about for later Sayori started to clean Aido up of all the blood while Zero made sure that Aido did not move to much. That's when they notice the injuries at his wrist. Zero and Sayori looked at each others worries how a vampire could have open wounds normally they would have been healed up already. The fact it has not healed yet nor is looking close to is extremely worrying.
Once Aido was bandage up Zero and Sayori just sat there beside the bed looking at him.
"What's going on Zero. I know this is not the first time you have helped students of the night class. First Shikki and then Kurenai so talk."
Zero took a deep breath and told her that he did not know what's going on only that ever since the semester started the vampires have been acting weird. Zero told her about the encounter with Senri and Maria, about how depressed they have been feeling lately. Also about the motherly feelings that have been coming up every time he saw them hurt or when the vampires talked about self hatred and so on. Sayori could barely stop smiling at the way Zero described his feelings when it came to the vampires.
"It looks like you are getting attached to the members of the night class. "
Zero turned his head so fast Sayori almost though his head would fall of but was not surprised at his respond "NO F*****G WAY. THERE IS NO WAY I'M GETTING ATTACHED TO THE VAMPIRES." Shouted quietly if that's even possible so he would not wake Aido up.
Sayori laughed softly and said "You know that's not true. Those feelings you have been having is proof enough that you are starting to care about them. But that's not important, what's important is figuring out what have made the vampires the way they are." Before she could continue Aido started to groan.
Zero and Sayori's attention went to Aido waiting for him to completely wake up. When Aido woke up the first thing was to put his hand on his forehead because of the headache.
"Don't move, you fell hard on you head so you may have a concussion." Zero said not noticing the knowing smirk on Sayori's face. Aido saw the bandages on his wrists, he got a panicked look on his face knowing that Zero and Sayori saw his injuries. "Look I can explain.." before he could finish Zero asked him to just tell the truth and that it was not the first time someone form the night class has been acting weirder that usually. And that according to Zero is saying a lot. Aido knew by just looking at their faces that he had no other choice but was still worried about their reaction. Especially because it's about her and the damage she has been doing lately.
Flashback (warning self harm and suicidal though's if this is something you want to avoid just jump this part to flashback end)
It had been going on ever since the semester started Yuuki had been making me hating myself. She started to complain about the way I always follow him is disturbing and is a burden to Kaname-sama. Later it escalated to she would follow me everywhere to tell me that I'm just a burden Kaname-sama with my presence, and she doesn't understand why he tolerate me. Then she responded her own question saying that my parent's must be paying Kaname-sama to tolerate me because they don't wan't to deal with me themselves.
At first when Yuuki said that I didn't believe her but after a while I did. After all it was so obvious the only once that can stand me is Akatsuki, Ruka and Kaname. Which could only mean that Kaname was paid to take are of me so I would not be a bother to my parents.
That's when I started to avoid all contact with Akatsuki, Ruka and Kaname mostly and the rest of the night class if possible. But with avoiding all contact as possible let me to start starving for touch. Used to at least be with others let me have some type of bodily contact, had greater consequence than expected.
But tonight crossed the line. I never expected Yuuki to convince me to do what I have been thinking a lot about doing. Cutting myself to start to feel anything, the emptiness inside has been crowing ever since avoiding all contact with the rest.
Yuuki was telling me about a conversion that she had with Kaname-sama to kick me out the school. After all I'm useless to him in any way possible. I hate to say this but I never had anything to prove otherwise, sure he has always been nice to me but that doesn't mean anything if he was paid to like me. But maybe she's wrong if it wasn't for the fact she proved me wrong and that Yuuki was right all along. She told me that Kaname-sama wanted to talk to me in his room. But when I got there I heard him talking with Yuuki saying that he though me as annoying, a burden and wished that he did not make a contract with my parents. Which included to take care of me and take me to Cross Academy so I would not be a burden to them. The last thing I heard before leaving is hearing him saying that I would be better of dead than alive.
I could not listen anymore just when you think your heart can't break into dust it just did. Hoping to hide out in the school building from Yuuki but with no luck. She found me in the men's bathroom with a smirk on her face. After telling me I should do as Kaname-sama said and take my own life because I'm useless, annoying and a burden to everyone around me she started to laugh. Or tried at least god her laugh would make hyenas cry and hide a thousand feet's underground. Before she left she gave me a bottle with according to her will make my healing abilities slow deadly down. So if I dared to cut myself I would die because my injuries will not heal. I asked her where she got this and got the response that it was special made for this moment from Kaname. So he could die sooner than later.
This made my decision even stronger than ever if Kaname-sama want's me dead then that's what I'm going to do. A least this way I can have done something useful for him. I highly doubt anyone would even care if I took suicide, if they had they would have confronted me by now as why I have been avoiding them. Remembering all the times I collect the things Kaname-sama destroy with his power must make him think I'm pathetic.
I look at the bottle in my hand and drank it. That's when I took out the pocket knife and rolled up my sleeves. I hesitated before remembering everything that's been going on lately and started cutting the first cut. It didn't hurt but gave me more relief, for the first time in a while I can feel something other than emptiness. Another cut after another until on my left arm was five open cuts. But for some reason even if it gave me some relief it was not enough for me. I rolled up my right arm sleeve and started to cut another five. Finally feeling something other than emptiness is a pleasure beyond belief. Laying down on the floor not caring about the blood running out my cuts. Feeling the life leaving my body when I heard someone playing on the piano in the music room.
Curiosity was stronger that the weakness of blood loss gave me the strength to walk to the music room. When I open the door I did not expect Zero be the one playing on the piano. For the first time Zero did not look angry or annoyed but actually very peaceful and I can't believe I'm going to say this but he looked like an angel. The fact that the moonlight shines upon his face doesn't help at all. Just hearing the melody brought me a peaceful feeling I have never felt before. I could hear him play over and over again without getting tired of listening.
That's when I felt so weak I had to hold myself up by putting all my weight on my hand that was holding on the door. My vision started to blur and I no longer could hold myself up and fell down on the floor. The last thing I saw before blacking out was Zero surprise face.
Flashback end!
"Then I woke up here, it's all I can remember. Please I know you have no reason to believe me but It's the truth I promise." said Aido giving them a worried look as if he was scared that they would not believe him that it was Yuki's fault. After all Zero and Sayori are friends with Yuki for a long time. It's more likely they would believe her than him a vampire that Zero can't stand and Sayori doesn't even know him that well.
"Hey, calm down it will not do you any good if you move. The injuries may open again and I would prefer it would not happen." said Sayori as she tried to make him stop moving. But also helped him to sit on the bed without make his injuries worse. She notice that Zero was extremely quiet Sayori looked at him, he had this look like he was about to kill someone. Hopefully that was about Yuki and not over the fact Aido said that he did this because of her.
"Zero is everything alright?" asked Sayori but when she did not get an answer Aido said "Please don't be angry with me I promise I'm not lying. I know I'm worthless, a burden, a freak and I'm better of dead but..." Sayori was about to stop him from keeping on talking but it was not her that interrupted Aido it was Zero.
"First sure you may be irritating sometimes but you are not worthless, a burden, a freak nor better of dead. SO don't you dare say that!" said Zero with a stern and angry voice shocking Aido. He never though that Zero would not agree with him and hate the though of him thinking like that. When he should be one of those who wanted that. But Zero was not done yet
" I know for one secure fact that Kuran. would not take payment to take care of anyone. Kuran takes care of you because he want's to. The fact that you collect the things he destroy with his power don't tell I said this but I think it's kind of adorable that you do that."He said blushing. Aido himself blushed when Zero said the last part.
"Now I was to ask you something extremely serious. Has Yuki done this kind of things to any other member of the night class. Making them feel like they are wort nothing and Kuran may hate them or find them a burden to the point they can't ask for help when they need to? " Zero asked with a serious voice and Aido though for a while if he should tell him the truth. It looked like Zero may believe him, that's when Aido though about what Zero said sounded a lot like what happen with Senri and Maria. Could it be that Zero was the one who helped them from what he knew Senri had nightmares and refused to ask for help so no one mentioned the nightmare or more like night terrors. But Aido did not think Kaname-sama know about the night terror's that Senri had. Everyone in the night class know Maria wanted to learn to play the violin but never asked Kaname-sama. Or at least until she had gotten help from Ichiru and another mysterious person she did not want to say.
"Was it you who helped with Senri with his night terrors and Maria to learn play the violin?" asked Aido and Zero said yes put that he still wan't to know if Yuki is the one who has been behind all of these thought.
Aido looked down at his hands before answering "Yes she has, I know you are in love with her. But she is not the person you once knew. Yuki has been doing this to everyone in the night class. She has been confronting everyone in different ways but they have been working extremely well. She's the reason why Senri has self doubt and nightmare. No one is sure what they are about but he looks better know like he has been sleeping. Many of us has been worried about him especially when doesn't even confide to Takuma. But I'm thankful that whatever you did has helped him and so are many of the night class especially Takuma."
"And when it comes to Maria many of us know that she has been kinda avoiding to talk to us after the incident with Shizuka. Which may be why she didn't dare to ask Kaname-sama for help with the violin. And I'm sure that Yuki made sure she never dared to ask, but you helped her and gave Maria the confident to ask Kaname-sama to help her." Aido had yet to look up from his hands but did not dare to. Aido don't dare yet to look up at them.
"Do you feel safe in the moon dorm with Yuki there Aido-san?" asked Sayori saying the same thing that has been running through his mind.
That's when Aido fore the first time in a while looked at Sayori who has been quiet for a while and said "No I don't feel safe living in the same dorm as Yuki. I don't think no one feels safe there. Especially when no one dare's to mention anything negative about Yuki to Kaname-sama. After all she is his fiance but to tell the truth I think that even Kaname-sama has been trying to avoid her as much as possible lately ignoring her as well."
"Sayori if I would carry Aido is it possible to take him to my room?" Zero waited for Sayori's response while she was thinking she said it would be no problem at all as long he did not put any weight on his wrist's it shouldn't be a problem at all.
Before Aido even knew it Zero had lifted him bridal style and Sayori had open the door.
"You know I can walk right I just don't need to put any weight on my wrist's Zero. So can you put me down now?" Zero chuckled lightly.
"Your body is still weak so not I will not put you down. You are just going to hope that no one sees you if your embarrassed over this don't worry I won't tell anyone." Zero responded with a small smile. It was the first time Aido saw him smile like that, it made him look just like when he was playing on the piano.
By the time they reached Zero's room Aido was almost asleep in his arms. Zero looked fondly at Aido once inside his room he put Aido under the cover of his bed. Changed his clothes and changed Aido into some of his own so he could be a bit more comfortable. When he was done and about to lay down beside Aido someone started to knock on his door. Zero open the door he did not expect a scared and worried looking Senri.
Senri was about to say something when he saw Aido sleeping in his bed "I'm sorry I-I should go..." Zero grabbed him by the arm and shoved him inside.
"Calm down Aido had an incident and I brought him here so he could sleep safety. Was it another night terror?" Senri said yes and could no longer hold on the tears and started to talk softly so he would not wake Aido up. Zero could only hold him in is arms while petting Senris hair. Once Senri was calm he asked what incident Aido was in and Zero told him all about from when he found Aido until now.
Senri was shocked that Yuki could have provoked Aido to do this but then again is not really surprising. But it was worrying if she could provoke one to take suicide what else can she do. The though of that scared him a lot. Zero notice this and told him that if he know there is anyone in the nigh class don't feel safe or need a place to stay he would try to help.
Senri could not help but ask "Do you truly believe everything Hanabusa said about Yuki?" Zero responded "Yes, as much I hate it I have myself notice she changed a lot since she became a vampire. And not for the good but never expected this to happen."
"It's not your fault no one knew what would happen when she became a vampire. If it helps no one in the night class likes her anyway which is why she act's the way she does. Also Zero you can call me Hanabusa instead of Aido if you want to of course." Zero and Senri was surprised at hearing Aido talk expecting him to be asleep by now.
"I'm sorry if our talk woke you up Hanabusa. I didn't meant to it's just that..." Senri started to explain when Hanabusa interrupted him "It's alright I wasn't asleep yet so you didn't wake me up. Beside I'm just glad that you can talk someone with your night terror or at least have someone you trust enough to be with when you have them." Hanabusa said with a tired smile and Senri smiled back at him. Not noticing Kaien standing by the doorway smiling softly at how cute the looked together sleeping. But getting angry when he remember what they said about Yuki and what she had done. Thinking 'Looks like I should have a talk with Yagari-kun about Yuki and what's going on!' was the last thing the though before closing the door to let the three of them sleep quietly.
Well that's the need of the third chapter of a Broken heart's.
I hope you enjoyed it and please give me comments about what you think and ideas are always welcome.
See you until next time.