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Chapter 3

After the little kissy kissy incident, I couldn't look at Gwen's face the same. Since she told me what happened between her and Trent I knew I could make her mine now. She's so...awesome! We're alike in allot of ways. We like the same thing. It's like another me, and come on. I'm amazing. Don't get me wrong, I'm still crazy for Courtney because she'll make out with you passionately but drop kick you the next. It's a kink I have. Strong women turn me on. I can't help it. Gwen's something that makes me feel weird inside and out. I'm vulnerable, I can't help but make her mine. It's a lustful feeling I get around her. Why can't Courtney and Gwen be the same person? That'll be nuts!...Or...Why can't I just have them both?...heh heh.

"Seriously? We won! Our piece of crap Shelter stood a chance against that storm?!" I was pretty excited, I couldn't wait to see the look on Courtney's face. Chris nodded and continued, "Yup, your place was abandoned but still stood still against the angled rain. Not so much for Owens team, There 'fortress of awesome' was destroyed in the first 5 minutes of the rain. And that wasn't the worst part. They had nowhere else to go, haha- I mean, ouch. Oh, there they are. How was the weather, was it….Shocking?" Chris tried to crack one of his wise but no one chuckled or even let out a small peep. Their team looked awful. Owens shirt was missing and Courtney raincoat looked as if a tiger got a hold of it. "We would have won if Owen didn't panic and destroyed the tent with one of his nervous fart attacks! We had to run under a tree! Luckily it didn't fall on us or we'll be toast!" Courtney yelled at Chris then growled at Owen for messing them up. "Dude's as long as we had each other, We would've all been blown away. If it wasn't for Owen's shirt as a tent it could've been waay worse. go easy on the guy Courtney." Geoff stood up for Owen and patted his back so he doesn't cry. "I thought the weather was awesome! I hope we get more storms like that, I thought I was going to fly away with the wind but I was like no! you can't take me wind! and climbed the tree!" Izzy shouted and freaked out everyone around her. "Well...anyway, you guys lost this challenge. Too bad, the reward is awesome. You could have won a spa day at a beautiful resort. Where you'll be pampered, fed great seafood and awesome mud baths. Great for the skin, I should know. I'm pretty darn handsome. Hate to be you guys right now, haha...you could use this trip...YOU STINK, seriously guys." Chris shook in disgust and pointed them to their Cabins. "Chris you'll be hearing from my lawyer! This isn't far!" Courtney stated as she stomped to her Cabin. I looked at Courtney's wet body, Her round hips swinging everywhere and breast bouncing with water droplets dripping from them. "Duncan, you better enjoy that spa day! because my team will win the next round!" Courtney barked at me while I just smirked at her. "Listen, Darling till that happens you need to take quick shower...take pictures for me and send them." I laughed and walked over to the boat that was taking us to the resort. Chris then said something I wish he didn't. "Oh, by the by, if you guys are going to get touchy...remember that the cameras pick up everything…A bit blurry from the rain but you know." Chris chuckled. I froze, I felt a cold chill down my spine. I know Courtney will question it and sucker punch me right in the eye….again. "What are you talking about?" LeShawna asked wondering who was being freaky. "Oh, I shouldn't say. It's not my place honestly. hahaha," Chris couldn't help but stir more drama on this damn show. Courtney's eyes were fixed on Gwen's. Gwen's arms were folded but I knew she was freaking out inside. "Seriously guys that resort isn't going to pamper its self. "I think we all know who the lovebirds are." Heather said while walking to the boat. "Yeah...we do!" Courtney glared at me. Her eyes filled with rage. I just know she's going to hit me then kill Gwen. Courtney pouted then turned around to follow her team. The boat looked as if it's going to break down and drown us all. I looked around for any holes. I know it's a matter of time till it sinks. Heather was talking to Gwen, they were arguing as normal. Lindsay was letting her hair flow in the wind while looking in her mini mirror. "Duncan." Gorilla arms gestured me over to her. I was a bit on the defensive side, LeShawna was known for her quick backhands and right hooks. "What do you want, an apology because I meant everything I said back on the beach. Still funny." I said folding my arms giving her the don't-try-anything-funny look. "No, it's not that. It's about you and you know." LeShawna pointed at Gwen. My heart skipped a bit as I adjusted myself to this conversation. "What are you talking about?" I played dumb. "What are you two? You guys seem really close. I saw you two playing with each others fingers at the cave fire last night." LeShawna whispered the last part. We're pretty far from the rest of the team, far enough from earshot. "Me and Gwen is ju-" I tried to continue but LeShawna continued. "Or how worried you were about her in the last challenge. You carried her the rest of the way. If I knew the real Duncan, He would just drag her out." Leshawna pushed my buttons a bit. "She was dying. and she's a team member. you would of did the same."

"Even if it was Heather?" I bit my lip and leaned against the boat. "Maybe." LeShawna chuckled and leaned in, "I won't tell anyone Duncan, Gwen's mah gurl! she's the only one I trust on this darn show. If there's something much less than anything you can tell me." LeShawna is trustworthy, well enough so Gwen trusts her. "Gwen and I...have a weird connection. That's all you need to know." I softly said. "Oh, what about you and Courtney. You know she'll rip your arms off and beat you with them." LeShawna was right. "God I wish." I laughed. She playfully bumped my arm. "You have to choose. Can't have both." LeShawna Walked over to Heather who was talking down Gwen about the last challenge. Leshawna defended Gwen and Heather grew angry. LeShawna cool points went up, I'm not going to lie. She's a bit cool. I thought she was just a big angry girl with a nasty temper and friends with Gwen. I hope Chris doesn't do anything or show anything to Courtney, besides...he did say it was blurry during the rain. come on now.

"Heather! Stop it, you're not funny." Gwen yelled and stood up off the crate she was sitting on. "I'm just saying, it was pretty weird that you went back for him then didn't come back." Heather's bitchiness was getting on my nerves.
"You are such a team player. I nearly dragged you out that damn box of a shelter to help them! You have issues gurl." LeShawna yelled. I walked over for support. "I say next time we lose, we vote off heather. Then we don't need to worry about her ass." I suggested. Heather looked at me. "Well, sorry. you got your hands so far up Gwen's pants that you don't care about the challenges anymore. I say we kick you off!" Heather snapped, Gwen's face turned red then she started. "Heather! you just want to start up drama! I told you there's nothing between me and Duncan! were just friends and that's all." Gwen's voice cracked a couple times but she made her point. "Whatever I know a liar when I see one." She turned her back to her team. "It takes a liar to know one." Leshawna chuckled and walked to the other side of the boat. Gwen followed.

I shook my head and walked behind Gwen.
"The resort was actually pretty nice. Giving the fact that I don't care much for this type of stuff, I decided to just sit next to the private pool. This blows. I can't be with Gwen alone, LeShawna is being a cock-blocker. There doing their girl stuff. Mud baths and rubdowns by beautiful women...wow am I getting turned on? Gwen's half naked body laying on a white cloth. God I'd kill to see that but the rooms are divided.
waving my feet around in the warm water. head resting on my hand and my other hand twirling my pocket knife I carry around, I started carving skulls on the ground.
"Why is it that every time I think about Gwen my heart just suddenly speeds up. fuck. Princess is all in my head. I have to stop thinking about her before I hurt myself with this all lovey Dovey stuff. I need to space myself away from her. Fuck! I can't even get near her without my insides going crazy for her. I'm in so much trouble. What do I do...well, what do I say to Courtney. she'll sooner or later find out why...this...crap. I do..I like Courtney, but my feelings for Gwen is stronger. I can't just drop Courtney, I'm an asshole but I have my limits.

"Sir? I'm going to ask you to stop or leave." A lady stood over me, an ugly old woman wearing a crew resort shirt and her name tag read 'Lois' Her dark brown hair wrapped in a bun and walkie-talkie on her hips. "I know you like your skulls but you can't decorate the floor with them….Or your name sir." She walked away mumbling angrily. "My name?" I looked down and the tip of my knife is at the end of the letter 'N' I blushed and stood up. It was tiny but if you leaned close enough you'll see the name plus the skulls. "Gwen…" I whispered. I looked up at the night sky and angrily shouted. "Fuck! I'm not even near her better yet in the same freaking room and I can't get her off my mind!" I roared and walked away from the pool back to the dining area where LeShawna and Gwen are eating seafood. "Oh! Duncan, you have to try the shrimp! It's absolutely amazing!" Gwen's voice made my palms tremble and heart race. I was so angry with myself that I tried to space myself. "No, I'm good. don't wanna sit next to gorilla arms and Ms. Pouts a lot." I growled. "And what does that suppose to mean?" LeShawna argued back holding a shrimp in her hand and rolling her neck. "That means I'll rather listen to Heather talk then sit with you guys." I wish I never said that. I don't know what came over me. Maybe I was trying my best to distance myself from Gwen. I can't help myself anymore. Shit, I don't even trust myself anymore. So I had to, I had no other choice but force Gwen to hate me. "Duncan?" Gwen was confused and hurt. "You got allot of ne-..! Hey, I was talking to you!" In the middle of LeShawna I'mma-show-you talk I left the room. I walked away from the long table and towards the two rooms they had us in. One for me and the other for the girls. "Duncan!" Gwen roared my name as she grabbed my arm and turned me around. "Duncan, what's your deal?" Gwen's worried expression weakened me, I couldn't help it. "Gwen…" I couldn't get it out. I knew she felt it also. "Duncan? are you going to tell me what's going on?" Gwen's grip on my arm loosen.

I hate myself...that's what's going on Darling…

I looked at her with hatred and anger. "I need you to give me my space! Really, I can't go one step without you riding my coattail." I said, wishing I didn't. "Duncan! What are you-" I was so upset with myself I had to say it. I had to keep Gwen at a distance. "Stay away from me Gwen, that's what I'm saying. You know how upset Courtney will be with you trying to date someone she's already with. Seriously...since Trent left you've been really desperate."

I've gone too far…

"Dun...can….I can't believe you!" Gwen's tears flowed like a stream before I knew it she slapped me and stomped back to the kitchen. I overheard LeShawna comforting her and cursing my name. I turned to see Heather chuckling while drinking a milkshake, Lindsay with her hands over her mouth in shock. I rolled my eyes and walked into my room, slammed it shut and fell over on the bed. the soft cushions on the bed couldn't help lift my head up, I bet there were hidden cameras around that Chris will brag about...I don't care anymore. Show the world. Show Courtney the video of me and Gwen holding each other. fuck it. Nothing can be worse than this feeling. Hurting the only girl that gets me, pushing her away in the worst way and talking shit about her? while an enemy watch in the distance. I bet Gwen hates my guts now, I bet she wants to kill me...I wouldn't blame her.

That night I couldn't sleep, My head was throbbing from the pain and guilt I was feeling. I felt like I was drowning, a vast sea of guilt, agonizing torture. I wanted to run back out and grab Gwen by her waist and pull her towards me. Holding her till she stopped crying.

But...we all know I'm not like that. Maybe a tap on the shoulder...I shouldn't be joking right now.
I'm such an Idiot…

after a long night of rolling and tossing around the comfortable hotel bed, a loud buzzer went off. I awoke back on the island. "Crap…" Chris must have dragged us back here. I was in my clothes I was wearing since yesterday. "God I could use a shower." I was in the boys cabin. Owen and Geoff were talking, Geoff on the top bunk and Owen on the bottom. I questioned how Chris can get sleeping teens from an island to another island without waking them...Or people asking questions. "Duncan...Duuuude….you managed to piss off every girl at once yesterday." Geoff started as he jumped off the bed walked over to me. "What?...what are you talking about?" I tried to play dumb. I wondered if Chris did what I think he did. " Everyone saw what you did to Gwen! that was awful! Courtney even raged after...she was finished laughing of course." Geoff sat next to me then I glared at him. "Gwen kept following me around. seriously. I needed my space. Isn't it like...2 in the afternoon? where's Chris and his crazy challenges to kill us?" I looked at the clock on the wall, cracked with couple hand prints. "Something about his hairdresser stuck in traffic." I

stood up and grabbed a pair of clean clothes and walked out the Cabin.
I looked over to see the girls cabin. I continued my journey to the showers. The doors opened then shut, I turned to see Gwen walking out, she glanced over then stomped away into the forest. I stopped and watched her as she disappeared into the trees. "Dunny!" brown hair was first then the beautiful face of Courtney covered my view. "You seem happy," I said in a very low tone. "Well, now that she knows her place she'll know that you're mine. Good job." she kissed me deeply. She pulled away and wrapped her arms around me. "Yeah.." I kissed her again. She let out a little girl giggle and she poked my nose. "She wouldn't be able to control you anyway.

Only I know how! Right, Dunny!" Courtney's cockiness was turning me on.
I yanked her arm and walked her to the showers with me. "Oh! Duncan! so romantic are we?" Courtney smiled at me, I pinned her against the wet wall in the showers and continued to make out with her. I made my way up her chest and gripped her breast tightly. She let out a light moan, I "D-Duncan…" Courtney's voice changed a bit. I ignored it and continued to play around with her body. I lift her shirt revealing her smooth and bouncy breast. I grabbed one and twist her playful nipple. I looked up at her face but jumped back. Greenish...Black hair? Dark eyes and green lipstick? "Gwen?" I asked. I was snapped back by a push from Courtney. "How dare you say her name while we're getting friendly!" Courtney pulled down her shirt and fixed her hair. I looked down and seen my reflection. A mark on my cheek, it's faded but still visible. The slap from yesterday.

Gwen…

I leaned up and watched as Courtney argued with herself then pointed to me, I couldn't understand her she was talking too fast and yelling. I kept imaging Gwen, her pale beautiful skin, and calming eyes. Her adorable smile and cute laugh. Courtney was turning red as she screamed. "Duncan! Are you even listening to me?" Courtney pushed me again. I glared at her. "You called me Gwen! again! whats with you! yesterday you're pushing her away now you are saying her name again!" I didn't know how to say it, 'I like Gwen' like it's that easy with this girl. Why did I fall so hard for her...why couldn't I just brush it off like I normally do but this girl isn't like any other,

Gwen is something else. She isn't normal. She's burned into my skull.
"Duncan! What is it with you and Gwen! you better be honest with me!" Courtney placed both her hands on her hips and tapped her foot. Her expression on her face was indescribable and confusing. I paused, I was speechless. She wanted the Truth, yesterday I was so fed up and couldn't take it anymore. I wanted everyone to know. I just didn't care but when it comes the time to actually be upfront about it, my hands are tied. I couldn't lie, I didn't want to. Look at me, a convict that's fallen so hard for this girl that can't even gather the balls to actually say it. Seriously how fucking pathetic am I? Gwen had this same problem with Trent. She didn't say anything and she wish she had. I slowly looked down at my feet, closing my eyes.

that feeling of drowning will kill you...slowly and painfully. The guilt will suffocate you and you'll end at the bottom. the pain will drag you down. The deeper you go, the discomfort and torture will get to you.
I looked up and Courtney was gone. Just me in the showers.
Alone.
I'm neck deep in water. My feet slowly giving up and my arms letting go. I'm losing everything, I can't even look myself in the mirror without seeing an empty vessel of lies and guilt. What the hell is wrong with me! I can't deal with this bullshit anymore. I only came on this stupid show to win a couple of big bucks and I can't even go a day without seeing Gwen!

Fuck...

~End~

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