Heey everyone! I wrote this when iOpen A Restaurant came out and I didn't upload it cause I didn't finish it but I want to post it now cause otherwise it would have been a waste and I always take so much time to write my fanfictions, so please read! It may make some people angry, but I'm sorry! I wrote this when I was depressed so don't blame for it being suckish! Review!

~Charlotte~

Day 49 of 100 Days of Seddie Challenge: iStill Love Him

Do you ever feel like you need to tell someone how you feel, like at that moment in time, before you end up blowing it forever? Cause you're damned if you do and you're damned if you don't? That's how I feel about Freddie Benson.

I desperately want to tell him how I feel before I make the wrong decision and before he makes the wrong decision. This probably makes zero sense but my emotions don't make any sense. If I told him how I felt it would either ruin me or ruin him. Either way, I got hurt.

I wanted to tell him that I loved him and that he was the one who changed me. He was the one who made me feel. The one that made me feel more of a person and less of a bully. But I didn't understand why he suddenly liked Carly again after all these years of not liking her, he's gone back to his pathetic little boy crush. You know what they say: girls are more mature than boys.

After standing there for what felt like an eternity, I wanted to march up to him, wherever he was, and just spill everything about how much I actually meant what I said, even if he didn't. I wanted to tell him every little thing that had gone through my mind when he denied that he had a crush on Carly and how much it hurt when it was so clear that he was lying. It killed me and that's what stopped me right then and there to tell him everything that was going through my mind.

Again and again I keep replaying what happened with me and him and how I must've looked and how much he was different. He didn't care about my feelings anymore and that's what stunned me the most. It made me feel ill.

Did his "I love you" mean anything to him or my "I love you, too".

The three words he said was nothing compared to how I felt. He just said it to say it, I said it cause I meant it.

Yes, it's tiny, but like I said, I didn't bother finishing it! Disappointing chapter but please tell me what you think! :')