Here's another chapter for you guyss! I got no reviews on my last chapter :( Oh well, hopefully you guys will review this time ;D This chapter is not a songfic, but it is based on a song. The song is called Standing In The Dark by Lawson and the day was called 'Dark' so I decided I would use the story of the song to create this chapter! Ever paragraph is a verse from the song apart from the line just before the dialogue comes in. Thanks to seddierules2468 for this idea!
~Charlotte~
Day 68 of 100 Days of Seddie Challenge: Dark
Freddie POV
It was a long day and I was lying down on my bed, wide awake in the gathering darkness, just thinking. I was thinking about the last time I had seen Sam and I knew that she wasn't far away but I wanted, no I needed to see her. I closed my eyes but I could still see her behind my closed eye lids and I remembered when we were once lying down next to each other under the stars one September evening.
I got up and left my house, I couldn't stay in anymore. I counted the cracks along the pavement as I walked along the sidewalk but nothing could distract me from thinking about Sam. I couldn't think of anything else but wanting to see her face to face and thinking about the last conversation we had shared together. She had told me that she was seeing someone new and that they weren't serious, just dating, and I would be lying if I said I was okay by it. So that was why I was heading to her house, and I wasn't one to change and I've never wanted nothing more than to be with her, so I walked up to her door.
I was standing in the dark, outside of her door. I could see into the window and I saw her dancing around with the guy she was dating. As I looked through the glass I realised that she was someone else's angel and it may have sounded stupid that I wanted her back, but I really wanted her back. Now I was standing in the dark not sure what to do with myself.
All I wanted to do was hide so that I could block myself from the sight that I could see from the window, I was just glad neither of them had noticed me. But the thing was, was that I couldn't stop myself from staring at her being happy with some other guy. I just wished that the hands she were holding were mine instead of his and I couldn't stop myself from caring so much about her, about this moment, and about her being with him. Suddenly he started turning down the lights and started to walk towards her, and I stood there paralysed. He started to look Sam in the eyes and I felt like all the air had been knocked out of me.
It was hard to look at them all happy and dancing together while I was stood outside in the dark. Still looking through the glass I started to think about how she was no longer my angel but his and I didn't like it. I sighed into the empty darkness. It was unbelievable how much I wanted her back and I doubted anyone could ever feel how I felt in that moment.
I looked down at the floor with a sad expression on my face and a few moments later I heard the front door open. Sam had come out so I guessed that she had seen me outside. She shut the door behind her and I looked up.
"Freddie, hi," Sam said.
"Hey," I said a little awkwardly after being found outside of her house.
"What's up?" she asked me and I realised that the best thing to do in that moment would either be to walk away and pretend it was nothing, or tell her the truth. I like the idea of the first one, but I decided the best idea would probably be the latter.
"...I don't know where to start," I admitted.
"The beginning would help," she said.
"Thanks," I said sarcastically and she smiled a little. "Okay," I sighed, "I've just been standing out here in the dark and I saw you dancing with the guy you're dating through the glass of your window and..." I trailed off not sure if I wanted to carry on. It seemed like a bad timing now. Not that it was before.
"Carry on," she told me.
I breathed once in and out and then continued. "And I realised that you weren't mine anymore, not like you ever really were apart from that once time...and it may sound stupid that I want you back, but I really want you back." I breathed again once I had finished and looked up to see her face.
She stood there with her mouth slightly open but didn't speak.
"Anyway, now that I've made a complete fool of myself in front of you for the thousandth time, I should go because your date is probably wondering where you've got to..."
I walked away and she didn't hold me back. I guess that put me in my place. Or maybe she was still just in shock. I didn't know. All I knew was that I didn't know where I was walking to anymore. I just walked for about ten minutes and found myself standing in the middle of a park with only one street lamp in sight so I was in the dark.
I seemed to be standing alone in the dark a lot in that one night and I seemed to be right that Sam was someone else's angel by the way she didn't return the feelings.
She was someone else's angel. I guessed I had to accept that.
I know, it's sad at the end, but I wanted to follow the song, but I want you to know that in my head, Sam goes after Freddie and returns the feelings he feels for her. :') Maybe I'll do one in Sam's POV after this scene of that happening.
Anyway, Jennette's doing a Q&A right now so I need to come up with good questions right now so there is only one work I need to say to you:
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