Will opened the door, to let Abigail in. "Hey, thanks for coming." He said.
"No problem." Abigail said. "Did you give any thought to our conversation the other day?" she asked, dropping her purse on the couch and picking up Arianna."
"Hello, pretty girl." She said kissing the baby's cheek. "
Arianna smiled and hugged her, then kissed her cheek sloppily.
Abigail giggled. "Thanks for that." She said, scrunching up her nose at the slobber she left behind.
As soon as she was satisfied she had greeted Abigail properly she squirmed to get down and happily ran off when her feet hit the floor.
Abigail wiped her cheek with the back of her hand and turned back to Will.
"You mean about Sonny?" Will asked.
Abigail nodded her head, "Yeah."
"Actually yeah I did." Will said. "I went to see Sonny the other day and we had a long talk."
"Oh you did?" She said, "Did you resolve anything?"
"No not really, but You were right, Sonny told me that he still loves me and he asked for another chance." Will said. "Needless to say, it's been a rough few days."
"You had a hard decision to make huh?" she said.
"I'll say." Will said, "Paul is AMAZING and I really, really have enjoyed our time together, and being with him is so easy because Arianna loves him already… but you know how much I wanted another chance with Sonny. It was literally all I could think about for months and months."
"So did you chose?" she asked.
Will nodded. "Yeah, I did, that's actually why you are here. I have to go and talk to both of them."
Abigail's head snapped up, "Together?" she asked surprised.
"God no… that would be a disaster waiting to happen…." Will said. "No, I am going to talk to each of them separately."
"Ohhhh." She said, "So you are going to break someone's heart and then make the other someone very happy?"
"Well, I don't know about very happy…." Will quipped.
"Oh come on, Will…. They are both crazy about you." Abigail said.
Will blushed, "Thanks for saying that." He said, "And thanks for telling me about Sonny, you were right, and I needed to hear it."
"So are you going to see Sonny or Paul first?" she asked.
"I will tell you when I come back." He said. "I think I should tell Paul and Sonny what I decided first… don't you?"
"I guess." Abigail said.
"Okay, I am going, I will be back later on this afternoon." He said, going over to his daughter. "Bye sweetheart, Daddy loves you. Be good for Abigail."
Arianna wriggled her fingers at Will, then turned back to her blocks.
"Good luck." Abigail said, as he walked out the door.
As he walked he thought about what he was about to do, one more time… he was 100% comfortable with it. He had made the right decision. He had even taken the two days to make sure he wasn't going to change his mind. Once he did this, there would be no going back….
Will knocked on the door, and waited for what seemed like forever before it was opened and Sonny stood there in front of him.
"Hey Sonny." Will said quietly
"Hey." Sonny whispered back.
"Can I come in?" Will asked.
"Sure." Sonny said, moving aside, letting Will in before he closed the door.
Will went over to the couch and sat down. He took a deep breath.
Sonny followed him over there and sat down beside him. He took it as a good sign when Will didn't move over or flinch away from him.
"Why do you love me?" Will asked suddenly, looking up at Sonny.
"What kind of question is that?" Sonny asked, shocked.
"I think it is a fair question." Will said.
"I love you for a lot of reasons." Sonny said.
"Name them." Will said stubbornly.
"I've always loved you Will, where is this coming from?" Sonny asked.
"Loving me because you have always loved me….. is not a reason, and it isn't good enough for me." Will said. "And me loving you because it is all I have ever known, shouldn't be enough for you."
"What are you saying?" Sonny asked.
"I'm saying that I love you Sonny, I have loved you since the first minute I met you, I think… and I love you right now, because you were the first person I ever truly loved and I don't know how to NOT love you. But I am not IN love with you anymore." Will said.
"Don't say that Will." Sonny said. "We can get it back, I know it."
"Sonny, you aren't in love with me either." Will said, reaching out taking his hand.
"Don't tell me how I feel." Sonny said jerking his hand away. "You have no idea how I feel."
"I know that if you love me…. If you really loved me all along then there would have been no possible way for you to let me suffer the way I did. I made no secret that I still loved you, and I know at first you were too mad and hurt to care, but we got by all that…. And there were a million and one times that you could have said something." Will pointed out.
"I wanted to… but I was trying to do right by Brian." Sonny said, "I told you that."
"And that's bullshit." Will said. "If you loved me as much as you claim that you did, nothing and no one could have gotten in the way of telling me that."
"This is all Paul's fault, Paul is putting all of this in your head." Sonny said, "I told you that he would do or say whatever is necessary to get his way."
Will shook his head, "This really has very little to do with Paul." He said, "And everything to do with you and me. Do you think for one minute that I would let him keep me from you, if I was still in love with you, like I was the day you walked out of my life?"
"Will…." Sonny said, his voice cracking, "I can't lose you, I don't think I could stand it."
"You aren't losing me Sonny, things will be the same between us as they have been for the last year and a half. Nothing is changing we are going to continue to be friends," Will said.
"I don't want to be friends." Sonny said. "I want you back."
"Sonny, just think about it. You don't want me." Will said. "If you did, we would have gotten back together a lot of months ago. You just don't want to see me with someone else, and that's a big difference. I know it hurts, I won't lie, it is going to get worse before it gets better, and I'm sorry that you are going to have to go through that. I went through the same thing, seeing you with Brian. Some days, I thought I would die…. But I didn't, and you won't either."
Sonny looked at Will, Tears flowing down his face. "I'm soo sorry Will, I ruined everything that we had by being so stubborn." He cried.
"Maybe this is how it was supposed to be from the beginning." Will said. "I don't know why things happen the way they do."
"Will please, don't do this… don't close the door on our love." Sonny pleaded.
"I'm not doing that, it's already been done." Will said. "Whether you realize it or not, you love Brian… otherwise you would have let him go, you wouldn't have been so concerned about his feelings." He continued. "This last 23 months have been, a series of tests and trials, and every single time there was a choice to be made. You chose Brian."
"I NEVER chose Brian over you." Sonny said.
"Did you know I still loved you at any time during the last two years?" Will asked.
"Well, yeah" Sonny said. "I always knew you loved me."
"Then every time that you knew that, and you stayed with Brian anyway…. That was a conscious choice on your part." Will said.
"I didn't mean it to be like that." Sonny said.
"I know, and it's okay, I don't hold it against you, I will always love you, Sonny, I'll give you and little time and then I will come by the coffee house in a couple weeks." Will said, standing up. "I'm sorry." He said when Sonny's eyes flooded with a fresh barrage of tears.
Will turned and walked out the door quickly. It hadn't been as hard as he thought it was going to be.
Sonny sat on the couch in shock, hot tears flowing freely, coursing down his face. He didn't know how he was going to go on without Will, he had just walked out of his life, like it was nothing. He hadn't even shed one tear…
He had blamed this on Paul, but really it was his own fault. He hadn't been strong enough to tell Brian that he was still in love with Will. If he could have done that, then he and Will could have been together this whole time. But somehow he had been hell bent on teaching Will a lesson, going as far as accepting Brian's proposal. Not that he didn't love Brian at all, because he did. Will was right about that at least. He had come to love Brian. It would just never come anywhere close to what he felt for Will, Not even if it lasted a million years. Then he had gotten desperate and practically prayed for someone to come along and sweep Will off of his feet. He thought that he would maybe daydream about Will a little less, if he could see Will happy in a relationship with someone.
That old saying "Be Careful what you wish for…." Was certainly true, and his wishes had come back to haunt him.
Maybe he should have made his pleas and prayers a little more detailed. He should have asked for someone for Will to spend time with, not fall in love with.
He thought carefully about what Will had said, he had apparently done what Sonny had asked and given it a lot of thought. He wondered if Will had felt betrayed by him every time they spent any amount of time together that didn't end in reconciliation. He hoped that wasn't the case.
Will saw it as him having made a conscious choice, choosing Brian over him time and time again so he didn't know how he couldn't feel at least some resentment. If Will felt even a fraction of what he was feeling right now, Sonny didn't know how Will could still love him, never-mind stand to look at him. Sonny felt like someone was taking an ice pick to his heart, trying to cut it out.
Will had lied to him, but he had never deserved what Sonny had put him through. Sonny was beginning to see that now.
And Brian had only loved him, and helped him through those dark days after he and Will had broken up. Will thought Brian had manipulated him…. But the truth was that Brian had told him that he needed to go back to Will in the beginning, but Sonny had been stubborn, like he always was. Sonny had promised him that he didn't want Will. He had insisted that he only wanted Brian, and after a couple of months Brian had finally given in to him.
That was a huge part of the reason that Sonny had never told Brian that he still wanted Will. Brian wasn't stupid, he was actually a pretty smart guy… he knew of course that Sonny still loved Will, still wanted him, that was why he was always so suspicious of the time that he spent with Will. It was time that Sonny had an honest conversation with Brian, and give him the chance that he deserved to figure out what he wanted…. And he had to do it before he changed his mind.
Sonny had made a complete mess out of his life…. And Brian's….. and he had been determined to do the same thing to Will. He had to make it right somehow. Sonny picked up the phone looked up a number, pressing the button to make the call…
"Delta Airlines." The representative said coming on the line.
"I need a ticket on the next available flight from Chicago to Baltimore, MD" Sonny said going into the bedroom. He pulled a backpack from the closet and started shoving clothes inside.
"I can get you on a flight a 7pm tonight, can you make that?" she asked.
"Yes of course I will be there." Sonny said pulling out his wallet and rattling off his credit card information to her.
Will dashed the tears from his eyes. It hadn't been as hard as he thought to let Sonny go. It had been the right thing to do. He had spent hours thinking about it, trying to figure out the right thing to do. He loved Sonny… but he hadn't said one word today that he didn't feel was completely honest. He really did feel all those things.
Loving Sonny was all that he had ever known until now. Paul was showing him a whole new world…. And he was excited to see what that world included…. He took his phone from his pocket, pulled up Paul's contact information. He pressed the send key and listened to the ringing one the other end until Paul answered.
"Will?" he said.
"Hi." Will said, "What are you doing right now?" he asked.
"Just hanging at the hotel." Paul answered.
"Good… stay there." Will said. "I'm on my way."
"Okay." Paul said. "Is everything okay?"
"Yeah…." Will said. "I just made my decision and I wanted to talk to you in person, I think you deserve to hear what I have to say in person…. Don't you?" he asked.
"Okay, I will wait here." Paul said. "See you soon….."
Author's note: Okay so I know some people are happy, some are sad… and some are mad…. This story has taken me down many paths myself, and until I got here in front of the computer to write this… I was really still conflicted about how it was going to go. I love Wilson.. they will always hold a huge place in my heart. I also love Horita/Paulson…. I even love Pilson (The trifecta together) mostly because I LOVE These characters…. They are very special to me. SO I hope that you all stay with me to see where else this is going to go… there are still many things in my mind that will make their way into this story.