*Thank-you for the reviews on the last chapter. They were greatly appreciated. I know we've had some tough chapters to get through and they have been sad but hopefully things start taking a turn for the better for Willow and Joe beginning with this chapter. Please enjoy.

I sit by the cool ocean water as the waves splash down at my feet as I sit in the sand wearing a pair of cut off blue jean shorts and a white tank top. I allow the sea breeze to hit me as the sun sets over the ocean. The sky painted with orange and pink rays from the sun and the sun reflecting off the sea. It's been a month since my attempt at suicide. Many would call it a selfish choice but I just wanted to take my pain away. I wanted to feel better. I didn't want to hurt anymore and for that few minutes I had no pain, I had no sadness, I had nothing but the hope of seeing my beautiful baby boy again. He was so beautiful and precious. Every day I spent with him was a gift I will cherish the rest of my life. Our time together was short, too short and I miss him every day. It's like a part of me died when he did. I never thought it would be this way. I never thought life would be like this but it is and there's nothing I can do to change it but live with it. The sounds of the ocean calm my soul, bringing peace to my mind as I draw in the sand watching the sunset. My therapist suggested that Joe and I take a trip away for a while to spend time together, talk and heal from the death of Kekoa. He believes that a trip away from Tampa and Florida will help us heal as a couple, help us bond together over our pain because it has been hard on both of us. It has been stressful and added so much strain to our marriage. So in an effort I bought us a trip to Hawaii to spend time together. There has been nothing more beautiful than our trip here. I love it here. The flowers, the family vibes, the love and welcoming of the island make it so peaceful. It's what we needed. There have been times that I thought Joe and I would split. I don't' want to lose him and I want this to work but fate works the way it wants to work. I want to work on us and I have read the statistics couples don't last long after the death of a child. I want to beat those odds because Joe is the love of my life and I love him more than anything. To lose him would be like losing my son all over again, feeling that pain and that heartache. I couldn't take it again.

"You okay?" asks Joe as he appears beside me standing next to me as I look out over the beautiful ocean.

I look up at him and smile as I see him in his khaki shorts and white wife beater with his dark hair pulled into a low bun. "Yeah," I say. "I was just thinking again."

"Thinking is good," he says taking a seat next to me. "Here's your medicine," he says handing me my anti-depressant and a bottle of water. I pop the pill into my mouth and drink it down with a sip of water. After seeing the therapist and psychiatrist they believe that I am manic depressive or suffer from being bipolar and the death of Kekoa was my trigger. I had signs of depression before and signs of being bipolar. My moods were all over the place at times but I never wanted to see or admit my problems to anyone. I knew it was possible after watching my mom suffer from bipolar disorder for years but I didn't' want to be like her and it was scary but they prescribed me meds to help my depression and help balance out my moods. It has helped me so much, I feel like a better person, happier and dealing with my son's death better than I did before.

"Thanks," I say with a smile. "I love it here."

"Me too," he says, "I almost don't want to go back to Tampa."

"Me either," I say as I look at him. "If I could live here I would."

"Me too," he says. "Everything about this island is beautiful. And it feels like home."

"A new beginning," I say.

"Are you thinking of moving here?"

"I wouldn't ask you to do that because of Alani. Vanessa just moved them to Tampa so that you two could get more time together. I can't have you two separated again besides I want to be near my family too."

"Right," he says, "so what are you thinking about?" he asks.

"Just life," I say. "It doesn't hurt so much anymore."

"I know. It's like the pain is slowly fading away of course I still have my times when I wish he was here and I think what if but the pain is getting better."

"I think we are just starting to live with the fact he's not coming back, Joe," I say. "What do you think he's doing now?"

"I'm not sure," he says. "I'm sure our loved ones that have passed on are taking good care of him right now. He's not alone, Willow if that's what you're thinking."

"I kind of was because I can't imagine our baby boy by himself in Heaven. I'm sure our families are taking great care of him. I'm sure my grandpa loves him already. They're probably best friends."

"I'm sure," he says with a smile. "I bet he's healthy and healed up in Heaven."

"I'm sure there's no pain there," I say as I finally admit that Kekoa is in Heaven. I'm not sure how I feel about God but I know my son is somewhere. "He's probably as happy as can be. I wish I could have seen him smile at least once. I bet he smiles just like you. I think he always looked like you."

"You're joking right?" he asks. "I think he looked more like you than he did me. I saw that little red peach fuzz on the top of his head. I'm certain he would have had had beautiful red hair like you and your beautiful green eyes. He would have been a heart breaker."

"Yeah he would have. The girls wouldn't have known what to do with him. He stole my heart the moment I saw him."

"Mine too," he says. "One thing is for sure we did good with him, even though time was short at least we got those moments with him. He was a warrior for as long as he could be. He fought hard but sometimes the battle wins but I'm sure he is well-loved and taken care of up there watching over us and like Alani always says he is with us everywhere we go including in that ocean and that beautiful sunset."

"I think that too," I say with a smile as I take his hand into mine, linking our fingers together. "I love you."

"I love you too, Willow," he says with a smile as he looks at me inviting me to rest my head on his shoulder. I lay my head on his shoulder taking in his scent.

"I guess we should talk about this wedding huh?"

"Only if you're ready to talk about it," he says. We have put the wedding planning on the back burner for now because we're dealing with this in our lives. I don't want to walk down the aisle and "marry" him if we're not in a good place together.

"Well, we have to discuss when it's going to happen," I say with a smile. "Remember I wanted to do a Christmas Eve wedding in Houston?"

"I remember that being the plan," he says with a soft smile as he plays with my hair and I feel his lips on the top of my head. "What are you thinking about, Love?" he asks.

"How about we push it back a little bit maybe in March?" I ask.

"Eh, I don't know, Willow. You know that from January till April our schedule picks up and we have the road to Wrestlemania. It might be difficult to get a wedding planned and have a wedding in March. It will be pretty hectic," he says and I nod in agreement as I play with his wedding band. "Any other time other than January through April would be good."

"What about if we got married in May or June? Does that work for you?" I ask.

"I could go with May," he says. "Everything has died down, Wrestlemania is over and all that hype then it is a down time until Summerslam storylines begin. If that's what you want we can do it that way."

"I think May works best too," I say with a smile as I look up at him, my green eyes meeting his dark brown eyes. "Why did you stop wearing your contacts?"

"I just wanted a change," he shrugs, "so what day in May were you thinking about?" he asks.

"I like your brown eyes better by the way but I was thinking the middle of May. What about May 20th?"

"That works for me," he says. "Are we still doing it in Houston?"

"Yes and I'm going to need to change EVERYTHING, colors, flowers, invites and everything. I think we can do our country theme wedding now."

"If that's what you want but I am not wearing a cowboy hat. I have to keep reminding myself that my wife is country."

"As country as they get. I'm wearing cowgirl boots and not heels."

"I didn't expect anything else," he laughs and the sound of his laugh sends butterflies in my stomach. It's been so long since we have laughed together, since we have been happy together. "I guess I'm stuck with you forever."

"You better get used to it because I am not going anywhere."

"Neither am I," he promises. "It's you and I, Willow."

"Always," I respond. "When we get back to Tampa I'm going to start training again."

"Training?" He asks. "What do you mean training for what?"

"I want to get back in the ring. I want to go back to wrestling. I mean I'm not pregnant anymore and my knee has healed. I want to get back in the ring and get back to work."

"Are you sure?" he asks.

"I'm sure," I say, "I want to have my first Wrestlemania in 2017. It's going to be my dad's final Mania so I would love to have my first the day of his last. It is something special to me. I want to work to that point. Don't you want me to get back in the ring?"

"It's not that I'm just surprised you want to get back to wrestling."

"Why? Did you think I wanted to sit at home by myself doing nothing?"

"Of course not, I just thought that maybe you wanted to get into teaching or something. I don't know I think it's great that you're getting back in the ring but the only thing I am worried about is the brand extension. I was drafted to RAW but what if you get drafted to Smackdown? We'll be on different shows, have different traveling schedules and we would never see each other. I don't want to be on a different show than my wife."

"Maybe because we are married they would draft me to RAW," I suggest. "They can't be separating married couples I would hope. They kept Dean and Renee on the same show, Lana and Rusev as well as Miz and Maryse. I think that they also put Trin and John on the same show."

"They were trying to keep couples together especially the married ones the only couple that really got separated that I know of was Cass and Carmella."

"Yeah, Carmella told me how much it sucks but I am so proud of my girl getting drafted to Smackdown that's big. When I get back is there really going to be a spot for me on either brand? I mean they brought up a lot of girls from NXT and I know Bayley is on her way up so where does that leave me? I'm going to be lost in the shadows of all of them don't get me wrong I'm happy for them but what about me and what I'm going to do. You and I both know the WWE world doesn't stop when you're out."

"I'm sure they will find something for you. You could continue your feud with Charlotte," he says. "And you're still technically entitled to a shot at the Women's championship."

"Correction, I was the Divas champion never the Women's champion I'm not entitled to anything."

"Your feud with Charlotte was golden. I think they will allow you to pick it up where you left off there's a lot left to do."

"I hope so," I say. "I probably won't even be back in the ring until January at the latest just in time for the Rumble."

"Nothing wrong with that," he says. "You need to get your body back to where it was and do some in ring work, get some more training in. I'll work with you if you want me to."

"That would be great but I am not ready for that almost two hour drive to Orlando every day. I might have to go live in Orlando for a couple months."

"Are you sure you're ready for this?"

"Yes," I say, "It's time to move on and get back to life, Joe."

"Okay," he says.

"And I was asked about doing Total Divas."

"Wow, what did you say?"

"No because I want my privacy. I don't want the world to see what we're dealing with. I just want a private life, Joe. I know that's a lot to ask with our line of work but I'll be damned if I let camera crews into our house that being said I feel like we should do something in honor of Kekoa, come up with some type of organization, do something good in his name. It would be like he died in vain if we don't do something good in his name. I think our situation could be used for good to help others that might be dealing with the same thing as us. I want to do something good."

"Okay," he says, "I agree we should do something in his name and start some type of organization. We'll figure it out. I think that's a great idea."

"Thanks, so what about me moving to Orlando for a couple months?" I ask.

"If that's what we need to do we'll move to Orlando for a couple months," he says.

"I'll look for apartments when we get back to Tampa," I say. "I just want everything to get back to normal and I have a wedding to plan, well we have a wedding to plan."

"Life keeps moving huh?" he asks. "I don't think our lives will ever truly be normal again but I know that we're going to keep living the best that we can. I'm glad to see you like this. I've missed you so much, Willow."

"I'm glad to be back to my old self," I say honestly. "I feel better. I mean I still hurt but I'm happier and dealing with it better."

"You are," he says, "is this something you'll have to manage the rest of your life?"

"Yes," I say, "I'll have to take medicine the rest of my life to keep my moods balanced out and to keep out of falling into severe depression. I've watched my mom deal with it for years so I'm familiar with it."

"Okay," he says, "if we can come back from this we can come back from anything."

"I agree," I say. "We are going to come back from this, we have to. Everything we have gone through we have to get through this. Relationships don't last because of the good times, they last because the hard times were handled with love and care. We'll get through this I promise."

"I know, Baby," he says before placing a soft kiss on my lips. "I love you so much."

"I love you too," I say with a smile, "forever and always," I say before I kiss his lips passionately reigniting the passion that we once shared together. We've been through a lot together in the last few months, things have been tough but our healing process starts now and we move on together as one. Nothing will ever change how hard we work to make our relationship last it isn't easy it takes hard work and love to keep something this special going and I'm willing to work however hard I need to, to make this work.

"Can I ask one thing," he says, "and you don't have to answer it if you don't want to."

"Ask me, Babe," I say with a smile.

"Will you ever want to try to have a baby again? I still want to have more kids and I need to know if you're willing to try for another baby sometime, I'm not saying tomorrow but sometime."

I think about it and say, "yeah not for a while but someday I won't mind trying for another baby with you. I still want to be a mother that hasn't change. I just need to heal from this first, get my career together and we need to be 100% okay. I promise the day will come."

"I hope so," he says before he kisses me once more sharing a soft passionate kiss in the moonlight as the sun has set in the sky giving an end to another day, ready to prepare us for the new beginning of tomorrow.

*A/N: Do you think their trip to Hawaii was needed to give them time to think, spend time alone from the place the worst thing in their lives happened to them? Does it seem like it has helped them heal a little bit? What do you think of Willow being diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder? Does it explain a lot about how she's been in past chapters? Are you glad she's getting the help that she needs? What did you think of Willow announcing she wants to get back into the ring and get back into wrestling? Do you think it's time and do you think it's a good idea? What do you think about them moving their wedding to May? Was this necessary for them? Do you think they have taken the first step in the healing process? Do they seem to be doing better as a couple than they have been in the last few chapters? What do you think about them both discussing the possibility of having a baby in the future? Please review and thank-you for reading.