Chapter 4: Innocence Fleeting
I awake in a different position than the one I had fallen asleep in. Blankets surround me and my head has been placed on a beige pillow. I sit and scan the room for Atem, but he's nowhere to be found. I sigh and swing my legs to the side of the bed. The marbled floor is cold on my bare feet. I shiver as I walk out of the Prince's chamber and down one of the Palace's corridors. I hear a faint melody in the distance. Is someone singing? I continue my stride in the direction of the music. The voice is deep and baritone while the lyrics and tone are melancholy and sad. It's Atemu. I haven't heard him sing in a while. I keep walking and then I freeze right in my tracks.
Atem's in the bath, his body completely unclothed and natural. There's crystal clear water spilling onto his washboard stomach and masculine chest. His hair is wet and flowing past his broad, toned shoulders. The little hairs below his navel glisten and sparkle with droplets of water and sunlight. I want to stop my eyes from traveling any further downwards, but it's too late…
I run back the way I had come. I sprint far from that hallway until I can run no more. "Oh my Ra…" I collapse in the empty dinging hall, my legs shaking and my breathing ragged. "I just aw…" My heart pounds as my entire face burns. I shake my head rapidly. No, no, no! Why did I have to be so nosey and snoop around? Now I've seen Atemu, my best friend, the new Pharaoh…naked! This is horrible. I hang my head in shame as I begin to feel strange again. There's a burning sensation in my lower belly that's quickly spreading down my thighs. Saliva builds in the back of my throat and thickens with each swallow.
Atem's gorgeous, naked body is all I can see. It plays over and over again in my mind in a slow motion. The replay stops near his manhood and…and…
Hesitantly, I bring my fingers to my skirt and brush them across my thighs. I get chills. My hand inches closer to where my legs start. What am I doing? I part my legs ever so slightly. Nausea pulses through my body. What am I supposed to do? What's happening to me? I am so very, very confused. I cannot control or understand the burning that I feel. My breasts perk and my nipples harden. My legs tremble and my heart pounds. I feel as if I have relieved myself. My undergarments are wet and warm. For whatever the reason, I wish to touch myself down there. I can feel my private parts throbbing and aching for something. Tears fill my eyes as I feel both pleasure and pain. What am I feeling? What is this? I sob quietly on the luxurious floors.
"I shouldn't love him this way…"