So this is a very different chapter. Its not the usually fluff that i write. I wanted to try some Drama and i drove straight in at the deep end! i don't want to give too much away but its gonna be a good one - i hope. I really hope you all enjoy :)

Harriets POV

I hate being off with him, he was being so lovely, so caring and i was just pushing him away. He was my rock and i couldn't stand not sharing my worries with him. I didn't see the point really, worrying and panicking him when there might not even be anything to worry about. I was glad i was seeing the doctor today, it put my mind at ease ever so slightly. I wish i had someone there with me, no, i wish i had Cain with me but i just couldn't face telling him, not yet. Not until i knew if there was something to be told.

I was sat in the waiting area of the doctors, nervously awaiting the doctor calling my name. I had booked an appointment in a doctors a few miles away from the village, i couldn't risk anybody seeing me here, especially not Cain.

"Harriet Finch?" The doctor calls out, just a few minutes later. I stand slowly before smiling as i walk over to the doctors office.

"Hi, I'm Doctor West . I will be looking after you today. Now tell me, what seems to be the problem." I was quite glad id been given a lady doctor. Not that there was anything wrong with Male doctors, but i felt more comfortable with a woman, for this subject matter anyway.

"Ive missed a period." i spoke with a quiet, gentle tone to my voice, almost a whisper.

"Right, I guess i don't need to ask if you're sexually active?" The doctor winked as she pulled her chair closer to mine, sensing that i was uncomfortable.

"Defiantly Active." i told her, looking down to the floor, seeming ashamed for some reason which i knew i shouldn't be.

"Slightly more than usual i suspect?" very much catching the drift that i had regular sex.

"Ive recently got with someone. Well, i say recently but we've been together more than a few months now. So yeah you could say that." The doctors laugh brings me back into reality.

"There's no need to be embarrassed. We are both Middle Aged women here. Its okay to have fun." She smiled, making me feel slightly more comfortable than before. "So how many times a week?" she added, shocking me.

"excuse me?" i asked, making sure i had heard her right.

"How many times a week would you say you had sex, on average?" She asked again, not even faltering in her words. i suppose it was her job to ask awkward questions.

"Erm 4, maybe 5." I say, almost certain my face now resembled a beetroot.

"Wow, Lets get you checked over then shall we?" She said, leading me over to what looked like the most uncomfortable bed ever.

"It says here on your notes you were stabbed, not that long ago actually." Her words sent shivers down my spine, it had been weeks since i had been stabbed but i still cant help but feel shook up anytime someone mentions it.

"Yeah, that's right. Some thugs in the middle of nowhere." i tell her, the words almost getting caught in my dry throat.

"Well you know, that could be the result of you missing a period you know. It could be alot of things, not just Pregnancy." Her words felt alien to me, i shuddered when she said the word 'Pregnancy', Being a mother had never been any part of my plan.

I felt the cold jelly on my stomach, almost as cold as the way i felt inside. I felt so bad not letting Cain in, i know if he finds out he isn't going to like it, not one bit.

"Harriet, Ill just be one moment." The look on the doctors face changes, and not to a pleasant one. I can feel that there is something wrong and the worst part is, i don't know what. Moments later she returns with another Doctor, this time one that had the same look plastered on his face but he looked as if he had news to spill.

"Harriet, you aren't pregnant, I'm afraid that your injury to your abdomen has damaged your Uterus. This means that for a Pregnancy to happen, you'd need a miracle. I'm sorry but this damage, combined with your age means that the chances of you ever getting pregnant are one in a million." His words hurt. I didn't even want kids, id never wanted them so why did his words cause me so much pain. Maybe its because now even if i wanted to, i couldn't.

"Most likely, your missed period will have been in result of your injury. I am however going to give you a leaflet that has all the information you need." i nodded in agreement. i hadn't said a word, mostly because i was shocked. Shocked and scared.

"I can get you a glass of water if you'd like." i shook my head before standing up and walking as fast as i could. I needed to get out of there. I felt like i had no air, no room to breathe. I open the door and step outside as tears start to force their way out of my eyes. I was so confused. I didn't understand why i was crying, kids aren't even my agenda, why did the fact i couldn't have them change that? How could i be upset over something that i never had.

I drive myself home, hoping that Cain might have been out. I couldn't face him, not now. I open the front door to our home, and sat down on the sofa. I felt emotionally drained. I throw the leaflet in the bin, not even bothering to read it. I had heard enough. It was then i found the note. A note that had been left from Cain.

' Harriet, Ive gone to the pub to meet Aaron and Ive left you some curry in the oven. Be home around 6,

Cain x'

How could i of lied to him, He'd never lie to me - not anymore at least. He would have wanted to be there, he would have wanted to support me. A wave of guilt flashes over me as i sit on the floor and cry. The front door slams behind me and i don't even look to see who it is, Seconds later i feel his arms around me, i feel him holding me close to his chest, rocking me gently to calm me down. I can't help but cry in his arms and they aren't even tears of sadness. They are tears of annoyance and guilt. annoyance that i was letting it effect me so much, i wasn't even sure why i did let it effect me. And guilt, the guilt that id kept such a big secret from the person that i loved the most.

Cains POV

I held her as close to me as i could. Not wanting to let her go. she was hurting, there was no doubt about that. I just wish i knew what about. I wish she'd open up, i wish she'd talk to me. I feel her calming down and i try to stand her up. I sit her on the couch and disappear into the kitchen.

"Ill warm this curry up for you if you like?" i ask but as i turn back into the living room she is flat out of the sofa. She looks tired, drained even. I decide to leave her, she probably needs the rest. I presumed the rest of the curry wouldn't get eaten so decided to throw the rest away. I open the bin to pour out the food when i catch a glimpse of a pink pamphlet. 'Pregnancy and your body' the leaflet said as more of it was revealed after taking it out of the bin. I look at the leaflet and then back at her. I was so angry, how could she lie to me about something so big. Why would she keep this from me. Unless she was scared of me, scared of what Cain dingle might do to someone that was carrying his child. She'd no doubt heard the stories about Amy and Kyle, they wouldn't exactly fill her with confidence. But i was still the dad and as she slept in the living room i was left betrayed and hurt that she felt she couldn't tell me and i snaps.

... bit of a cliffhanger there guys, I'm so sorry guys, ha ha. i needed a little bit of drama in this fan fiction. Not everything is happy in soap land. Nether the less i hope you guys enjoy this chapter, there's plenty more to come. Don't worry Cain and Harriet aren't going to split up or anything - i wouldn't do that to you but there's going to be a few 'bumps' in the road. Please review if you have time, thank you as always :) xxx