I See You
Chapter 19
Amanda spent the whole day at the hospital, feeling a lot better after Liv's potato concoction. Her baby girl was doing better and her oxygen level had once again slightly improved. The doctor told her that maybe in a few days the breathing tube could come out if the stats reached the desired goal. It was good news and Amanda felt calm and confident enough that her little girl would make it.
Liv had been right beside her the whole time, ready to help in any way possible. When the brunette glanced at the clock she realised that it was already eight pm. "Manda, honey! We should get going. It's getting late and you still need to rest. We'll come back in the morning, okay. I'll collect Noah from Fin's place and we'll come straight here, I promise." she held her hand out for the blonde to take.
Liv's hand was warm compared to Amanda's cold and clammy one and it was a welcoming feeling. Nodding she slowly stood up from the uncomfortable chair. She looked down at her baby and said a silent prayer in her head before walking out, hand in hand with Olivia.
Back at Liv's apartment Amanda began to feel anxious. Anxious about her baby, about her job, about her relationship with Olivia, her boss and her whole life. Everything had changed so much in the matter of just a few days, it was hard to take it all in. She couldn't put a name to all her feelings that were swirling around inside of her and she didn't really know what to do with herself. She wanted, no needed, to feel. Feel something. Anything.
Olivia sensed something was up due to Amanda's silence, distant look and her fidgety actions. The blonde was sitting on the couch and was slightly startled when the older detective sar down next to her and took her hand. "Honey, talk to me." she said gently, tilting her head to the side and looked Amanda straight in the eyes. "Baby, please tell me what's going through your head right now?"
Tears instantly formed in Amanda's blue eyes and she threw herself into Liv's arms, who was surprised by the blonde's sudden action. "Oh, baby. Shhh, it's okay sweetness. It's okay." Amanda cried in her arms but she still hadn't uttered a verbal response to her outbreak. She just cried and cried while Liv lovingly peppered her head and face with gentle kisses and touches, supporting her through the storm that was raging. When she finally had calmed down some Liv pulled away to face her. "What's going on, baby? Please tell me so I can help. It breaks my heart to see you like this and I don't know what you're thinking or what's going on in your head, baby. I desperately want to help you but you have to talk to me, sweetie. Please, talk to me." Even Olivia's brown eyes began to fill up.
Amanda saw the love and care in the brunette's eyes and she felt so special and protected in Liv's presence and especially in her arms. She was so greatful to have this woman in her life and she had never cared for anyone like she cared about Liv before. Not even close. It was overwhelming, big, surreal and confusing. Was this love? Was she in love with this woman? In love with her boss and friend? Her heart felt like it was about to burst through her chest any minute and her emotions were all over the place. She opened her mouth to say something but no words came out.
"Honey," Olivia soothed and turned so she was sitting sidways so she had a better angle to reach the blonde. "It's okay. Whatever you're feeling or thinking, it's okay. It's okay, baby."
Finally Amanda felt confident enough to speak. "I... I think I... I think I love you." she whispered, immediately regretting it when she saw the shock on Liv's face. Thinking she screwed everything up, she began to stand up and got ready to flee but was stopped when a pair of warm lips crashed with her own. The kiss was passionate, lustful and rough, not like any of the kisses they had shared before. Lips parted and tongues met forcefully, licking, sucking and exploring everything in it's path.
When the need for air became too much Liv was the first to pull away, breathlessly. "I love you too." she stroked her knuckles over Amanda's cheek and gently brushed at the drying tears.
The blonde became extremely aroused and could feel the wetness starting to build up and her crotch throbbed with the need to be touched. This is what she needed. This is what she wanted. She wanted Olivia. She wanted Olivia's touch, craving her attention, her kisses and her body. Licking her bruised lips the blonde kissed her again but gently this time, lingering as long as she dared to. "Please... make love to me, Liv. I need... I need to... I need..." she couldn't voice what she needed. She didn't even trust her voice to speak but Olivia seemed to understan.
"Come on." the brunette offered her a hand and together they made their way into the bedroom. Olivia gently cupped Amanda's face and kissed her with such love and care it took Amanda all her willpower not to break down and cry again. "I want you to relax and just go with what your body tells you. I'm gonna go slow, you're in control and we can stop at any time, okay?"
The shorter woman just nodded shakily. She felt scared and exposed as Liv slowly began to undress her but she was so turned on that those feelings became distant and insignificant. Normally she would be self conscious because of her scars from her injuries and from her recent surery but she knew that Liv didn't care about them and wouldn't hurt her or cause her any pain. Two minutes later Amanda was standing naked in front f Olivia, her knees about to give out from the intensity of it all.
"Sit." Liv gently urged and eased Amanda down to sit on the edge of the bed. She got down on her knees and began kissing and licking Amanda's neck and throat, sucking at her pulse point causing the blonde to moan and pressed Liv's mouth closer by placing a hand at the back of her head. She could feel her wetness coating the bed sheets and she knew it wouldn't take much for her to reach an orgasm.
The brunette kissed her way down to her breasts and gently took a pink errect nipple into her mouth and gave it a firm tug. "Fuck!" Amanda moaned and threw her head back, arching her back so Liv could take more of her breast into her warm wet mouth. With her hand Olivia began to play with the other nipple, squeezing it and rolling it between her fingers causing Amanda to squirm and cry out.
Olivia swapped breasts and began sucking on the other nipple, not wanting to neglect the precious bud. She could smell Amanda's arousal in the room and she couldn't wait to taste and touch her wetness. She kissed her way down to the still protruding stomach and gently caressed the fresh scar with her lips, kissing around it. "You're so beautiful, Amanda. So so beautiful." she murmured between kisses and licks. Placing her hands on the blonde's ass, she forcefully pushed her towards her and further out on the edge.
Softly she began to caress the insides of smooth thighs, pushing her legs further apart as she did so. She looked up at Amanda's face, needing to know if she was okay with what she was about to do. The blonde had her eyes closed and her mouth sligtly open. That was all Liv needed to see. Pushing her legs wide open she didn't waste any time before lowering her head and took in the beauty before her. The sight of Amanda's drenched sex was enough for Liv and she felt her own panties moisten rapidly.
Bringing her hand up she gently parted Amanda's swollen lips to reveal the pink bundle of nerves. Liv instantly wrapped her whole mouth around it and flickered it firmly with her tongue.
"Oh, fuck!" Amanda screamed, throwing her head back once again. "Don't stop. God, that feels so good." her legs were shaking with need and her breathing laboured. She was in heaven. Never had she been so sexually aroused before and no one had ever made her feel so incredible.
Liv continued to suckle on the engorged clit, tracing her tongue round it, dipping down to her opening and then back up again. Suddenly she grabbed one of Amanda's legs and placed her foot on the wooden frame of the bed and did the same with the other. Amanda was now fully exposed, legs wide open and her pussy on full display. Gently but firmly Liv pushed two fingers inside her soaked opening and curled her fingers upwards, rubbing against the spot she knew would bring Amanda to climax.
As she continued to suck and lick her wollen clit, Liv pumped her fingers in and out of the tight opening and was greeted with moans and whimpers from the blonde. Olivia was on cloud nine. She never thought that this day would happen. Ever since she started developing feelings for the younger detective she would push the sexual thoughts away, thinking it would never happen. Now, with her mouth and lips tasting the sweet juices, her hands touching every inch and curve and her fingers burried deep within her pussy, she was certain that it was happening.
She kept her fingers pumping, stroking the spot inside and greedily licked at her clit when she suddenly felt Amanda tense up before she began to shake with pure pleasure. "Oh fuck me! Yes, yes, yes!"
Those words were all Liv needed to hear as she kept up her steady rythm as Amanda rode out her orgasm, wave after wave of cheer bliss and ecstasy. "Oh, baby!" Liv moaned against her pussy as she felt a little gush of liquid hit her palm. Only when Amanda's body began to slow it's shaking and relax under her touch, did she gradually reduce her motions until she came to a complete stop, before pulling out. Olivia had never experienced something so erotic, sexual and pleasurable in her life and she was honored to be apart of it.
Amanda's, now limp legs, slipped off the wooden frame and Olivia placed her arm under her knees, the other around her shoulders and gently laid her down on the bed. Swiftly she discarded her own jeans and sweater before joining her under the covers wearing only a tank top and panties. She pulled the blonde into her arms and held her, feeling the aftermath of the orgasm still running through her. "Shh, just relax, baby." she soothed and kissed her flushed forehead and cheek while stroking her bare back with her fingertips. "You are so beautiful. Thank you for trusting me enough to let me touch you and love you." she whispered.
Satisfied was not even close to what Amanda was feeling. She felt physically drained, sexually drained, exhausted, breathless, overwhelmed and so much more. She didn't trust her voice. Couldn't find the courage or the right words to speak. She just burried her face in the crook of Liv's neck and inhaled her comforting scent.
Liv tucked the covers tighter around them and continued to sooth the blonde until she was completely calm and the shaking had stopped. "Shhh, slow breaths, honey. You're okay. That was incredible and you are so stunningly and perfectly beautiful my love. Absolutely perfect. Just sleep now and we'll go see your baby girl in the morning."
Amanda pulled her face away from the comfortable spot and gave Liv a questioning look. Smiling, Olivia brushed blonde hair behind an ear. "Don't worry about me, sweetheart. Tonight is all about you and now, you need to sleep. I can see how tired you are. Just close your eyes and sleep."
With those words Amanda once again positioned herself close to Liv's neck so she could breath in the smell of Olivia. The brunette continued to stroke her back gently and placed gentle kisses on her head now and then until she felt the soft snores tickling her throat. She could get use to this.