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''Patricia I'm home,'' Jimmy removed his polished black shoes as he entered their villa. It was ten in the evening, he always went home late due to his demanding established career as an aerospace engineer.

Patricia. He never loved Patricia He never really did. He was just realizing it now, after his meeting with Cindy Vortex 5 nights ago, he was starting to realize how he is constantly hurting her by being preoccupied with another woman who is always wandering in his thoughts. He wondered if Patricia knew about it, he doubted she did. If she did know about them, she would have strangled Jimmy by this time, or, she would pretend as if everything is fine and live with it. That would make Jimmy even guiltier. He felt sorry for her, for being trapped in their miserable marriage. Patricia always cared about him, about them. She never made Jimmy feel like he is alone in their 5-year-old marriage. She was never indifferent, never impatient and she always understood Jimmy. She always cared about him, but she never felt her own husband's tender loving care for her, his one and only wife. She has figured that Jimmy is not someone who opens up to anybody, even to his own wife.

Jimmy always persuaded himself that he belonged to Patricia That he genuinely loves her, he just does not know how to express it. But home is where the heart belongs, and Patricia was not his home.

''Do you want me to heat some dinner?'' Patricia asked Jimmy who was not looking at her.

''No, I'm okay,'' Jimmy replied coldly as he glanced at Patricia seemingly sad eyes.

He turned around and placed his keys and other personal belongings in his safe near the dining table while his mind was repeatedly playing the event that happened between him and Cindy Vortex.

''WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU LOVED ME?''

''YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME! I WOULD HAVE SAID IT BACK!''

''I would have said it back Jimmy, I love you too! I could have said it back to you if only, if only you were brave enough…''

From: Cynthia Vortex-Sanchez

What's bound to happen will happen.

I loved and still love you too…

You cannot reply to this e-mail.

Jimmy could not believe Cindy's words would hurt him so bad, especially the e-mail she sent him. And yes, he really could not reply to the e-mail in any way. He tried texting her, but it did not want to send, he dialed her number a million times, but it seemed that the number was not in service anymore. She changed her number. And after she sent the e-mail, it seems that she blocked him in all aspects of communications.. And it pained Jimmy even more.

He was thinking all of this as Patricia looked at him from behind, he felt her bitter stare and thought that maybe, maybe, it was time to tell her everything.

''Patricia?'' Jimmy uttered her name, but did not face her.

''Yes James?'' She responded in a cheery tone. She tried to sound as if she had no clue of what could be going on and what he would be saying.

''Yes James?'' Jimmy almost forgot she addressed him as 'James'. They were that distant. Patricia did not reach his 'Jimmy' days. She did not meet the town boy genius who always wreaked havoc due to his inventions that always malfunctioned no matter what because of an overlooked detail or two. She did not meet the boy who had a swirly chocolate ice cream for a hairdo, or the one who always wore red shirts with a yellow atomic symbol of his own. She never met Jimmy Neutron. And she never will.

She met him as 'James' Neutron. The man whose creations were always praised and nominated for awards, the man who contributed a great deal to physics and aerospace engineering. James Neutron, whose hair was always tamed neatly in a two by two haircut. James Neutron who always wore all-black dress shirts and pants.

Jimmy said nothing to her and just walked towards their room. Patricia did not follow, she just stared at him weakly. ''How can you be like this, James?''

Jimmy went straight to the terrace of their bedroom and unfolded his cuffed sleeves up to his wrist. He put his hands in his pockets since the cold weather was making him numb. The wind blew cold air on his face as he thought about Cindy and what she could be doing.

She could still be working.

No, she is at home already, talking about her day with that Perrie Sanchez.

Or, better yet, they are sleeping already, beside each other, comfortably, cozily.

Jimmy looked down and bit his lower lip. He felt depressed. He was heart-broken. He was regretful. Maybe if he just said it, they would not be like this. No one would be hurt, no one would be in pain, no one would suffer.

Patricia came into the room and prepared Jimmy's white shirt and shorts for sleeping. Jimmy noticed her and he started to really wonder if she was aware of what was happening. He slowly knitted his eyebrows as he watched her dejectedly from the terrace. Patricia went to bed after, not saying a word to Jimmy.

After he took a bath, he turned off the lights and Jimmy positioned himself beside Patricia keeping a distance of about 2 feet from her in their California king sized bed. He did not even notice it. He was not conscious of what he did. Even though he does it every single night.

Patricia knew Jimmy did not love her the way she loved him. And it's not just she knew it. She felt it. She always wanted James to hug her back when she embraced him coming home from work. She always wanted him to praise her cooking. She wanted him to ask her ''How was your day?'' even just once. She wanted him to fetch her from the airport. (she is a flight attendant) And she always wanted him to tell her that he loves her, even just once. He never did any of those. She wanted him to see that she was a good wife. She always wanted him close to her in the California king sized bed. Yes, she always felt James maintaining a 2 feet distance. She knew all about Cindy Vortex, the ever beautiful, ever brilliant Atty. Cynthia Vortex-Sanchez. ''An engineer and a lawyer, what a perfect match,'' she thought.

Patricia was ready to give everything to Jimmy, but he was never ready to love her.

Jimmy faced his side and looked at the starry night, it has been happening for days now, he cannot sleep, he just thinks of Vortex and the feelings will all rush back to him. How can he forget her stunning deep green eyes? Her dazzling golden hair, her goddess-like perfect smile that always captivated his heart. It was as if he memorized every single feature she had. Oh, the intoxicating jasmine scent she was endowed with. He closed his eyes and sighed heavily. After all these years, she still drives him crazy. But they cannot be together, time was always running short.

For Jimmy, being in love with Cindy Vortex was the most difficult thing in the world. He thought it was more complicated that Einstein's law or the history of pi 3.14, but he felt…happy, that she is his first love. Yet he sometimes wondered if he still really loved her. Or was he only stuck on the memories and not her? He surely did not want to move on, he just felt that it was not the best thing to do. It was hard to explain how he felt, what is the use of knowing? He is a married man now and she has already moved on. He knows.

Or so he thought.

So how was it? Tell me what you think and post a review! Please tell me if Patricia (OC) is a character that I can develop. I won't write about her often though, Imma loyal fan of Cindy and Jimmy :)