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CHAPTER 5.3 : A drink, A Tosh and A Raynor.

? P.O.V

Hyperion bar.

*Swish* Scream echoing around him, friends being killed off like the flies. A spine from an hydralisk was already lodged into his power armor.

*Swish* " I swear to god I'm gonna kill you !" He screamed at her as he watches her kill someone who had become his best friend.

*Swish*" You won't kill me, you don't have the guts for it." She taunted.

"We'll see darlin', we'll see." He responded, trying to convince himself that he could do it.

*Swish*" I know a way to make Sarah Kerrigan human again." Valerian Mengsk said.

Is it worth it ?

*Swish*"You should have killed me." She said with a stony face.

He could see that she just wanted to cry.

*Swish* "Yeah, I guess you can't forget about those things." She said with a small smile.

He only chuckled.

*Swish* Purple glowing eyes were staring at him. They we're so different from the green or even yellow that he learned to love.

"Jim, he is our son."

Maybe he could learn to love them to.

*Thump* Jim Raynor snapped his eyes away from the swishing whisky in his glass to the whisky bottle that suddenly appeared in front of him. He also saw a shimmering figure.

The familiar black and brown spectre suit came into view not to long after. His white eyes looking straight at him.

"Thinking about your little girlfriend ,bruddha ?" He asked, a teasing grin plastered on his face.

"Yeah, I guess you could say that." He said with a chuckle. "I just have a lot on my mind right now." He sighed.

"I would have ask if you were crazy if it wasn't the case." He chuckled while sitting down at the same table a Jim.

They were silent for a bit, both of them lost in their thoughts.

"You know…"The spectre leader said." I had someone who I loved back in the academy days. Hell, if anything I still love her. Or I don't… to be honest I don't know. It's been years since we had a one on one conversation that wasn't hostile." He said with a bitter smile.

"What happened ?" Jim asked, intrigued by the past of the spectre.

"A lot of things happened." He said. "Funny things is that she was the one that made this." He said pointing at his eyes. "We were on a mission. She powered up her psionics but her cloaking was running out. She wanted me to go to safety before she unleashed it. I knew that if she waited any longer she would die. So I told her I would be safe. Next thing I know i'm inside a med-bay and she dosen't remember anything." He said, a sad gleam in his eye.

"After that I… I changed I guess you could say." He said with a sigh.

"I wanted revenge. I wanted to kill." He added. "A part of me still do."

"So why don't you do it ?" Jim asked ,getting more and more curious.

"I don't know. Maybe there's still a bit of the old me inside." He shrugged, playing with his butterfly knife.

"I think I know why." Jim said.

Tosh raised a curious eyebrow.

"Would that girl approved of killing like that ?" The rebel leader asked.

"She wouldn't. She hated killing. The only reason she was training to be a ghost was because she was the most powerful psionic they had ever seen in a while." He said, thinking back to the academy.

"I think that's why, maybe all this war is bringing back memories." Jim said.

"Maybe you're right…" Gabriel sighed.

It felt weird to him to speak so freely about his past. He had tried to bury it, forget about everything about it. To much bad memories. And now, here he was, talking about his past to someone who had become a friend.

"And what about you, bruddha ? A lot of things happened since EB-103." Tosh asked.

"It's a lot to all take at once I'll admit." Jim sighed. "First Sarah who reinfest herself and next I learn that I have a son that was made as a cruel joke by Mengsk." He added while taking a gulp of his whisky.

"I'm angry because of what Sarah did, but at the same time I part of me understand why she did it. I'm more angry then ever at Mengsk at what he fucking dared to do." He said, anger clear on his face and voice. "And I'm scared. I'm fucking scared for what could happen down the line, at what could happen to Sarah and Trace." He added, trying his best not to shout.

The alcohol was getting to him.

They were silent after that, both of them lost in their thoughts once again.

"I'm scared I'm gonna lose them…" The rebel leader said. "I already lost the ones I love once. I… I don't know what I would do if it happened again." He said, pain in his voice.

'I am sorry to inform you that your son , John Raynor, has died in a shuttle crash. The body was not recovered.' Was the only thing written on the letter that they received. A couple of days later, he made a grave for his son. Weeks later, he had to make another for his wife.

"Look, bruddha, I'm not an expert in this but you can't always think of the past. I don't know what happened to you back then, but right now hundreds no thousands of people are counting on you. Two of them are your woman and your son. So get your shit together before someone else does it for yourself." Tosh said.

Jim simply stared at him for a good minute, trying to understand if Grabiel Tosh ,of all people, just gave him a pep talk.

"I didn't know you we're good at pep talk." Jim chuckled.

"And you're right it's just hard to put the past behind."

"You can say that again." Tosh said bitterly.

And this is how the day went, both of them simply having small talk at the bar.

Time skip

It was now almost 22:00, the Hyperion's skeleton crew we're working. Only a few persons could be seen in the bar. Jim was one of them, he was still lost in his thought.

"Yeah, Tosh's right. I need to get my shit together. But how to I start fixing all those years."

He looked at the half full bottle of whisky on his table.

"Well… gotta start somewhere." He thought to himself, picking the bottle of whisky and bringing it back to the bartender.

"I'll take a bottle of water." Jim simply said to the bartender.

He did as told, his eyes wide in surprise. Since when does the commander brings an only half finished bottle and asks for water !

And as Jim Raynor exited the bar, one thought passed trough everybody who were in it.

"Was that really the commander ?"

Hey guys, sorry for the time it took me to do this chapter. Don't worry I won't give any reason for it like last time, I simply didn't have time. Also I recently bought Heart of the Swarm and Legacy of the Void. Because ,yes, I didn't own them. The only way I knew how HotS went was because my cousin owns it and I finished it on his account. I'm actually doing LotV right now. I also tried to buy the Nova DLC but for some reason it didn't work… so… yeah. Also the next part will be a rant about HotS so if you don't want to read me rambling just pass it.

I had high hopes for Heart of the swarm. The first time I played it, I loved it. The missions we're varied, the new units we're cool, same thing for the new characters that we're introduced. I also loved that they brought back Stukov, even if at first I didn't remembered where he came from (shame on me I know). I also loved the story the first time I played it. And to this day I still love all those points…except one. The story. I don't know if it went one to many rewrites or what but… what the hell Blizzard. You want us to believe that Sarah Kerrigan once deinfested would act exactly like she did when she was still infested ! You want us to believe that after she went through that the only thing that his on her mind his to simply kill Mengsk ?! Look I understand why she wants to kill him, hell I would have been more angry if she didn't. But really ? You act cold and distant towards Jim, the one who saved you and that you love. You killed pretty much everyone you came across, only letting a handful of people live. I will admit that I love the parts where she showed her more human side. It simply showed that there was still good in her. But there we're to few of them. And that is where my problem reside. I wanted this expansion to show Sarah rediscovering her humanity, not throw it away at the first opportunity . This expansion is simply showing Sarah becoming the queen of blades once again, a 'better' one but still…

Ok the rant is over. Sorry about that I really needed to get that out of my system. Anyway next chapter we are coming back in the main storyline with *Drumroll* Char! Now you may be wondering what the fuck I'm talking about. Well it's simple. You guys remember that mission in HotS where you go to Char and kill Warfield right ? Well it didn't happen. Only Khaldir and Zerus happened in this. Because ,like Tosh, I want Warfield to have a bigger role that he had. (Btw another character I will try to expend upon is Nova) I'm not gonna spoil to much about it, but it will contain : rebels, wild zergs and finally Sarah and Trace kicking ass. I hope you're excited for that chapter.

Also guys please vote to the poll on my profile, I know i'm annoying with this but I don't want to pick a decision with only 6 vote.

For those curious about who Tosh was talking about, here are some clues to help you : She's blonde and has her own DLCs. And yes, it is canon for those who didn't know.

Sorry for the short chapter btw, I had a couple of ideas for this chapter but I couldn't all put them in there. Next one should be a lot longer.

Ok so this is pretty much it, sorry I'm not doing the favourites and all that stuff. I'm in a hurry right now because I'm leaving my house in like… 15 minutes.

Anyway, take care you guys, DoctorIm.