When they pulled apart Clarke looked deep into Lexa's eyes. "Give me a second chance, or, at least, a real one. Please, Lexa. Please."

Lexa's mind raced. She didn't know what to say. On one hand she wanted to say yes, right away, but on the other one, she knew that she would risk so much. Too much for her. Still she didn't say no but didn't say yes either. When she looked back at Clarke's eyes she remembered the moment she cut this off. The blonde had the same look in her eyes. The same sadness and hope clouded them.

Everyone told her. Everyone. So how could she have been so stupid and still let herself get into this mess? Her thoughts were disturbed by a loud voice, she ignored it, though.

"LEXA!"

She swiftly turned around, wearing a glare that could even make the toughest guy cry. "What Clarke?! What do you want?!"

The blonde took a few steps back, shocked by the way how the brunette snapped at her, but she quickly regained her confidence. "What did you see?"

"Enough to know that this wasn't the first time in the past months."

"Please Lexa, it really wasn't like it looked."

Lexa let out a bitter laugh. "Of course, it wasn't. Could you please be honest with me? At least for once?"

"I'm always honest with you!" Clarke exclaimed.

"No, you aren't! You never were! Clarke, you asked me so often to give myself to you, but how can I do that without feeling guilty if you can't do the same?"

"I gave myself to you."

"Then why did it never felt like it? Why did it always felt like you were somewhere else with your thoughts? I understand that this whole rehab thing is hard for you, I really do, but it's not like I wouldn't support you, Clarke."

"Well, it never seemed like you care about it, though."

"I do care Clarke!"

"Please don't end this. Please Lexa," Clarke pleaded, an expression full of hope and desperation.

"I can't do this anymore. I'm so sorry Clarke. It must seem like I wouldn't care about you, or whatever, but I can't do this. At least not until you finally really want to get clean. I know I'm being selfish right now, but the past months all I did was caring about you and trying so hard to make you happy that I didn't even notice how much I suffered during this time," Lexa explained, trying to sound as calm as possible.

"Please Lexa," Clarke whispered, tears in her eyes.

Lexa shook her head, tears rolling down her cheeks now. "I'm so, so sorry."

"I love you," Clarke tried again, taking a step forward.

The brunette just took a step back, even more tears rolling down her face. "I know," she whispered back but leaving anyway.

Lexa stared back into Clarkes big, blue, hope filled eyes. She thought about the last time, thought about how hard it was to let the blonde go…

She stopped at that thought. The brunette never let Clarke go, she always thought about her, never stopped loving her. She still held onto the blonde and she would do that for the rest of her life.

"Okay," she whispered.

Clarke's eyes widened. "Okay?"

Lexa nodded hesitantly, then she looked up to meet Clarke's eyes once again. "Okay."

Tears brimmed up in her eyes. "Oh god thank you, Lexa."

"Don't thank me yet, I want to go slow. Give me time, okay?" Lexa asked, narrowing her eyes.

Clarke nodded, but the small smile never left her face.

"Good… And now, may I kiss you?"

"Of course."

Their lips met for a second time today and it never felt more pure and beautiful. Clarke thought to herself that this could be an addiction she would appreciate. Lexa was a good one and she never felt better in her life before.

Sorry guys I know this is a really short chapter for the wait, but as you can see there will be one more! I just wanted to show you why Lexa broke up with Clarke for the first time and now that we know (I hope you do and if you don't, Clarke had a small problem with drugs), we can really start with the vacation! Well, after the next chapter :p
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