Sorry loves, I hadn't been able to update it sooner, I had a lot of school stuff plus I was working so I wrote a super long one :) I hope you'll like it, don't forget to favorite and review, it means a lot to know if you like the story so far or not :) stay strong x -L

Chapter 6

Cassandra's POV

I kept replaying yesterday's events in my mind, not being able to wrap my head about it. Naya has this bruise on her cheek and I don't understand how she got it. Her eyes seemed to lack that usual spark and I couldn't stand seeing her that way. We might not get along but she's still my idol, the person that made me smile during my days, a simple mention of her name or hearing her voice used to make my day, I couldn't watch her suffer and not do anything about it so I followed her.

I followed her to that lost bathroom and entered as soon as I heard sobs. As I opened the door, here she was, the person I love the most in my life, sitting on the floor, crying her eyes out. I couldn't stop myself, I ran to her and hugged her while rambling a bunch of questions. But it was impossible for me to ignore the spark I felt when I touched her, it felt electric.

I was so scared, all I wanted was to know what was wrong so I could help her because seeing her that way killed me. I saw her eyes flicker with an emotion wave but I didn't have time to analyze them, she switched them back to her cold stare and did something I never expected her to do, no matter how much she didn't like me. She snapped at me.

She threatened me and pushed me away, more than I ever thought was possible. No matter how much she had hurt me before, was nothing compared to what she did to me yesterday. She destroyed my heart, she shattered it into a million pieces and I couldn't do anything anymore. I stood up, turned around and headed outside before I started crying in front of her, I couldn't let her see what she did to me, she'd hate me even more. I went to Ryan's desk and told him I felt sick so he gave me the day off, I stormed back to my trailer to pick up my bag and phone and left. Reaching home, the first thing I did was run myself a shower. And cry.

Cry silently in my shower, not wanting to believe what had happened. My idol hated my guts and I had no idea what I ever did to her, I mean she's been cold to me the second I saw her.

After crying for hours, I felt myself drained, there weren't any more tears left in me so I made myself a promise. I'm going to do whatever it takes to ignore her and stay away from her. A few months and I'll be gone, done filming, and I'll never have to see her again. I laughed bitterly at the irony, after being ignored and hated by my hero, here I was, prepared to do the same to fix my heart. Even though I knew very well, my heart will never fully recover this. It was the worse heartbreak of my life. Getting hated by your idol just destroys your life, it crumbles your dreams and that's precisely how I felt. Broken. Empty. Numb...

On the set

Lea and Chris were in the middle of a script practice as they saw Cassandra storming off to her trailer, then back to her car, almost running. They noticed how her eyes looked red and watery but they didn't have time to ask her what was going on, she had disappeared. They had no idea what that was about but were determined to find out why. A few minutes later, Naya reappears, coming the same way Cassandra was running away from so they decided to give it a shot.

Lea: Hey Naya, do you know where Cass went?

Naya: How should I know? Why? Isn't she here?

Chris: No actually, she stormed off a few minutes before and left the set, she looked like she was sad.

Lea: Yeah, she had watery eyes.

Naya: Oh eum no I don't know where she went. How about we ask Ryan?

Lea&Chris: Yeah okay sure, let's go.

Naya's POV

We went over to Ryan's office to ask about Cassandra. He told us she came in telling him she felt sick and apparently she looked sick so he gave her the day off. I can't believe she left because of me, I really messed up so badly. Why was I such a screw up? Why did I have to feel that way towards a homophobic? Why was I even feeling that way towards a freaking girl, I've never loved a girl. Why her? Why towards a straight girl who hates gay people? God I hate myself, I don't know what t do anymore.

Should I apologize to her tomorrow? We have a scene together to shoot so maybe I could get her alone for a few seconds to apologize? Yes you should Naya. Just for the previous event. Don't give her the impression that you like her or you wanna be friendly, just say sorry, use that cold tone you usually use and well at least your conscience will be fine. Ok, good plan.

God I already missed her and it's barely been a few hours, what the hell is wrong with me? I can't stop thinking of that hug, and the warm feeling her embrace made me feel. I felt so safe. Yes, tomorrow I had to say sorry. I needed to see her smile, even though I'm sure it won't be a big one, but I hope she'll smile.

The Next Day

Cass' POV

I had to go to work today, I had a scene to shoot with Naya. But thank God we aren't the only ones in the scene, Chris was in it too so it was less stressful. I was so numb I didn't even feel nervous, I just felt empty, emotionless and I guess that's what's best, right? I got to the set and saw that Naya was already with Ryan, getting ready for the scene. She looked at me and our eyes met for a second before I turned around and got into my trailer. I didn't need her bullshit right now.

I still had half an hour before we start shooting so I laid on my bed and listened to Lea's new album, gosh her voice is so mesmerizing and emotional, I loved it. Her album was filled with emotions, passion and heart-felt experiences. It made it so easy for us to connect to with her. She's amazing. I was half way through the album before I heard a knock on my door. I opened the door and was met with an excited Lea. She squealed and hugged me so tightly, explaining that she heard her album. I told her how amazing it was and were in the middle of a pretty emotional conversation related to her CD before a member of the crew came to tell me I was needed in makeup for my scene. I apologized to Lea and went into the dressing room to get ready.

A few minutes later and I was out, looking pretty sassy with all that makeup and clothes, I really liked the style they gave my character today. I was wearing a button-up red blouse, with 2 popped buttons showing enough cleavage to make a guy drool, a tight ripped black legging and rocking black heels with studs, I looked badass. I had to admit, for once, I actually felt confident in what I was wearing. So I made my way to the room where we were filming and spotted Naya right away. She was talking to Chris until his jaw dropped, I chuckled lightly. He was so cute.

And then she turned around. I was turning my face but from the corner of my eye, I saw her jaw drop slightly as well. Wow, I wasn't expecting that reaction but whatevs. I stood there, texting my friend until I heard heels stop in front of me. I look up to see Naya, looking at me with a weird gaze.

-Look Newbie, I'm so-

I didn't even let her speak, I gave her a death glare and walked away, leaving a shocked Naya staring at my back. She wanted that so she got it.

Naya's POV

Today was the day I had to apologize to her. Yeah, I was pretty nervous. I got to the set early, wanting to speak to Ryan about a few things concerning the scene until I spotted auburn hair flying around. I turned to see what it was and there she was, looking adorable. Our eyes met but she turned around right away and headed to her trailer.

Ok, that was weird. Hopefully, I'll be able to talk to her before or after shooting the scene. I got through make up and dressing and went to the filming was there so we started talking about his upcoming birthday, that was in 5 days and I was really excited. This guy was one of my best friends and I hadn't been to a party for so long, I was really pumped! That's when she came into the room, I hadn't noticed her until I saw Chris' jaw drop. What the hell, I thought. I turned around and there she was, looking freaking badass and perfect. She had this edgy side and it looked super hot. I have to admit,my jaw slightly dropped too but I trying shrugging it off in case someone saw me. She turned around fast and started typing on her phone.

It was now or never, so I went to her, having prepared this whole speech to say I'm sorry.

She looked up from her phone and that was my cue.

-Look Newbie, I'm so-

She shot me a glare that could've killed me if looks could kill, I had never seen her that way. Her eyes seemed cold and distant. Nothing like the usual, welcoming and warm look she usually carries. And she turned away. She walked away from me, not letting me continue my speech. Not letting me apologize for the previous day. That's when I knew how badly I screwed up. I made her that way. I was on the verge of crying. Why was I so stupid? I destroyed this innocent girl's personality with my bitchiness and she never directly did anything wrong, especially not to me.

I was hurt, but mostly...I felt guilty.
I hated her, I loved her,
I wanted her,
I needed her...
I lost her.