Cassandra's POV

The bell rung as soon as I was ready to head to bed.

I went to open the door, wondering who it could be. I wasn't expecting anyone especially not at this hour. It was getting pretty late and I was sure Lea was still at the restaurant, eating with Chris and Naya..but nobody knows where I live. I jingled a bit with the lock and opened the door. I was stunned. Naya was standing in front of me, her mascara was ruined. Her eyes were puffy and red and she seemed to have been crying for a while. But why?

"Naya, what a-" she didn't even let me finish my question.

Before I knew, she took a step forward, pushed me against the door and smashed her lips to mine. My mind was all over the place, the butterflies erupted in my entire body and I was speechless. I couldn't think straight. All I could do at that precise moment was lay my arms around her neck and bring her closer, feeling her arms snake around my waist. It was heavenly. I felt home, safe.

But realization hit me. Naya Rivera was kissing me, the Naya that made sure every day at the set was a terrible experience for me, the Naya that made me cry myself to sleep almost every night with her cold attitude towards me. What the fuck was she doing, in my apartment, KISSING me? And that's when I pushed her away, fuming. I might seem bipolar right this second, like I didn't know what I want because one second I was enjoying it and the next I'm pushing her away but aren't I right? Wouldn't you do the same if someone who made your life miserable for the past few weeks suddenly drops by your place and just kisses you out of the blue? I don't know how to act right now, all that's going in my head is anger and confusion. What was she doing here? Why did she kiss me? Isn't she straight? Doesn't she hate me? My life's such a mess.

"What are you doing?" I was practically yelling at her. She closed the door behind her and yanked me towards the sofa, pushing me on it and sitting by my side.

"Look Cassandra, I made a lot of mistakes in my life but I never regretted anything more than I regret what I put you through during these past few weeks, I made your life terrible and I'm so sorry about it but I-I don't know how to say this but I think I might have feelings for you." she told me on a quiet tone.

"You better not be fucking with me Rivera, why would you suddenly feel bad and tell me this shit? You don't just have feelings that come out of nowhere. And anyways, aren't you straight? Sure you are, why the hell am I even asking you, you were getting freaking married to Big Sean a while ago and you've been dating only guys for ever since I remember becoming a fan so don't you dare mess with me more, you already made me feel horrible every single day, you made me wish I never met YOU,my freaking hero. You made me regret even trying for the show or doing something in my life. I don't even understand how a person can make me feel this way but here you are, making me feel like I was ruling the world for the splint of a second before dropping my entire world the next. I don't even know how to deal with this, you can't possibly be serious so now you just made it a million times more awkward and worse so thank you very much, now get out of my place. I'm so thankful I only have 2 weeks left on the show."

By now, I was standing by the door, showing her out. I ignored her pleading eyes, knowing that if I let her speak, she would completely tame my inner anger and I won't be able to say no to her, she'll dig me deeper in her messed up hole. And that couldn't happen. She doesn't have feelings for me, she can't. She's Naya freaking Rivera. She's flawlessly perfect. She's impossibly beautiful and charismatic and funny and sweet and I was fucked up me. I was insecure, screwed up, no future planned, me. Oh and not to forget, she was Naya Rivera, the STRAIGHT starlet.

"Cassandra let me-"

"Let you what? Explain? No thanks, I don't need your explanation on why you suddenly came and kissed me. You're probably gonna come up with some super rational explanation on how you never meant for this to happen and bla bla bla. I don't even know why I was stupid enough to bring you to my house the night of the party, or why I was dumb enough to fall for the most perfect human being on earth, or why-"

And once again, before I could finish my rant that was becoming confusing even for myself, I felt her lips on mine and once more, the feelings in my body were frantically eating me alive, this was too much emotion for me to handle. I was trying so hard not to succumb to her lips but it was impossible, I loved her too much. I had to face it, not matter how hard I denied it, I'm head over heels in love with Naya and nothing could change that..not even the fact that I'm mad at her. Her hands found my waist once again and brought me closer to her. I felt the warmth that her body was radiating on mine and all the sexual tension that was building up in this kiss. The second kiss of the night, the second trip to paradise with this goddess.

Why was she kissing me again? My mind grew more and more confused by the second but clearly, my libido wasn't letting anything come in the way of this amazing amount of pleasure this kiss was bringing me. For once in my entire life, I felt truly and deeply loved. It was hard not to notice the love that was going through that kiss even though I had no idea if it was coming from me, from her or from both of us. All I knew was that I needed to let her speak, and then I could decide.

We broke away after becoming slightly dizzy from the lack of oxygen. Naya brought her hand up and cupped my cheek, caressing it slowly, looking deeply into my eyes. She seemed like she was trying to communicate something with me but I was too zoned out to read it, I was in a total bliss.

I had to face it, I barely tasted her lips twice and they were already like drugs, I couldn't get enough. How was I supposed to deal with all the drama that those two kisses come with?

Hey guyys, I decided to update for a bit tonight, I know it's not my usual length for the chapters but I'm completely exhausted, I've been working every day ever since I finished college with no breaks in between and I'm drained but I promise, I'm gonna update tomorrow part 2 of this chapter. So don't forget to favorite, review or whatever you like about it or dislike about the story, message me if you ever need to tlak and most importantly, don't forget to enjoy ;)

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