Naya's POV

The first kiss was heavenly, and the best part of it was that she kissed me back, she brought me closer to her by hugging my next and I felt at peace, I felt incredibly happy. I had never felt this amazing because of a kiss. She was giving me a high..from a kiss, how is that even possible? But I definitely didn't want to think right now, all I wanted to do was enjoy this perfect moment. But before I could go back to enjoying it, she had already pushed me away and asked me what I was doing. I needed to explain to her so many things. I closed the door behind me and brought her to the sofa where I sat her down and sat right next to her. I had so much to tell her.

"Look Cassandra, I made a lot of mistakes in my life but I never regretted anything more than I regret what I put you through during these past few weeks, I made your life terrible and I'm so sorry about it but I-I don't know how to say this but I think I might have feelings for you." I quietly told her, not knowing what her reaction will be or if she will accept to hear me out but I prayed that she did. I really hope she does.

I was wrong. She got up and started yelling at me, telling me that I'm lying to her and I'm straight and that everything's got more awkward between us. By the time she was done with her speech, she had opened the door, waiting for me to get out. She didn't want to know..she didn't believe me. How could I possibly show her how much she means to me? How much I regret everything I made her go through? How much I'm ashamed of myself?

I attempted one last time.

"Cassandra let me-"

Wrong move, she already had prepared a rant from what it seemed, she didn't even let me finish. Now I was getting slightly pissed.

"Let you what? Explain? No thanks, I don't need your explanation on why you suddenly came and kissed me. You're probably gonna come up with some super rational explanation on how you never meant for this to happen and bla bla bla. I don't even know why I was stupid enough to bring you to my house the night of the party, or why I was dumb enough to fall for the most perfect human being on earth, or why-"

I didn't want to hear the rest, she has no idea what I'm about to say and here she is, ranting again. And her lips looked so inviting, I didn't bother stopping my mind this time, I gave him a carte blanche. Once again, I unexpectedly kissed her but this time, I put a lot more passion in it, hoping to express my feelings for her, hoping that this'll set the record straight. I was kissing her but she wasn't kissing back and this started to break my heart so I wrapped my arms around her waist, bringing her impossibly close to me, hoping that she will eventually kiss me again. She seemed lost in her thoughts but as soon as I snaked my arms around her, it's like she came alive. She started kissing back just as passionately as I was and this, let me tell you, this, was making my heart race like never before. Her lips were so soft and delectable it was incredible. I was on cloud 9. After a super heated make out session that would've probably led to more if it wasn't our second kiss, we broke it off, needing air. But I kept one hand on her waist and brought my other one up to her cheek and cupped it delicately, as if it was made of glass. I wasn't gonna lie, I was afraid of losing her. She looked like this vulnerable and fragile doll that I needed to take care of. I caressed her cheek slowly, taking my time, looking deep into her eyes. I wanted her to see how much I needed her, how much my feelings for her are real. She seemed dazzled and I was floating in paradise. I never thought someone could make me feel this special but this girl..she just sweeps me off my feet. Yet I never had the guts to tell her or show her my appreciation but this was all gonna change right now.

I brought her back to the couch, sat her down and kneeled in front of her, taking a hold of both of her hands. She was watching me intensely. Normally this type of gaze would drive me nuts and I would most probably snap but this wasn't the time, this was the time to set my emotions free and to express myself to the girl I have feelings for. She needs to know and then, we could decide what to do from there.

"Cassandra, I REALLY need to talk to you and you have to listen very carefully, okay?"

"I'm not a kid Rivera, so don't treat me like one. Go ahead and say whatever you want to say, it's probably not gonna change anything but knock yourself out." she had that sassy look on her face that made me want to simply shut up and walk away but I couldn't. This was my one and only chance.

I ignored that and made up what I had to say in my mind. I was happy she hadn't taken away her hands from mine.

"Ok so err, uhh I don't really know where to begin...I-"

"How about from the start, Sherlock." she interrupted me with her sarcastic comment, obviously she's still not fond of me, how amazing this is gonna be.

"Hum, yeah..so euum, when I learned that a new cast member was joining I was really excited and later on, I learned that this cast member was also a huge fan of my work and that me so incredibly happy. I was really excited to meet you but um, something happened. I don't know if you remember when you had your little outburst in Ryan's office when you didn't want to play a lesbian or whatever, well that's when I came in, I was coming to meet you and I sorta got there on the part where you told them you can't play my lesbian girlfriend on-screen and that pissed me off. In my head, I didn't understand how you could be a huge fan of mine if you're homophobic. Yes, I thought you were because well..being me, I wasn't patient enough to hear out the rest of your speech, as soon as I heard that, I sorta left and I decided to dislike you, hoping you wouldn't feel so welcome. I didn't want to make you feel happy for some reason, that I later figured out. I was attracted to you and this was all new to me, I had a fiance and well let's face it, I thought you were homophobic so all that together made me an angry bitch. But after the first 2-3 days, I noticed how sweet and amazing you were and decided the hell with my anger, I needed to change and get to know you. You seemed so nice and you looked amazing like all the time. So when I finally decided to act super nice to become friends..since I thought it was impossible for us to become more than that, you started acting coldly towards me and I felt terrible. Because I knew that it was all my fault and I had no clue how to change it. The night of the party, all I wanted to do was dance with you and hold you close. When you brought me to your place, I felt so safe and loved, the way you took care of me. I just wished I was nice from the beginning, we might've actually became friends...yes I settled for having you as a friend, it was better than nothing at all since I still had in mind you were straight. That night, even though I was drunk, it was probably the best night of my life. You took care of me like nobody ever did before, you loved me and cuddled with me. You truly cared about my feelings and in the morning I had decided to start over again. That's why I had the flowers, I had no idea about your grandpa..I just wanted to thank you for the night before and kinda ask for your forgiveness. And then the night at the retaurant, I felt like crap. All I wanted to do was hug you and never let you get away. The sight of you purging completely broke my heart. I got out and confronted Lea about a few things and well, I sorta confessed my feelings and then she told me about you...about your feelings and all that. To make sure, we went back to the studio and watched the recording of your interview. I couldn't believe my eyes...you were so insecure, and sweet and I couldn't believe that you truly felt this way..it was so hard to believe. How could someone love me that deeply? It was hard to believe, so so hard...because I never felt this loved."

When I looked up, Cassandra's face mimicked mine, we both had tears coming down our face. She looked at me and her eyes were shining. I had no idea what she was thinking, all I knew was that I would've given a fortune to know what was going on in her mind. Until she snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Yes."

"Yes what?" I was completely confused.

"I forgive you..I actually forgave you a long time ago Naya..I just didn't want to get more attached, I thought you hated me and it was getting hard because all I wanted to do was hug you and cuddle with you, hold your hand and kiss you..but I couldn't. My feelings for you were getting out of control so I decided to switch roles and become cold. I never thought it would be possible that you...out of all people...would give me such a deep speech, especially to tell me that YOU, Naya perfect Rivera, my gorgeous idol, has feelings for me."

And with that I started sobbing uncontrolably. She forgave me. She has deep feelings for me. She doesn't hate me. She wants to kiss me and hold me and cuddle with me. Before I could come up with something to say, she comes over to my side and sits on my lap, snuggling into my neck. She looked up to me and hugged me as tightly as ever, caressing my hair. She was whispering soothing words in my ears, telling me it's gonna be okay. We stayed like that for a while before I felt her body shake silently. I lidted her chin up to see tears flowing.

"What's wrong Cass? Why are you crying?"

She snuggled back into my chest and her words got muffled by her tears and the fact that she was hiding herself in me.

"What was that love?"

"I'm scared." she barely whispered.

"Of what baby?"

"Of the day you'll realize I'm not good enough for you and you'll find someone better..."

I held her tight, bringer her even closer to me if that was possible. My baby was so increibly insecure, we had to work on that.

"Oh sweetie, that day won't happen. I know you're the only one for me, I could feel it deep down in my bones, you have nothing to worry about."

I kissed her forhead and she held me by my shirt, not letting go. I looked down and saw her look at me with her eyes shining, I was the happiest woman alive. She had that light in her eyes, the one that disappeared a while ago, it seemed like she was brought back to life. And I wasn't gonna let anyone take that brightness away from her. I made a mission to myself, I will stay by her side and make her as happy as she makes me.

"I got you baby girl, I got you." I mumbled into her hair and with that, we fell alseep peacefully on her couch, her sitting in my lap and me holding onto her.

This was how my life was supposed to be.

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Wouhouuu! Part 2 is done!
Okay so today I was super sick all day and had absolutely no motivation to write but I did end up writing a big update, which I'm quite proud of. I didn't think I'd be able to get such an emotional roller coaster done, I LOVED writing this part because I got to include a lot of emotions and i love putting that and there was some fluff which was super cute, in my opinion ahah! So umm, I hope you'll enjoy this part as much as I enjoyed writing it, and that this story is interesting enough. Sometimes I feel like it's terrible :\

Anyways, stay strong guys, if you ever need me, I'm here & well good luck to those of you who have exams coming up, rock them! ;)

Love youus

-L