A/N: OK, now we're in for a major turn in events. Brace yourselves, haha.

CHAPTER 20

Killua walked back to his spot next to Hayuri after receiving his own pin. He looked at her with a raised eyebrow and wondered what was up with her. When his name had been called, she had tensed for a second. When he walked back down and another trainee was called up, he discretely looked at her for a couple seconds, but she had an impassive poker face. Her eyes however were intently looking downwards, as if in deep thought. In the end, he gave up trying to figure her out, and went back to his own thoughts. He was now an official royal guard and, in five days, the successor of the throne would be elected. In five more days, he would kill him and finish his job. He would finally earn his father's praise and be elected as the heir to the family business. However, somehow right now that thought didn't seem as motivating as it used to. He definitely wouldn't be able to see much of Hayuri is that was the case.

When all of the trainees had gone up, the royal guard head walked to the center of the platform and spoke with a strong voice.

"From now on you are official royal guards. I congratulate you all. Please enjoy the rest of the evening, since tomorrow morning your duties will start early."

"Yes, sir!" Everyone answered.

He walked back down and towards a side door on the room. When he closed the door behind him, everyone scattered around and resumed their previous activities.

Killua turned to look at Hayuri, who was still burning holes into the floor. He wondered what had her so caught up.

"Hayuri?" He said, but she didn't seem to listen. He took a step toward her and shook her shoulder a bit. "Haaayuuuriii."

"Huh?" She said as she finally looked up to meet Killua's eyes. "What?"

"I've been calling you for a while you know?" He frowned. "What's up with you?"

"Oh, nothing much. I'll tell you about it later." She said waving him off. Killua noticed, however, that her expression and her shoulders looked a little more tense than usual. She was usually relaxed, even during missions, so she tense body language meant that probably something big was up. She turned around to walk away, but Killua held her wrist.

"I know you too well, you can't lie to me. I can tell that there's something important on your mind. Can I know what it is?"

Hayuri stood still for a moment and turned to look at him over her shoulder. She softly smiled and nodded.

"Of course. I'll tell you about it, but not here. Come on, follow me."

Hayuri started walking and Killua took a couple long strides to walk next to her. He followed her out of the hall and was about to stop, but noticed that she kept on walking. She led him out of the building and into the garden. Killua turned to curiously look at her and wondered what the hell was so important that they needed to exit the building. Hayuri and Killua walked down the garden and soon got to the dormitory wing. He was taken aback when he found himself in front of the door to Hayuri's room.

"Well, this must be pretty important if we had to walk a whole ten minutes to your room."

"Yeah." She said as she took out her keys and opened up. Killua followed her inside and walked to a wall on the furthest side. He leaned on it and watched as Hayuri walked closer to him. She took short and slow steps, as if trying to delay her arrival. When she finally stopped walking she was a mere meter away from him. Killua waited for her to speak, but after a whole minute of silence he decided to break it.

"Hey... if you don't want to talk now, we can always talk some other time."

"There... there probably won't be another time." She muttered almost inaudibly, but he heard her anyways.

"What do you mean? Hadn't we established that we would keep contact no matter what?"

"I... don't know if I will get out of this one alive." She said and her voice almost broke.

"What!" Killua widened his eyes. He straightened up and took hold of Hayuri's arm. "Yesterday everything seemed to be all right with your job. What changed?"

"I... I cannot tell you." She looked sideways.

"You're pretty strong. What kind of job would be such a danger to you? Why don't you just turn it down?"

"I... I can't do that now." Hayuri said and a tear rolled down her cheek. "I wish I could just forget all about it and stay here, but I can't. You apparently have been through the same before, so you should understand what my situation."

"I... I do understand." Killua wiped a couple tears off her face. "But this doesn't sound like you at all. What about all those 'make your own choices' ideals?"

"I am choosing this." She locked eyes with him.

"So... you're willingly putting your life on the line?!" Killua raised his voice. "What for? A good pay?"

"A can't answer that now. Please, don't ask any more questions. Don't try to change my mind." Hayuri looked away from him and to the ground.

"I..." Killua was at a loss of words. What could he say to her? Was there anything that he could do? Did he even have a moral right to question her decision, when he would've chosen the same as she had? Killua rubbed his temple to calm down and sighed. "All right. I can't force you to anything, much less quit this job... but Hayuri." He said as he put his hands on her shoulders and his sapphire orbs locked with her green ones. "Promise me you won't die. Promise that I'll see you again."

"I will do my best. That I can promise." She softly smiled.

Killua bit his lip and pulled her closer to him, hugging her tightly. She held him and, after a good minute or two, she pulled back until she was two palms away from him.

"There is more" She quietly said.

"Tell me."

"I... there's something I wanted to ask of you before I left."

"Just tell me what it is, I'll do it."

"First, there's something that you should know."

"Yeah?"

"I..." she started. "For a long time I have thought of you as a dear friend. My best and only one. However..." she trailed off and Killua frowned in slight worry. "However... something happened along the way. First of all, I noticed that you meant more to me than anyone else. Also, I... I started feeling things that I should not have felt towards a friend."

Killua's eyes widened and his heart started racing a thousand miles per hour. Hayuri fidgeted a bit and then continued.

"I started feeling attracted to you, and it only grew stronger in time. I tried to fight it for a while... but it was futile. I missed you each moment when you were not around and was immensely happy when you were." Hayuri stopped for a moment and looked at Killua. At that moment, the meaning of her words dawned on him and he felt heat build on his face. And on his gut. "I... I'm in love with you, Killua. I really am."

Killua had to lie back on the wall to offer some sort of support to his body. That had been a truly blunt confession. Killua didn't even get to think about an answer, because she spoke again. "You don't have to answer if you're not sure. Do you still want to know what my request is?"

"Tell me." Killua nodded and, somehow, managed to speak clearly.

"I have dreamt about you in ways that I would be too embarrassed to admit, but somehow the thought of never seeing you again prevents from it. I thought about you when I was alone at night. Therefore, what I wanted to ask of you is... would you..." she stopped midsentence, since she had the urge to cover her blushing face.

Killua felt as though boiling water had been thrown over him and stood there in shock. HOW THE HELL WAS HE SUPPOSED TO ANSWER THAT? Ok, he had truly learned a lot about social skills since he had met her, but this was on a whole other level. His mind was a twirl of thoughts about his mission, his family, Hayuri and sex. He was trying to put them in order, but their flushed faces were so close that he could not concentrate properly.

Over a minute had passed in which Killua hadn't managed to do anything but panic. Hayuri's sighed and her eyes looked away from him. She was about to turn away, when Killua's arms held her arm to keep her in place. She looked at him again and saw his eyes shining with intent. Just fuck it all.

"I know what you mean. I wish I could make a logical decision, but it always seems so hard for me to be rational when you're around." Killua laughed softly.

Hayuri smiled in an almost shy manner and he raised his hands slowly. As he did, he caressed the length of Hayuri's arms until they found her neck. She closed his eyes as she felt the soft trailing of his fingertips on her neck and nape. One of his hands finally cupped her cheek and she opened her eyes to meet Killua's blue ones. He had moved closer, and she could feel his breath on her face. Hayuri closer her eyes and leaned forward a bit until her lips softly brushed his. Both felt electricity running through their bodies. They lips softly brushed against each other for a while, and Hayuri's hand went up to the back of his head. She pulled him closer to her and kissed him for real. Their kissing went on, slowly becoming more heated.

Killua moved a hand to her waist and pulled her body to him as their tongues met. He had always despised kissing - even when watching porn - but this was damn surreal to him; he had never imagined how good it would feel. Suddenly, Hayuri broke the kiss and moved to lick down his neck. He growled when she sucked on his earlobe and trailed his hands over her back. Hayuri tilted her head to kiss his shoulder, and Killua buried his head on her neck as well, kissing and softly biting her.

"Killua..." Hayuri spoke his name in a soft voice that made his body tingle. He held her shoulders and turned them around, now pushing her against the wall. He kissed her neck and shoulders desperately as he felt his arousal grow.

Hayuri closed her eyes as she allowed him access to her neck, relishing the sensations that he was making her feel. She embraced him and his hands moved up to caress her breasts over her dress. She took a deep breath in and sighed in delight, moving a little backwards. Killua moved back and looked into her eyes. His hands trailed to her back and pulled the zipper down. His hands touched the length of her back as he did and she shivered. Before he could do anything more, Hayuri held the hem of his shirt and started pulling it over his head. He raised his arms until she has removed it and then immediately crashed his lips on hers. She kissed him with passion as her hands touched his bare chest, shoulders and back.

"Damn you, you're hot." She said into the kiss and Killua smirked. Before she knew what was happening, his hands had slid her dress off her shoulders and it fell down to the floor.

He broke the kiss and looked at her almost naked form for a couple seconds. She only wore plain red panties and bra and the usual black leather straps on her thighs. She was about to feel overly self-conscious, but he held her arms over her head and looked into her eyes.

"You're beautiful." He said and flushed his body to hers. He turned his head and spoke into her ear. "But I already told you that earlier, didn't I?"

Hayuri felt heat spread through her body at that moment. First of all, the feel of his bare skin against her own was amazing. Secondly, their bodies were completely pressed against each other and she could feel his erection practically between her legs.

"I can tell." She whispered and slightly moved her hips to make a point. Killua hissed and he let go of her hands to hold her waist. His mouth licked her collar bone down to the visible part of her breast. His hands went to her back and tried to unclasp her bra a couple times, but failing miserably.

"Let me give you a hand with that." Hayuri lightly laughed and her bra came off at once.

Killua looked at her for a moment and went back to kissing her, slowly circling closer to her nipples. When he licked it, Hayuri took a sharp breath in and he took it as a good sign. He kissed, licked and sucked one breast and then moved to the other one. Hayuri was barely making any noise, but as little as it was, it was driving him insane.

Suddenly, Hayuri pushed him back and he looked at her in wonder. She crashed her lips on his and their tongues started twirling around each other once again. Killua felt as she firmly held his face, the almost rough manner making him smirk. She tilted his head to the side to kiss and bite him softly, which sent shivers down his spine. After a while, Killua moved his hand down to her hip and trailed it softly to in between her legs. Hayuri had to stop what she was doing on his neck, her mind unable to focus on anything besides how close his hand was to her core.

They locked eyes and Killua moved his head closer to her. However, he didn't kiss her, and breathed the same air as she did as his right hand moved inside her underwear. He slowly allowed his hand to go down and was astonished at how wet she was; her panties were completely soaked. The thought that it was he who made her feel like that made him feel almost proud.

"Damn, Hayuri." He whispered and swiftly turned her around, so that she was facing the wall and he was hugging her from behind. He slowly slid a finger into her folds and he watched her close her eyes in delight. He moved it back and forth a couple times, making her slightly tilt her head back and part her lips. For a brief moment, his mind unexpectedly went back to a book he had once read. It stated that most women only reached orgasm through clit stimulation. Since he had no real experience in this stuff, he wasn't taking any chances. He closed his eyes and moved his finger once again, feeling her soft skin. After sometime, he noticed a small mound, which apparently hadn't been there before. He rubbed it and watched Hayuri crease her eyebrow and gasp. Bingo.

Hayuri felt Killua start touching her and she almost lost her footing. Thankfully he was holding her against the wall, or she might've fallen to the ground. She had touched herself while thinking of him many times, but she had never imagined that the knowledge that it was him would make it so much better. She partly opened her eyes and saw that Killua's chin was resting on her shoulder, his face one palm away from her own. His catlike eyes shone with desire as he looked down at her face intently. If she had been able to think at all, she would've wondered what kind of expression she was making.

Killua stared at Hayuri's flushed face; lips parted and half lidded eyes. Her practical hairdo was messy and her head was leaning against the wall. He had never imagined she would look like this. Even in his dreams, he had never viewed her like this. She was incredibly attractive; her green eyes casting some sort spell on him, demanding that him to give her pleasure.

As he held her weight from falling down, he felt her body move slightly. He watched as her eyebrows slowly creased and her body tensed. He wondered for a moment if she was in pain, but he was soon proved wrong. She flung her head backwards and opened her mouth, making her neck arch almost artistically. As one of Killua's hands was holding her up from her lower stomach, so he was able to feel her belly tremble and pulsate as she hit her orgasm.

"A-aaaaahhh..." she moaned. She opened her eyes as she panted, immediately meeting Killua's ones.

"Come." He said after a couple seconds and pulled her towards the bed.

Hayuri followed him and, before he even got there, she took hold of his boxers. She slowly slid them down, allowing his member to rise in all its length. She lay on the bed and pulled him along. As she lay next to him, she took hold of his dick and slowly pumped it up and down. She watched as he closed his eyes and licked his lips. She kissed his chest and neck as she touched him.

Killua closed his eyes and was almost lost in the feeling of her hand doing him. However, after a couple minutes, he noticed that he was getting closer to his climax. This may be the only time they ever got to be like this, so he was certainly not going to finish now. He held her hand, stopping her, and she turned to look at him.

"Should I do it differently?"

"No, I just don't want this to end yet."

Killua turned on his side and spooned Hayuri. He held one of her legs and bent it, successfully parting her legs. He moved his hand to her core once again and she turned her head is surprise.

"Again?"

"Don't you want to?"

"Well…I do" she blushed at the statement. "What I mean is, shouldn't we already..." she trailed off as he slid a finger inside of her once again.

"Let me do this one more time." Killua said kissing her neck and she nodded. He moved both hands in between her legs and, after stimulating her clit for a while, he slid a finger into her. She was hot and tight, and Killua felt his own member twitch in anticipation.

Hayuri felt one of Killua's fingers enter her and start pumping in and out, while he rubbed her clit with his other hand one. She was too caught in pleasure, so she didn't notice when he slid a second one inside. When he slid a third one inside, she felt a little too stretched and frowned. However, she decided to relax and, after a while, she got used to it. Slowly, the feeling got good and she decided that the rubbing on her insides were starting to get pleasurable. As he did this and rubbed her clit, Hayuri felt another wave of heat hit her.

Killua looked at Hayuri as she closed her eyes softly and he assumed she was nearing orgasm again. He moved his hips closer to her core and touched her wetness with his member. The moment her face contorted in pleasure and she moaned, he slid his member inside of her and he had to also moan loudly. She was hot and wet and her walls were squeezing him rhythmically as she reached orgasm. In order to not cum right away, Killua had to close his eyes and concentrate as she rode her climax.

When Hayuri's mind was clear again she was surprised to find that Killua already was inside or her. Wasn't that supposed to hurt or something? She discarded her thoughts and moved a hand behind her. She grabbed Killua's ass and pulled him further inside of her, while moving her hips a bit for better access.

"Ahh, damn it." He hissed in pleasure as she turned her head and looked into his eyes. They locked eyes and started slowly moving against each other. Killua spoke again as his nose brushed against hers. "Hey, Hayuri… touch yourself." she widened her eyes at that and he nodded. "I'd like to see that."

Hayuri slid a hand down to her core and she started rubbing her clit on the same rhythm at which they were moving. At first, she felt a little self-conscious, but every thought was soon forgotten. The combination of her knowledge of her own body and Killua pumping in and out of her, brought her to another orgasm in no time.

"Aaaaahhhhhhh!" She moaned a little louder than the previous times. Hayuri took hold of Killua's arms and pulled him, so that he was kneeling between her legs. She raised her legs and put her knees over his shoulders. Killua held her hips and entered her with a little more force, which seemed to hit somewhere good inside of her.

"Ah!" She yelped. "Do that again!"

Killua started repeatedly thrusting into her harder than before. From this point of view, he was now able to look down at where they were joined. Also, he could see her flushed face as she moaned quietly every time he hit her insides. Killua faintly noticed that the straps on her thighs were still on and had to smirk at the fetish look she had.

At some point, Hayuri pushed him away and made him sit down on the bed. She moved to sit on him and put his member inside of her again. As they started moving once more, their tongues twirled around each other as their bodies pressed against each other. Hayuri broke the kiss and slightly bit Killua's shoulder and he growled.

"Do you like this?" She asked into his ear.

"I do." Killua said as the thrust deeper into her and she moaned into his neck. She kissed, licked and bit on his shoulder, and it would soon send him over the edge.

Killua felt Hayuri tightly entwine her hands with his, as he came to his own orgasm and moaned into her shoulder. Through his still clouded mind, he faintly noticed one of her hands quickly move behind him and retreat back. She immediately jumped off the bed and put on her dress and panties in 5 seconds. He was about to open his mouth and ask why she was in such a hurry, but he noticed that his hands were tied behind his back.

"Hey, Hayuri." He said as he regained his breath. "Do you have some sort of fetish that I should know about?"

Hayuri walked to him with a serious face and Killua got a sinking feeling in his gut. She moved her hand to touch him and he noticed her nen swirl to hatsu. He widened his eyes as he felt his body freeze for a couple seconds, unable to move due to her ability. He watched with confusion as she dressed him with his boxers and pants. He noticed that the handcuffs holding his wrists together were draining his nen, forcing him into zetsu mode. Killua frowned and opened his mouth to question her actions, but suddenly the window was flung open. Three nen users jumped through the window and surrounded them. Killua cursed, noticing that the three of them were almost as strong as his brother Illumi. The next words Killua heard were like a bucket of ice on his body.

"Ahhh, Hayuri. I can't believe you actually caught the Zoldyck brat on your own."

A/N: OMG, nooo treason! Hayurii! Drama incoming. What did you think of this chapter? Was the lemon all right? What do you think about this last turn of events?