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13. Slow
If someone had told Dean that he would be making out with his friend – his best male friend – then he would have punched their lights out. But that was exactly what he was doing now! They were in their room and Dean was straddling the angel – just because Cas didn't have his grace didn't mean he wasn't still an angel to Dean – while he aggressively attacked Cas' mouth. Dean didn't know what Cas was thinking but he could feel that Cas seemed to be enjoying it. No, really. He could literally feel it against his thigh!
"Dean," Cas panted when they separated for air. The sound just turned Dean on even more and he dived back down and nipped at Cas' lip. The angel let out a small mewling sound and Dean took the opportunity to shove his tongue into Cas' mouth. His hips involuntarily ground against Cas', making Cas buck with a groan. He planted his palm on Dean's chest and pushed, so Dean grumpily pulled away and sat up, breathing heavily.
"What's up, Cas?" he said, cheeks burning and heart pounding. "Did I hurt you?"
"No," Cas said. Dean leaned in again but Cas held out his hand. "I just – I feel that we are going too fast."
Dean struggled to think through the haze in his mind.
"Too fast? What're you talking about, Cas?" he said. Cas wriggled, so Dean reluctantly got off him and let him sit up.
"This is a very pleasurable activity," Cas said. "I enjoy it immensely. Kissing is very fun, especially as passionately as we were just doing. But…I think I would prefer it if we went slower. I don't think I'm ready yet, especially after what happened last time I had intercourse."
Dean was disappointed and so was Dean Jr. But this wasn't just some fling like in the past, where he could screw and leave with no feelings attached. He loved Cas, even if he wouldn't explicitly say that word out loud yet, and he wanted Cas to be happy and have just as much fun as him. If Cas wanted to take it slow then they would take it slow. Cas seemed to be reading his mind because he smiled softly and caressed Dean's face.
"I love you, Dean," he said. "And I would like nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with you. But we have a lifetime. We can be as slow as we like because I do not plan on leaving you."
"It's cool, Cas," Dean said. "We'll take it slow. I dunno if I'm ready to – you know – yet. I'm still getting used to being with a dude."
God, were they really talking about this?
"We have all the time in the world, Dean," Cas said. "However, I very much enjoy kissing you. Do you think we could do that again?"
Dean grinned evilly and pounced on his angel.