Thanks for the reviews, hope you like this, it's the flashback on how Olivia dealt with being pregnant. Not much Fitz in here.
August 25, 2013 – 1:30 a.m.
Olivia POV
The taste of his kiss, mint toothpaste on her tongue, the scent of him surrounded her. In the dark, their hands and lips whispered over each other's skin, exploring and mapping each other out. They came together in a culmination of passion. It had been over 10 years since the last time she had a man inside her.
With Fitz's first thrust, she hissed in pain, it was like being a virgin again.
"Liv," he froze and looked into her eyes.
"I haven't been with anyone since you," she looked up at him, he could see tears shining in her eyes. "I missed you so much," her voice was laden with emotion, her arms wrapped around him, holding him closer.
"I love you," his husky growl made her cry, happiness flooding through her. For the first time in 10 years, it felt like a ray of sunshine was finally shining on her. She had lived in the darkness for so long.
"I love you too," she echoed, leaning up, fingers in his curly hair, she brought their lips together and it was existence. Life in its simplest form, to be with someone else, to exist with them.
Happiness.
They lay wrapped together in the aftermath, "Tell me about how you managed when you found you were pregnant," Fitz said softly, his lips touching her hair ever so gently. He was never letting her go again.
Flashback
Dec 17, 2003 - Olivia POV
School had been tough this semester, she had had morning sickness strangely in the evening which was good for her school schedule, not good for her study schedule. She had also started wearing looser clothes, anything that would hide her growing bump and was more comfortable.
She had made one friend over here, her name was Nancy Walker. She had met Nancy in her Psych 101 class, Nancy was a year ahead of her, majoring in Economics. She wanted to be a lawyer or something to do with Economics.
Nancy had invited Olivia to spend Christmas holidays with her family in London. Olivia had accepted, not really wanting to spend her last Christmas before her son was born being alone. She had found out at her last appointment that she was having a boy.
She was excited, but so nervous, if he was born before the end of April, she had no idea where she was going to live or what she was going to do. Her father was still paying for her room and board and there had been no further communication between them since their phone call in September. She assumed she was to get a job.
She had no money of her own, she had called her grandmother last week for the first time and had spent most of the 30 minute phone call crying. She had feared that her grandmother would blame her for not standing up to her father.
"Child, my son is a monster, I don't know what made him that way, I can only imagine the pain you are in and going through, my heart bleeds for you," her grandma had said over the phone line.
"How is Fitz?" Olivia had cried over the phone line, she knew she wasn't supposed to ask about him, but she couldn't help herself.
"He went to Yale, he was heartbroken after your father made you leave, he didn't understand but I explained and he was adamant about coming to get you, but I told him he would be putting both of you at risk," her grandma explained.
"Is it wrong that I pray for his death every night so that I may go back to Fitz?" she asked her grandma.
"No child, you just want to be happy, your father has done a terrible thing to keep you two apart, one day you will be together," her grandma reassured her.
"I hope so," Olivia cried over the phone and listened to her grandma update her on other things going on in her life. She didn't tell her grandma she was pregnant.
February 24, 2004
Olivia was starting to really pop, her belly felt huge, sometimes she didn't have the strength to get out of bed, but she thought of Fitz every day and that gave her the push she needed.
Nancy had come by her dorm and brought pickles with whipped cream, it was her newest craving. Some of the thing she'd been eating, had made her want to gag, but the baby wanted them and so she ate them. Her appointments with the obstetrician were going well, she was progressing at a normal rate for developing as was Fitz Jr.
Nancy lived off campus in a 2 bedroom, 2 bathroom condo that her parents had bought her for when she started college. She didn't have a roommate and she kept bugging Olivia to move in with her, but Olivia kept saying no.
She was thinking about saying yes, it was getting harder to walk up the stairs and the students on her floor knew she was pregnant, they gave her sympathetic looks, no one approached her, she hadn't made any attempt to make any other friends. Nancy was her only friend and also her birth partner that came to birthing classes with her and would be coming into the delivery room with her.
Rolling over onto her side, she looked at her yearbook and at the pictures of Fitz, her favorite one was of him in his grad picture. He was so gorgeous, her fingers traced the lines of his face. Her other hand held her belly, tears started to fill her eyes, his picture grew blurry.
"Fitz," she cried out brokenly in the dark desolateness of the room. She cried herself to sleep.
April 29, 2004 – 4:06pm
Olivia was now feeling like a beached whale, her doctor had put her on bedrest a month ago. Her blood pressure was too high and he wanted to monitor it and get it lowered. She had moved in with Nancy just under two months ago. Nancy had been so great, between studying for her classes and helping Olivia by being her birth partner.
Her stomach tightened and Olivia grimaced in pain, it passed and she settled back against the couch. She was watching the latest episode of Gilmore Girls.
Nancy was in the kitchen making tacos for dinner. Another contraction came and Olivia grimaced, bracing herself against the couch.
Nancy entered the room and rushed over to Olivia, "Is it time?" she asked.
"I think I'm having contractions," Olivia said. Nancy helped her up. "Let's go, better to safe than sorry," she said and grabbed Olivia's hospital bag.
They made it to the hospital, Olivia's water broke as they entered the hospital, another contraction came and Olivia bore down as she had learned in class.
April 30, 2004 – 6:26 a.m.
Olivia pushed and screamed her way through another contraction, "He's out," the doctor announced, a lusty wail from Fitz Jr made Olivia start to cry. She wished Fitz was here.
As Fitz Jr was put on her breast, she looked into his blue eyes and she fell in love. "I love you Fitz Jr and one day you will meet your daddy," the nurse swaddled him and then lay him back into Olivia's arms.
Next chapter will feature Fitz and Fitz Jr meeting.