Anna was aware of what she was doing, she knew that doing drugs was not good and she doesn't think she was addicted to them either but she just loves the feeling of being high. She was happy during those moments and it felt like the pain she was living from the loss of her parents just disappears.

So there she was again, at the bleachers with Aurora and Snow, getting a little high and talking about all and nothing.

'' I'm flying high, defying gravity. '' Aurora giggled, leaning her head on Anna's shoulder and handed her the joint.

'' Wicked much. '' Snow said, rolling her stick between her fingers.

'' I saw the musical in Broadway, I love Elphaba. '' Anna giggled. '' She's green. ''

'' I love green. '' the blonde mumbled with a yawn.

'' Are you're always sleepy? '' Anna chuckled, examining the joint in her hand.

'' Nah, it's just that my nights are quite agitated with Phillip lately. He is a real God. ''

'' Eww gross, shut up! '' She groaned.

'' Virgin ears. ''

'' I said shut up! ''

'' Sooo... '' Snow interrupted the two girls and adressed to the strawberry blonde girl next to her '' There's this party Adam is throwing friday night.''

'' Again? ''

'' Yep and everyone is invited. Wanna come? ''

A party. With drinking and no thinking. That could be fun. In fact, everthing that could help her to get Elsa off her mind was welcome with open arms, so without a second thought, she agreeds.

'' Hell why not? '' Anna grins, figuring that she could have some fun. Truth be told, It was another treatment to forget about all the pain she still felt. '' But I don't think my sister will allow me to go. ''

'' Do you always listen to the Snow queen? '' Aurora snorted.

'' Well she's still my big sister. ''

'' Anyway, it's not like she has to know '' Snow said already coming up with an idea in her head '' You say you have a sleepover at my house and that's it. No one will find out. My parents are out of town. ''

'' I like the idea. '' Anna nodded in agreement '' Definitely going to work. ''

'' So you're in Arendelle? ''

'' Sure. '' Anna nodded as she finished her smoke.

'' Oh and tonight we're going to Oaken play bowling, wanna come? ''

'' Absolutely. ''

As the bell for the sixth period rang, Elsa and Rapunzel walked down the hallway, both looking for Anna. Elsa received a call from Kai yesterday, telling her that her sister came home early because she didn't feel well. So she decided to check today to see how she was doing.

'' What class does she have now? '' Rapunzel asked.

'' She has science after the pause. I just want to check on her to see if she is okay. ''

'' I'm sure that if she is not feeling well, she will tell you. ''

'' No she won't. '' Elsa replied as they took a turn. '' She never admitted that she was sick whenever she had the flu or got a fever. ''

Rapunzel smiled. '' And what if she is sick? ''

'' I'll have to call her doctor for an appointment. ''

'' I'm really glad that you take your big sister job more seriously... even when you sometimes act like a heartless bitch. ''

Elsa glared at her friend.

'' I mean come on, you have to admit that you always act like you don't care about her. Maybe you should start showing her more of the real Elsa I know. ''

'' It's for her own good Rapunzel. ''

'' Make amend with your past Elsa, her accident was not your fault and pushing her away won't resolve anything. ''

Elsa didn't respond to that. Partially because she didn't want to but also because something caught her attention.

'' Is it? ''

Rapunzel followed her gaze and frowned when she saw what Elsa was looking at.

'' I think it is. ''

There was Anna, at her locker and the girl looked totally fine. Even happy. She was giggling, almost flirtting with a boy. Well she was giggling while the boy was flirting with her.

Wait, is that Adam? The boy was leaning against the locker and he had his hand on her hip.

Seeing red, Elsa walked towards them and slapped the boy's offending hand.

'' Elsa? What are you doing? '' Anna asked startled by her sister's sudden apparition.

The blonde scoffed.

'' What am I doing? Are you serious? ''

'' Well, yes. ''

'' What the hell are you doing with him Anna? '' Elsa scolded and turned her head to glare at Adam. The boy almost cowarded under her icy glare but he held onto what was left of his dignity and stood straight besides Anna.

'' Leave now. '' Rapunzel ordered.

'' It's okay Adam, I can handle 'em '' Anna said not, lifting her eyes off her sister.

The boy nodded and was about to give Anna a kiss on the cheek but he soon realized that he also didn't want to die at the hands of the snow queen today, so he simply walked away, leaving the girls alone.

'' Speak. What were you doing? '' Elsa told her, expecting an answer. A good one.

'' We were talking? '' Anna crossed her arms and shrugged '' You know, when two people share a conversation or joke together. Yeah that's what I was doing, wanna give a try? ''

'' Don't be a smartass with me. ''

'' It's a family thing, don't you have it in you dear sister? I guess it skipped a generation. Too bad. ''

Anna didn't know if it was that thing she smoked earlier that was speaking for her but damn, she couldn't help being sassy. And it felt good, somehow.

'' Anna, he was practially flirting with you and you act all innocent as if nothing happened. ''

'' whoopsie. '' she giggled.

'' Anna, are you alright? '' Rapunzel asked, eyeing her carefully sensing that something was off '' Your eyes are bloodshot. '' she noted.

'' I'm fine Punzie, I'm just tired. '' she lied and looked up at her sister with an innocent smile '' So Elsa, wanna talk? ''

'' Will you tell me what is wrong with you? '' Elsa snarled.

'' Good question, I could ask you the same, you know? ''

'' Aren't you supposed to be in class anyway? ''

'' Ah yes. I forgot to study for the test, so I just skipped '' the girl shrugged as if it was no big deal '' Oh and I love your clothes by the way, where did you get your jeans? Abercrombie and bitch? Sorry I've found that quote on google and it appeared to be the best opportunity to say it. ''

'' What? ''

'' The one who made that quote deserves an award, really. Do you want one too? You could easily get one for your sense of fashion. ''

'' Oh God. '' Rapunzel whispered.

'' Or maybe you could win the award of the big sister in the world. ''

Elsa frowned when Anna giggled. '' This is not funny. ''

'' No it's not. I was only being sarcastic. ''

Rapunzel's eyes went wide and a gasp escaped her lips. Was Anna trying to get Elsa to strangle her? She could almost tell that steams were coming out of Elsa's ears and the blonde was probably imagining different scenarios in her head about how to strangle the girl with her bare hands.

'' I really couldn't help it. '' Anna laughed, spins around and waltz away like a boss. That stick she smoked was a bitch. A real one...

Though, with her back towards them, Rapunzel and Elsa couldn't see the look of sadness that crossed Anna's face. She was tired of being ignored by Elsa but she didn't want to give her sister the pleasure to see her hurt, so she just plays dumb and acts like everything was perfectly fine even though, nothing was right.

Sooner she took another turn and slipped into the bathroom. Making sure that nobody was around, she locked the door, took the razor blade she hided in her bag and lifted the long sleeve of her varsity.

Elsa clenched her jaw with a scowl on her face, obviously angry.

'' Can you believe it? '' Elsa scoffed in disbelief.

'' Actually yes. '' Rapunzel replied, still staring towards the way Anna had just stormed off. She was concerned for the girl's well being, of course, but a part of her was proud of Anna. That would serve Elsa well.

'' what? ''

'' Elsa, you rejected Anna when she needed you the most. What did you expect? You can't push people away and expect them to stay when you need them, things just don't work that way. '' she shook her head.

Elsa didn't have a come back for that, knowing that Rapunzel was being honest and the cherry on top was that she was telling the truth. Ugghh...

'' Good evening Miss Anna '' Gerda gritted the girl as she closed the door of the Mansion.

'' Ah Gerda, do we have any mountain dew left? I'm thirsty. '' Anna asked, walking towards the kitchen.

'' Would a glass of lemonade do? '' The maid asked not really friendly with the drink Anna asked.

'' No duh, I want something that could give me some peps. '' she replied with her head in the fridge '' Ah, found it. I think we'll need to buy some more, there's only one left. ''

'' Dear, thoses drinks are considered as corrosive. You must go slow with them. '' Gerda said, watching as Anna unscrew the bottle of mountain dew and gulped down the liquid like it was water and smiled in relief once she was done.

'' Big words give me headaches Gerda. ''

'' What I mean is that thing you're drinking isn't healthy. ''

'' A few gulps won't kill me. '' Anna rolled her eyes and went to look in one of the drawyers at the island of the kitchen, pulling out differents menus.

'' I'm up for a three cheese pizza or maybe a pepperoni. What do you think Gerda? ''

'' I thought I could make a nice meal with a salad. ''

Anna nodded and continued to look through the menu '' If you want to make something, please suit yourself. Just don't bother yourself for me, I'll order a Basquaise pizza. ''

'' Dear, you ate a pizza two days ago and you haven't eat anything last night. Don't you want something more hefty than a simple pizza. ''

Anna's phone rang announcing she received a text. '' No finally, I'll eat at Oaken. My friend will pick me up. We need to work on a project, I'll be back around ten. '' she said after reading Snow's text.

'' Miss, would't it be bett- ''

'' I'm going to change. ''

Anna quickly said, running to her room and came back a few minutes later wearing a pair of short jeans and a pink long sleeve shirt with black strips. Snow picked her up and they were off to the bowling. They met Adam, Aurora and a few jocks from school there and to her surprise, she had a lot of fun.

She even had a few bottles of beer and a small joint. Her excuse was ' I smoke a joint to get high because this world is so low '. And that, she did. Around ten, she finally got back home, tiptoeing all the way up to her bedroom and giggling at herself when she tripped.

'' Miss Anna? '' Gerda's voice made the girl jump. Anna yelped, stumbling backwards in the process and fell on her butt with a thud.

'' Ow! '' she moaned, looking up at the old maid '' Gerda, tha'ss not hiccup nice... ''

'' Oh dear, it wasn't in my intention to scare you. '' Gerda hurried to her side and helped her up. The undeniable smell of beer made her cringe as she held the girl's waist.

'' Ugghh... '' Anna rubbed her butt with a hand.

'' Oh my God! Have you been drinking young lady? '' she asked once she was sure Anna was steady on her feet.

'' Nosh. '' Another hiccup came from Anna and the girl giggled.

'' Of course you did. '' Gerda sighed, shaking her head.

'' So? '' Anna asked, not really caring if Gerda was happy or not. She wanted to have fun and that's all she cares about.

'' What would your parents say if they see their precious little one that way? ''

Anna frowned at the mention of her parents and it's like everything suddenly came back to her at once. Her parents would be so disappointed and she would probably have a sore bottom at her mother's hand. It was ironic because for the first time, she'd rather want to face the wrath of Idun and her spanking than go back home to a Mansion with no parents.

She misses them and now, even in her state, she couldn't help the feeling of emptiness in her heart. It's so unfair.

'' Why does it matter? '' She mumbled quietly, Gerda could barely hear her. '' They are not here anymore, they can't say anything. ''

'' But this is not a reason to act this way dear, you know better. '' Gerda told her in her usual soft tone.

'' I'll go to bed. '' She finally said, wanting to end the conversation there.

'' Alright but I will have to tell your sister about your little escapade. ''

'' Do whatever you want, I don't care and I don't think Elsa does either. '' Anna shrugged, looking away. '' Goodnight Gerda. ''

'' Goodnight dear, sweet dream. '' The maid replied, watching sadly as the girl walked away and stumbled towards her bedrrom until she was completely out of sight. '' Poor little one. '' she whispered.

Anna had thrown up again before she got ready for bed in the bathroom. She changed into her PJ's and stared at herself in her mirror like she oftenly did lately. Her left wrist was wearing the fresh scars from the cuts she had made ealier that day. She was glad that their coach gave them their new long sleeve lycra top and running pants for the winter season. The top hides her scars which is good, she didn't want anyone to know.

'' What's wrong with you? '' she asked her reflection, it was as if she was staring at a stranger. She couldn't recognize the bubbly Anna in the mirror, all she could see was a stranger in her body. The girl who used to be so full of energy was fading away '' Why are you doing this? ''

'' Because you need this '' Her mind was screaming.

'' I'm better than this '' she told herself but she started to wonder.

Was she?

Granted, her parents would be disappointed, it was wrong but it felt so right. Cutting gives her a new relief, it makes her forget about the pain she felt with the loss of her parents and her sister's rejection but she was afraid that it would become a routine.

'' It's the only way '' came the voice again.

Sighing, she walked out of her bathroom and sat on her bed. On her nightstand, sat a picture frame of her parents. The look in their eyes was full of joy and love, the way they sparkled made her heart ache and warm at the same time. She missed them and everything about them. But she has yet to figure which was the worst.

Missing her death parents or missing someone she sees everyday.

Oh Elsa... Why are you so cold?

Elsa was the biggest mystery, an unfixable puzzle. She keeps acting like she doesn't care about her but Anna could tell her big sister is still there. The protectiveness Elsa had showed in front of Adam was a proof. So why pretending? Ironic Anna thought. If Elsa was really pretending, she wasn't in the good place to judge because she wasn't any better. While she acts like she was fine, she was actually falling appart.

How long will I have to do this? Will it ever stop?

With that last thought, the tired girl turned off the lamp on her nightstand and laid down closing her eyes. It didn take long for her to fall asleep.

Gerda entered the room a few minutes later to check on the girl. Anna was curled up in her bed, fast asleep. The girl looked so peaceful and younger like that and anyone would tell that the little angel was a happy growing girl. It saddened the maid to see that Anna had troubles dealing with her parents' death.

'' Poor thing. '' Gerda whispered and lowered the air conditioner before adjusting the girl's blanket around her. Once she was sure that everything was good, she left the room and went back to her own room to make a call.

One thing sure, Elsa is not going to be happy.

Hatesolstice: Yes I know I made mistakes, I kinda expected that as I mentioned in my profil. I think that English is a wonderful language and I sometimes feel bad that I'm not doing it justice. Two months for learning a new language was a real challenge but I hope I will do better. If you feel like giving me some tips or advices, please do... as for Anna's age, I just needed her younger for the story. Unleash your imagination right?

Anyway thanks to anyone who is reading my story, I know it's not that good which is why I'm surprised that someone is reading it to begin with. I will try to update regularly every week. Don't forget to review okay?

Until next time... peace lovely readers.