And finally, chapter eleven is here. Sorry for the wait, this week was really hard for me with all the things going on in Paris, between trying to stay calm and hoping my friends and family were fine.
Phew...
Anyway, back on the story. I tried to make this chapter longer and there will be a big rollercoaster of emotions for our favorite sisters. WARNING self harming included.
The party was going wild and so were the teens in the house. Red cups filled their hands and people were everywhere, the front yard, the living room, the kitchen, the staircase and also the pool in the back yard. The music was blasting loudly through the speakers and the volume seems to increase with passing hours.
Somewhere in the middle of the crowded living room full of drunken teens, was our famous strawberry blonde haired girl. Anna lost the count of empty red cups she had since she stepped in and just as she finished her vodka, another cup was shoved in her hand.
'' ARENDELLE IS IN THE PLACE! '' A boy from the football team yelled over the loud music as he came from behind her and placed his hands on her waist.
'' HEY! '' Anna turned around and pulled the boy in a crushing hug. She didn't really know him but it didn't matter because tonight, they were friends.
'' YOU'RE HOT! ''
'' WHAT? ''
'' DANCE WITH ME! ''
Smirking, Anna took his hand and pulled the boy closer. Soon they were both dancing and grinding against each other, something Anna would not do if she was sober. Snow and Aurora seem to be having fun too as they were both dancing on the bar.
'' WOOHOOO! T.G.I.F! '' Anna yelled, holding her cup in the air. Everyone copied the girl and raised their cups in the air as well.
'' T.G.I.F! '' They yelled in chorus.
Anna yelped when the boy she was dancing with lifted her up onto the billard to place her on the green mat. The crowd followed them and gathered around.
'' SHOW ME WHAT YOU'VE GOT BABE! ''
'' YEAH! ''
A tall blonde boy pushed his way through the crowd with a loud grunt, cursing at one of the teens that spilled his drink on his shirt. He gritted his teeth when he saw Anna on the billard, swinging her hips in a sensual way while everyone whisthled, obviously enjoying the show.
'' ANNA! GET DOWN NOW! '' He yelled.
'' CHILL MAN. '' A boy said and shoved a red cup into Kristoff's hand.
'' DON'T FUCKING TELL ME TO CHILL! '' Kristoff yelled, shoving the cup back into the boy's hand and returned his attention to Anna.
Elsa was going to kill the girl.
The music was too loud for Anna to hear anything. She just kept dancing and enjoying herself, stretching a hand towards the crowd when she spotted Snow and pulled her up on the mat with her. Adam climbed up too and was soon sandwitched between the girls. Anna snatched a superman snapback from one of the boys in the crowd and placed it on her head.
'' MOVE YOUR HIPS BABE! ''
'' Shit. '' Kristoff cursed under his breath. It's been twenty minutes since he's called Elsa which means she will be here soon.
Indeed, Elsa will be here soon. In fact she was walking- no! she was actually running the short distance from where she left her car to Adam's house. There were just so many cars in the driveway and in front of the house that she had to park somewhere else. Once she was there, she slipped through the open doors. The indeniable strong smell of alcohol and maryjuana made her cringe and the thought of Anna being here horrified her.
She needs to get her sister out of this house and quick.
She walked in and noticed the crowd gathering in what she assumed was the living room. The only lights were the purple light tubes on the walls and she realized that the crowd was surrounding something... or someone?
Three persons were dancing on the billard but one of them immediatly caught her attention. A girl dressed in a white cut off jean shorts that Elsa considered way too short to be wore with a neon pink crop top. She had a pair of leather cow girl boots on her feet, her familiar hair was down, flying freely and wildly in the air as she danced.
'' What the- ''
Elsa gasped when she realized who was the girl. With a loud exaggerated sigh, she walked towards the DJ and ripped his headphones off.
'' HEY! '' The DJ jumped in surprise and spun around to see who is the fucking idiot who ripped his headphones but his eyes widened when he came face to face with an angry looking Elsa.
'' TURN THAT OFF NOW! '' She ordered. He didn't need to be told twice, he immediatly obliged.
'' BOOOO! '' Groans echoed in the house as the music abruptly stops. They all turned to give the DJ a 'what the hell' look.
'' THE FUCK! WHY D'YA STOP DA MUSIC? '' To Elsa's surprise, it was Anna who just spoke. She furrowed her brows and stepped forwards for her sister to see and placed her hands on her hips. The room was suddenly quiet, you could almost hear the crickets outside.
'' Shit Anna, get down. '' Kristoff hissed at the girl but she was too busy freezing on her spot while fixing Elsa with wide eyes.
'' We're doomed. '' Snow gulped.
'' Uh oh. ''
'' Anna? '' Elsa looked at her little sister with an implacable glare.
'' Hi sis' '' Anna giggled, earning a raise of brow from her big sister. She was the only one that doesn't seem to be phased by Elsa's presence nor intimidated.
'' You're doomed. '' Snow corrected herself and jumped down the billard.
Elsa walked towards them, her heels clicking against the floor. People parted automatically to let her pass and the room seems colder suddenly, Kristoff noticed.
Or maybe he was hallucinating...
'' Elsa let me expl- ''
'' Save it. '' Elsa cut Snow off.
'' What the hell! '' Adam snapped, standing by Anna's side. '' You can't come in here and crash my party. ''
Elsa didn't once acknowledged the boy but kept staring at the girl next to him.
'' Anna get down this instant, we're leaving. ''
'' Whassa matter Els? '' Anna slurred her words and placed a hand on Adam to lean on him. '' Ya need ta cool down. ''
'' And you need to get down. ''
'' Uuhh nah I'm fine. '' Anna waved a hand lazily to decline the offer.
'' It was not a request, it's an order. ''
'' Oh I'm soooo scared... '' she rolled her eyes in a mocking way.
Elsa knew Anna was testing her limits but she decided to stay calm and conceal the storm in her head. For now.
'' You have to the count of three to come down. ''
'' Or what? ''
'' One... ''
This sent Anna over the edge and she clumsily got down the billard, stumbling towards her sister. She didn't like the fact that Esa showed up and ruined the party. She was finally having fun and just when she managed to forget about her, she has to face her again. To stare in the coldness emaning from her dark blue orbds, the ones that haunted her even in her dreams.
She hates it.
'' Why are ya here? Why do ya need ta haunt me everywhere? ''
'' I'm here because I care. '' Elsa replied calmly but her tone was firm.
'' No you don't! ''
'' I do. ''
'' Lie! '' Anna pointed an accusing finger in Elsa's chest. She balanced unsteadily on her feet and Kristoff had to hold her in place. '' Lie. '' she repeats quietly.
'' Hey you're okay? '' Kristoff asked.
She shook her head and and shut her eyes tightly to fight the dizziness before opening them again. Tears welled up in her eyes and she hates it even more. She doesn't want to be weak, not now. She should really hate Elsa for playing with her. For every single voice in her head that kills her a little more each day but she just couldn't bring herself to hate her big sister.
Because she loves her. She loves her Elsie and always did... probably always will.
'' I don't feel well. '' Anna whispered, staring at the floor as she uses Kristoff to support herself.
'' Let's go. We will go back to my place. '' Elsa spoke softly. '' We don't have to talk about this tonight. We can talk tomorrow but right now you need to rest. ''
Anna didn't listen to her. She heard Elsa but wasn't paying attention.
Kristoff glanced at Elsa and sighed before sliding one arm under her knees and the other behind her back. He scooped Anna up, allowing the girl to lean her head on his chest. As she closed her eyes, he noticed a tear running down her temple and he wished he could wipe it away but someone else did it for him.
Elsa reached a hand out and used her finger to wipe the single tear away, her own eyes reflecting a hint of sadness in all that anger and maybe regrets but it was gone as soon as it appeared.
She looked up at Kristoff.
'' Can you take her to my car? ''
'' Of course. ''
'' Let's go. '' She nodded.
They walked towards the door and the room soon filled with whispers coming from the remaining people. Elsa almost forgot about them. She stopped at the door and spun around to face Adam.
'' I see you near my sister again and you will regret it. ''
'' Wha- ''
His sentence was cut short by the slam of the door.
When Anna woke up this morning, she found herself laying on an unfamiliar bed in a room she's never been before. Of course, she started to panick at the thought of waking up in a stranger's bed but then the events of the previous night came back, making her pale at the sudden realisation.
She is at Elsa's penthouse.
'' Oh no. '' She muttered, rubbing her face. She really didn't want to wake up at her sister's place with a hangover. She didn't want to wake up here at all.
With a pounding head, she tried to slip out of the bed, planning on sneaking out without her sister's notice if that was possible but her attempt failed as her feet got tangled between the sheets, causing her to trip and fall flatly on the floor.
'' Arggh! '' She moaned, slamming her fists against the floor and kicked her feet in frustration.
'' You look like a toddler making a fuss, you know? '' Elsa walked in the room and grabbed a remote on the nightstand to open the curtains of the large panel windows. '' My floor hasn't done anything to you. ''
'' Close 'em. '' Anna grunted, burrying her face in her arms when the light hits her.
Elsa crossed her arms, glaring down at her sister.
'' Get up and take a shower, you are a huge mess and I don't appreciate the smell of alcohol. ''
'' I'm not staying here. '' Anna mumbled, struggling to stand up. Her legs were weak and she felt dizzy. Suddenly she felt the sickness in her stomach and her face paled slightly.
Elsa noticed this and her eyes widened in horror, knowing what was coming. As fast as she could, she lifted Anna up in her arms, ran into the bathroom and knelt down with the girl in front of the toilet where her sister wasted no time to throw up.
'' See now the consequences. '' The blonde sighed, rubbing Anna's back and held her hair in her hands. The only response she got was a grunt as the girl emptied her stomach. They stayed like this a few minutes before Elsa stood up to get a wet washclothe. She came back, cupping Anna's chin in her hand and tilted her head, proceeding to clean the girl's face and mouth.
'' It's cold. '' Anna whined, moving her head back and forth to avoid the wet towel.
'' Stop fussing, you wouldn't be in this position if you didn't went to a party and got drunk. '' Elsa chastised '' I'm very disappointed in you. ''
Anna frowned and snatched the rag from her sister's hand '' Not that you were proud of me before. You wouldn't have to deal with me if you didn't show up last night. ''
'' You couldn't even stand on your feet. Who knows what would have happened if I didn't show up. What would people think of you and the family? Our last name is respected by the world and it won't change because of my selfish and reckless sister. ''
'' Oh great! '' Anna cheered, her tone sarcastic. '' Now I can add selfish and reckless to my already long list of nicknames. Thank you Elsa, I'm touched. ''
'' We are watched closely by journalists since mama and papa are gone, you will end up on a tabloid? ''
'' Who cares? ''
'' I do. ''
'' Of course, I should have known that you only did this to save the paparazzi some gossips. '' She rolled her eyes.
'' You could be dealing with a severe hangover right now if I didn't get you out of there soo- ''
Meow...
Elsa's ranting was cut short when she felt something rubbing against her leg.
Meow...
Anna blinked at the small sound and tilted her head to the right. There was a big furry white cat by her sister's feet. Again, she blinked and furrowed her brows.
'' You have a cat? ''
Elsa looked down at the 'little' ball of fur and back at Anna. '' Yes, I have a cat and you have a hangover. Now let's get back on the topic. ''
'' Since when you have a cat? ''
'' That's not the point. ''
'' He looks like an oversized marshmallow. '' Anna mumbled, reaching a hand out to pet him but she immediatly took it back when the cat scratched her hand, sinking his claws into her skin.
'' Fuck! '' She cried out, clutching her hand and nursed on the small cut.
'' Language! '' Elsa scolded.
Anna glared at her sister and swatted the cat, sending him sliding a few feet away across the floor. The poor thing screeched and hurried back, snuggling against Elsa's legs.
'' Stupid pet! Your cat is awful and stupid. ''
'' He doesn't like strangers. ''
'' Well, the feeling is mutual. '' Anna mumbled, rubbing her temples and closed her eyes. '' Ugh my head hurts... ''
'' I hope it does, so maybe you will think twice before drinking next time. ''
'' I'd do it again, I don't regret it because I had a lot fun last night. ''
'' I don't regret it, I had fun last night... until you showed up. ''
'' Alcohol poisoning is serious. Getting that much alcohol in your system could've led you to a severe poisoning. ''
'' Are you a doctor or what? ''
'' It's an obvious thing. ''
'' Well duh! ''
'' Anna! ''
'' Look I'm okay, so chill! '' Anna snapped, gripping the edge of the tub and leaned on it to stand up. She felt like crap and a lecture was the last thing she needs right now
Elsa let out a frustrated sigh and shook her head. '' What are you doing? ''
'' I need my phone, I'm going back home. ''
'' No you're not and I had Kristoff to grab your things at Snow's house along with your phone. It's in my purse, you'll have it back later ''
Anna groaned, that sucks.
'' And in case you forgot, we're going to visit the orphans in two hours, so you better get ready, starting with a shower. ''
'' What? No way! It's the weekend, so I'm going back to the mansion and sleep the day away. '' She shook her head, stumbling out of the bathroom to grab her shoes.
Yep, she was going to walk back home if she has to.
Elsa followed her sister out of the room and watched as she roamed around the penthouse, getting more and more frustrated when she realized that she didn't know where she was going.
'' God! Where is that damn exit? Why is this place so huge? '' Anna abruptly spun around, bumping into her sister's chest '' Uggh '' She moaned, pulling away and rubbed her nose.
'' You're not going anywhere Anna! '' Elsa crossed her arms in front of her '' I got Gerda to prepare some clothes and I also got you a decent dress that isn't showing your legs or make you look like a- '' she cuts herself off, not wanting to say the word that was on the tip of her tongue.
Anna rolled her eyes '' I don't have virgin ears Elsa, you can say the word. ''
'' Anyway, either you're taking a shower now or I'm going to give you a bath myself. ''
'' You wouldn't dare '' Anna smirked. There was no way her sister was going to give her a bath, she wouldn't go that far.
'' It's nothing I haven't seen before, I changed your diapers in case you forgot. ''
Anna's cheeks were almost as red as the colour of her hair now. '' That was many many many years ago and don't you dare use it against me. '' she huffed.
'' I'm your big sister and who do you think changed you last night? ''
It was only now, Anna realized that she wasn't wearing the same clothes from the party but her underwear and a black oversized ' I LOVE NY ' shirt that was long enough to reach her knees. She assumed it was Elsa's shirt.
Wait did she see her scars?
Anna quickly glanced at her wrists and noticed that the many wrist bands and bracelets she wore were hiding the cuts. She sighed in relief and glared at Elsa.
'' Still, you can't give me a bath. '' She insisted, crossing her arms and walked away. However the blonde thought otherwise as she pulled Anna towards her and tugged at the hem of her shirt.
'' Fine, I guess I'm gonna bath you myself then. ''
'' Hey! Hey! '' Anna yelped and backed away, panicked at the thought of her sister seeing her scars.
'' I warned you. '' Elsa replied, walking over to her little sister who kept backing away with a look of pure terror on her face. '' Anna you're acting silly, get over here now!''
'' You're the one acting silly, I'm not a baby. I can shower myself! ''
'' Are we going to do it the hard way? '' Elsa raised a brow.
'' No, please don't '' Anna raised her hands in front of her instantly. '' I'm going to take that shower and I'll even put on that stupid dress you got me but please, stop. '' She begged.
Elsa eyed the girl confused when she saw the look on Anna's face, it was as if she has just seen the most horrifying thing in front of her eyes. Nodding, she stepped aside and Anna rushed back into the room almost eager to take a shower.
Anna's POV
I didn't want to be stuck with my sister but here I was in the passenger seat of Elsa's car with my arms crossed, staring outside the window. We left the penthouse after Elsa was sure I ate something and drank a lot of water. Just the sight of food made me sick, partying is amazing but man, the hangover is a real bitch. Of course, I felt better after the shower but I would never admit it because then, Elsa will get all 'I know better' on me.
'' We're here '' Elsa said, pulling her car in front of the orphanage '' let's go '' She patted my leg as she grabbed her purse by my feet.
'' Can't I just sleep in the backseat while you play mother Theresa? '' I asked annoyed that I have to deal with kids in that state. I don't hate kids, in fact love them but I'm so tired.
'' You could sleep if you didn't decide to go to a party and wake up with a hangover. Now get out of that car if you don't want me to drag you there myself. ''
'' You really want to deal with a grumpy sister? I'm not in the mood and I'm no fun when I'm like this, so don't tell me I didn't warn you '' I huffed, unbuckling my seatbelt and climbed out of the car, slamming the door behind.
I was about to walk towards the building but Elsa grabbed my elbow before I could make another step. She bent down to my level and hissed '' You better behave and not do something stupid, do you understand me? ''
'' Crystal clear. '' I snapped through my gritted teeth, yanking my elbow from her grip.
'' And smile. '' she added.
I rolled my eyes at that and followed her as she made her way towards the orphanage. A young woman greeted us at the entrance, so I did as I was told and put on a show. I didn't feel like smiling, it felt weird suddenly. I couldn't understand what was happening with me, smiling was something so natural before but now it's like I was only good at faking it.
'' It's a pleasure to see you again Ms. Arendelle '' The lady, what was her name? Oh yes, Belle. She smiled and shook Elsa's hand.
'' The pleasure is mine. '' My sister replied genuinely with such professionalism. She was always good at that kind of thing. Posture, figure and formalism. Unlike me.
'' Hi litttle one, you must be Anna. ''
I cringed at what Belle called me, I really felt like correcting the lady but the look Elsa gave me was enough to keep me quiet '' Yes '' I nodded keeping that awkward smile on my face.
'' Aw you are so precious dear. '' She gushed over me, pinching my cheeks slightly. I heard Elsa chuckling and I couldn't help but scowl at her once Belle let go of my face.
'' Yes she is. '' She said, shrugging my glare off and turned to look at Belle. She was really mocking me '' So Belle, how are the kids doing? '' Elsa asked as we started to make our way in the building.
'' Ah, they are doing well to my own surprise and they are excited because we're near december and Christmas isn't far. '' Belle explained '' A couple visited two days ago and they decided to adopt the baby we've found one month ago. ''
'' The boy? What was his name again? ''
'' Robin '' Belle said '' and yesterday, Amanda was adopted by another couple which was the most beautiful gift for the girl since it was also her birthday. ''
Wow Elsa was well informed, I wonder if she often visits.
'' This is great. '' Elsa smiled '' I'm so glad to hear that. ''
'' Your mother is the main reason of these children's happiness. She gave them a home and a place to fit in. I think she'd be glad to see the results of the hard work she did. ''
'' If she was alive. '' I mumbled under my breath, fighting the stinging pain in my heart. Everytime our parents were mentioned, I always feel so sad and it's depressing. I hate this feeling.
'' I know she would. '' Elsa replied simply.
We continued to visit the food court along with the indoor playfround for the kids' was a grand garden with swings, slides and two trampolines for the bigger children. The nursery was well equipped, the winnie the pooh stickers on the walls making the room happier. The dorms were large and surprisingly clean, I felt so proud of my mother's achievements.
While my sister talked with the staff, I played with my phone but I quickly got bored and I just wished to have a bed to lay on and sleep. We finally went back to the garden, the children were there, playing and running around happilly.
That just depressed me even more.
'' Are we finished yet? '' I yawned behind the back of my hand as I looked up at my sister.
'' For the fifth time Anna, no! ''
'' But I'm sleepy and they are so loud. My head hurts. '' I complained dramatically. I wanted to get out of here '' Can't you just call Kai and tell him to pick me up? ''
'' No. ''
'' Yes call him now. ''
'' I said no and that's final. You're being difficult, it's ridiculous. '' Elsa scolded me.
'' But I'm tired and I wanna go home now! '' Iinsisted, stomping my foot and crossed my arms.
'' Anna stop this tantrum now! ''
I scoffed.
'' I'm not throwing a tantrum! ''
'' Oh someone is grumpy '' I heard Belle say while looking down at me '' You can take a nap in one of the guest rooms if you want. '' I furrowed my brows and huffed.
'' I'm not grumpy '' I mumbled. '' and I'm not a toddler, I don't need a nap. '' It was a big lie because I was terribly tired and I could feel a headache coming.
'' But you just said you were sleepy. ''
'' Well- ''
'' Belle! Belle! '' I was cut off by a little boy that couldn't be more than eight years old as he came running towards us, giggling as he did so '' Would you read us a story again like yesterday? '' he asked, stopping in front of he woman.
'' Of course I will. '' Belle smiled down at him '' But later today, okay? ''
'' Oh okay. '' He said, slightly disappointed '' Would you at least play with us then? ''
'' I will, '' she nodded '' once I finish talking. I promise. ''
'' You know you shouldn't make promises you can't keep. '' I immediatly kicked myself after the words left my mouth. I never meant to say it out loud, it just came out as a blurt.
Elsa glared at me while Belle looked confused.
'' Excuse me? ''
'' Umm no I was... umm thinking loudly. Yes that's it, don't think before I speak, sometimes I just say silly things. '' I laughed nervously.
'' She tends to do that a lot. '' Elsa joked, patting my head but deep down, I know she wasn't being funny.
'' Oh alright '' Belle smiled.
'' Hi I'm Elsa, what's your name? '' Elsa asked the boy, smiling tenderly at him. I felt a strange feeling when she did that because that was the kind of smile she used to give me when we were kids.
'' David. '' The boy said shyly.
'' David. '' Elsa repeats for good measure, I guess '' I'd like to play with you. Would you like to show me your friends? ''
WHAT ?
David's eyes grew wide with awe and he nodded eagerly, latching onto Elsa's hand. My jaw dropped as I looked at Elsa, stunned.
'' Wait, what? '' I shook my head in confusion '' A kid asked to play and you just give in like that? And on top, it wasn't even to you he asked. ''
Elsa shrugged and turned to look at him '' Well, I'd like to play with David and his friends, you could join us. ''
'' Uh huh. '' David nodded, smiling at me. '' We have swings and slides. Oh and we have a treehouse also but we can't play in it without an adult to watch us. We'd like to swim sometimes but we don't have a pool. ''
Elsa smiled and stood straight. '' Well I think we could arrange that. ''
'' Really? ''
'' Yes. '' she nodded and looked at me. '' So Anna, will you join us? ''
'' Thanks but no thanks '' I replied maybe a bit too harshly than intended but I burried my guilt and glared at Elsa. '' I agreed to come to this stupid visit to say hi and bye, not to playpretend with some kids. ''
'' Anna! ''
'' I'm being honest Elsa, you can't blame me for that. My parents taught me not to lie. '' I wrinkled my nose at the irony because I lied a lot lately but hey, I need something for my defense.
'' You don't want to play? '' David asked. God I feel like the worst person in the whole world right now for being a bitch but I just couldn't help it.
'' No I don't. '' I told him.
That's it. I just won the award of the biggest bitch in the world, congratulations.
'' Maybe Anna will play later. '' Belle said softly, strocking his hair.
'' No! '' I spat in frustration, they don't get it '' I won't play at all. Not now, not ever. Geez, I didn't even want to come here. ''
'' Belle, could you please take David? '' Elsa asked her calmly '' I need to talk with my sister. ''
'' Okay. '' David smiled, placing his hand into Belle's and walked away with the woman. I felt Elsa glaring at me and I glared back, daring her to speak, which she did.
'' What's wrong with you Anna? Why do you always have to ruin everything? The boy was being nice and he only wanted to play, he even invited you. ''
'' Well too bad I don't want to play. And how comes that he only had to ask once to play and you say yes? For years I've been trying to get you to play with me and you never did. ''
'' Because I felt like it. '' She shrugged. I couldn't help the pang of jealousy that took over me. I was jealous of a boy... what the actual hell? '' and seriously, was it necessary to be rude? What were you thinking? ''
'' I wasn't. ''
'' Could you drop the sarcasm for once and be serious? ''
'' Well maybe. '' I shrugged.
'' Stop it! Just stop it! '' Elsa snapped, grabbing my elbow and dragged me away from the children and out of earshot. '' First you act out at school, skip classes, attack Hans and your last achievement, you got drunk at a party. I'm tired of your attitude, why are you acting like this? ''
'' Maybe because this is who I am and if it's not up to your expectations, it's your problem. Not mine! ''
'' I only asked you one thing. To come visit the orphanage with me because that was something mom held dearly to her heart. Every year she would hold a charity ball for the foundation and I thought you could honor that for her but apparently, you don't care. ''
'' I do care but you know I didn't want to come today, you know I wouldn't be easy and you just ignored me like you always do. '' I hissed angrilly.
How dare she say that I don't care. I would help her for the charity ball but why can't she understand that I didn't wish to come today.
'' I'm so disappointed. '' She shook her head
'' I'm sorry I'm not perfect. ''
'' Just when I thought things couldn't get worse, you always surprise me. My bad, what have I done to have a sister like you? ''
'' What's that supposed to mean? ''
'' You're so hard to deal with and handle. You always have to be selfish and screw everything up. My life would be so easy if you- ''
'' Didn't exist ? '' I cut her off.
'' Don't make me say things I didn't say. '' She said in a flat dangerous tone but I just shook my head and let out a sarcastic laught.
'' But this is what you think '' I replied '' I know yout wished that I was dead instead of mama and papa. '' I finally spilled the been.
'' What? '' She gasped and surprisingly, she looked extremely confused to the point I tought she was a good actress.
'' Yes Hans told me everything. At least he had the courage to tell me the truth, unlike you! ''
'' I never EVER said that! ''
'' Stop lying Elsa, just the way you act with me shows how much you despise me. ''
'' Anna stop being stupid. ''
'' Now I'm stupid. Well scratch that, stupid is leaving! '' I turned around to leave the building.
'' No you are not! '' She tried to grab my arm but I backed away.
'' You think you're the only one tired? I'm fed up too Elsa! I have enough of you pushing me away! And now you suddenly need me? ''
'' We're not talking about this now. ''
'' And why not? '' I raised a brow at her '' Afraid that people see that the perfect Arendelle familly wasn't so perfect? Afraid people will find out how screwed up your little sister is? ''
'' I don- ''
'' You shut me out when I needed you the most. You always tell me to leave you alone, so I'm leaving! ''
'' Fine but don't come back crawling once you realize that you are wrong and don't even think about talking to me. ''
'' I know that tape but it's fine. I'd rather have the silent treatment than listen to your hurtful words anyway. I hope you'll be happy when I'm gone. ''
'' What's that supposed to mean? ''
'' I'm done. '' I said the last words.
I knew words could be hurtful but this time was too much. I'm sure that if I was stabbed in the stomach, it would hurt less. Elsa was so cold and I just couldn't handle this feeling of rejection anymore. Don't I deserve to be happy too? I can't handle it anymore. I want the pain to stop. I want it to stop now!
Tears were flowing freely down my face now as I ran and as if it wasn't already unfortunate, I bumped into a man and fell flatly on the pavement.
'' Hey! Watch where you're going. '' The man snapped at me, muttering something under his breath that sounded like 'kids these days'.
'' Sorry '' I apologized, standing on my feet and stumbled backward glancing briefly at the nasty bruises on my knees and elbows. I started to cry harder when the memory of me and my family at the park came back hitting me at full speed.
'' Hey, are you okay? '' The man asked noticing my bloody elbows and my tears. The look of anger, now replaced by a look of concern '' You're bleeding, let me help you. ''
'' No, I'm fine. '' I lied, taking off running again before he could say more.
The mansion wasn't that far, so I ran as fast as I could, only stopping twice to throw up on the sidewalk. I had to slow down a bit when my breathing was getting sharp but it didn't stop me. When I finally arrived home, I ran past a stunned Kai and continued my race upstairs.
I locked myself in my room and immediatly went to look in my closet, shoving my clothes to the side until I found it. I grabbed the joint Adam gave me two days ago, slipped in the bathroom and light it up. It never deceived me before, it always took my pain away and things seemed brighter. It's an illusion but I don't care.
I'm happy at least... for the last time.
A sharp blade shined on the counter and it never looked so inviting, it's just too hard to resist. Impossible to ignore until I felt its' coldness against my skin and I know it will soon end. As I slowly drift away, I think I hear my name repeatedly but maybe I'm dreaming. Maybe it's only in my head.
I don't know.
I don't care.
And that's it! Elsa of course is clueless about what's goin on but not for too long. Let's just hope that she will not be late!
The next chapter is a bit short but I will publish it with the chapter 13, so you'll have two chapters in one day. They will reveal Elsa's true personality and how she truly feels about her sister. Don't miss them!
Please let me know what you think, it's really important to me. Till next time... peace lovely readers.